The psychological pressure is too great, and I have insomnia.

I have been holding back some words for a long time, but I still can't help but want to tell you......

This is the story of a street writer who counterattacks.

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After 12 years of writing books, I have long been accustomed to seeing all kinds of life.

I've been an author for 12 years.

Can you guess how many years I've been a reader?

I thought I had seen enough, but this month's experience has given me some new insights into online articles.

Twenty days after it was put on the shelves, I experienced the ups and downs of my life.

To say something immodest.

Today's achievements depend on accumulation;

The plot is not brilliant, it all depends on the writing;

The writing is not too good, it all depends on the expression of true feelings.

I'm already halfway up on the altar.

But I didn't expect it......

You will fall suddenly.

350,000 words, on the shelves for 20 days, high order 26,000.

It's not a single chapter subscription, but a big plot after 107, all of which are twenty-five thousand.

With such a dazzling achievement, if he is an experienced old author, he will only be one step closer and easily embark on the 30,000 equalization.

It's only 300,000 words!

It can easily reach 25,000 ......

What if it is written to a million?

What if you write about omnichannel recommendations?

What exactly will this book achieve?

I guess no one can imagine.

No one can see it now.

Because......

I've already written a breakdown.

The current average is only 15,000, which is a full drop of 10,000.

The godhead that has not yet been condensed has been shattered by my own hands.

If I could do it all over again, I'd be absolutely sure I wouldn't write it down.

But the reality is ......

I'm writing an online article, which needs to be serialized every day, and I can't modify it in large sections when I send it out.

So I've missed this opportunity that I've been waiting for 12 years.

It represents an opportunity to become a god in a book.

……

So here's the problem.

Where did I collapse?

Collapsed in the absence of long experience.

I have been writing for 12 years, but I have never written a book of more than 1 million, and the longest is only more than 500,000.

That's why I hate it!

After hitting the streets for so long, the opportunity finally came a year ago, but I missed it because of my lack of preparation.

I don't think anyone can understand how I'm feeling right now......

As far as I know, the online literature circle.

It seems that I am such a weird guy.

I was the first big bang at the beginning of 2018 and the first big avalanche at the beginning of 2018.

But......

I can't become a god, and I can be regarded as eating the food of the online article.

After all, no matter how bad I am, it is still 10,000 orders, and 3,000 orders are high-quality products, and I can only achieve the results of five high-quality books.

This result is in the online literature circle, it should be regarded as an upper-middle level, right?

During this period, the Baidu index has improved significantly, indicating that I have stabilized.

Newcomers are prone to gains and losses.

It wasn't on the shelves before, and it wasn't recommended, so I counted the recommended votes every day.

How many people voted today?

How many collections have gone up today?

How many readers commented today?

Which plot is poisonous to the reader again?

Don't change this outline?

……

After it was put on the shelves, I didn't care about the recommended ticket, and I didn't understand the monthly pass, so I thought about subscribing all day long.

The more I thought about it, the more deliberate it became.

This plot, huh?

The reaction is not good, I can't write it in the future, so I quickly pinch it off.

That plot, huh?

No, no, the comments are not good, change them quickly.

I deliberately tried to cater to the reader, but I lost myself.

The more I care, the faster the subscription drops.

Okay, I'm not going to accompany you, what's the love.

As a result, the subscription stabilized again.

……

I floated up to the clouds, and then I fell down again.

It's like a roller coaster.

……

Actually, in the strict sense of the word.

The biggest mistake I made was actually ......

I have lost the self-confidence that I must have at least as an author.

After it was put on the shelves, I didn't have confidence in my plot, and I always felt that what I wrote would not be liked by readers.

I deliberately tried to cater to it, but I lost what was most important to me.

Spirituality.

So later, my plot became a little dry.

That's because I lost my soul in order to cater to my readers.

That's what caused my real avalanche!

……

Before it was listed......

I slammed the air.

If you spray me, I can open a single chapter and blow you up a stinky idiot.

When it's over, I'm going to give you a ban, hang it and whip the corpse.

After it is on the shelves......

I immediately became a gray grandson.

Reader: Not right here.

OK, change it now!

Reader: Not right there.

OK, change it now!

……

I'll change your mmmp!!

……

Now that it has stabilized, the Baidu index is slowly growing, but the subscriptions have always remained the same.

Because a lot of readers have given up on me and gone to see piracy.

……

Online articles are actually really cruel, a little poison, a little unreasonable, and you will lose some readers immediately.

I'm a newcomer who almost became a god, but I've lost faith in myself.

Maybe it's because I've been fighting for too long, and the idea of hitting the street has been deeply engraved in my mind.

So I'm more eager than many authors to prove myself.

Finally.

I succeeded, but I also failed.

……

No one can relate to my feelings, really not......

Half-step god......

……

I ordered all my books in large size, and I only used more than three dollars.

So I used the new account to order all of my books, and I used more than four yuan.

……

Seriously, even if you throw ten dollars in front of me, as long as your attitude is a little bad, I can take your face seriously and tear up the ten dollars directly......

……

I didn't sleep in the middle of the night and said so much, in fact, I want to ask you to give me another chance.

Come back, okay?

Those brothers who went to piracy, since you have seen this, can you come back and give me another chance?

Give me a subscription?

I don't want anything, really.

I've only asked for a commuter pass once so far.

You think I'm slow to update.,OK.,I definitely don't ask for votes if I don't explode in the future.。

All I really want is a subscription, a subscription for every penny and chapter.

Recommended tickets, monthly passes, clicks, and favorites, these are all floating clouds.

I just subscribe.

Because that's the only criterion that allows me to prove myself.

Can you give me another chance?

……

Because I didn't finish this experience, I had already ruined my chance to become a god with my own hands.

So this book ......

As long as I don't die, I won't be a eunuch.

As long as I don't, it won't end up.

Therefore, I sincerely ask you to ......

Come to the starting point and give me a subscription support, okay?

Because I really need to subscribe......

The west window is white here, sincerely worship!