Chapter 19: The Heart Is Dead
Sister Zhao took a puff of cigarette, glanced at her lightly, and spit out two words lazily: "Sit down." ”
Gu Wanwan sat beside her, thought for a while and then said with difficulty: "I know that Sister Zhao really cares about me, and I also know that you want me to live cleanly." But being cornered again and again by reality, those so-called insistences can't help but be a little ridiculous. I remember you said to me that the most important thing for a person is to live. I want to save my brother and that old bastard's debt, and even though I always say things that don't concern me, I don't want my mom to tear her heart out again. ”
"Have you ever thought about yourself? even a little bit? Wanwan, you are so distressing. You are a good girl, and you should have a good result, find a man who loves you and live a plain life. Sister Zhao sighed lengthily: "I don't want you to be like me, superficial scenery, but in reality, in the end, it will only be lonely for a lifetime." ”
Gu Wanwan smiled sadly: "Whether it's lonely or lonely in my life, I don't have any extravagant hopes for a long time." I don't live for myself, it's my younger brother Xiangyang. ”
"You can still love, and when you meet the man you really love again, you won't think like that. Listen to Sister Zhao's words and live well, not for anything else, just for yourself. Sister Zhao persuaded earnestly, hoping that she would listen.
"Sister......" Gu Wanwan leaned on Sister Zhao's shoulder with a tired face, her eyes were so silent that she couldn't see a trace of light: "Sister, my heart died seven years ago, and I won't love anymore." I was scared, really scared ......"
"Silly girl, it's just a deception, it's just a scumbag, why are you so brainless and you can't let go? There are more good men in the world than him, you don't want to trap yourself in that death row, he has gone far, far away. Even if you wait for this life, he won't come back, let alone feel guilty!"
"It's not that I still love him, it's just that it hurt so much at the time that I don't want to have a second time. Let's not talk about the sad things. I came here today to ask Sister Zhao for something. Gu Wanwan bit her lower lip, and her hands were about to break when they were twisted together. Seeing her like this, Sister Zhao didn't need to ask and knew why: "The 200,000, I'll pay it back for you first, you don't have to worry, don't say return it to me, Boss Fu won't lose me." ”
"Sister Zhao......" Gu Wanwan looked at her gratefully, wanting to say thank you, but she understood that the word 'thank you' was not needed for her, so she could only be silent, and it took a long time to muster up the courage to say: "Actually, I didn't come to Sister Zhao because of this incident, I want to work in Jing Yishan, isn't it still ...... Is there a shortage of dancers? I ......."
"No, I can't. Zhao Fang rejected her without thinking about it: "Wanwan, you are not suitable for this kind of work, I can help you as much as possible, don't think about this matter." ”
"I didn't have a choice. Gu Wanwan said to her very calmly: "I have already handed myself over, nothing can be changed unless I can turn back time, I must take this step, this is my choice, let me go on." ”
Zhao Fang was shocked, and her heart twitched fiercely: "What did you hand it over?"
Gu Wan smiled and said to herself: "Actually, what's the point of guarding those imaginary things? People like me have long been innocent, others don't believe it, even I don't believe it sometimes, Sister Zhao, except for Xiang Yang, I don't care what I lose or what I gain." No one can hurt me, because ...... I don't have a heart anymore. ”