423 STOP-2: New Purgatory City: "Thoughtful Heart"

-Hideka's subconscious-

04：22 AM

"I finally understood, the last word of Xiuxiang is incense, so most people will call her 'Xiaoxiang', and the other two words are not 'Xiaoxiang', it seems that this is Uncle Qin, ah no, it is Qin's father's idea, and he has never forgotten his father. When Xiuxiang thought of this, her heart was very warm.

"So that's the case", Xiuxiang realized that in fact, everyone was thinking about her, but she didn't know it...... When she thought of this, she couldn't help but feel uncomfortable and couldn't help but feel sour.

"It's really hard for people to connect with each other. Xiuxiang couldn't help but think of this, although her mind was also a little confused now, but the thoughts caused by the title Xiaoxiang were running rapidly in her mind.

Xiuka felt that she was torn apart.

Part of myself is very tired, very sleepy, and my thinking is very foggy.

Part of me is very happy, very active, and very flexible in thinking.

"It's my own fault that blames everyone," Xiuxiang reflected in her heart.

"Now it's finally clear. I still have some reluctance to give up the name "Xiuxiang" in my heart, and even some resistance to changing the name, so I have let go.

Some theories say, "Everything has a reason. There is a cause and an effect. There is an effect, and there is a cause. Perhaps, it also makes sense, many things seem to be unintentionally arranged, but the "planner" may take great pains, for fear that the other party may not have the opportunity to understand everything. The other person may also say, "What about the results of understanding? What are the results of understanding, we don't know yet." Why do I need to understand. ”

However, if you don't understand, you won't suddenly understand.

The result of understanding is not necessarily sad, nor is it necessarily happy.

But many things, it's better to be sober and clear.

- It all depends on whether the other person cares or not.

Being able to understand is actually a kind of happiness.

"It's about the opportunity. Xiuxiang thought.

"That opportunity is a chance to get a glimpse of your heart. ”

"Uncle Qin must have thought about it a lot. ”

"The same goes for Caiyue. ”

"It turned out that they had put so much effort into it, but they didn't know it, and they really didn't expect it at all. Xiuxiang blamed herself a little.

The wind blew, but Xiuxiang didn't know what kind of news the wind carried.

After the rain and snow, the changes in the earth are obvious to all, but no one knows why the rain and snow come.

Spring breeze and rain must have gone through a journey.

The spring rain moisturizes things, but also after some trade-offs.

All this, the people who live on the earth, may not be able to know without careful observation.

In this world, there are too many things that we don't know, and there may be too many things that we can't know, leaving only those unsolved mysteries and the so-called "regrets" that are confused.

Some people just show up, but never really participate.

Hideka is like that.

She felt that her life was only lightly swiped by her fingertips, but she never really grasped it in her hands.

Xiuxiang, from beginning to end, appears passive and innocent.

It wasn't her choice, it was the result of a mistake.

Sometimes, I am replacing "avoidance" with "passivity".

People can't escape from their lives at will, they can only be understood, chosen, and finally say "I have to", so as to show how difficult it is for them to be—in fact, sometimes, is there no choice at all? Maybe it's just that they haven't studied deeply.

"People still have to take the initiative. Xiuxiang thought, "In the past, I occasionally avoided, occasionally procrastinated, and occasionally refused, so the result was not very optimistic." Therefore, I should change and try to unlock my life with a new attitude, those new lives in the future that I have not yet experienced. ”

"I really didn't think much of it. Xiuxiang thought again, "Maybe gradually, the laziness in thinking will let me fall into another cage that I don't want to understand, and I don't want to explore deeply, so many things, my own opinions will only be superficial." ”

"But they seldom think so carefully. Xiuxiang thought in her heart, "But because of me, I repeatedly polished the rock in my heart, waiting for the rock to turn into a moist jade, into a crystal clear jade, so that they came out to share with me, not only that, but they also wanted to carve a jade house of their own heaven and earth for me, so that I could be happy and without worries in that house." They know me, they know my family, and that's why they want to pace our lives the way I want them to. And they have also guessed many times - what Xiaoxiang wants to look like. A name that carries too much pain, perhaps an unfortunate codename, and people may want to help her change it on my way to a new life. ”

"Sometimes, I seem to be careful and careful, but I ignore something. Like this time. Xiuxiang thought back to Uncle Qin and Caiyue's words, and made a comparison of many things in her heart.

Sometimes – seemingly affectionate but unforgiving.

Sometimes – seemingly unintentional but intentional.