"So you knew your uncle when you were so young......"

Yu Yao couldn't help but let out a sigh from the bottom of her heart, Unexpected, more, just distressed for Ji Wuyou. It turned out that what she saw was only the tip of the iceberg, and it turned out that there was such a deep relationship between them.

"Yes. Ji Wuyou raised his head and looked at himself listlessly in the mirror, and pulled the corners of his mouth. Take out the key from the innermost drawer, turn around and open the futon, and take out a small and delicate makeup box from the bottom of the bed. With a crisp sound, the box opened, and the jade pixiu inside came to life, with a layer of jade-like color under the soft satin.

"At that time, he was not at all the same as now, he was handsome and bright. In front of me, always smiling and gentle.

He read with his cousin and brother in the study and discussed strategies. My father also set up a small desk for me to copy by the window.

He was always a quick learner, and he could understand his homework in less than two hours in the morning. When I didn't need to ask the teacher, he took the book "Mo Xie" and taught me word by word, and the pages were densely packed with annotations.

He not only taught me the meaning of every sentence in the book, but also quoted some various stories from time to time, and I listened to them with great relish, and I thought he was a little better than my father!

He was almost half of my enlightenment teacher, and he aroused my initial interest in books, and my first understanding of the outside world.

He taught me how to play chess and draw, ride a horse, take me to the night market, guess word puzzles, and make a Weaver Girl lantern for me.

When I'm with him, time always flies and I go by quickly.

Later, as I grew up, he had grown from a young man to a talented man in the world, and he was full of everything.

I don't know much about the world, but I can vaguely see a bit of tiredness in his smiling eyes.

Even so, he would find time to read with me. Occasionally, when I went south, I rushed to the house to see me non-stop when I returned to Beijing, and every time I didn't forget to bring some strange gadgets, they were all rare objects, and I knew that everything was painstaking.

Whenever he left, his mother looked at the table and could barely put anything on the table, so she always had to laugh and tease: "This Huaiyu is even better than your eldest brother and second brother!"

I smiled and said nothing, but my heart was so happy that I wanted to fly, and my three brothers often gave me delicate little things, but the joy of receiving the gifts he prepared was incomparable.

The years are quiet, and the two are not suspicious.

When she was nine years old, her third brother, who was carefree and easy, also got married, and her sister-in-law was also a noble girl in Kyoto. Although there is a lot of age difference between me and me, in the end, we have grown up in a circle, and we often chat together.

It was also during a chat that I learned by chance that his date had also been set.

In the second half of the year, on the tenth day after my birthday. ”

When Ji Wuyou said this, he paused for a moment, and then restrained the turbulent waves in his heart and continued: "Although it is unexpected, it is also reasonable. There was an eleven year difference between me and him, and when we first met, I was a five-year-old child, and he was already a tall and tall boy. At that time, I was still young, but he was already in the age of crowning.

The people of the same generation have already started a family and become parents. He is brilliant and has a noble status, but he has never been married, and the elders in the family don't know how to worry about it. Now that the dust has settled, it is nothing less than a beautiful thing.

My brother, who has spoiled me since childhood, has a home, and I should repay the blessing of 120,000 points, right?

And it does.

In front of everyone, I laughed like a fool.

But the lights went out at night, and in the silent night, tossing and turning, it was difficult to sleep. It was as if someone had dug a piece of my heart, and a huge depression and loss poured in from the bloodstained wound little by little, so full that the exit was blocked, and all of it was moldy and rotten inside.

The wound was deep enough to see the bone, but no one could see it.

At that age, I didn't even know why the pain came from, I just thought it was like being jealous with my three older brothers when I was a child, but I was reluctant to let my father's and mother's love be divided.

At that time, I was stupid and will feel distressed when I think about it now.

Reluctant to miss the most important moment in his life, I restrained all the complicated emotions in my heart and joined my cousin to witness his fainting.

In the crowd, he was accustomed to wearing plain white, dressed in a dazzling array of red, bent over and kneeling to worship heaven and earth, the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, and the familiar smile on his lips seemed to have not changed, but it was so indifferent and strange.

When he saw me, he was stunned for a moment and frowned slightly. After a moment, he smiled again, his expression was complex and gentle, but after all, he did not walk towards me without hesitation as he had done any time before.

