I wanted to update it as soon as possible, but I was shocked by a short obituary from Weibo, and my mood has been difficult to calm down.

As Mr. Lu Xun said in "In Memory of Liu He Zhenjun", I "have the need to write something", otherwise, I may not be able to write a single word.

For an old reader who has been reading books for ten years, the death of Mr. and Mrs. Sanshao of the Tang family must be a major event.

I started to get in touch with online literature at the age of 17, and Mr. Sanshao's works accounted for a large proportion of my online literature enlightenment stage.

Airspeed Star Scar, Ice and Fire Demon Kitchen, Child of Light, Only My Immortal, Mad God, Qin Emperor, Yin and Yang Crown, Kind Death, Zodiac Guardian God, Douluo Continent......

Except for Douluo Continent, the rest of the books I read are physical books, or sets, or 800-page large volumes, and I read them under the cover with a flashlight.

Now, I am 26 years old, and my tastes have changed as I get older, and I no longer read Mr. Sanshao's books, but those days have become a feeling.

For people who miss the old, they may have feelings, and once they have feelings, they are difficult to give up.

It may be like few people listen to "Childhood" now, but when you hear it by chance, you will silently hum in your heart, "On the banyan tree by the pond, I know that summer is crying." ”

Mr. Sanshao's wife is suffering from cancer, I have seen scattered news on the Internet a few years ago, I was not married at that time, but I felt a little emotional, I felt that Sanshao had become famous, and it was time to enjoy life, but when such a thing happened, it should be quite disturbing.

And now that I am married, with a beloved wife and a happy family, I am shocked at how stupid and shallow my thinking was.

Mr. Sanshao's wife passed away yesterday, and Sanshao posted an obituary on Weibo, when my wife had fallen asleep, and I was alone in the living room, smoking a few cigarettes, but the more I smoked, the more annoyed I became.

I am a sentimental person, and it is inevitable to treat others as I see such things, and I also have a wife, and I will soon have children.

Except for things like status, status, and wealth, as a natural person, I think I am no different from Mr. Sanshao.

I also love my wife, very much, very much, which is no different from Mr. Sanshao.

I can't imagine how I'm going to live if my wife leaves me in any form...... It must be difficult to survive.

Some people say that whoever leaves can live, and if they say they leave, they will die or live, which is hypocrisy.

Even my wife once laughed and scolded that I could live well without her, and I often scolded her for having no conscience and daring to slander me like this.

I don't know if my wife was serious when she said this, but I replied very seriously and thought about it more seriously.

After turning it over and over again, the answer was finally determined: I couldn't live without this stupid woman.

Whether she believed it or not, I did.

The death of the third young lady made me deeply feel the impermanence of the world, and I picked up this problem again in the living room, and the more I thought about it, the more worried I became, and countless thoughts came to me.

What should I do if my wife gets sick in the future? What should I do if my wife has an accident? etc......

I can't help but think about this kind of thing, because it's too scary, and it can make people cry.

As a native of Northeast China, I asked myself if I had little fear since I was a child.

Last winter, I coughed up blood, suspected lung cancer, which scared my wife out of her mind, but while waiting for the test results, I still talked and laughed with my wife in the hospital corridor and went to the toilet to smoke a cigarette.

But I, a person who is not afraid of heaven and earth, secretly wiped my tears when I imagined that my wife was terminally ill.

Some people are bold and are not afraid of death when they are born, but when the person they love the most may be about to leave him, he will be afraid and want to die.

There is a great terror between life and death, not only for yourself, but also for the people around you.

Now Mr. Sanshao doesn't have to be afraid, this is by no means a relief, he is in the world, but his heart has gone to purgatory.

Then I would like to exhort some sinister tongues, don't make a fuss about the dead, and say some cool things.

Anyone who has an ostomy should have a bad retribution.

Alas...... Before I put pen to paper, I had a thousand words in my heart, but now I am speechless and condensed, that's it.

It's a pity that I don't know Mr. Sanshao, so I can't persuade him.

Only use this diploma to mourn the three young ladies who passed away, and pay tribute to a good wife and a good mother.

I wish Mr. Sanshao a speedy cheer up, work hard to live, and take good care of the children.

Sun...... Eventually, it will rise as usual.

—from the husband of a wife.