In the first two years of Ramadan, I only cared about my own food and clothing, and didn't pay much attention to other things, but now I practice it, but I also understand some of the core.

From sunrise to sunset, not eating, drinking, 'smoking' or having sex is not for the sake of forbiddenness, but for self-reflection and reflection. During Ramadan, many Muslims will 'spend' more time praying. Fasting teaches humility and compassion for those who are not as fortunate as oneself, so that one understands the value of food and becomes generous.

The most striking sign of Ramadan is the large and small tents erected around the mosque. Every sunset, people are offered free fasting meals. Usually, a free meal mainly consists of dates, water, lamb 'meat' or 'chicken' 'leg' rice, sour 'milk', and fruit juice.

Musa said that every year during Ramadan, he and his family give some help to the poor, whether it is money, food, clothing, or other material things. This year, the family also set up a large tent to warmly greet those who did not know each other to taste their food, and after eating, they also thanked those who ate and drank for nothing. But even if it is distributed for free, because there are so many people who are willing to give, there are often times when the food is not delivered.

"In China, it's hard to imagine such a scenario. "But in Dubai, which is the day of Ramadan every year, I must have thought it was unbelievable before I did it, but after spending some time in the workshop, I gradually understood it." ”

"You'll understand, cece. Mousa said earnestly, "My faith is good, and Allah is forgiving and merciful." It would be best if our faith could be united over time. ”

In fact, the teachings of Islam such as quitting smoking and drinking, reducing indulgence, solidarity and fraternity, and prohibiting premarital 'sexual' behaviors are all emphasizing kindness to others and self-discipline. In fact, even Ramadan, which is difficult for many non-Muslims to understand, is itself very 'sexual'. For example, sickness, pregnancy, menstruation, breastfeeding, or the elderly, the weak, the sick and the disabled do not need to fast, but those who have not fasted also need to achieve generosity and purification of the soul by giving material alms to the poor. During the month of Ramadan, I saw the generosity and warmth of the Emiratis and felt admiration for the devout Muslims.

It's my first time fasting and I'm not used to it. But when the people in the office heard that I was going to fast, they understood and relieved me of many tasks. Fortunately, during Ramadan, the work and study time in the whole of Dubai will be severely compressed, and business activities will be placed in the evening, and the mental consumption will not be too great.

The week before fasting, the body is in a period of rebellion, which is the most difficult time. Although I don't eat, because the dry weather in Dubai really hurts my throat, sometimes I will sneak a little water behind my back. I don't want to let myself suffer too much, and besides, I think that fasting has to be done gradually, and I don't want to force myself to do it overnight.

When I was working, Yun Yushu sat at the table opposite me, and from time to time I saw me closing my eyes and dying for a while, and then slowly opening my eyes and working again, always worried.

"I'm so worried you're going to faint all of a sudden. He frowned and said, "If you can't turn your brain around at work, just 'hand' it over to me to do part of it." ”

I smiled weakly and waved my hand: "If I can't hold it, I'll say it myself." ”

He withdrew his gaze and silently looked back at the computer. After a while, I saw that my eyelids were about to close again, and I couldn't help but burst out: "Xixi, why do you bother to find guilt for yourself like this? You are not short of money and appearance, what are you doing to toss these unnecessary things?"

"It's not unnecessary, fasting is actually good for the body, it can rest the stomach and intestines. I breathed a sigh of relief and tried to explain to him.

"That's the excuse you give yourself. Yun Yushu's eyebrows tightened, "I've always been worried about you, and now seeing you like this, I'm even more worried." ”

"What's there to worry about? It's not bad to have faith, but other foreigners are surprised that we don't have faith. ”

"But Xixi, you've become a little less like you. He said slowly and sincerely, "If your parents knew about your current situation, they would be sad." You mentioned to me before that your mother is very dependent on you and is very reluctant to let you go, and if you really stay in Dubai for the rest of your life, won't she think you can't do it?"

