Ji Xiaoyu looked at me and said calmly, "Why do you say that you are not qualified." And why do you allow yourself to fall into a strange circle, to set limits on yourself? If you don't pursue it, how can you prove that you are not qualified. ”

Mao Xiaoyu also said, "Don't let me underestimate you." ”

Ji Xiaoyu didn't give me a chance to speak, and said, "I know what you're thinking now." Have you ever thought that she is willing to suffer with you?"

"I don't want to. I said in a lost voice, "Because I'm a man, a man! I can't even give myself happiness, how can I give her happiness." If you can't give happiness, it's better to learn to let go. ”

"Can't give happiness, so you chose to quit. Ji Xiaoyu said coldly, "Do you know what this kind of behavior is? Cowardly, timid, and selfish. ”

Mao Xiaoyu saw that I was thinking too much, and it was difficult to get out of the strange circle, and asked: "You have to think about it carefully, some people, if you miss it, you really miss it." ”

Without giving it a second thought, I said in a very heavy tone, "Since it's wrong, let it be missed!"

"One day, you'll regret it. After Ji Xiaoyu finished speaking, he pulled away and left.

"That's what she is, don't you mind. Mao Xiaoyu said a few more words and went to catch up with Ji Xiaoyu. I stood there in a daze, not coming back to my senses for a long time. One day, I'll regret it. Now, I regret it too. However, the mountain on my shoulders can only be borne by myself. Now I am no longer qualified to pursue my own life.

In the evening, when my mother came home, she saw me curled up on the sofa and asked, "Have you eaten?"

I just nodded and didn't speak.

Seeing that something was wrong with me, my mother sat next to me and asked, "Do you have a cold?"

I said, "No." ”

"Kid, what do you think. Seeing that I hadn't said it, my mother said, "Your Aunt Zou asked me, you and Xiao Xiao, do you have..."

I said, "Mom, I don't want anything right now. I just want my dad to get better soon. ”

My mother knew that I would be the answer, and hurriedly said, "Child, don't be too miserable because of our affairs." ”

I smiled and said, "No, I'm not bitter. I am very happy. ”

Seeing that I was deliberately reckless, my mother didn't want to break it, and she didn't force me, so she sighed and said, "Okay! ”

Three days later, I lay down next to my father's hospital bed and took a nap. I suddenly felt a slight movement of my father's fingers. I thought it was a dream, and I didn't take it to heart.

Mom made boiling water and walked in, and saw that the wave line on Dad's monitor screen was a little wrong. My mother was so frightened that she shook me awake and asked, "Look at it." ”

I saw that my mother looked a little flustered, and mistakenly thought that my father's condition was deteriorating. In an instant, I came to my senses. I looked at my father's brain waves, which were beating irregularly. I saw my father's fingers moving softly.

I rushed out, ran to the doctor's office and shouted, "Doctor, my dad is responding." ”

The doctor immediately rushed out of the office and came to my dad's hospital bed. But I saw that my father had opened his eyes and looked at my mother. Mom grabbed Dad's hand and said, "You're finally awake." ”

Dad said, "What am I worrying you about?"

My mother said, "As long as you can get better, I am willing to do anything." ”

Dad moved the corners of his lips, wanting to say something, but Mom couldn't hear it. The doctor said, "Please stay out of the family, we need to have further examination." ”

My mother was called out by the doctor and said to me, "Son, your dad is awake." He spoke to me. ”

"I saw it. "When I saw my mother's expression, it was full of happiness.

The doctor walked out and said, "The patient has woken up, and we need to watch more." You can say a small amount to him, but you can't tire him out, you can't say anything that irritates him. ”

"Thank you, doctor. Mom asked again, "Can I go see him?"

"Absolutely. The doctor finished saying this and left.

Dad woke up, and his consciousness was very clear, "I'm sorry to make you scared." ”

"I had a long dream about what happened when we were younger. Seeing tears flowing from the corners of my mother's eyes, my father changed his words and said, "Why are you crying?" ”

My mother wiped away her tears and said with a smile, "I'm happy." ”

"This night's sleep, I slept really soundly. Dad's words were extremely relaxed. He didn't know that he slept soundly, but his mother was frightened.

My dad looked at me and said, "Why are you back?" It's your mom who called you back. Women! Always making a fuss. ”

I said, "I'm homesick, so I'll come back and have a look." ”

Dad said, "Young people should be aggressive, don't be homesick at every turn." ”

"Dad, that's right. ”

"What are you calling me. Dad asked curiously.

"Dad. ”

"Dad!" Dad smiled, making sure he heard correctly, and added, "It's been a long time since you've called me like that." In my image, when you were ten years old, you didn't call me Dad, you called me Teacher Hu. Now I think, Dad, this word is much kinder than Teacher Hu. ”

I said, "I'll call you dad from now on." ”

Xiao Xiao also came to his father's bed and shouted, "Uncle Hu." ”

Seeing that my father couldn't answer, my mother hurriedly said, "She is Xiao Zou's daughter, why, don't you remember?"

