Xu Zhengfeng's funeral was held seven days later, and it was drizzling that day, and many people came. Gu Feng stood in front of the tombstone, he was wearing a black suit, he didn't have an umbrella, the rain fell on his hair, and disappeared immediately.

Through the crowd, I saw the person in the photo on the tombstone smiling gently, it was the first time I saw him in Gu's house.

I was wearing a black skirt and standing behind with Xiaoxi in my arms, the weather was a little cool, and I felt cold when I blew on my body.

After the funeral, I walked back with Xiaoxi in my arms, the ground was muddy, I stumbled a little, and a pair of hands supported me in time.

I looked up and saw Gu Feng's thin jaw, and when I looked up, the hair on his forehead was wet with rain and stuck to his forehead.

He said, "I'll send you back." ”

I felt weak and didn't refuse and told him the name of the hotel.

Neither of them spoke along the way, and there was silence in the car, except for the sound of windshield wipers brushing against the windshield.

I got up early in the morning, Xiaoxi was probably sleepy and fell asleep in my arms.

WeChat has new information coming in.

I took a look, it was Yu Chen.

There was an emergency operation last night, and he was busy from last night until now before he got out of the operating room, and he just finished the operation and said that he would pick me up.

I replied to him, I was almost at the hotel, let him have a good rest.

He said okay, come and see me later.

I'll reply to him, no, I'll see you tomorrow.

He didn't reply.

When the hotel arrived, I thanked Gu Feng, got out of the car with Xiaoxi, walked into the hotel lobby, and when I turned around and waited for the elevator, I saw that the car at the door was still there.

The elevator just came, and I walked in with Xiaoxi in my arms.

I put Xiaoxi on the bed, and she slept darkly and sweetly.

It was raining a little just now, my hair was a little wet, I felt tired, and I just lay down in bed.

When I woke up again, I was woken up by a phone call, I touched my phone, and it was Xiaowan calling.

She said come to me.

Half an hour later, someone knocked on the door, I opened the door, Xiaowan walked in, lifted the thing in her hand, it was three cups of milk tea, I smiled.

"Your favorite milk tea. She brought me a glass.

I took a few sips and it didn't seem to taste as good as before.

"Qingqing, are you okay?" Xiaowan put down the milk tea.

I rubbed the cup of milk tea: "It's good." ”

"There's nothing wrong with the company, right?" she asked.

The day after Xu Zhengfeng left, lawyer Liu came to me directly. I signed them one by one. He made a will in advance, and with the confirmation of the equity transfer before, everything went smoothly.

"It's still coping. "Zhongzheng Group is operating very well in the hands of Xu Zhengfeng, the business is stable, the team is capable, for me, the largest shareholder and the so-called heir who suddenly appeared, most of the shareholders have no objections, the company system is perfect, everything is going according to the process system, of course, there are a small number of shareholders who question, but it does not affect.

Ms. Liu and her team assisted me, and I gradually became familiar with the company's business in the past few days.

Zhongzheng Group is Xu Yaozong's hard work, Xu Zhengfeng gave up his love for his father's hard work, but I don't have any feelings for this company, my surname is Xia, not Xu.

Xu Zhengfeng transferred the company's equity to me, made a will notarization I am his heir, they all took their own lives for this company, and even took other people's lives, I will do my best, but I don't plan to take my own life for it.

Everyone wants a different life, and I want to do what I want to do and live the life I want.

Xiaowan knew that Xu Zhengfeng was my biological father, and she was worried that I would be sad, so she came to see me.

Those who have left have left, and those who are alive will continue to move on.

To be alive is never easy.

I now have my own life, my emotional home, and my daughter, who is all I have.

Xiaowan looked at me: "You're not happy. ”

I laughed, hung my head slightly, and asked her an irrelevant topic: "Xiaowan, what do you say is the meaning of life?"

