"You pay me back Yuan Ze, you pay me back Yuan Ze......"

I quarreled over these words, woke up in the dark, felt like I was talking in a dream, and closed my mouth, but I didn't open my eyes, and continued to cry, and cryed very well.

Crying until there are no more tears to shed, I suddenly open my eyes and return to reality.

It shouldn't be a nightmare because there were no ghosts, so I didn't feel nervous when I woke up. It's just that I'm weak, because there is a process of asking for help and running away in my dream, and I also know why I am so scared that I can't lift my legs, and when I dream, the more I know that I want to run, the more I can't run.

It turned out to be a dream, but fortunately it was a dream.

But I couldn't comfort myself with this dream, I was still trapped in a kind of psychology of losing Yuan Ze and couldn't extricate myself. I couldn't sleep, and when I thought about this dream, my heart was blocked.

Maybe it was because I was scared and nervous when I went home at night, so I had this dream. Because it's a dream, that's why it's so bloody and imaginative.

I don't think I'm supposed to be too fragile and scared by dreams, but at least I can't sleep now. My mind is full of Yuan Ze, Yuan Ze who is motionless there.

Although this dream is bloody, the logic is very smooth, I was shocked by this powerful logic, there are Liu Shuyu and Li Baitian in it, I haven't even seen Yuan Ze's parents, I can actually dream into it.

People say that they think about it every day and dream at night, but in fact, they will think about it at night and by day, and generally dreaming of a person will trigger a period of longing.

I really wanted to talk to someone, so I finally dialed Yuan Ze's phone.

He was probably asleep, the phone rang and I thought about it, and when I decided not to disturb him, he picked it up, and his voice was indeed not awake, and he was confused, "Hey, who's it?"

"I ......"

"Snow, what's wrong?" his voice changed, presumably trying to pull himself out of his sleepiness and deliberately raise his pitch.

Anyway, people have already woken up, so I'll say at this time that I won't disturb your sleep, doesn't this mean that half of the talk is uncomfortable.

I'll be honest, "I had a dream that you were going to die......"

He chuckled, very warmly, "And now?"

"Now that you're well, I'm relieved...... Alas, do you still dream?" I asked.

I could hear the sound of Yuan Ze drinking water, and he said, "Then you pinch yourself." ”

I really pinched it, it hurt, and I blinked my eyes hard, and it felt very real, and I was more relieved. This broken dream, fortunately, is fake, so if it's true, I really don't know what to do, how devastated.

Yuan Ze was silent, and I asked him, "What are you doing?"

His voice came from the other side of the phone, which seemed to be a little far away, as if he had turned on speakerphone, and said, "Nothing." ”

I didn't want to ask, I heard that he was already energetic, and I really couldn't sleep, so I chatted with him casually, saying that I met two little hooligans tonight, fortunately I ran fast, and I don't know what would happen if I ran slowly, just being teased, or maybe something else.

Yuan Ze spoke to me without saying a word, and his voice was distant for a while, and then returned to his ears and became normal.

I just listened to his movements all the time, but I couldn't tell what kind of movements it was, as if the scene of his speech was constantly changing.

After talking for more than ten minutes, I yawned and said, "I'm sleepy." ”

"Wait," Yuan Ze's breathing was slightly short, "don't sleep yet." ”

I had already retracted into the quilt, the warm quilt in winter would make the sleepiness spread infinitely, and my eyes were closed, "Why?"

Yuan Ze hesitated, "Then it's okay for you to sleep, don't sleep too hard." ”

"Why, you're not coming......"

After that, Yuan Ze didn't say anything to me, and I fell asleep. Ten minutes later, the phone rang again, and Yuan Ze asked me to open the door for him. I pressed my eyelids in the dark, thinking that he had been wearing clothes when he had been on the speakerphone for a while.

I got up to open the door for him, he stood at the door and smiled at me, afraid of making my parents sleep, Yuan Ze changed his shoes lightly and followed me into my room.

Then it was embarrassing, he came, and I couldn't help but sleep. In the middle of the night, it was very cold outside, Yuan Ze even had a cold coat, I wanted to pour him a cup of hot water, he took my hand, sat on my bed and smiled sweetly at me.

This smile completely defeated me.

I sat on the edge of the bed and was pulled into his arms and held in his arms. I didn't shy away from this hug, I wanted to hug him in my dreams, I missed the feeling of hugging, and I still felt this way after waking up.

It feels good that the wish in the dream has been fulfilled in reality.

I said, "You're so cold." ”

According to Yuan Ze's thoughtfulness, I said that he should let go of me if he was cold, but not today. For the first time, I took the initiative to hug him tightly, gently and gently, "Are we together?"

Yuan Ze let me go, looked at my face and asked seriously, "You don't hesitate anymore?"

