The protagonist of our story, Huaxia, is 29 years old this year, born in an ordinary family in a remote county in Sichuan, both parents are teachers in a middle school in the county, Huaxia's father is a more traditional person, when Huaxia was born, his father also hoped that Huaxia could also continue his traditional culture, not to abandon the original and forget the roots, so he named him "Huaxia"; It means that the descendants of the Chinese people will be rich and noble in the future, but they must have their own good world outlook and values; they will receive the education of traditional Chinese culture since they were young; although they will be naughty and make mistakes like other children. In the words of Huaxia's mother, he is a boy who does not make big mistakes and keeps making small mistakes since he was a child, but he is still very clear in the concept of major rights and wrongs.

In order to take care of their two siblings, in addition to taking normal classes, she also helped other teachers substitute and go to cram schools to help students tutor, so she had less time to take care of Huaxia;

In the days when there were no elders to take care of her, Huaxia was very sensible since she was a child, learned to live independently, made her own food when she was hungry, got up by herself when she fell, went to sleep by herself when she was sleepy, and never caused trouble to her family. Huaxia often describes himself as a Xiaoqiang who can't be crushed, stepped on, or killed!

Like everyone else, Huaxia has had her own dreams since she was a child, dreaming that she can become a rich man, and dreaming that many girls like herself。。。。。。。 Hua Xia is also well aware of his own situation; he has no wealthy family background, no good grades, and no handsome appearance; the captain of the Three-No Brigade like him is just an ordinary person who can't find a bright spot if he is thrown into the crowd; he is also very confused about how to realize his dreams; and he is confused in adolescence.

After being confused, the dream becomes a daydreaming fantasy; he fantasizes that someone tells him what the next lottery will win, he fantasizes that he suddenly has a very rich relative who comes back to save his relatives, he fantasizes that he suddenly picks up a lot of money while walking on the road, and he fantasizes that there are suddenly many girls who really like him。。。。。。

But when Huaxia was 18 years old and was about to apply for college and volunteer, Huaxia really had a strange dream, which was as real as the original fantasy; Huaxia in the dream came to a strange place in the evening, an endless grassland, growing plants that he had never seen before, and looking up, it was a starry sky completely different from real life.

"This is Luozhen Grassland, isn't it beautiful!" A middle-aged man's voice came from Huaxia's ears, and there was a slight vicissitudes in his voice.

Hua Xia, who heard the voice, looked around but didn't see a figure; "Who are you, where are you?" asked Hua Xia.

"Who am I ... You should call me Mr. Chevin! It's a pleasure to meet you. Hello, Huaxia, old... The middle-aged man's voice was very soft, and the last voice was so soft that it was almost inaudible.

"Hello, what are you looking for me?" Huaxia asked;

"Chinese culture has a fine tradition, broad and profound, and is the crystallization of our nation's thousand-year-old civilization, to learn it, to inherit it, it can help you realize every dream you have! For example, you dream of becoming a rich man!" The voice seemed to induce Huaxia;

"Really?" Huaxia was very excited, wanting to confirm it once, how much he hoped that his dream would come true.

"See the brightest star! Remember the starry sky。。。。。。 After saying this, there was no more sound, and after that, Menghua could not remember.

That year, Huaxia applied for a Chinese language major in an ordinary university to learn traditional Chinese culture - Chinese!

He was very sure that that dream was the dream that guided him to realize his dream, and Hua Xia was convinced of this, and during his college years, Hua Xia studied seriously and hard, and in addition to completing his normal studies, Hua Xia also took other subjects. The study of ancient Chinese characters, the mystery and love of Chinese characters is like innate, out of control, especially in the ancient characters have done a lot of homework and study; Huaxia still remembers that after he studied the ancient characters of each period, he summarized and made a small dictionary, although Huaxia did not do it comprehensively and even had mistakes, and there were still a lot of gaps that needed to be checked and filled, but because it was written by his own painstaking efforts, he still liked it very much, and he also named this dictionary "Huaxia Ancient Texts Check Words".

After graduating from Huaxia's college career in a flash, Huaxia walked into the society with his dreams and his dreams with confidence, to find the world that belonged to him, to break into the magnificent world, and to create the new life he dreamed of!