The surrounding chaos is noisy, and the sentence "etiquette" that tears out the throat of the etiquette is so clear and harsh.

I suddenly became so tired of all this that I was feeling squeezed out of the crowd, and somehow I felt overwhelmed by the grief.

There are many people, and my cousin has been paying attention to my movements, and when he saw this, he immediately followed.

"Didn't you come to your brother Yu's faint ceremony? Why did you run out?"

Listening to the familiar teasing behind me, I didn't dare to look back, I raised my hand and touched my cheek, only to realize that I didn't know when I had burst into tears.

After a long time of receiving an answer, my cousin sensed that something was wrong, slowly walked up to me, and when he saw the tears in the corners of my eyes, his casual expression changed suddenly.

I didn't speak, neither did he, there was silence, and the air froze.

After a long time, I lowered my eyes and whispered in a nasal voice.

"Since I was a child, every one of you said that he loved me and spoiled me to the bone. If I break in at this time, I won't allow him to marry. Cousin, do you say he's going to indulge me like I do every time?"

My cousin didn't speak, but looked at me deeply with calm eyes, and it took a long time to squeeze a sentence out of his lips.

"How do you ......"

Half of his words were left unspoken, and he was stuck in his throat and speechless.

I can guess that what he didn't say was probably how you got this kind of thought.

But at that time, I didn't know what kind of mind was tormenting me, and at that time I just didn't want him to marry a wife, and I didn't want him to share the favor he gave me with anyone.

Later, as I grew older, I finally understood the origin of the bitterness that was like a thorn stuck in my throat, and I understood what I had lost in my hesitation and cowardice, but I had lost him forever and ever. ”

"Don't talk about it. ”

Yu Yao took the handkerchief and kept wiping the tears on Ji Wuyou's face. Her face was full of tears, but her expression was not sad, like a fragile and fragile glass doll, numb and empty, and it was heart-wrenching to watch.

Hearing this, Ji Wu smiled sadly: "So, I can't even tolerate the smoke and sunset." ”

She lowered her eyebrows, and her eyes had a dim and uncertain light floating: "The heart of liking a person is extremely narrow, it is exclusive, it is exclusive, and it is the only one."

Yu Yao, if you have someone you like in the future, you will understand this mood.

In the days and nights that I was absent, his spirit, his scolding, and his fireworks were all accompanied by another person.

That irreparable regret has always been around me, and it still is.

It's not just about regretting the past.

I was jealous of Jiang Tinglan and couldn't control my hostility towards her. Not only her, but everyone who had the slightest connection with her in her life, even objects that reminded me of her, wanted to destroy.

As long as I think of these years, they are harmonious and harmonious, and I can't suppress my irritability and grievances.

I suddenly understand now the desperate madness of my uncle's unfavored concubines. ”

Yu Yao was stunned, and finally understood why she, who had always been suitable for advancing and retreating, was in the mansion for a month, and she did not hesitate to tear her face with her stepwife to expel the sunset from the mansion.

Was she afraid that one day she would become like that?

"No, how could you, miss?"

"Won't it?" Ji Wu muttered to himself, the world is impermanent, how will it change in the future, who can absolutely control it?

Just like when she was a child, she was carefree and carefree, and her biggest worry every day was just those obscure and boring books. The people around her all looked at her with envy, and concluded that she had a smooth life, wealth and stability.

Indeed, the queen mother of the world can rely on her, and the entire Ji family is backed by. Even if you finish the second half of your life with your eyes closed, there is no reason why you can't go on. But this road, she is getting narrower and narrower, twists and turns, muddy, and she can't get along with herself.

Flowers bloom at every step of the way, and they are all doomed.

Since his wedding, she has forcibly suppressed the sourness in her heart, and has not allowed anyone to mention the news related to him, and has put away the delicate things and looked at them again.

She is not sure that when she gets along in the future, she will be able to make clear boundaries and keep her heart. It's not as good as the Chu River and Han realm, and it's irrelevant.

I think the rest of her life is almost like this, living in a small yard of her own, day after day, repeating the past time without surprise or joy. Maybe slowly, there will be one more person around you, who is the right person and respects each other. There is no heartbeat, but it is as plain as water to go through this life.

The funny thing is that the heart she thought was like stopping water, and with Jiang Tinglan's death, there were ripples. When her cousin came, she was already vaguely aware of something.