I also looked at him, "Are you hesitating, if you hesitate, I won't force you." ”

He laughed, kissed me on the forehead, and whispered, "No repentance." ”

No repentance, at least at the moment of my decision, I never thought about repentance. Some people say that they choose between me and the people who love me, and most people choose to love me, which seems a bit selfish and cowardly.

But I believe that most people make this choice because they know that they will one day fall in love with this person who loves them. Just imagine, if this person who loves himself is really unbearable, it really reaches the point where you are very sure that there is no way to love him, and you still won't choose him.

Maybe I don't love Yuan Ze now, but I like him and accept him. I know he'll be very good to me, he's a peaceful person, he knows what he's doing, he's never in a hurry, and by his side, maybe it's boring, but it's definitely stable enough, compared to Li Baitian's words.

When we are young, we always make the mistake of thinking that we are sensible enough and thinking that we have thought twice. And whether those things are a mistake or not depends on how time and encounter will decide, if no one bother, in the long run, the mistake will be right.

Accepting Yuan Ze at this moment, I don't think there's anything wrong with it.

In my family, we definitely can't do anything, and we don't want to be men and women, so of course we have this self-control.

This is the first day of our official relationship, and it is also the first time in my life that I have fallen in love with someone, and I found that falling in love does not require experience at all, it just goes with the flow.

Although I haven't had time to explain to my parents yet, tomorrow my parents will get up and find Yuan Ze here, a little embarrassed, but I still don't recommend Yuan Ze to leave now, after all, it's late, and I'll be afraid that he will be in danger.

I asked him, "Is your life really back?"

Yuan Ze said, "You are also highly educated, do you want to be so superstitious?"

As for superstition, I have a pious view, and I can't say that he has it, nor can I say that he doesn't, but it is enough to have a clear conscience about myself.

I asked, "And how is your mother?"

Yuan Ze said, "I've had an injection, it's fine, I'll go to the hospital to check it out in the next few days to see what's wrong." ”

I was stunned for a moment, and he asked me what was wrong, and I said, "It just feels like this scene is somewhat familiar, as if it had happened before." ”

He laughed.

We often have this feeling in our lives, and suddenly a picture seems to have been played out very realistically in a dream or in the past, this thing is called the sixth sense? or what kind of mess, I don't understand.

Yuan Ze coaxed me to sleep, and then lay on my side on my bed, watching me sleep, I don't know when I fell asleep.

The next day, my parents did find Yuan Ze, and thoughtfully made breakfast for others, Yuan Ze went to eat generously, my mother pulled me aside and asked a few words, what did I say, she was not too worried. The main Yuan Ze is this young man, he likes it.

The only explanation my mother gave me was that if I got along with others, I would be down-to-earth, don't learn from the little ones next door, and I received one after another from the family, which is unreliable.

I nodded.

That day, Yuan Ze finished breakfast, played chess with my dad for a while, asked my dad to kill a piece of armor and didn't leave it, coaxed my dad to be very happy, and then left.

Later, Yuan Ze called and asked me if I wanted to consider going to his house to sit down, and I went to discuss it with my mother, and my mother said that it was okay to go and see it, so I went.

On the day I went, I thought I should always dress up well, and when I looked in the mirror, I saw the necklace around my neck, which Li Baitian personally put on for me, except for taking a bath, I haven't taken it off these days.

But today, I took it off, and I had no intention of touching it again in the desk drawer that I had used since I was a child.

The so-called blind eye can not see Mount Tai, the so-called meeting three loves, Yuan Ze who is now in front of me is more important than Li Baitian in Beijing, and it is much, much more important.

I no longer think about Li Baitian, and I no longer doubt whether I still have feelings for Li Baitian, this is the least respect I have for Yuan Ze.

Because the necklace has been worn, Yuan Ze gets used to it every time he looks at me, and suddenly finds that my neck is very empty, so he asks me why I don't wear a necklace.

I panicked, "It's faded." ”

Yuan Ze probably thought that I was wearing a fake one, and said that he wanted to buy me a real one, but I didn't ask for it, I said that it was very troublesome to wear it, and I often got stuck in my hair, so let's talk about it later.

I have simply met Yuan Ze's parents, and there is nothing special to say. Yuan Ze's vacation is coming, pack up, and we went back to Beijing together.

The old rule, send me first, and then he goes back to the club dormitory.

The spring breeze has already blown over, and the sun is warm at noon, which makes people feel good. Yuan Ze and I walked hand in hand in the community, with a sweet and peaceful smile, and met Li Baitian, who was alone.

I knew that sooner or later I would have to face Li Baitian, so I had already made mental preparations, and I would be very calm, as if he had never kissed me, as if we were just ordinary friends.

"How did you walk up to the side today?" I greeted naturally.

Li Baitian glanced at the hand that Yuan Ze and I were holding and replied calmly, "The car broke down." ”