She was silent for a long time before she said slowly: "My spiritual leader, Mr. Cai Lan, said that the meaning of life is 'like a story, at first, one person lives in a small house, after getting married, two people live, and strive to buy a bigger house, and after giving birth to children, buy a bigger house to live in. Later, when the children left one by one, the big house was very troublesome to maintain, so it was enough to replace the small one with enough room for two people, and when one of them died, the remaining people would change to a smaller one. ’”

Two people in a city have three meals for four seasons.

After Mr. Cai Lan's words, there is another paragraph, he said: "What is the meaning of life? Eat better, sleep better, play more, don't envy others, don't care about constraints, save more life experience, and die without regrets, this is the greatest meaning, it's not complicated at all." ”

It's a simple thing, but sometimes the simpler the thing, the more we don't understand.

People always have too many desires, and if they can't give up, they become unwanted, or they become a death in their hearts.

My heart ached.

I laughed again, isn't it just standing and talking without backache, everyone understands the truth, but there are not many people who still can't live this life.

The midday sun was scorching, and I didn't want money to pour in, and suddenly I felt very tired.

"Haven't you eaten yet, are you going out to eat?" Xiaowan asked.

"Order takeout, don't want to go out. I said lazily.

"I said sister, you have been nesting in the hotel for a week, you are not bored, Xiaoxi is bored. Xiaowan said angrily.

After I came back from the hospital that night, I didn't get out of the hotel, Yu Chen came over after work, and wanted to take me and Xiaoxi out for a walk, I didn't want to go out, so he took Xiaoxi out to play.

He may have told Xiaowan to find her to be a lobbyist.

"Why didn't you go on your honeymoon?" "Newlywed Yan'er, I remember she said before that she had plans for a honeymoon.

"I have it, it's unstable now, the honeymoon is put on hold for now, and I'll talk about it later. She suddenly felt a little shy.

This is the happiest thing I've heard in the past few days, telling her to be careful, don't be frizzy, don't eat indiscriminately, and give up milk tea first......

She rolled her eyes, disgusted by my broken thoughts.

I laughed.

Xiao Xi had always wanted a younger brother or sister, and she knew that she should be happy.

Xiaowan said that she wanted to take her father to T City, and since her mother died, her father has been living alone in his hometown. If he knew that he was about to become a grandfather, he would be very happy. When a man is old, he looks forward to his children and grandchildren.

I think of my mom and dad, and if they knew they were grandparents, they would be happy. and Xia Yu, who is also an uncle.

"In fact, we have been missing all the time, missing yesterday, and missing today. - Xi Murong

I suddenly wanted to see them.

Xiaowan was in my room until the evening, and was recalled by Ling Yusen with a phone call, complaining: "It's really annoying, like a housekeeper." There was a slight smile in his eyebrows.

I watched her laugh, and she was embarrassed by me, and she laughed too. That's good, sometimes happiness is that you like to take care of me, and I want to be managed by you.

After having dinner in the room, Xiao Xi had been playing with her frog, and when I saw the frog, I remembered what happened in the hospital that day, and I saw Gu Feng's nervous expression when I woke up.

"Mom, why didn't Uncle Yu come today?" Yu Chen didn't come today, I didn't notice.

I touched Xiaoxi's head: "Uncle Yu may be busy with work." ”

The next day, when I got in the car to G City, I was still in a bit of a trance.

"Mom, where are we going?" Xiao Xi looked curiously at the white walls and tiles outside the car window.

"Go...... Grandpa and Grandma's house. I said.

"Grandpa, grandma?" Xiao Xi's eyes immediately widened.

She asked me before why other children have grandparents and grandparents, but why Xiaoxi didn't. At that time, I didn't know how to answer her, I could only tell her that they lived far, far away.

I was very worried, in the past few years, through Xiaowan, I know that my parents and Xia Yu are doing well, Xia Yu graduated from college the year before last and then went on to graduate school. My dad is also retired and stays home with my mom every day.

When I got off the bus, I was still a little uncertain.

It's still the same building, with its mottled façade that highlights its history.

I stood at the top of the stairs and hesitated.

"Xiaoqing?" Suddenly, someone called out from behind, with an uncertain tone.

