Last time she drank too much, I didn't see her clearly, and she naturally didn't see me clearly. Gu Lan glanced at me, obviously not caring much about my existence, smiled gently at Li Baitian, and set her eyes on the little boy Erqiuqiu.

She didn't wear makeup today, her eyebrows were very delicate, her facial features were not very three-dimensional, and she was a mediocre-looking woman. And the dress is very plain, this big curly hair, it looks peaceful, maybe just to cater to that kind of sound and lust occasion.

I was like an outsider, no, I was an outsider at the moment, I was standing near the door and watching them, there were other patients in the ward, but everyone lived in their own hospital, and they didn't bother each other.

Qiuqiu called "Mom" to Gu Lan, and my heart trembled slightly, it turned out that this woman already had a child. In my cognition, most of the women who thought they would be young ladies were alone, because they had nothing to worry about, so they could not be responsible for themselves. And at this moment, she changed her identity as a mother, which made my previous bad opinion of her a little lighter.

Li Baitian is right, I don't know people, why do I unilaterally judge something, but my mind has not changed, it is wrong to sell my dignity to be a young lady.

Qiuqiu said, "Mom, I hurt." ”

Gu Lan lifted the quilt and looked down, as if looking at his pain, and said gently, "Qiuqiu is good, the doctor will come over to inject Qiuqiu immediately, and the injection will not hurt." ”

Li Baitian also looked at Qiuqiu with a smile, pretending to be heartless, shaking the toy in his hand and saying, "Qiuqiu, look, what is this?"

Qiuqiu glanced at it and spat out two words uncertainly, "Tank?"

After all, he is only three years old, and he has never seen or recognized many things, and even if he has seen them, he has only seen them in those children's pictorials.

Li Baitian then asked, "Do you know how my uncle turned it into a tank?"

Qiuqiu shook his head and looked at Li Baitian's face, although his eyes were not smart, but he was very sincere. Li Baitian then dismantled the tank again, and made each movement very slowly, slowly, trying to let him see clearly.

Gu Lan was sitting next to her, Qiuqiu glanced at Gu Lan and said, "Mom plays." ”

"Ah," Gu Lan was stunned for a moment, glanced at Li Baitian, took the toy in Li Baitian's hand, put his arm under the nose of the ball, and clumsily disassembled the tank to show the child.

Many times, we only see one side of a person, but a person can actually have many sides, one attitude towards work, one attitude towards family, and another attitude towards strangers.

You think that seeing one side can determine someone's character, but in fact, it is very wishful thinking.

At this time, Gu Lan, who was the mother in front of me, made it impossible for me to overlap her with the young lady who was sitting in the Porsche before, and it seemed that she was not alone. But they are just one person, and although their actions are different, their minds have never been divided.

Li Baitian ignored me all the time, so he asked me to stand here and watch, and the doctor came over with the needle, and lifted the quilt to look at Qiuqiu's body before the injection.

Gu Lan got out of the way, and I saw it clearly. I'm not a medical student, and I've never thought about a picture like this, one that doesn't seem to belong to the human body.

I've seen little boys peeing, and I know what it's like underneath, but the ball is very swollen there, and it's edema caused by illness.

Can it not hurt, I looked at it and felt a twitch in my heart.

The doctor comforted Gu Lan and said, "It's a little bit lower than yesterday, it's okay, let's continue to fight." ”

Then he hung water for Qiuqiu, and he was also very gentle, and Qiuqiu was also very well-behaved. About a child who has been suffering from illness has been unable to avoid the pain of needle pricking.

When the injection was given, Gu Lan completely let go, turned around and looked at me again, still not paying attention. Why should she care, I was just a stranger to her, she probably didn't remember me at all, and she didn't know how much I despised her in my heart.

Maybe even if she knew, she didn't care, couldn't care.

Li Baitian took out an envelope from his clothes and put it in Gu Lan's hand. The envelope was thick, and I guess it must have been money inside.

Li Baitian's voice was relatively low, and I listened with my ears pricked up, and he said: "It's the New Year soon, and I'm not busy lately, so I can't go there." Don't go yet, this money is enough to last for a while, and spend time with the child in the hospital. ”

Gu Lan had a sour smile on her face, but she didn't say thank you, she just put the money away. She couldn't refuse, and even if it was a charity, she had to accept it.

Li Baitian glanced at me, then at Qiuqiu, and said to Gu Lan, "Then I'll leave first, and call me at any time if I have something." ”

Gu Lan nodded, Li Baitian patted his shoulder, turned around and walked in the direction where I was standing.

