……

"Boss, we succeeded! Sword Immortal's global box office is 958 million US dollars! The 58th place in the global all-time box office, just above the head of the Harry Potter series! And this time the domestic box office is also particularly powerful!"

Lu was stunned and staggered Erlang's legs, holding his small beer belly, full of ambition and high spirits: "We hit Marvel's lighting party head-on in the summer file...... This is the first time in the world! Although the North American box office reputation is not good, the Asian box office is red everywhere! Look at what the media say, ah, say that we have created a real era of domestic superhero blockbusters......

Cao Fang corrected: "We don't want to make superhero movies, you know. ”

Lu Zhen scratched his head and sneered: "But we are indeed still in the stage of imitating them......"

Cao Fang sat weakly in the boss's chair, staring blankly at the dark sky outside the window, Lu was still gushing, but the words reached his ears, but they became softer and softer.

"Boss, I believe you very much now, hurry up, the set of universes you said, next shoot Sword Fairy 2, and then the same universe, do different types of movies, anyway, the policy has been liberalized, the next one will be supernatural, right? Romance is okay! It will take another ten years! We will fight against DC Marvel......"

……

I don't know when, Lu Jing came closer, bent his waist to stare at Cao Fangfang, and then slapped him violently.

Cao Fang was taken aback: "What are you doing?"

Lu lowered his voice and said worriedly, "What's wrong with you?

"Oh. Cao Fang rubbed the bridge of his nose: "I'll just be gone." ”

Lu Jing's eyes were very strange: "Gone away?"

Cao Fang was also very strange: "Ang, what's wrong." ”

"I didn't speak again ten minutes ago...... You're silent, you're scary. Lu muttered, "Aren't you too tired and uncomfortable?" I know a beautiful doctor who is punctual, do you want to introduce you?"

Cao Fangfang was really scared this time.

Ten minutes?

He felt like he was in a daze for a moment, and then he ...... Ten seconds of effort.

Before Lu Jingzhen left, he asked, "The doctor you said ...... What kind of department?"

Lu turned his head in surprise and took a deep breath: "Psychiatry." ”

……

"You've been bitten by a 'black dog'. The young female doctor said.

Cao Fang was dressed in a suit and leather shoes, his face was expressionless, with his current status and temperament, he had cultivated a villainous spirit, just sitting there gave people a lot of pressure, and he was in a bad mood now: "Sorry, doctor, I don't have time to guess riddles with you here, I still have a lot of work to do." ”

The female doctor was a little helpless, wrote a few strokes in the book, and said patiently: "The black dog is depression." ”

Cao Fangfang reacted quickly at this time, and smiled disdainfully: "Impossible." ”

"You don't have to reject it, it's a very common urban disease, it's just a psychological cold, but you have to face it. The female doctor pretended to be smart and said, "Of course, if you don't know Mr. Cao, you won't be willing to come over to register...... Every second counts, every inch of time is ......"

She saw that Cao Fang's expression was cold again, and she made a surrender gesture: "Okay, okay, don't talk nonsense." Your symptoms are typical, with a confused mind, alternating lethargy and insomnia, chronic depressed mood, and feeling like you're separated by a layer no matter what you do...... There is a time barrier, you are in a daze for a minute, in fact it may be half an hour, I can give you a mild treatment plan, it is best not to use medicine first......"

"Doctor, I know you're probably right. ”

Cao Fangfang couldn't help but interject: "But I'm here to solve the problem as soon as possible, I have a lot of work on hand, I want to ...... I want to ......"

The eyes of the two people converged on his hands.

Cao Yifang had habitually strengthened his tone with gestures, but when it came to work, his mind suddenly became chaotic, followed by a strong sense of anxiety, and then his hands began to tremble, shaking uncontrollably.

The female doctor understood: "You want to take the medicine right away, go back to work right away." ”

He pressed his hands firmly on his legs and nodded.

The female doctor pondered for a moment and nodded decisively: "OK, your symptoms are completely suitable for medication, but in addition to taking medicine, you still have to cooperate with the treatment plan." ”

……

Cao Fang did not mention it to others.

Cold.

He began to take his medicine on time and go to the company normally, but he handed over more things to the assistant to arrange, and pushed down some dispensable meetings.

He needed blue light, and the doctor said that exercise could secrete dopamine and endorphins, so he went for a morning run every day.