She raised her eyes to look at him, thinking that he would say a few words of greeting like before, but she didn't want him to get straight to the point and directly break the embarrassment in her heart.

"Do you still remember what you said to me when Huaiyu got married? I swallowed the remaining half of the words in my stomach and never said them again.

Now, I want to finish that sentence.

'Why didn't you tell me earlier?'

That's what I wanted to say to you at the time, if it could have been earlier, even if it was just a month, a day, or even a quarter of an hour.

I will also do my best to fulfill your wishes.

My only sister, even if she braves the world, she has to make you happy. ”

What was her mood at the time when she heard this? She thought he was blaming her, blaming her for having a mind she shouldn't have.

But it turned out that he only sighed that it was too late.

Even for so long, I have been haunted by her undesirable wishes.

She burst into tears, her smile was bitter, and she couldn't help but be relieved: "Cousin, don't be sad, I've already let it go." ”

"Drop?"

His eyes were clear, and there was a glint that made people hide: "Even if he is lonely and alone now, don't you want to have anything to do with him anymore?"

Lonely and alone, she couldn't help frowning and uncertain thinking of the rumors about his frustration that had become more and more intense recently.

Her heart was so confused that she didn't know what to eat for half a month, until she saw him under the vines in the small yard.

When they met again many years later, he was still the plain white robe of the year, without a trace of decoration, simple and clean, as always. If you really want to compare something with the past, it is just that the high-spirited elite spirit from the past has precipitated into the indifferent vicissitudes of life at this moment.

"I originally thought that until you were wearing a phoenix crown and a xia cloak, you could stand in the light and look at you like this, and God would be kind to me after all. ”

His words are clear and calm, like greetings in ordinary weather. But she was like a fish in her throat, and there were turbulent waves rolling up in her heart.

"Doll, this time, if you don't come, I won't marry, okay?"

If you don't come, I won't marry.

She bowed her head in his almost drowning tenderness, married him in the worried eyes of her parents, in the indignation of her brothers, and in the astonishment of everyone.

Finally did what she had been thinking about for a long time, but had never dared to. From the age of nine until now, there has never been a desire as strong.

After marriage, he spoiled her to the bone, even more than before.

And she is becoming more and more sober and watching herself become narrow-minded a little bit.

In the past, Jiang Tinglan was just a name to her, but now, she is like a thorn, pierced in the flesh and unable to pull it out or press it in, stuck in the most obvious place, making her feel painful.

The better he treats her, the more uncontrollably she thinks that this love has been given to another person before. This unquenchable jealousy embarrassed her, annoyed her, and was powerless.

Sometimes, she even thinks that if there is no later step, it would be a blessing to let them become the most beautiful sighs in each other's hearts. Ruthless and loveless, not jealous or jealous, may not have a bad life.

may be in the twilight of life, looking back on the past, you will regret, remember, and sigh. At least in the second half of his life, he doesn't mourn or suffer for anyone, he wantonly follows his heart, so chic and frank, meaningless and fearless.

Do you regret it? more or less.

But every time she saw him, whether it was a serious lecture at a glance, or a smile on the corner of his mouth and a gentle look in his eyes, countless brilliant fireworks burst out in her heart in an instant, burning so hot that her heart palpitated.

Every now and then, she suddenly felt that as long as she could be with him, everything was worth it.

She is trapped in an endless cycle, and only by letting go of her obsession can she be reborn, and this obsession is her love.

Ji Wuyou gently smoothed the frowning eyebrows, but he couldn't smooth the wrinkles at the bottom of his heart.

Maybe everyone's love is like this, and the joys and sorrows are incomplete.

She slowly pulled the corners of her mouth and took a deep breath, since she couldn't give up, it was better to face the jealousy and unwillingness in her heart. doesn't like Jiang Tinglan, so she erases everything about her, and self-pity is never Ji Wuyou.

The lack has become a thing of the past, and if you can't chase it, you won't chase it, and from now on, time can't be disappointed.

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After thinking about the ending of Ji Wuyou and Zhang Huaiyu in thousands of years, this is the feeling I want to write the most in my heart. Regarding Zhang Huaiyu's past, Ji Wuyou will be jealous, will mind, and will be angry, but in the end she still chooses to insist on what she wants, although there are shortcomings in ancient times, but in the end she still married love. This is also the end of their ancient story.

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