I just went straight out the door, and when I walked up to the hospital, I didn't speak. We didn't take the elevator because it was crowded, and we should give the elevator out to people who were in a hurry, we weren't in a hurry.

The corridor is very quiet, step by step down the stairs, you can hear the footsteps of people.

I asked, "What's wrong with that kid?"

"Kidney failure. Li Baitian's tone was relatively light.

"How old are you?"

"More than three years old. ”

"That...... Is it his mother?"

Li Baitian nodded, and told me what he knew. He said: "My hometown is in the south, a village, and the medical conditions are not good, so it has been delayed for a while, and there is no way to send it to Beijing. The family has already smashed pots and sold iron, and there are two old people, who were originally here and couldn't afford to live, but my grandfather went back, and now my grandmother and mother are taking care of them here. During the day, Gu Lan watched, her grandmother went out to pick up garbage and ask for food, and at night, Gu Lan went to the sleepless city to sit on 1. ”

"When I met her, I was bullied and touched her, so scared that I didn't dare to say a word, and when I left, I gave a hundred yuan. Drink every day until you vomit, how far from the city that never sleeps to this hospital, you know, come all the way, think about how pitiful. Li Baitian said.

I lowered my head and whispered, "But it's not good for the child, if the child knows that his mother is doing this...... Besides, her own body is torn and broken, how to take care of the child. ”

I just have a hard mouth, because I insist on the so-called morality in my heart, and I don't want to deny it easily.

Li Baitian sneered, stood still and looked at me and asked, "Zhou Wenxue, you are so smart, come, you give her an idea, you tell me what she should do now, if she doesn't do this, what else can she do?"

Li Baitian's expression was very serious, waiting for me to answer. I bowed my head under his gaze, I don't know, I don't know what else she can do, a woman from a mountain village, has no knowledge and no ability, and has to bear expensive medical expenses, I can't think of any other way except for this quick money.

This is on me, there is no one around me who can borrow money, what will I do?

I said, "What about the child's father?"

Li Baitian showed a trace of disdain on his face, "Maybe it's dead?" I don't know, I can't find it anyway, I guess even if I find it, I won't care." ”

Another irresponsible man. I have nothing to say.

Li Baitian said: "I know what you are thinking, and I also know what is good and what is bad, but you also have to know that you have no worries about food and clothing, what you seek is development, and what they seek is survival." People can't even guarantee their survival, you talk to her about morality, what can she do to maintain that little bit of morality? You're a girl now, what happens to you, you go to die, okay, can she die?"

Li Baitian taught me that according to the way we always get along, this is unreasonable. But he has taught me so much that I really can't speak, and I still feel that I don't have any strength, but I can't refute what he said.

Li Baitian said, "Who doesn't want to live only for themselves, not everyone has such a good life." That's all I can help her, I have to talk about business anyway, and I have to find someone to help me drink wine, so it's better to earn her money. I can't change the general environment of this world, and I can guarantee that if I go there once, at least no one will touch her again that night. What about you, how can you help her?"

Li Baitian looked at me with a sparkling gaze, as if questioning. I looked at him and was defeated. I can't help her with anything, and all I can do is to pretend to pay some money when I give love. I can't tell who those loves will be dedicated to in the end.

Li Baitian can't help much, not everyone in this world is in poverty, not everyone can see it. When he sees one, he can only help him within the scope of what he can do, but life is always his own, and we are not saviors, and we cannot completely save anyone from hell.

When you help, you also have to make sure that you don't fall into hell with it. This thing needs a lot of people.

Li Baitian said, "Don't think that you are right in everything, to be realistic, your height is higher than her, what have you done? Isn't it just fate? You are standing in a place higher than others, you don't know what struggles and grievances people have suffered in order to live, you pursue your moral ideals, that is your business, you don't plan to help her, please shut up, don't use your morality to put pressure on them, they don't have the energy to bear it." ”

I still can't refute it, the truth is right, it's just that I'm a girl who has not been deeply involved in the world, a girl who has thought she has been for many years, and I can't accept it for a while.

So I muttered, "How did society become like this?"

"Society?" Li Baitian showed a trace of disdain again, as if he thought I was ridiculous, "Society has always been like this, the earth is still spinning in circles, where there is dawn, there is a place where the sun sets, there is kindness and there is evil." You are qualified now, no one forces you to do what you don't want to do, you can figure yourself out, and you can still shine with the Buddha's light. ”

I think Li Baitian was thinking about me arguing with him because of Gu Lan, and I said, "I'm not also for your good." ”

He took a breath and said patiently again, "I don't have the rules and regulations of yours to make friends, as long as there is something I can like, I can make friends with him." I'll get it if people don't cheat me, this is you, I don't want others to tell him so much. ”