I borrowed the wisdom of the ancients and came up with a trick to hide from the world. I saw that the second elder had no doubts, and said in my heart: "I finally passed the test." ”

Because of my first blind date, the second elder suffered a failure, so he didn't dare to push too much, and he didn't interfere in my future life for the time being. And I can't be happy too soon. Because I promised the second elder that after two years of chic, I would still accept their arrangement.

I didn't change my fate, I just put off my life step by step for a few years.

I said in my heart: "I have sacrificed all my life in exchange for two years of chic life." I must cherish this time. Youth, please don't let down my sincerity. ”

In addition to Saturday's blind date incident, there were waves. This weekend, it was peaceful. My weekends passed like this very quickly. Time will not go faster because of someone's sadness. I won't deliberately stay because someone is happy.

This is the capriciousness of time.

The new week, I cheered myself up and went to the hospital. I was having breakfast in the cafeteria and happened to meet Brother Kai. Brother Kai saw me and greeted, "In the future, we can't work together." ”

I asked, "Brother Kai, really want to go." ”

Brother Kai nodded, and gave me an answer.

I asked, "Brother Kai, is it worth it for you to do this?"

"I've wanted to leave here for a long time. Wang Kai deliberately paused, and then said, "I'm not leaving, it's because of her." ”

Brother Kai doesn't say it, I know it too. He stayed here for only one purpose, and that was Sister Peach. For him, Sister Peach is everything to him. However, I don't understand why he said he wanted to leave a long time ago.

Brother Kai is the second person who came to the radiology department to treat me sincerely, and he is also the person who taught me to step into the field of radiology. He was a few years older than me, but he and I were already friends. My friend is leaving, but for some reason, I feel a little reluctant.

Kai Ge asked, "Do you have time?"

I looked at the meeting time, it was still early before the time to go to work, and I hurriedly said, "Yes." ”

"I want to go to the rooftop and have a look. Before leaving, you still have to leave a souvenir. I don't want my ten years of hard work to get a pale life. ”

Brother Kai's words touched me. After ten years of hard work, the results are pale. Think about it, how sad that is.

Kai Ge and I went to the rooftop and stood on a high place, looking down on the earth. I realized the profound meaning of the phrase 'will be at the top of the mountain, and you can see the mountains at a glance'. Look at the flow of traffic, look at the different crowds. They are running in different ways for life, for youth, and for dreams.

Kai Ge took a breath and sighed, "That's good!"

I can see that Brother Kai still wants to stay here. Here, he stayed for ten years. Leaving suddenly, how can there be no sentimentality.

I asked, "Brother Kai, do you regret it?"

Wang Kai's eyes looked into the distance, and said lightly: "I will never regret what I did." ”

This is indeed what Kai Ge said. Since it has been decided, it cannot be said that it is regretted. Still, I couldn't help but ask, "Is it worth it for you to do this?"

"It's worth it. Wang Kai smiled and said, "As you said, youth should have the appearance of youth." I confess to Peaches that this is the life of my life. Something to be most proud of. ”

Kai Ge's eyes told me that he didn't regret it at all. Being crazy for love is not the most meaningful thing about youth. I hope that for the rest of my life, I will also meet someone who is crazy about her and forgets herself.

I also looked into the distance and asked, "If it weren't for Sister Peach, Brother Kai would have left a long time ago!"

"Hmm. Wang Kai said in a calm tone: "Without her, I would have left a long time ago." ”

Seeing that he was serious, I asked, "Why?" ”

Wang Kai fell into a brief silence, as if he was deciding whether to tell me why he wanted to leave here. After a long time, Wang Kai said calmly, "There are some things that I say will bring you negative emotions. ”

"Negative emotions?" I looked at him with unconfused eyes.

Wang Kai didn't look at me, looked down at the ground under his feet, and said, "I said, it will affect your enthusiasm for work and life." But, when I think about it, I think I should tell you. ”

Although I didn't know what Brother Kai was going to say, I guessed a direction and said with a smile: "Brother Kai, I'm ready." ”

Wang Kai asked: "What is the saddest thing in life?" ”

I was stunned for a moment, and I couldn't answer for a while. I haven't thought about this question. My life has been smooth sailing, and I haven't encountered too many twists and turns. I don't know why, but this sentence reminds me of my junior high school self.

I said, "The saddest thing is that your efforts have been completely negated by the results. The teacher said that you are hopeless, and you have no chance of growing up. Parents scolded, saying you were useless. ”

"In the eyes of teachers and parents, there are only results. They won't care about your efforts. Wang Kai changed his tone and said, "Here, why not." ”

When I listened to these words, I felt the anger surging in Kaige's heart.

Wang Kai said again: "What do you think of this department?" ”

"More than I could have imagined. "I've been here for a short time, but it's not short. The rivers and lakes here are not calm. There are not many people here who can interact with sincerity.

"I don't say what the atmosphere is like here, you can feel it. ”

"I don't feel the slightest sense of camaraderie. ”

I really feel the vibe. There is no camaraderie here, everyone has their own ideas. Some people rely on their own leadership, while others rely on their old age to shout at us young people. It's like, when we are young, we should be scolded.

In Sister Song Ying's words: "Some people can only be colleagues, or the worst kind." ”

Wang Kai was not surprised when he saw that I had already felt the atmosphere here, and said lightly: "You are right, there is no friendship of colleagues here." It's tiring and terrible to live here. ”

When I heard this, I was shocked. How could Brother Kai say such a thing.

Wang Kai smiled faintly, as if telling me that there were more surprising and painful things to come. And I, on the other hand, were ready for the words that struck my heart.