I turned my head and saw my dad carrying a bag of vegetables, probably after a long walk, sweat running down his forehead and his face tanned.

He didn't seem to have changed much, and at the sight of me, his face flashed with surprise and delight, and then he started laughing, still mildly.

"Dad, it's me. "Suddenly I stopped worrying.

"It's too hot in here, let's go up first. He asked me to go first, and suddenly I noticed something, and said suspiciously, "Who is this little doll?"

"Xiaoxi, call grandpa. I touched her head.

"Grandpa!" the little girl said.

My dad's eyes widened, and he stared at Xiaoxi widely, and suddenly grinned: "Hahaha, I have a granddaughter." Come, grandpa, hug!"

My dad immediately stuffed the vegetables in his hand into me, squatted down and picked up Xiaoxi: "Let's go, grandpa will take you to grandma." ”

Xiao Xi smiled with crooked eyebrows.

After my dad finished speaking, he went upstairs with his "oh oh", and I hurriedly followed with the dishes.

"Yinshuang, open the door!" shouted my dad before he could get to the house.

The door opened, revealing a familiar face to me.

My mother had water in her hands and said with a smile, "Why did you shout from afar?"

My dad hugged Xiaoxi and showed her: "Look at who this is?"

"Grandma!" Xiao Xi shouted very smartly, and after shouting, she squeezed her eyebrows at me, and I couldn't help laughing.

My mom was stunned, looked at my dad and said, "This is ......"

"This is our granddaughter, Xiaoqing's child!" said my dad happily.

"Grandma hug!" Xiao Xi coquettishly spread her hands.

My mom wiped her hand on the apron in a panic and took Xiaoxi from my dad.

"Mom. "I stepped forward.

She turned her head, and only then did she see me, her eyes were very complicated, surprised, happy, sad, and tangled.

My dad tapped her on the shoulder and said, "Let's go in and talk about it." ”

Not much has changed in the house, there are a few bouquets of fresh lilies on the glass vase on the dining table, my mom loves lilies and my dad buys a few fresh lilies every other week.

My dad boiled water to make tea, Qimen black tea. He used to like to drink green tea, saying that he was refreshing, but then he always worked overtime, and he hurt his stomach when he didn't eat on time, so my mother wouldn't let him drink green tea and buy him black tea.

My dad skillfully scalded the cup, poured the tea into the bowl, made the tea, poured out the first tea soup, filled the water again, stuffed for about 30 seconds, poured it into the fair cup, and evenly divided it into three white porcelain cups. The porcelain white cup, the bright red tea soup, the red and white are distinct. A faint white smoke rose and soon dispersed into the air.

"Xiaoqing, where have you been in the past few years?" My dad brought a cup of tea and put it in front of me, his tone was still as gentle as ever, and nothing seemed to have changed.

In the faint aroma of tea, I told them about the past few years, and my tone was flat. After speaking, I felt a little thirsty and took a sip of tea, which had a rich aroma and mellow taste.

My mother didn't speak, hung her head in silence, and hugged Xiaoxi tightly.

"Grandma, Xiaoxi is about to be squashed. Xiao Xi poked her head out and looked at her with her eyes open.

My mom laughed and touched her head: "I'm sorry, grandma hurt Xiaoxi, right?"

"Xiao Xi doesn't hurt," Xiao Xi winked with a smile, touched her face, stood on tiptoe and kissed her forehead, "Grandma doesn't cry, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt." ”

"Ahem," my dad coughed lightly and stood up, "Xiaoxi, is it okay for grandpa to take you to play with Grandpa Li's little grandson?"

Hearing the play, Xiao Xi's eyes immediately lit up, and she kicked up and threw herself on my dad with a "poof".

"Yo, little one, my grandfather almost can't hold you. My dad laughed.

My dad took Xiaoxi out, and there were only two people left in the house, me and my mother.

After a moment of silence, I considered and spoke: "Mom, Xu Zhengfeng left last week. My mom looked up, there was a moment of shock in her eyes, and then she lowered her head again, and I sighed, "He came here four years ago. He said that he didn't expect you to forgive him, he just hoped that you could live this life peacefully and happily......"

