The days of the exam were unusually abundant and busy. The information given by Yun Yushu was quite comprehensive, and after reading and memorizing it carefully, he consulted a lot of information along the line, and did not have much time to think about other things. However, every time I finish a 'course', my heart will unconsciously shrink a little, as if the arrival of one time node after another, indicating the pathos that is destined to come.

During the last 'subject' exam, I deliberately slowed down the speed of answering the questions, as if in this way, I could delay the passage of time and escape from the established reality. As January 1st approached, I felt a sense of apocalyptic fear. What else can I do after the exam, and what can I fill the time that I can't resist?

Probably no one resists the carnival after the exam like I do.

The bell rang for the end of the exam, the teacher took away the test papers, and I was packing up the stationery when I suddenly heard Ayub behind me whisper "thank you".

I turned to look at him and smiled at him, glancing at Musa sitting behind Ayub. Looking at the way he quietly packed up his things, I really couldn't imagine that tomorrow, he would become the groom's official.

"Finally the exam is over. Ayub stretched and breathed a sigh of relief.

I don't know if he was talking to me, out of politeness, or casually answered: "It's easy to finish the exam, and you don't have to be tortured anymore." ”

"I still have to be busy after the exam, my sister has a simple 'dyeing night' tonight, I'll go back and prepare some things for the 'women' first. ”

"Touching the night?"

"It's a reddish-brown henna flower that draws intricate patterns on the hands and feet, and only the 'women' participate, but I've always been curious, and I might be able to peek at it. Ayub regained his sunny appearance and laughed twice. I don't know if it's intentional or unintentional, but I added, "This is a small 'episode' before the wedding, our custom." ”

My heart was once again darkened, and at this juncture, I heard the news of the wedding again. I pretended to be okay and responded to him with a smile: "I didn't know there was such a special custom." ”

He grinned, "Of course, so you have to come to the wedding, and the camel race." ”

I was stunned and pretended to be happy: "Okay, I'll come back on the third day when the male 'female' bin day comes, and the 'female' bin day will be tomorrow, and I can't 'smoke' my body if I have something." "Actually, I'm just trying to put it off as long as I can.

With Mousa behind him, he probably heard our conversation, his face pale and a little lonely. He patted Ayub on the shoulder and whispered, "Let's go." Ayub answered, picked up the bag, and waved at me again: "Goodbye." ”

While Ayub was waving his hand behind him, Moussa stood still, looked at me steadily, deeply, and then, pursing his lips, turned away, without saying a word of parting.

I hung my head and shielded my sad eyes with my bangs. Is this the last look? There are no words, no movements, not even expressions, you can't turn back the road of time, and you can't climb the peak of the future.

Suddenly, there was an empty piece in my heart, and I wanted to be filled.

was stunned, and his sleeves were pulled twice: "Min Xixi, I looked at it for a long time just now, and I can be regarded as finding you." Jia Yi also just finished the exam, packed up his things, "Let's go together." ”

I nodded, remembering about Lian Pian and Edward, and couldn't bear to tell Jia Yi. Follow in his footsteps and go hand in hand with him.

Sure enough, after not taking two steps, he inquired again: "Is Lian Pian very busy lately? She is not a major, and I can't bear to disturb her on weekdays, so I don't know when her last 'door' exam is." ”

"I don't know, it's going to end today at the latest. "I remember that Edward was coming from Abu Dhabi tonight to find Lian Pian, and since Lian Pian was free to accompany him, the exam should be about the same.

Jia Yi's eyes lit up: "Then I'll take you out to play and relax." ”

I was silent for a moment and said, "I'm afraid it won't work." ”

"You have an appointment?"

I shook my head: "No, it's Lian Pian who has an appointment." ”

Jia Yi was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to answer for a while, and after a while, he asked casually: "Or the Englishman last time?"

I turned my head to look at him, a little surprised: "You know him?"

