I quarreled with Li Hua, I asked him if he was a thief, who knows how he and Wen Juan get along without me. Li Hua said that I was unreasonable and there was no need.

Originally, I was a person who was very easy to think about one out of the other, but recently my mood has been very unstable, and I have rashes on my body and take medicine, which is the rhythm of endocrine disorders.

I just want to make a noise and vent, probably because, except when Li Hua is here, I really have no one to talk to, and I am panicking. But Li Hua didn't quarrel with me, I annoyed him, so he went out to smoke by himself.

In the past, when the two of us were not good, we used to blow our beards and stare at each other, but we never really made a big noise. I still understand Li Hua in my heart, and I am willing to endure him in many things.

He went out, and I sat on the bed and reflected, and felt that the quarrel was particularly boring, because other people quarreled and it was even more boring. But I'm a face-saving person, and I don't want to go out and admit my mistakes after the quarrel, I feel so tired and sleepy, so I go into the bed to sleep.

Sleeping until my head was dizzy and swollen, Li Hua also lay on the bed, but still reached out and hugged me. When he noticed that my feet were cold, he put his own legs between my feet and said nothing.

But in fact, when I woke up, Li Hua's hug still gave me a sense of security, I turned around, hugged him tightly awkwardly, and didn't speak.

Li Hua touched my hair.

But why is my heart so panicked, it's beating wildly, I can't control it at all, I can feel panic even when I'm sleeping, although I've been very sleepy lately, but in fact, I can't sleep well at all.

Li Hua thought that I might have taken medicine, and he said, "Are you really suffering from endocrine disorders, don't take medicine for two days?" ”

I did stop taking medicine for two days, but it didn't work, but my body was still very itchy. If I slept soundly, I would forget it, but if I didn't sleep well, I would always tickle and scratch more and more skin on my body. Even if you scratch the skin, it's still itchy, so if you scratch the wound again, the wound will be tattered.

I hate these wounds so much, when Li Hua applied the potion, I said aggrievedly: "Do you think I'm too hypocritical." ”

He glanced at me and reassured, "I don't blame you for that. ”

But I blamed myself, I hated myself, and I was very worried, I said, "Will there be a scar, you see I don't have a scar on my body......"

I'm quite satisfied with this white body. When I was a child, everyone had a little injury, but I didn't have a scar constitution, and there were no scars on my body when I grew up.

I don't think it's really a way for me to scratch like this anymore, but there is no new way except scratching and taking medicine. I can't wait to put my hands tied up and go to sleep.

Li Hua looked at the places where the potion had been rubbed distressedly, smashed his mouth, and said hesitantly: "Otherwise, you can go back first." ”

"Where are you going?" I looked up at him.

Li Hua didn't explain. He meant to let me go home, obviously I just couldn't adapt to the living environment here, and probably after returning to the city, these things slowly disappeared.

But I don't want to go back, I've been here for almost a month, and the project on Lihua's side will be over in another month. I've survived half of this day, and I'll finish the other half like this again. I don't want to leave him yet, I don't want anything bad to happen when I can't see him.

I said, "I don't." ”

Who wants to separate, Li Hua doesn't want to be separated, but he feels that he can't let me accompany him to suffer here, so he gently patted me on the shoulder and said, "I'll finish explaining as soon as possible and strive to leave early." ”

I nodded in his arms.

muttered again, "Husband, am I really too hypocritical, I'm so annoyed with myself like this." ”

He said: "I'm not afraid of hypocrisy, my woman should be hypocritical, and it's okay not to be hypocritical when I give birth to a child in the future." ”

I just laughed.

I'm not afraid of scars on my body, and I don't think it's possible for Li Hua to dislike those spots. But what I'm afraid of is that scars will affect my work, and it's normal for an actor to show his arms and legs in public, and I don't want anyone to complain about my scars in the future.

I asked him again, "Do you really want me to be an actor that much?"

Li Hua thought about it seriously, and he said: "Actually, it's nothing, I'm just afraid that you will be in trouble." But Li Hua also understands the truth that you can't give up food because of choking.

He told me, "I haven't danced in a long time, and once before, when I saw students doing exercises outside the school, I felt itchy in my arms and legs. Laughing, he continued, "Even if I were to go back to dancing now, I would be afraid." I know you love acting, and I know it's your dream, but if it weren't for the fact that I'm your boyfriend, I'd definitely support you. ”

I blinked and looked at him with big eyes, Li Hua bent his fingers and scraped my face, smiled and said: "Now I also support it, you are so careful, I don't want to, every day you watch TV, you feel sad." ”

Li Hua will feel sad when he sees children doing exercises, so probably if I don't act anymore, I will feel uncomfortable when I see other people's plays in the future.