I thought my mother would be emotional, but she was very calm, just sighed, and after a while, she said softly: "The past is gone, who can tell right from wrong." I have resented him and hated him for so many years, in fact, I also know that he couldn't help himself back then, and I just found a reason for my obsession. She raised her head and looked at me, her eyes were complicated, as if there was a mist, "Xiaoqing, mom is sorry for you, I shouldn't vent my resentment on you." ”

My face was cold, I lowered my head, tears fell one after another, and suddenly I felt very wronged, unprecedented grievance. I half-knelt beside her lap and leaned my face on her lap, hot tears wetting the corners of her skirt.

She leaned down and hugged me, and drops of water fell into my hair, one, two, three......

The child has been waiting for the parent to say sorry, and the parent has been waiting for the child to say thank you.

After crying for a while, the two of them slowly calmed down, I looked up, my mother raised her hand to wipe the tears from my face, and I helped her wipe away the undried tears.

After wiping, the two of them laughed with a "flutter", two big cats.

After laughing, my mother stopped talking, pursed her mouth, and then asked, "Is Xiaoxi Gu Feng's child?"

I nodded.

"It's all my mother who hurt you, if it weren't for my ......," she said, her eyes red again.

I shook her hand and shook my head with a smile. I don't blame her, I don't blame anyone, I blame fate for the impermanence? maybe.

Slowly, I realized that there are so many helplessness in life, and any choice has a price, and since you have made a choice, you must bear the corresponding price.

Back then, she forced me to leave him, and I chose to agree, hurting him so badly, this is the price I have to bear.

There was still half a cup of tea in the cup, and I took a sip and the tea cooled and became bitter.

When the tea is hot, the fragrance is mellow. The tea is cold, bitter and cold.

Tea waits for no one, and so does people, and no one is obliged to wait for anyone all the time.

Everyone understands the truth, but the heart is never half a point by others......

After living at home for a few days, my dad and my mom took Xiaoxi out to play every day, and the little girl couldn't wait for it.

Yu Chen called in the middle and asked when we would go back. I said for two days, and he didn't ask if he wanted to come and pick us up.

I didn't invite him to my house, and he didn't mention it.

I asked Sister Zhou to help clean the house in City C, and I was going to pack my luggage and move back to City T after a while.

I thought I would never return to that city, but I eventually came back. Now there is no need to avoid anyone anymore, four years have passed, and everything has passed.

My mother and I reconciled with each other, I have a daughter, Yu Chen, friends, a company, everything is fine, very good.

Over the weekend, Xia Yu returned. Four years ago, he was a naughty little boy and full of boyishness. Four years have passed, and he has faded from his childishness, and has a few years of maturity as a man.

When he saw me, his eyes turned red, and he gritted his teeth and said, "Sister, where did you go? No one grabs chicken legs from me every Chinese New Year, I'm not used to it!"

I wanted to twist his ear, but I found that I couldn't screw it, this kid didn't know what to eat and grew up, so he had to twist his arm and give him a blank look: "It's not big, it's not small." ”

Xiao Xi stood next to her and covered her mouth and smiled.

"Little girl, dare to laugh at uncle, huh?" Xia Yu scratched her squeaky nest, and the little girl rolled on the ground with laughter.

"Stinky boy, it's not light or heavy, if my precious granddaughter is hurt, see if I can spare you!" my mother twisted his ears and laughed.

Hey, I can't screw it, someone else can.

During the meal, Xia Yu sandwiched a chicken leg to Xiao Xi: "Oh, does my uncle hurt you very much?"

Xiao Xi's eyes narrowed with a smile, revealing a row of small teeth: "Thank you, uncle, uncle is the most handsome!

The little girl has no bottom line, and if she has milk, she is a mother.

"Who is Uncle Shuai?" Xia Yu asked.

"It's another grandfather's uncle. "Xiao Xi is talking about Xu Zhengfeng.

There was a moment of silence at the dinner table.

"Dinner, just the two of you talk. I smiled and glared at them both as I continued to pick up the rice in the bowl.