"I don't remember, when she was a child, I still hugged her. Dad said, "In the blink of an eye, you've grown so much and become a doctor." What a good girl, it's a pity that my son has no fate with you. ”

Xiao Xiao smiled and said, "Uncle Hu, English says that you are excellent at chess, you get better quickly, I am still waiting to play chess with you?"

My dad looked at me and said, "He's even told you these things." I get it, I get it. ”

Seeing that the atmosphere was a little embarrassing, my mother interjected: "When the children grow up, we won't interfere in their affairs." ”

At this time, I heard a voice from behind me, "Old Hu, how are you?" ”

I turned my head and saw a man appear in front of me. The man went to his father's bed and said, "You slept so soundly!"

Dad said, "I'll get some sleep, how did I bring you a busy man." ”

My mother also said, "Yes, little brother Jiang, no, I should call you Dean Jiang." ”

Uncle Jiang said, "I should have come here earlier, but during this time, I was busy with tedious things. Lao Hu, you won't blame me, I'm just coming to see you now!"

"You still remember my big brother. ”

"Lao Hu, do you want to transfer to the hospital, I'll arrange it for you. ”

"No need. It's nice here. ”

Uncle Jiang looked at me and said, "This is your son, little Jiang!"

When my mother saw that I was stunned and didn't call anyone, she hurriedly said, "Why, I forgot you Uncle Jiang." As a child, you often enjoyed playing with this uncle. ”

"This kid has grown so tall. Uncle Jiang laughed at me, "I still remember that this kid peed on my neck." ”

"Ah!" I said, "I've done this before." ”

"That's still false. Uncle Jiang said again, "Boy, do you have a sense of accomplishment?" ”

I thought to myself, "Of course, I peed on the dean's neck, and that's something to brag about." In the future, I will have the capital to brag about. ”

Seeing that I didn't speak, Uncle Jiang asked, "How is your work doing?" ”

I said, "Okay." ”

"You, resign for such a big thing, and don't intercede with your uncle. If you look for me, I can help you smooth it out. Uncle Jiang stopped and asked again, "Do you want to come back, I'll help you find a way." ”

Since you are gone, how can you choose to go back? I also don't like to trouble others the most, so I hurriedly said, "Thank you, Uncle Jiang, I am in charge of my life." ”

"This little bit of personality, young man, is like mine. Uncle Jiang said, "I have ideas, but I don't want to be arranged by others." ”

As we spoke, many people came in in white coats. The leader stretched out his hand and said enthusiastically, "Dean Jiang, come to guide the work!"

Uncle Jiang said, "Director Huang, what are you talking about? Where am I guiding work, I just came back from a meeting, and by the way, I would like to take a look at Lao Hu." ”

Many more people greeted Uncle Jiang.

Director Huang asked my father, "Dean Jiang, why don't I arrange a VIP ward for the patient!"

Dad said, "Don't bother. ”

Uncle Jiang knew my father's character, and when he saw that this cramped room was crowded with many people, he hurriedly said, "Lao Hu, you have a good rest, and I will come to see you another day." ”

Uncle Jiang left the ward surrounded by many people. Xiao Xiao also said, "Uncle Hu, you have a good rest." I'll come back to see you sometime. ”

Seeing that Xiao Xiao was leaving, my mother hurriedly said, "Son, you send Xiao Xiao for me." ”

I didn't dare to disobey my mother's words, so I sent her away.

Xiao Xiao and I walked out of the ward and didn't speak all the way. Xiao Xiao broke the silence and asked, "Aren't you going to explain anything to me?"

I said, "Explain what?"

Xiao Xiao saw that I pretended not to understand, and said a little anxiously: "You resigned, is it because of me?"

"No, you're mistaken. I added, "I quit because of my own reasons." ”

"What the reason. ”

"I don't fit into the kind of work atmosphere, and I don't want to be an apathetic person. ”

"You resigned, why didn't you tell me. ”

"It's not a very glorious thing, how can I tell the world?"

"That's different. ”

"What's the difference. ”

"If it weren't for me, you wouldn't have happened to that, and you wouldn't have resigned. ”

"I really wanted to get out of that place. When I saw that she didn't believe her, I said, "I was afraid that you would misunderstand, so I didn't say it from you." ”

She looked at me and asked, "You really don't care about me at all." ”

When I knew it was time to make a decision, I looked at her and said very seriously, "Did I misunderstand you by my behavior?" ”

"Do we really want this between us?"

I can't say cruel words. I can only cope with silence.

"Okay, goodbye. Xiao Xiao looked at me and said in a flat tone, "Never again." ”

It's time to say goodbye, and it can be regarded as a sentence for me and her youth. It's time to say goodbye.

I looked at her and said gently, "Goodbye." ”

She didn't speak, turned around and got into the elevator.

I watched the elevator close, trying to suppress the emotions in my heart. Thinking back to her departed figure, my heart hurts a little. I endured it and said in my heart: "Only by being ruthless to yourself can you grow." In this way, it is good for you and me. ”