But the cruelty of reality is like a basin of ice water always splashing when you sleep the most soundly; in the days that followed, Huaxia applied for jobs everywhere; because his major was not the more popular finance, computer, architecture and other disciplines in the current society; and Huaxia did not have any work experience, resulting in running into walls everywhere. In the end, Huaxia had no choice but to work as a tour guide in a travel agency of a relative's house that did not match his major.

He has been working in the travel agency Huaxia for three years, and he often wonders whether he is confused about entering middle age, because the pressure of social life is huge; Don't talk about having a girlfriend without money; the job of a tour guide can only be said to be able to make ends meet, so it can't go up, can't go down, can't starve to death, but there is no development; quit this job and don't know what else you can do, and the feeling that you can't see the future prospects at all if you continue this job makes Huaxia very confused; as time goes by, Huaxia is getting farther and farther away from the dream of youth; gradually Huaxia feels that she has lost her fighting spirit, loses the courage to go into the rivers and lakes with passion, and is forced to accept the status quo; what to do in the future, you can only take one step at a time。

Fortunately, now Huaxia has a only goal, which is to make money to mortgage a house in the city within his financial range, and take his mother over to live with him; in those years, in order to take care of their siblings, his mother worked overtime every day, and her health was already very bad, Huaxia did not worry that her mother was alone in her hometown, and she could take care of her mother by living together.

One summer morning, Huaxia was picking up the tour group at the hotel, preparing to take them to the tourist attractions in the city, when Huaxia's phone rang. It was his sister who called;

"Xiaohua, Xiaohua。。。。。 After the phone was answered, Huaxia's sister's voice was very hasty;

Hua Xia's heart suddenly tightened, and a bad premonition came up, and she hurriedly asked, "What's wrong, sister!"

"Hurry up and come to the hospital, the address is。。。。。。 Mom was hospitalized. Huaxia's sister said eagerly.

Huaxia hurriedly notified the unit to arrange other personnel to take over the work in his hands, and after the handover was arranged, Huaxia took a taxi and rushed to the hospital as quickly as possible. When Huaxia's mother arrived at the hospital, she had been transferred to the intensive care unit, and the doctor told Huaxia that her mother's condition was very serious, that she had advanced cancer, that the cancer had spread, and that because her mother was not in good health, the success rate of surgery was not high, so she could only be treated conservatively.

Huaxia asked the company for a period of leave, put down the work in hand, and accompanied his mother's life every day, Huaxia hoped to accompany his mother in the last limited days, and finish this last journey; Huaxia cooked his own food from home every day and brought it to his mother to eat, not that Huaxia was reluctant to spend money to buy food outside, and Huaxia felt that he had not had time to support his mother and repay her nurturing kindness; his mother was going to leave him; at this time, Huaxia's only way to repay his kindness; Huaxia's mother told Huaxia not to be too sad after she left, she just went to reunite with Huaxia's father, Huaxia's father had waited for her for too long, so long that she almost forgot what he looked like, so Huaxia should be happy for them, seeing Huaxia so sensible and filial, she can rest assured to reunite with him. Soon after, because Huaxia's mother was too seriously ill, she left them, and Huaxia's mother walked very peacefully.

Although Huaxia's mother told Huaxia not to be sad, his mother's death hit him hard, and Huaxia blamed himself very much; he blamed himself for being busy with work and not taking care of his mother, he blamed himself for not having the ability to make money and take his mother to him earlier; he blamed himself most for the "daydream" that deceived him;

To TMD Chinese language, to TMD ancient characters, Huaxia threw the small dictionary he made to the most marginal corner under the bed, and never touched it again, and never forgot these things.

When a person thinks of a thing or a thing, he will touch the pain in his heart, and at this time people will selectively forget this thing, so that he is not in pain;

After that, Huaxia's life was very decadent, he began to learn to smoke, began to learn to drink, and sometimes even had a hangover all night, so that the next day Huaxia could hear Huaxia vomiting in the bathroom "Wow Wow" After vomiting, I simply washed up and then went to work, and when I got home from work, I either turned on the computer in a daze, or turned on my mobile phone in a daze, I didn't want to go out for a walk, and I didn't want to contact any friends for a party; I was used to staying alone in one place; for more than a year, Huaxia felt that I had lost my normal ability to communicate with people; I felt like a walking corpse, living a life of eating and waiting for death.

Only occasionally going out to the bar and clubbing is also for physiological needs, and having a one-night stand with some unfamiliar women;