Chen Feiyang's confession letter, except for the small flowers with many ballpoint strokes that are very beautiful and unexpected, other places are simply unsightly. It's full of typos, but you can't treat a sincere person with a perfunctory attitude.

He's good, except for the simplicity of his ideas. I've always had a good man's heart, and I always wanted to live a vigorous life before that. Talking about love vigorously, making friends vigorously, of course, it is difficult for the real society to satisfy my vigorous wishes, so I used to like to play games.

I like bloody battles, and when Chen Feiyang told me about his past training, I felt very hot-blooded, and there were always a few moments when I was on the phone and admired him.

And the real blood is just the appearance of what we yearn for, just like war is for peace, and many times tossing is also for peace.

Looking back on the life that Chen Feiyang has given me these days, I will feel that it is not bad to live like this for the rest of my life. While I was thinking about this, Chen Feiyang called me and asked me if I had read it.

I sat on the bed and was arrogant, "I can't read what is written." ”

"If you don't understand something, I'll tell you. ”

I couldn't understand it, so Chen Feiyang recited the words in the letter to me, and he didn't have much affection and affection, like when we memorized texts in school. The problem that can be explained is that he does not know how many times he has considered this letter, how many times he has read it repeatedly, and he has memorized it backwards.

I laughed, "Finally, what do you mean by coming to my long street to be my homecoming?"

Chen Feiyang was stunned, "That's it, just be my wife." ”

"Hmph, where did you learn it? ”

Chen Feiyang didn't explain, I know that he is illiterate, but the illiterate also knows the good and the bad, and he also likes to use two cultural words. I don't look down on illiterates, no one is born to be illiterate, especially Chen Feiyang, who is illiterate, because of his sacrifice for the country.

"Then you don't say yes. Chen Feiyang asked eagerly.

"Promise what?"

"Come to my long street and be my homecoming. He said.

I smiled to myself, "What happens if I say yes?"

"I'll be happy. ”

Just tempting, I said, "Why don't I make you happy once?"

"Really?"

"Fake. ”

Over time, love can be born, this sentence is absolutely true. Feelings are too complicated things, even if you really take out your heart, you may not be able to see what it needs, many people are actually confused in the past, they have never seen their hearts clearly in their lives, and most of them have the opportunity to see clearly.

I wasn't stimulated by anything, so I couldn't see clearly, and I was as confused as everyone else, and I didn't try to struggle as long as nothing was obvious to me uncomfortable.

I can't see clearly what I think of Chen Feiyang, and I think it's too unconscionable to talk about use. I just think that if you really want to choose someone to live like this, Chen Feiyang is very good, at least I can't find a reason why I can't live with him. Now even the fact that he is under marriage age has been erased by this kid.

I didn't give an answer, I just talked to him on the phone across the wall before I went to sleep, as I do every night. At first, I talked to him because I felt that he had a need to talk to me, and he helped me so much, I didn't even want to talk to others, it was too boring.

Pull and pull, and get used to it.

Today I was in class, the children were not very obedient, and after shouting with them for a day, their voices were not very comfortable, so they didn't really want to talk, so I asked Chen Feiyang to sing to me.

Chen Feiyang has a good voice, he sings very well, and he can sing with that kind of professional taste. First, he has a good voice, second, he has a large lung capacity, and third, he likes it.

In fact, I think that Chen Feiyang's talent is buried, and it is also conditional to have a figure, a figure, a look, and a voice, and to have that opportunity to become a girl idol. It's just that he doesn't like it, and he's shy.

Chen Feiyang sang to me for an hour, from Jay Chou to Eason Chan, from the recent popularity, to the classic old song, "Tomorrow I will marry you, tomorrow I will marry you......"

I put my phone next to my pillow and listened silently with my eyes closed.

"Honey, marry me. He said softly and seriously. I didn't reply, gasping for air.

"My dear, did you say that......?" he asked, "I didn't speak, and after a few seconds, "Okay, good night, mua." I love you. ”

The phone hung up, my ears were quiet again, and I fell asleep to his singing and confessions, and if I could, I would really like to let it go on forever.

I like it.

I got up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet and saw Chen Feiyang lying on his back in the narrow slit between the sofa and the coffee table, with one leg still on the sofa. He usually covered the quilt, but it had been hugged and twisted.

The couch was narrow and short, and it was really embarrassing for a man as long as him. Chen Feiyang slept on the ground, but he was not conscious, and he slept soundly.

