I handed over the written review to Officer Yang and deeply reflected and recognized my mistakes. After Officer Yang saw it, he let me go.

When I left the police station, I saw Mao Xiaoyu waving to me.

Mao Xiaoyu saw what I was looking for, sighed and said, "It's all gone." ”

"Oh. I replied weakly.

Mao Xiaoyu said, "They are really not interesting, who are you coming here for?" Then no one, don't say thank you. ”

I naturally understand who he is talking about.

I said, "I did it all voluntarily. ”

He looked at me with very strange eyes, sighed deeply and said, "I finally understand that the mountains written by some people have trees and branches, and I don't know the meaning of them." It's a pity. The flowing water is ruthless, and the burial flowers fall. ”

I didn't answer, and I won't regret what I've done. No matter what my behavior means in the eyes of others, at least at this moment, my youth has boiled.

Back at the hospital, before parting, Mao Xiaoyu said, "Brother, do you regret it? For the sake of someone you love, but not love you, it's really worth it." ”

I said, "You're wrong. ”

"Something is wrong. ”

"I didn't do it because of her, but because I didn't want to be an indifferent person. ”

"Apathy?"

"It's already happened, it's useless to regret it, and don't think about whether it's worth it or not. Even if it costs me, I admit it. ”

"Have you ever thought about the worst?"

"Thought. ”

"You're mentally prepared, I'm not going to say anything. ”

As soon as I appeared in the department, Song Ying greeted me and said, "I heard that you had a conflict with a patient for Xiao Xiao's sake, is this true?"

"Half true, half false. It's true that I had a conflict with the patient and made a move. But, I'm not for Xiao Xiao. ”

"That's for what. ”

"I don't want to be an indifferent person. ”

It's hard to convince her of this reason. She said, "Your business has been spread all over the department." So, you have to take the consequences. ”

"Thank you, Sister Ying. I know all of this. I thought to myself, "The worst plan is to get out of here." And I've been planning to leave here for a long time. ”

I'm used to this department. They don't sincerely hope that you are well, but what they want most is to fall into the ground. This kind of atmosphere and cool friendship is what I want to escape the most.

When the slut saw me appear, he said in a cold tone, "The director is waiting for you in the office." ”

"Oh. "I didn't hesitate to say a word.

He also said, "You just stayed in the department, can you settle down a little, always cause chaos to the department and the leadership." ”

I couldn't stand his high-minded attitude, and said, "I am responsible for what I do, what do I have to do with you." If you want to see the joke, just watch the joke next to it. Now, it's not your turn to point fingers in front of me. ”

He raised the decibel and said, "If you make a mistake, you are not allowed to say it yet." ”

"What I'm doing is not wrong. At least that's what I think. You'd better shut up for me. ”

"As a leader, what if I say a word to you?"

"Do you feel like you're a leader, you feel awesome. In my eyes, you're not even a fart. ”

"You..."

"I've put up with you for a long time. ”

"I've messed with you somewhere. You are so hostile to me?"

"What do you do besides making small reports? I said it wrong, I'm not hostile to you, you don't deserve it. ”

"Don't wronged me. ”

"People are doing it, and the sky is watching. What you have done, what you have said, don't think that other people are stupid. They endure you everywhere for the sake of their family's livelihood. But, I don't know what forbearance is. ”

After I said this, I left him alone and went directly to the director's office.

I knocked on the door and heard a call to come from inside the room. I pushed the door open and walked in, closing it again.

When the director saw me, he motioned for me to sit down, and said earnestly, "It's been a while since you came to our department. I am already familiar with the atmosphere, culture and working mode of the department. ”

"You passed the probationary period at the hospital, and we want to keep you too. However, today's incident has had a bad impact on hospitals and departments. ”

"Young people, before doing something, you must think about the consequences. This matter, regardless of your business, why do you want to be strong. We are medical staff, how can we do it with patients. Do you know what a bad impact your behavior has had on hospitals, society, and departments? ”

I puffed up my face and asked, "Director, what should I do in the face of this kind of thing?" ”

"I'll say two words to you, you're not convinced, are you!" he glanced at me, raising his decibels, "As medical workers, we must pay attention to our words and actions. Pay attention to the proportions of your words and your service attitude. It is normal for young people to be angry. But, how can you do it?"

"Communication, attitude, service, are very important. Whatever you do, learn to use your brain. ”

I've grown so old that no one has ever said that to me. But when I heard the last few words, I couldn't hold back my little universe anymore. I asked, "What the director means is that as a medical professional, you should be beaten and scolded and scolded." Someone gives me a slap in the face, and I have to smile and stick out the other side. ”

That can also be said to be the meaning. ”

I tried to speak as smoothly as I could, "Do medical personnel deserve to be trampled on and undignified?" ”

"Don't be forceful. What about personality, dignity. You have a better service attitude and a lower decibel tone of voice. A smile on the face, a little more. Don't forget, what it means to wear this white coat. If you have grievances and complaints, you can skip wearing this dress. When you put it on, you have to understand the meaning of the dress. ”

"If you haven't recognized the problem properly. I thought, this job is not for you. ”

I pondered the meaning of this sentence and got a result. That is, I am not far from resigning.

