Chapter 20: Farewell to the Past
1
After Meng Lianghua left that night, Zhao's mother also fell asleep, and Zhao Qingfang quietly thought about her own affairs in the ward alone for a long time. Regarding Liang Bo's own way of dealing with evasion, he still lacks an explanation after all, after thinking about it for a long time, Zhao Qingfang finally mustered up the courage to walk to the staircase of the ward alone and sent a long message to Liang Bo.
Sms:
Liang Bo, I'm very sorry to bother you so late, today's text message should have been sent to you 2 months ago, but I haven't had the courage to do so, or I haven't made up my mind.
Of course, this message I sent may not mean anything to you, and you may think that it is not necessary, but it is an explanation for me! I talked a lot with Ni Nan today, and some things I don't understand and confused things are slowly becoming clear, which is why I made up my mind to send this message.
You don't have to be afraid of me, avoid me, I completely understand and let go, no, the word let go is not appropriate enough, it should be that I won't pester you anymore. Hehe... I think it's ridiculous to use pestering, I used to think that my behavior was caring, but now it seems that from your point of view, it should really be pestered. Hey...
I have also thoroughly understood that the two of us met again at the beginning was not due to my so-called fate, but only an accidental coincidence, one of the countless accidents in life, nothing more!
After all, we have no fate, the past is like that, the present is like this, and it will not change in the future, since it is destined to be fateless, then I should no longer fantasize, Ni Nan wants me to cherish the person in front of me, I am very grateful for her advice, I will take good control of my life in the next few years, I will not let myself live in my dreams again.
I hope we're still friends!
Zhao Qingfang
After sending this message, Zhao Qingfang was relieved, took a deep breath and slowly walked to the ward, the hospital at this time was unusually quiet, the patients in the ward fell asleep one after another, and the family members who could be seen in the aisle just now returned to the ward, and the lights along the way seemed to be much dimmer than just now, and at this time, in stark contrast to the dimness, the nurse station was still brightly lit, because there were nurses who were still busy.
When she just walked to the door of the ward, Zhao Qingfang heard the sound of mobile phone information again, the sound was particularly loud in a quiet environment, she subconsciously stepped back, for fear of waking up the patients in the ward, so Zhao Qingfang trotted back to the safe passage and slowly opened the mobile phone message.
Sms:
I was very surprised to receive your message, thank you very much for your blessings, and thank you very much for your understanding! Maybe just like you said, I may be destined to be destined by God, and you can only miss it after all, but this is not a bad thing, because I clearly know that Meng Lianghua will give you more love than me.
He came back today and came out very happy, I think you have already negotiated, he is a reserved person, some things are not very good at expressing, I also know that you are a good girl, I hope you two can be together soon.
Bless you as well.
Liang Bo
A very pertinent reply, Zhao Qingfang read the message several times, showed a satisfied smile, and replied simply out of politeness: Thank you!
2
In a blink of an eye, Zhao's mother's chemotherapy has ended, Meng Lianghua ran up and down to help Zhao's mother go through all the discharge procedures, and Zhao Qingfang also began to officially put into work.
Zhao's mother's general chemotherapy period is one week, and the interval between the two chemotherapy treatments is usually 2 weeks, after Zhao's mother was discharged from the hospital, Zhao Qingfang and Meng Lianghua have maintained a very ambiguous contact, Meng Lianghua has always been an introverted, slow-burning person, even if he has a good impression of Zhao Qingfang from the first time, but he has never shown it.
After this period of contact, the relationship between Meng Lianghua and Zhao Qingfang has progressed by leaps and bounds, and he slowly felt Zhao Qingfang's attitude, but for Meng Lianghua, who has zero love experience, it seems that it is still difficult to step out of this ambiguous ambiguous relationship, and it seems that it still takes more time and courage for him to boldly show love.
Zhao Qingfang on the side, for her age, there is not so much time to waste on being ambiguous with others, which can also be seen from the fact that she took the initiative to contact Liang Bo after meeting Liang Bo again, and her sense of urgency can also be seen, she deeply understands that her age and her mother's condition do not allow her to wait slowly, but what Zhao Qingfang didn't expect was that he met again He was actually more restrained and calm than Liang Bo, and he never expressed his position, which made Zhao Qingfang's heart that had already made up his mind began to be a little anxious and anxious.
But because of Liang Bo's failed initiative, even if Zhao Qingfang urgently needed the affirmation of this feeling, he didn't dare to take the initiative anymore. Although in her opinion, Meng Lianghua and Liang Bo are indeed different, at least Meng Lianghua should have a good impression of herself. It's just that all this good feeling is love, or is it his own wishful thinking? These questions and assumptions are haunting Zhao Qingfang's ears, after all, people have never directly said that they like themselves, and the longer this tug-of-war lasts, the more uneasy it will bring to Zhao Qingfang.
