Returning from the shisha courtyard, the four of us had a meal together, and it was seven o'clock in the evening. George and Edward drove back to Abu Dhabi, and Lian Pian and I stood on the side of the road and waved goodbye to them, watching the car disappear into the dust, both of us feeling a little lost.

"Edward is gone, and the next time we meet, we will have to wait at least a week. Lian Pian sighed, but became excited again in an instant, "However, it is because of a certain distance that I can feel worried." ”

I whispered "um", to Musa, I was now more than concerned, any random word, any scene I walked through, I could think of him.

Lian Pian tilted his head to look at me: "Xixi, your face looks bad." ”

"Maybe it's because the hookah is sucking too hard. I made an excuse and thought about what George had said, and all kinds of fragments were going back and forth in my head. For a while, I didn't know what to think of my relationship with Moussa. In the end, did I help him or hurt him?

"By the way, Xixi, I haven't found a chance to ask you before, do you need anything to prepare for that Arab man's wedding? I can't go with you to the wedding, but I can help you prepare. ”

She woke me up with a single word, and then I realized that I didn't know anything about the wedding customs here at this juncture.

After thinking about it, although he was very reluctant, in order to prevent mistakes, he gritted his teeth and called Ayub.

"Cece, is there something wrong?" Ayub picked up.

"Hmm......" I said in a slightly embarrassed voice, "are you busy? I want to ask you something." ”

"I'm not busy, it's the women's carnival now, and I don't have anything to do. ”

The female guests were reveling, I was slightly stunned, trying not to imagine the joyful scene, clearing my mind, and asked clearly: "May I ask you for the wedding here, do you want money?"

"We don't need money, we come empty-handed, and we're happy. ”

"So, what should I wear? casual or formal?"

"It doesn't matter, it can be a little more formal. ”

In this way, I didn't really need to bother to prepare anything, and I was secretly relieved, thanked Ayubu, and couldn't wait to hang up the phone.

"By the way...... Ayub seemed to suddenly remember something, stopped me from hanging up, and added, "The invitation I gave you was sent to the female guests, and only the address of the hotel was written. Are there any men among the friends you are going to bring? Tomorrow night you can attend a banquet for the men, and it will be held at Moses' house. After saying that, Ayub gave me Mosa's home address without saying a word, and I couldn't help but remember it.

In hindsight, I hurriedly shirked it: "No, no, my friend can't go to the men's banquet, thank you." Then he hung up the phone, and he was shocked. For some reason, talking to Ayub now always makes me feel inexplicably timid and empty-hearted. Although his words faded away, the address kept hovering in my mind.

"What's wrong?" Lian Pian looked at me suspiciously.

"Nothing. I stared at my fingers that kept wringing, trying to calm myself, but after tossing for a long time, my breath softened, and I whispered to Lian Pian, "Tomorrow night, you can go for a walk with me." ”

She froze, stared at me for a few seconds, and agreed.

Women's Day, Men's Day, Men's Day, why drag the battle line for so long? The night is hard enough, and we have to count the time to cross three hurdles, and every inch is heart-wrenching.

That night, I lay in bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep, surrounded by the smell of Musa. I emerged from the barrier-like quilt and sat on the windowsill with my knees crossed, staring at the quiet city in the middle of the night. The breath is congested, as if a glimpse of the green new world at the skylight from the cage, but there is an unreachable grievance.

I held myself like this, half-asleep, half-awake, and sat until dawn.

During the day, I received a call from Yun Yushu, who had just finished all the subjects, a few days later than we finished.

"I'm sorry, I've been busy reviewing these days, so I haven't contacted you much. Yun Yushu actually apologized for this.

"It's okay, I'm pretty busy these days. I said lightly.

This tone made Yun Yushu a little embarrassed, and he was silent for a while, and then asked me softly, "Recently, are you okay?"

"It's good. ”

"You were too tired a while ago, I'll borrow the kitchen in your room these days and make some soup for you every day, okay?"

I was a little stunned, and my tone was a little indifferent because of my weakness: "Don't bother you so much, I'm not used to it." ”

He smiled: "Don't shirk, you'll get used to it in the future." ”

"It's still a long way to go, and I want to be quiet for the next two days. "My attitude is very resolute, and I don't want to face any emotional aggression for the time being. Yun Yushu expressed two words of understanding and hung up the phone stupidly.

I closed my eyes and stood silently in front of the window. Suddenly, I realized that the real feeling of exhaustion was that I had more than enough strength but not enough heart.