My palms trembled at his words, and my chest ached, but I still hardened my heart and whispered, "Mom and Dad can accompany me, and they can occasionally come to Dubai to see me." ”

"That's only occasionally. Yun Yushu grabbed my words and continued, "How long can they live here in this kind of ghost weather in Dubai, and they don't understand the language? I don't mean to stir up trouble between you and that person, but there are some things I've wanted to tell you, whether as friends or otherwise. ”

Yun Yushu raised his eyes to look at me, his eyes were full of pity and worry, "Cece, marriage is not about falling in love, in the final analysis, it must be a vegetable and a meal. Everyone yearns for forbidden love, but some people do it, and some people don't. These experiences will be your future good memories, but you don't need to pay tears to 'exchange'. This is not a world where you can be together if you like each other, so there is no need to be so stubborn. It's good for yourself to be relaxed. ”

His words were sharp and profound, and I was still hungry, and I didn't have the strength to refute anything, so I was silent for a while, and said slowly: "What you said, in fact, I have thought about it many times. I 'licked' my peeled 'lips' with my dry tongue, sighed lightly, and said weakly, "But there is a reward for what you give." In the future, there may still be pain and contradictions in marriage and life, but I still prefer to believe that there will be more happiness with the person I love. Just like my parents, although they are noisy every day, I feel relieved to see them have each other's company. ”

Yun Yushu was stunned, perhaps shocked by my weak but persistent look, he opened his mouth, and after a long time, he slowly spit out a sentence: "Xixi, I hope he is worthy of your persistence and worthy of your concession." ”

I tugged at the corners of my lips, sank my dantian, continued to conserve my strength, and didn't say anything more.

During this year's Ramadan, Musa's family set up a tent for almsgiving, and he spent most of his time there helping after sunset. I really wanted to go with him, but I was afraid of running into his family, so I had to give up. Sooner or later, we will see, but now is not the right time, everything still needs to be tossed and turned. Of course, I don't eat fast with Moses, and I also have my own business, that is, during Ramadan, I 'spend' more time in the mosque and 'communicate' with the imams in time to 'communicate' new insights every day. When Moses returns every night, I will have fellowship with him, knowing the place of Allah in his heart, and I hope that by doing so, I will gradually reassure him.

"Cece, your speed of understanding, really fast. Musa was pleasantly surprised, "I am glad to see you come to accept my faith." ”

Mosa was a man who was not a very liar, and he looked into my crystal eyes and heard my praise of Allah without doubt. He used to say, "We are all servants of Allah", but in fact, I admire and respect Allah and respect his religion, but I do not consider myself a servant of Allah. I can follow my words and deeds, regulate myself, and be kind to others, but I am not a little short of the idea that "nothing is Allah, but Allah".

But on the surface, I've been working harder, and I'm paying more attention to my words and actions than some of the less devout Muslims.

Holding Moussa's face, I smiled and said, "After staying with you for so long, some ideas and concepts have been imperceptibly embraced and naturally accepted quickly. I took him by the arm and whispered to him, "Musa, do you believe me a little now?"

"Believe, of course believe. Now, I am more and more at ease, and I believe that if this continues, my parents will slowly accept you and see your sincerity. He smiled contentedly, lowered his head to 'kiss' me, and blew in my ear, "Cece, you know what, I feel that the perfect life is approaching me. In the past, my most painful thought was, "Why aren't you a devout Muslim like you, the girl I love?" This argument has tormented me for too long and so long, that I don't know what to do. Although I love you and love you very much, I also felt powerless and lost on this issue, and I couldn't see how to integrate with each other in the future. But now, you have given me hope, you are my cece, and you no longer refute my beliefs, and the two I wish for most to finally come together, and there is nothing more perfect than this. ”

His words full of happiness made my heart twitch slightly, and I subconsciously bit my lip, and quickly came back to my senses, hugged him, and buried my head in his shoulder, not letting him see the confusion in my eyes.

"Yes, it couldn't be better. I muttered the words, and the confusion in my eyes was quickly diluted by his smile and satisfaction, and turned into happiness.

Arabic is difficult, and in just two months, I learned only the most superficial part, but because I started with the Quran, I knew all the words in prayer and prayer. My progress and enthusiasm in my studies were praised by the imams, who also witnessed my "pious" return journey. Towards the end of Ramadan, the Imam of the White Ha, the same imam I first met in the hall of the mosque, told me that I was in a state where I was fully convertible, and that he trusted me that I could be one of the brothers and sisters of Islamic friendship and unity.

When I heard this, my mind buzzed, and a strong hope slanted down with a faint sense of loss, enveloping my mind.

"After Eid al-Fitr, you can have your initiation. Imam Baiha said.