Such an ambiguous relationship has been maintained until Zhao's mother has chemotherapy again, and another chemotherapy means that Zhao's mother will be hospitalized in the hospital for 1 week, Zhao Qingfang is working in a private company, and is doing financial work, there are many budgets to be settled at the end of the year, at the beginning of the month, I can take a week off to take care of the hospitalized mother, in fact, the actual situation of the company is already considered extralegal, the previous leave has a lot of work backlog, and then take another week of leave in the same month, for Zhao Qingfang, who is engaged in financial work, and is also the person in charge of the financial department, there is no substitute for the temporary leave, which is undoubtedly testing the patience of the boss, and then ask for leave at any time may face the situation of resignation and leaving, which is naturally well known to Zhao Qingfang, who has been in the workplace for 5.6 years.
At present, it is impossible to break up with the leader and resign, after all, my mother still needs to continue to be hospitalized for chemotherapy, which requires her own work to pay for hospitalization, and it seems unrealistic to let Zhao's mother be hospitalized for chemotherapy in the hospital alone and leave it alone at work, so the dilemma makes Zhao Qingfang very distressed.
3
A few days before chemotherapy, it was rare for Meng Lianghua to have time at night, so he asked Zhao Qingfang to watch a movie, although he went to watch a movie together, but Zhao Qingfang obviously didn't have the heart to enjoy the movie, and Meng Lianghua looked absent-minded all the way.
"What's wrong?" Meng Lianghua asked with concern, "It doesn't look like he's in a good mood." ”
"Nothing. Zhao Qingfang said in a low voice, "It's just a little upset." ”
"Upset?" Meng Lianghua was slow and restrained, but he had his own humor, he quipped, "Shouldn't it?
Zhao Qingfang, who was in a bad mood, was amused by Meng Lianghua's words, so she analyzed her predicament to Meng Lianghua.
"Actually, my mom is going to be hospitalized soon, and then I have to go to work again, and I don't know what to do. Zhao Qingfang just wanted to complain, and didn't expect Meng Lianghua to solve the problem for her.
Unexpectedly, Meng Lianghua replied without asking: "It's okay, you go to work with peace of mind! Auntie is in our department anyway, I'll take care of her." ”
"You?" Zhao Qingfang asked in surprise, "Then are you busy?"
"No problem!" Meng Lianghua slowly analyzed in an orderly manner, "Actually, Auntie's chemotherapy actions are quite comfortable, she can actually ring the bell to call a nurse for a drip or other temporary things, usually I will definitely go to see her as long as I am free in the department, now the main problem is nothing more than the matter of eating, as long as the meal is in the office, I will buy food for my aunt, if I go to surgery, I will ask my junior brother to help lay the meal Auntie." ”
"Don't worry, it's okay, I'll leave it to me. Meng Lianghua continued.
It was a simple complaint, but Meng Lianghua gave Zhao Qingfang a perfect answer in simple and clear language, which made Zhao Qingfang very moved.
Zhao Qingfang reminded me of the story of a female colleague, most of whom complained about the difficulty of work and the difficulty of work. And most of the boyfriends reply that you bear with it, and then a large part of the analysis of workplace work is like this. And there is only one friend's boyfriend who replied, it's okay, you quit your job if you feel tired, and I'll support you.
Zhao Qingfang's story once moved Zhao Qingfang very much, and she was also very envious that her girlfriend had found a good man. Sometimes women complain to each other when they encounter difficulties, what they want is not to analyze the problem, because they actually understand many problems, and preaching will only make them feel pale and powerless. It's like a girl who comes to her period to complain about being uncomfortable, and her boyfriend's reply is that you drink more water, and the answer that doesn't solve any problem doesn't make any sense, which is probably why it is criticized by so many women now.
Although Meng Lianghua's words did not have any modified words, they instantly solved Zhao Qingfang's urgent need, it made Zhao Qingfang from a girl who was anxious and messy and under the pressure of work and life to a person without any burden, for a Zhao Qingfang who has always solved his own problems, such a person is so precious to Zhao Qingfang.
Zhao Qingfang's moved mood at this time is beyond words, no matter how thick the words are, they can't express the kind of temperature in the snow, and the things that have been tangled in their hearts, the answer is a little clearer.
Without any more words, Zhao Qingfang just stared at Meng Lianghua with round eyes for a long time, and finally replied simply: "Thank you!"
"Hehe... It's okay. Meng Lianghua still smiled innocently.