When dreams and loves are ashamed to speak, it is a sorrow for all of us.

I was touched and said with tears in my eyes, "Thank you, husband." ”

Since I arrived here, I have been a shameless husband and a former husband, trying to create a feeling of intimacy. Li Hua has no problem with my name, and she is also a "my daughter-in-law" outside. In fact, our little couple seems to be very happy in the eyes of outsiders.

Then I asked Li Hua why he didn't go dancing.

He still laughed and said, "You can't dance for a lifetime." It's okay to act, you can't play a little girl, and you can still play a bad old woman. ”

I stuck out my tongue and I said I wanted to live forever.

I don't want to grow old, I want to always be in the most beautiful youth, and the person I love the most to perform the longest love.

Since Li Hua said that he would support my acting, I feel a lot more comfortable. The more he supported me in this way, the more determined I was to protect myself and stick to my principles. I really don't care if it's popular or not, it's just that everyone habitually chooses to do what they are happy with.

I'm happy to be in love with Li Hua, and acting can also make me happy. I love doing it, and if I lose it, my happiness will be reduced.

Some people have never found their dreams in their lives, and some people have had dreams but have not had the opportunity to stick to them. Maybe many people don't understand that in the face of the opportunity of their dreams, the mentality of not wanting to miss and not wanting to give up easily.

It's just that dreams also have principles, I firmly believe that I will not destroy principles for the sake of dreams, I love Lihua's principles.

Maybe if it weren't for the fact that I loved him, I wouldn't have been more principled than I am now. The impact of loving someone on oneself is not so easy to see.

But my hypocritical body, after all, still couldn't stand the toss here. In the middle of the night, I had a fever, and Li Hua got up to boil hot water for me, fanned the itchy places on my body with a book, and shook again.

He said, "I beg you, you go back first, just a month, and I will definitely go back to you after a month." And then we don't come to these places again. ”

I burned and shook my head with my eyes closed.

I want to be able to pass it if I stand up, but Wen Juan has explained before that if you have a fever, you must not delay, and you must go to the hospital. This place is remote, and the medical conditions in a small place are not good, and if there is really a big fever, it will be too late to send it to the hospital.

The next day, when Li Hua called Wen Juan to give me an injection, Wen Juan still said the same.

I went to the hospital and lay there for two days. It's been a long time since I've slept on such dry sheets and bedding, and of course I can't feel it when I get used to sleeping in the wet.

After hanging on the water for two days, the rash on my body has also improved a lot. The doctor suggested to Li Hua that if it was not necessary, it was better not to let me go back to live, obviously my body could not adapt to it.

It's good to say that in the past two days, the weather will be hot in two days, and mosquito bites will come, and if there is any problem, it will not kill anyone, but it is too troublesome to run down from the mountains to see a doctor.

Li Hua tried hard to persuade me in the hospital for a long time, and I finally nodded, okay, I'll go home.

I want to be with him, but I don't want to trouble him.

Li Hua sent me away and set a month's return date with me, in fact, one month, not very far away, wait and wait.

I was sick, so I didn't go back to school, so I went directly to live at my mother's house. My mother is a hard-working housewife, although the place at home is not big, but it is very clean and timely, I live here with her to take care of, save trouble.

Probably the reason for the lack of sleep in spring and autumn and napping in summer, I've been getting a bit sleepy lately. But if I stayed for a few more days, my mother started to get annoyed, and she thought that when I wasn't acting, she could consider looking for another job.

I don't think my mom understands, I have to be ready to act, I can't find another job. No job will allow you to take a leave of absence for a long time.

Because of this, my mother and I had a little separation, and I was not happy to stay here.

She already has her own home, and although I am her own daughter, I am somewhat of an outsider.

The medicine has been stopped, and the rash on my body is indeed slowly improving, and it should be fine in a few days. I counted the days every day, how many days are left before Li Hua's return, and how we should spend after he comes back this time.

Li Hua said that after completing the project, he would stop working on the construction site and would learn something else.

When I was fine, I was sitting at home looking at the house on the Internet, and I had already begun to look forward to it, Li Hua and I bought our own house, and then renovated it, and the two of us lived in it to live a sweet little life.

On this day, I looked for it, and an email pop-up window flashed in the lower right corner, and I replied to the resume I submitted in the brokerage company.