The floor is still very cool this season.

When I came out of the toilet, I couldn't stand it, so I kicked him in the past and woke Chen Feiyang up, so I lay down and looked at me in a daze.

"Get up. "I command.

He got up, climbed up on the couch with his eyes closed, and I kicked him again, "Go to bed and sleep." ”

Chen Feiyang was stunned, and I lowered my eyes, "If you don't go, forget it." ”

Saying that, I walked to the room, and at the moment of closing the door, Chen Feiyang blocked the door, blocking the door that was about to close with his arm, I deliberately clamped him with the door panel, let go, lifted the quilt and lay on the bed.

Chen Feiyang finally went to bed after grinding and chirping for a long time, and I turned my back to him and smiled secretly. Actually, I could squeeze with Wu Yuqing and let Chen Feiyang sleep on this bed, but at this time, I didn't want to.

I feel like I've made the decision to give him a chance.

I'm really not one to care about chastity or not, and I have to admit that I'm getting to the age where I need it. Although I don't usually think too much about it, but now that there is a man with such an attractive figure lying next to him, I can't help but think about it more.

In countless lonely nights, I have also longed for hugs, even women's hugs.

Chen Feiyang lay down, and after swallowing twenty mouthfuls of saliva in a row, he stretched out one arm and hugged me, seeing that I did not resist, he was a little bolder, and stretched out both arms.

I turned to face him, and we did.

Well, I really broke a virgin, and the virgin was so excited that his knees were shaking at this time. I fluttered lightly under his wide embrace, and I didn't make any sound, just slowly closed my eyes.

This 18cm is not blown, and to be honest, it was not comfortable at the beginning, because I really can't get used to it.

The human body has a memory, and when I close my eyes, I can clearly feel that the memory of the body is messing with me. I used to have only one man, and I remember every sense I felt hugging him, remembering his size, and I remember that when I wrapped my hands around him, I could just touch an inch of my bones.

My body remembers that at this moment, in front of me, has changed a person.

My body feels more sad than my brain. So it can't cooperate, and any cooperation makes it feel a little shameful. Maybe the body may be more loyal than the brain, but unfortunately the body is ultimately dominated by the brain.

I know it's very wrong, I always miss Wang Zhaoyang when I do this with Chen Feiyang, I can't tell him, and I can't even be honest with myself.

I've never stopped myself from these shameful thoughts, and sometimes even take them as a form of relaxation. Because I know that what I miss is no longer possible to go back.

A song sounded in my head, and Chen Feiyang sang to me before I fell asleep:

I asked why

The girl texted me

And why are you

Don't explain, bow your head and be silent

I should believe you love me very much

Unwilling to perfunctory me

Still understood

You don't want to get anything back

Wanted to ask why

I am no longer your joy

But why

But he smiled wryly and said that I understood

Self-esteem often drags people down

Take love all the twists and turns

Pretending to understand is afraid

The truth is too stark

Embarrassment is worse than loss

What I miss is not having to say anything

What I miss is dreaming together

What I miss is after the quarrel

Or the urge to love you

I remember that birthday

I remember that song, too

Remember that starry sky

The tightest right hand

The warmest chest

Who remembers

Who forgot

Forgive me for copying such a large number of lyrics, because every sentence is my heart's voice, and every sentence can involve the most painful place in my heart, and it hurts very much.

When it was over today, I pursed my mouth and cried to myself. Chen Feiyang has no experience, he doesn't understand anything, he doesn't know how to wipe me, he doesn't know how to carry me to wash, he still lies on me, he doesn't quit easily, he wipes my tears and apologizes, "I'm sorry Xiaochang, did I hurt you, I'm sorry I ...... in the future"

I pulled his hand away and buried it in his chest and cried for a while.

What is missed, will always be blurred. I believe that there are many people who have not been fortunate enough to stay with the one they love the most, and I believe that many people, after retreating to the second, can still live well, and balance this nostalgia and adapt to the new embrace.

I will adapt to Chen Feiyang and work hard.

Chen Feiyang knew that it was not the first time for me, and I never intended to panic him, he just said that he regretted it and regretted why he was not born a few years earlier. He will hate a little, hate but pity not himself, but he also said that he doesn't care about a film.

Chen Feiyang has two classic quotations, I don't know where I learned them.

"Your tears and underneath can only be wet for me alone. My fists and underneath, will only be hard for you alone. ”