After eating, Xia Yu and I helped clean up the table, my dad was making tea, and my mom was playing with Xiaoxi.

"Sister, Gu Feng still doesn't know that Xiao Xi is his daughter?" Xia Yu handed over the bowl.

"Hmm. I answered, put the bowl in the sink, turned on the faucet, and the water came out and hit my hands coldly.

"Sister, do you still love him?" Xia Yu looked at me with a serious expression.

I picked up the rag and started washing the dishes, casually asking, "What's the difference between loving and not loving?"

"If you love him, go and tell him. Xia Yu looked serious.

I paused and continued to wash the dishes: "Not everything is so simple. ”

"It's as simple as that, if you love him, tell him to hold the hand of the son and grow old with the son; Xia Yu said.

I was stunned, turned my head to look at him, his face was awe-inspiring, and I smiled: "Is our Xiaoyu in love, and the love is a set?"

"I ......" Xia Yu's face turned red, even his ears were red, he was really a shy and simple child.

"Take it home next time and show it to us. I winked at him, and to my surprise, he even had a red neck.

"Mom, Xiaoyu has a girlfriend. I laughed and told my mom.

"Really, where is the girl?Is it a classmate at school?How long have you been dating?" My mother hugged Xiaoxi and walked to the kitchen, asking as she walked.

"Uncle, does Xiao Xi have an aunt?" Xiao Xi also joined in the fun.

Love him, just tell him, is it really that simple?

After staying at home for a few more days, Mr. Liu was urging me to go back to the company to deal with some things, and I had to leave.

Xiao Xi reluctantly waved goodbye to her grandparents and uncles, and the white walls and tiles outside the car window passed quickly.

I suddenly remembered that four years ago, on the sixth day of the seventh month, the day before Chinese Valentine's Day, he and I set off early in the morning, and he was going to visit my parents. He was dressed in a formal suit that day, his hair was meticulously combed, and his expression was light, but his slightly tight neck betrayed his mood. At the time, I also quipped if he was nervous.

I shook my head, not wanting to think about the past.

Yu Chen helped me find a house near the company, and when the car drove downstairs, he was standing at the door.

The car stopped, I just got out of the car with Xiao Xi in my arms, he came over, took Xiao Xi, helped me close the car door, and asked gently, "Are you tired?"

I smiled and shook my head.

It was hot, and there was a slight sweat on his forehead. He looked a little tired.

"Have you been busy lately?" I asked.

"It's fine. He smiled and led the way.

The house is on the seventh floor, he took out the key to open the door, the house is very clean, he hired a part-time worker to clean the house in advance, he has always been so careful and considerate.

He handed me the key, I looked at him and said, "Thank you." ”

He looked at me for a while, lowered his eyes, and smiled, his smile was a little bitter: "You are always so polite to me. ”

As soon as Xiaoxi landed on the ground, she ran around in the new house.

"There's something going on in the hospital, so I'll go first. He looked up, smiled softly, and walked to the door.

"Yu Chen," I took his hand, a little worried, "you, what's wrong?"

He jerked around and pulled me into his arms, his arm so hard that it hurt me a little.

"Yu ...... I looked up, and just as I was about to speak, his palm was on the back of my neck, and his lips were on it. It's so urgent, it's as intense as the fear of losing something.

My eyes widened, and before I could react, I just felt like I couldn't breathe.

After a while, he let go of me, buried his head in my neck, and muttered, "I thought you wouldn't be back......"

A little sour in his heart, he raised his hand and patted him on the back, as gently as he comforted an injured child.

After a while, he raised his head, looked a little shy, smiled, and said, "I have to go back to the hospital, you and Xiaoxi have a good rest, and I will come to see you at night." ”

"Hmm. I looked at him and smiled, stood on tiptoe and put a gentle kiss on his face, saying, "Go ahead." ”

Yu Chen left, I sat on the sofa in a daze, the sofa was soft, I curled up my legs, the whole person was deep in the sofa, my head buried in my arms, I felt a little tired.