He found time to meet, eat, and chat with some old friends.

The flamboyant jokes are very bad, and the iron-headed baby shows off his gluteal muscles seriously, but he still laughs very happily, and he himself laughs very happily, but ...... He knew he should be happy, but it felt like ......

I don't feel it.

Separation of soul and flesh.

The wife finally found something she really liked to do, Cao Fang didn't want to increase the psychological pressure on her, so she didn't say anything, and every day before calling, she wrote a draft, prepared a normal tone and expression, and chatted for half an hour with a performative attitude.

After hanging up the phone, I felt so tired that I just wanted to sleep.

Before going to bed, he went on the Internet and looked at the evaluation of his film and himself on the Internet.

He fell for the evil and skipped all praise and adoration and focused on the invincing and curses.

Cao Fang felt that he had lost the ability to think, but he had countless jobs to do, like ...... There are a thousand puzzles in his head, and each piece of the puzzle is a small maze, and he has to piece these mazes together, put them together into a big maze, and then walk through it.

Impossible...... Can't do it......

I'm just an ordinary person.

I'm a wreck now...... I can't do anything, I can't shoot my next film...... It couldn't be better than this one......

He came to the terrace, which was their new house, and the landscape terrace could see the winding Bund river, as well as the city that never sleeps under the cover of night, and the lights of thousands of homes.

The evening breeze is cool and pleasant.

I can't control myself to imagine the good because I have lost these things in my head...... Or maybe these things are there, but they don't have a taste.

It's a mess of thoughts.

The ambition of the whole company to achieve the great things he had promised...... The media and the audience, as well as the expectations of those fans, his family is proud of him and trusts him, and his wife wants children......

thought of the filth and filth of Jiang Chen's gang, Qin Xiaoni's temperament changed drastically, and thought of the Du products, xing transactions, and even those unknown murders, the bones under the spotlight.

Thinking of what Tian Anbang asked, what is your ambition?

He found it later, but he found that it was very heavy, like a thousand pounds of boulder, like a black dog that bit him and dragged him back desperately.

Before he died, the old man said that he lived well when he was alive, and he was not in a hurry when he died.

But judging from the suicide note he left, the old man was in a hurry after all, and there were so many unfinished ambitions.

He couldn't help but take it over, the expectations and trust of countless people, and countless slander and abuse......

Cao Fang moved a stool, standing on it, the wind seemed to be stronger, he looked down, the floor was very high, and below was an abyss, and it was like a peaceful place, like a beautiful foreign country.

Man is lonely after all.

Standing there, it felt amazing, taking this step, this life was over, all the troubles and troubles were gone, and he didn't feel scared and frightened at all.

Depression is magical, it doesn't necessarily make you want to die in agony, but to a large extent, it deprives you of your emotions...... Happiness, sorrow, and even the desire to survive are gone.

He stood there and thought, what about dying?

Not so much.

He moved.

Xie Yanting was carrying two large bags of things in her hand, and when she opened the door, the living room automatically lit up, and even a stupid electronic welcome sounded ...... This is the bad taste that Cao Fang strongly demanded at the beginning.

Xie Yanting stood in the hallway, and her heart suddenly tightened.

She saw Cao Fangfang's back standing in front of the terrace, with a chair placed next to him.

"Husband?"

Cao Fang turned around, his shoulders seemed to be weighing on a thousand pounds, he was slightly rickety, his face was hidden in the darkness that the living room light could not illuminate, and only his eyes were shining.

Like a wounded old wolf in the wilderness.

The eyes are sharper than those of an eagle, and there is something in them that beasts do not have.

The eagle and wolf Gu that Old Man Tian wants is forbearance, moving forward with a heavy load, and a difficult job...... It is the stubborn insistence on the separation of good and evil.

The real bones of those sub-literary circles want to export Chinese culture, and what they want is the future.

Cao Fangfang slowly walked to the living room light, smiling warmly, as if he was back then, and opened his arms: "Why did you come back suddenly? Come here, let me hug and see if I have gained weight again recently." ”

Xie Yanting put her mind at ease, kicked off the high heels on her feet hard, threw away the package in her hand, and flew over.

……

The last paragraph in Old Man Tian's suicide note, Cao Fang never remembered.

I just remembered it.

There are many things in life that you don't want to do but can't do, that's responsibility, and there are many things in life that you want to do but can't, that's destiny.