In the evening, the streets and alleys are thin and drunk. Lian Pian and I first got into a taxi, and after getting off, we pretended to stroll unintentionally and walked outside a delicate two-story villa. I remembered the address given by Ayub clearly, and although I couldn't get in, I couldn't help but want to see it. I knew it would be sad, but I still couldn't stop the temptation to get closer, even if it was close, separated by a hard wall.

This area is said to be the wealthy area of Dubai, although the appearance of the villa is similar, but this villa is surrounded by colorful lights, shining, and decorated with night.

"Is this Christmas? But Christmas is over. Lian Pian didn't know why, and when he saw that I didn't answer, he dragged a passerby and asked casually.

The pedestrian shook his head, his eyes flowing with joy: "It's not Christmas, this is the wedding arrangement, this is a happy event." ”

My heart sank hard, looking at this lonely shining villa in the silence, and hearing the sadness that was rising like a tide in my heart. Was this Mouses' home, or was it his and his wife's future home?

The sound of singing and dancing laughter came intermittently from the villa, blowing, playing and singing, and it was very lively. The pedestrian listened to it and laughed loudly, "Look at this posture, I have to celebrate all night tonight, and I have to make trouble." ”

I listened quietly to the laughter coming from the villa, and gradually there was a thick and thick vapor, rising in the air, and then slowly and rapidly pressing in the snort, real and urgent. In the wind and dust, I am weak and small, and even more delusive and ridiculous. I took out my phone and carefully read all the text messages between me and Musa, a few, not much, but all the correspondence has been engraved. Silently, I ticked Musa's name and clicked under "Delete all information about this contact".

The record is empty.

"Let's go. I took a deep breath and pulled Lian Pian's arm.

"So fast? I want to go in and have a look. Lian Pian stood on tiptoe and looked at it, seeing that I was not interested at all, and covered her mouth in panic, "Is this villa with lanterns the Arab ......?"

"Let's go. I repeated.

She didn't object any further.

Confused and tired, I never felt that life was so long and tired. Helplessly consuming time, and being consumed by time. It seems that I can't breathe, only the depression and breathlessness that are full of heart and chest are left, and I only feel that my life is going to wear out in this brilliant lantern, and the edges and corners are not spared.

"Xixi, don't be like this, you haven't been together for long, it's not worth your sadness. Lian Pian looked at me with a sad expression, very helpless, and began to motivate me enthusiastically, "You see me and Bill, come and go quickly, I was a little sad at the time, and I got better soon." There is no hurdle that cannot be passed, and there is no feeling that cannot be forgotten, find a new love, and soon forget the old love......"

I held Lian Pian's hand, closed my eyes, and suddenly said tiredly: "Lian Pian, stop talking, let me lean on your shoulder." ”

She fell silent and struggled to straighten my back, and I leaned my head gently up, closing my eyes to recuperate.

After a long time, I opened my mouth: "Lian Pian, in a foreign country, it's really lonely, isn't it?"

"Don't be so absolute, you still have me, I have you. Lian Pian let me lean on her shoulder, stroked my head and said, "Don't we need love because we are lonely, and why should we become more lonely because of love?"

I shook my head: "Two kinds of loneliness, not the same. ”

She was silent, and suddenly sighed, as if she didn't know what to say, and just kept repeating, "It's going to be okay, everything is going to be okay." ”

yes, everything will pass. My eyes were flushed, my eyes closed, leaning on her shoulder, and I didn't say anything.

Counting the hour hand, counting the minute hand, counting the second hand, the day has still arrived.

George came to pick me up at the hotel and we arrived at the camel arena first. In traditional weddings, camel racing was supposed to take place from the desert to the groom's doorstep. The crowd of onlookers along the way cheered and cheered for the riders who participated in the race. But now, due to the conditions of the city, the camel race has been changed to a camel arena. But this did not stop the crowd from rejoicing, and the unknown crowd came over, hearing that it was a camel race for the wedding, and they all gathered around to watch and bless it.

Sitting far away at the back of the arena, I saw Mousa standing at the finish line. On the day of the wedding, he was wearing a black robe and stood there with a solemn face. With the scorching sunlight, his figure became taller and more handsome, and not far behind him, two camels slept quietly, like sculptures. The boiling atmosphere of the arena infected everyone, and the surrounding area was bustling, but I felt that the heavens and the earth were quiet at this moment, and there was no more sound.

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