"Go down! Your question will be decided tomorrow after the working group meeting will discuss it. This time, I want you to take this as a warning. In the afternoon, you don't have to go to work. I want you to calm down and realize your mistakes. ”

I opened the door and walked out.

The director's words kept ringing in my ears. I don't agree with what he said at all. Putting on the white coat, we become saints, scolding and not fighting back. Looking at the injustice, you can only stay out of it with indifferent eyes and attitude.

No one taught me this. I can't do it either.

If I really became such a person, why did I choose to embark on this path in the first place?

I walked out of the department and breathed in the fresh air outside. I stared at the hospital and thought, "This time, I'm really leaving." ”

Song Ying chased after her and asked, "What did the director tell you?" ”

I didn't hide anything from her, and said what I just said.

Song Ying asked calmly, "What do you think?" ”

I said, "What else can I think." I don't accept his point of view, let alone agree with it. Life is not easy, and life is even harder. ”

"Who's to say it's not? It's not easy to live. She agreed with me.

I looked at the bleak sky, thought for a long time, and said, "I don't want to be indifferent." I don't want to change my outlook on life because of this job. I won't wronged myself for life. ”

Song Ying said, "Are you going to leave?"

"Thank you Sister Ying for taking care of me during this time. I said, "This may not really be the case for me." ”

"Not going to try again," she asked. ”

"Nope. I breathed a sigh of relief, "It's so tiring that the people here are cold and the atmosphere is oppressive." ”

"Do you really want to?"

"I figured it out. It doesn't belong to me here. I said, "It's more exciting here than Gong Dou, and I'm destined to have a hard time until the next episode." It's a miracle that I've lasted so long! I'm not going to do it anymore. ”

"You've really figured it out. ”

"I've thought about it. For a job, how can you hold yourself back. Brother Kai and Brother Jia can all turn around and leave in a chic manner. I don't have anything, what worries, what to worry about. ”

She asked, "How are you going to leave?" ”

I said, "I'd rather leave with a smile than a humble existence." It's time, it's over. ”

At this moment, I made a complete decision.

She didn't stop me either, and said with a smile, "It's okay, don't forget me." ”

"Sister Ying, goodbye. I said goodbye to her and left here.

Not long after I left, the phone rang. I answered the phone, and it was Mao Xiaoyu calling.

He asked, "How." ”

I said, "You got it." The last meal was a casual meal. ”

"You're really leaving. ”

"I still have a reason not to go. ”

"Do you want to have a drink? ”

"You're good at work. ”

"I'm sorry, the director gave me half a day off. ”

It didn't take long for Mao Xiaoyu to appear in my sight. Mao Xiaoyu and I went to the riverside and found a barbecue restaurant.

Mao Xiaoyu said generously, "Eat as much as you want, drink as you like." Today, I'm paying the bill. ”

"I'm not going to be polite to you. I poured a glass of wine, held it up, and toasted, "Thank you for your hospitality." ”

I was a person who poured a glass, and this time, I drank five glasses of wine in a row, and I didn't get drunk at all.

Mao Xiaoyu saw me pick up the wine glass, kept pouring it into his mouth, and hurriedly said, "Drink slowly and eat something." It's not good to drink too quickly. ”

I picked up the lamb skewers, took a bite, and chewed on.

He asked, "Are you feeling better?" ”

I recklessly said, "This bit of can't beat me." ”

Mao Xiaoyu said, "After this incident, is it further discovered." There is a big gap between dreams and distances. ”

I put down the lamb skewers and asked, "What do you say, what are we working for?" ”

He picked up the lamb skewers and ate them, saying, "What else, of course, it's for life." ”

The bitter water in my heart poured out in an instant, "Life is not easy, how can I live aggrieved." ”

"How aggrieved are you. ”

I told all about my work. Mao Xiaoyu listened and said very calmly, "This is part of life." ”

I said, "This is not what I want." ”

"What kind of life do you want. ”

"Red dust as a companion, live a chic life. Riding horses galloping, sharing the prosperity of the world. Fight with a sword and wine, and go to the end of the world alone. I changed my words, "But, now I don't mix well, even if I don't mix, I live a miserable life." This kind of life is really the life I want. ”

"Have you ever thought about what else you can have besides this kind of life? ”

"yes! What can I have. It is said that the road becomes the road because people walk too much. Where is my way? ”

"The road is underfoot. He said, "Since your life is so aggrieved." It's better to choose to let go and go out for a walk! Many roads are not because people have walked too much, but because they have broken through. ”

"Me. I raised my glass and toasted him, and I finished it.

I want to go alone, but how should I speak on my parents' side?

He said, "You either live in aggrieved terms, or you go out." The road is under your feet. It depends on you, whether you have the courage to dare to go on a rampage. ”

As the wine rose, my inner thoughts became clearer.

I said, "How can you let life suffocate you." ”