"Well, I know. Jia Yi smiled wryly, "I thought they had broken up." ”

"It did break up, and now it's another one, an American. I paused, with a sense of pathos for myself, and decided to admonish Jia Yi, "Lian Pian can't like you, she has her own way of life, what she needs most is a feeling, a feeling of falling in love, you can't give such a feeling, don't be stupid." ”

Jia Yi's eyes spread out, suddenly lost, with obvious sadness, after a while, he gradually calmed down, and said to me seriously: "Lian Pian is now pursuing the ultimate feeling that love brings her, and she is unwilling to choose me, so you think I'm stupid, but I don't think it's stupid, it's persistence." He sighed, "After so many years, I've gotten used to it, and if I give up suddenly, I will feel sorry for myself and feel like I've lived up to all these years of attachment." ”

"It's a gambler's mentality. I said sensibly, "Why should you pay for more years of waiting in order to earn back these years of waiting." ”

Jia Yi shook his head, a little helpless: "Now, I don't know what to do, just wait." I'm such a brainless person, it's not easy to like someone, insist on it, maybe she will understand my mind. If one day, I get tired of it, I will naturally leave. ”

I reacted to these words for a while, and Jia Yi was already ahead of me. Looking at the back of his dull walking, I suddenly remembered a sentence: There are two kinds of regrets when people are young, one is that they are too crazy when they are young, and the other is that they are not crazy enough when they are young.

Lian Pian must be the one who has overplayed, and Jia Yi is the horn 'color' that is silently stubborn. What about me? I fell in love with an Arab man, but I sensibly restrained my feelings of 'desire', will I regret it in the future?

I followed Jiayi's pace and stood with him in the downward elevator. In the mirror's reflection, he and I both looked depressed and depressed. But one is to hold on to feelings, and the other is to resist feelings.

Guarding and rejecting a love turns out to be a thousand entanglements. At this point, I thought back to the last time Moses looked at me before leaving, and had a vague feeling that it would not end like this. I'm still young, and I don't even look back on the years, and I already regret it.

Separated from Jiayi, I was walking back to the hotel when my mobile phone suddenly rang. At first glance, the caller ID is Lian Pian. I just talked to Jia Yi about her, and I called at this time.

I answered the phone and heard Lian Pian happily asking on the other end, "Xixi, where are you?"

"I'm still on my way back, what's wrong?"

She sounded happy, "Edward has arrived, and brought a friend of his, you promised me to hang out with me today." It just so happens that you are here, and we are two men and two 'women', and we are not alone. ”

I didn't really want to get along with Edward's friends, but I couldn't wait to find something to do, and I said into the phone, "Wait a minute, I'll be back soon." ”

I quickened my pace, and when I reached the 'door' of the hotel, I found the three of them already waiting there, and I politely shook hands with Edward and his friend, and got into the car.

Edward's friend was tall, but very thin. However, he has a round face, and his slightly thick 'lips' look a little stubborn when pursed. His face reminds me of a humble bear. He introduced him by name, but I absentmindedly couldn't remember it, so I'll just call him Little Bear.

This time, we didn't go back to the bar from last time. Edward led us to a small bar, in a small 'door' in the corner of a luxury mall. When I went in, it was obvious that there were not as many security guards as last time, and the people dancing on the dance floor were more open, but the whole thing was quite clean and a little relieved. I don't have as many concerns about bars in Dubai as I have in China, because there is a lot of security, and if you walk down the street drunk, you can even be detained by the police.

We ordered drinks and chatted when Edward suddenly offered to play "themomentoftruth". I originally thought it was a game that only Chinese love to play, but later I learned that Americans like to play this more than we do.

Rounding round after round, the people in front of them have chosen the truth, listening to it, it feels nothing new, and it is also very 'exposed', nothing more than asking how many times you have been in love, when was your first time, have you ever split your 'legs', and it will be boring if you have more. After a few times, the turntable pointed at me, so I resolutely chose to take the big risk, not wanting to be questioned about 'personal' matters.

"I'm the best at taking big risks. "You call the tenth contact in your phone's address book, text him, and say I'm in danger, come and save me." ”

I frowned, feeling that this method was really lacking in virtue, and asked for a different one. But Edward refused, saying, "This is the test of true friendship." ”

Willing to lose the gamble, I took out my mobile phone and began to flip through the address book, the tenth was a domestic friend with whom I had a general relationship, and the eleventh was Moussa.

I quickly pressed it more, and when the people around me didn't see it clearly, I stopped at the name of Mosa.

I drank some wine, not much, but I was already getting a little drunk. At this point, I seemed to be a little mischievous, as if I had some expectations, as if I wanted to prove something. The text message was edited, the address attached, and after checking it with the other three, Edward sent it out.

I regretted it after sending it, tomorrow is his wedding day, I shouldn't bother him so much. But on second thought, it was precisely because he got married tomorrow that he would never come. With the drunkenness of the wine, I became more courageous, anyway, it was just a game, and I just followed the rules of the game.

I took a sip of my wine and tried to get myself into the game again. However, a quarter of an hour later, I was still on pins and needles, and it was difficult to calm down, so I secretly picked up my phone and sent him another message: "Just played the game, don't take it seriously." ”