"I still remember the first month of receiving the bonus. Wang Kai's gaze returned to a few years ago, "That day, the director came to me and said to me, your bonus is a bit high." I asked how many. The director said there were three thousand. ”

"Three thousand. I was surprised: "This kind of shameless words can also be said." ”

"yes, I was thinking that he could be so shameless... Say it. I had the same expression on your face at the time. In his eyes, our value is not worth three thousand. At that time, I listened to the director's words, and I doubted my life for the first time. Wang Kai let out a sigh of relief and said, "My life is not worth three thousand." ”

I can imagine what Brother Kai's expression would be like when he heard this sentence at that time. Four years of medical career, half of the probationary period, in exchange for your life, is not worth 3,000. The most hateful thing is that some people can not shamelessly say this.

Being a doctor is a noble profession that cannot be measured in terms of money. However, dedication and reward should not be inversely proportional! Doctors are also human beings, and they also have to eat whole grains, and they are also old and young. What if you don't get something in return?

In an instant, 10,000 grass and mud horses galloped past in my heart.

"The most hateful thing is that they have a monthly salary of tens of thousands, but they want us less than 3,000 people to dedicate their youth. What a shameful person this kind of person is!" When Wang Kai said this, his face was not angry, and he was very calm.

If this were the case for me, I wouldn't be able to control my little universe. The horse has to run and give it grass. And some people want you to run, but they don't give you grass. Shame on this kind of person!

"My hard work and dedication have not been rewarded proportionally. I can endure these things. Wang Kai said angrily: "Not being respected, this is the most unbearable for me." ”

I listened quietly to Brother Kai's words, and I didn't answer.

"You know the meaning of the year-end bonus!"

I nodded, sort of an answer.

"The whole hospital took more than five figures. Not only those who have just come out of work, but also uncles and aunts in the cafeteria have been recognized. And what about us? The year-end bonus is a joke. It's also the biggest and most shameful joke I've ever heard. ”

I saw that Brother Kai was very emotional and asked, "What happened?" ”

"We ended the year in four figures, down from five. , isn't it ridiculous. Wang Kai said again: "A few thousand yuan, I can't get rich, and I won't be poor without me." But, isn't this phenomenon terrifying..."

I lost my voice and said, "How so." ”

"You know what I was feeling at the time. Wang Kai took a deep breath and said compassionately: "My heart is cold!"

When encountering such a thing, how can it not be chilling. I asked, "Didn't the director fight for your interests and give you a reasonable explanation?"

Wang Kai's eyes were disappointed: "He will only call people for dedication." ”

"It's... It's chilling. I couldn't control the small universe anymore, and said angrily: "This is obviously because the hospital doesn't pay attention to the department and ignores our existence." ”

Wang Kai sneered: "It's not just that you don't pay attention to it, you just don't take it seriously." ”

"What is the meaning of our youth? ”

"Yes, what is the meaning of our youth? Wang Kai added: "We also use formal channels to reasonably express our demands. If it is not recognized for work reasons. The next year, we can improve. And they didn't give me any explanation, just that it had nothing to do with the workload. ”

"Such shameless words, dare to say them. ”

"I also thought that they could say such shameless words with peace of mind. If it has nothing to do with the workload. Why is there such a thing as distribution according to work? Why should I dedicate my youth to prove my worth? It's just their perfunctory approach to us. ”

A person who does not relieve the pain of the patient, does not contribute to the hospital, is not a qualified doctor. However, if we do not face up to the value of doctors and do not seek benefits for doctors, how can this be a qualified hospital?

At this moment, I finally understood that the radiology department was described as a cold palace, which is not unreasonable.

In an instant, I understood. Why can't the people here feel the camaraderie of their colleagues? That's because after they were hit, they lacked enterprising, even chilling. They just treat this sacred profession as a job, nothing more. And the one who creates this phenomenon is the one who thinks that your youth is meaningless.

"They say it's easy and easy for us. Without us, someone would naturally take over. I never imagined that I would get such a poignant answer by running with my youth and my life. ”

I listened to Brother Kai say these words, and said in my heart: "He is completely dead!"

People don't live just for a breath. Others don't take you seriously, why should you dedicate your youth to him. Isn't it chilling to dedicate one's youth to oneself and not be recognized, and not to be taken seriously.

This is the moment I knew. Brother Kai confessed to Sister Peach and chose to leave. It was not because of the shameful rules and regulations of the department, but because of the breath in my heart, so I chose to leave.

"You know, my favorite quote?" Wang Kai said proudly: "Look up to the sky and laugh, how can my generation be a Penghao person." ”

However, how many people. can do it, look up to the sky and laugh and go out, how can my generation be a Penghao person.

"Relieved. Wang Kai stretched, "That's good." ”

I looked at him, and he was relieved. And I? How will I deal with this unfair treatment?

There is really a big gap between reality and dreams.

Wang Kai faced me and said, "Here, it doesn't belong to me, nor does it belong to you." You're younger, you have more options, and there's a wider world. ”

Wang Kai's words touched me a lot. I watched him leave, not a little lonely, not a little sad. Some of them are liberating, relaxed. Brother Kai made the most important choice in his life and left in style. And my life has just begun.

I turned to look at the sky in the distance, and then at the surroundings, everything familiar and unfamiliar. At this moment, I think about a lot of questions that I haven't thought about in a long time.

Will my youth be like this?

Will my dedication and dedication be ignored?

One day, I won't feel a chill. Am I going to sing and laugh out loud? I don't understand a lot, but I'm sure I'll figure it out when I have a lot of time.

I said, "Youth, don't bear me." ”