As soon as I finished speaking, I heard an unbridled teasing voice on the other side of the phone, "Say you're stupid, you took the college entrance examination and was admitted to the medical university." Saying that you are smart, you insult these two words again. When you say you, when you encounter a personal problem, you are completely stupid when it comes to the critical point. You are really the legendary single person by strength. I can't afford to hurt, I really can't afford to hurt!"

I couldn't see each other, but I could imagine their expressions when they spoke. When dealing with Sun Zhi, I will never show weakness, I will only choose to fight back.

I sneered and said, "Grandson, speak well." ”

"Holy. Do you really not understand, or do you deliberately pretend not to understand? Seeing that I was completely unenlightened, Sun Zhi said, "Based on what you just said, I have obtained a very important piece of information. I can tell you very responsibly. Mr. Xiao, I have feelings for you. ”

I said categorically, "No way." ”

He asked, "How could it be." ”

I said, "She and I are just classmates." ”

"Have you ever seen such a classmate?" Sun Zhi said again, "I really lost to you." ”

"Me. "Indeed, I have never seen such a classmate. But what is it that she and I are not classmates? Could it be that she and I have transcended the friendship of classmates? I quickly dismissed the idea. I shook my head, scolding myself for what I thought.

Seeing that I had nothing to say, Sun Zhi said eloquently, "Psychology, you and I have both studied." What is the social distance between people. ”

Dr. Edward Hall of the United States divided four distances for human interaction... Intimate distancing, personal distancing, social distancing, public distancing. The intimate distance is 15 cm to 44 cm. In the opposite sex, it is limited to couples and couples. Same-sex people are also intimate friends.

The distance between me and Xiao Xiao already belongs to the category of intimate distance. Are we really this far? I interrupted myself at the thought of this. I didn't dare to think about it any further.

I always thought that she and I were old classmates. Besides, she has Qiao Yu by her side, what does it have to do with me. The reason why I have this distance from her may be because we are both doctors, so we are not so constrained.

I said, "It's a coincidence, and it doesn't mean anything." ”

"She approached and chose to sit next to you," he said. Could it be a coincidence? ”

I thought about it for a moment and said with certainty, "Definitely a coincidence." ”

He asked, "How do you conclude it's a coincidence?" ”

I was silent for a moment, and with some frustration said, "She has a boyfriend." ”

"It's sad, it's painful, it's sad. Sun Zhi heard the loss in my words, "Sympathize with you silently for three seconds." ”

Where he sympathized with me, he was simply mending the wound.

I still remember when Qiao Yu declared his sovereignty and expelled me. I can't say that feeling. But when I heard what Sun Zhi said, I finally figured it out. It turns out that that kind of discomfort is an emotion expressed when you are sad. However, I don't need his sympathy, because I know that Xiao Xiao and I will only be classmates.

"Tell me about the information of your rival, and I will help you staff and think of countermeasures. Sun Zhi asked with a big grin, completely unconcerned about my feelings. It's like, he wants to know, these things about me.

"He graduated from the University of Medicine, two years above me. The reason why Xiao Xiao went to study at the Medical University was for him. In two words, they are talented and beautiful. So, what you're talking about is impossible. "I don't know why I said that, but after saying that, I felt a lot more relaxed.

"How do I hear someone knocking over a jar of vinegar. Sun Zhi asked in a loud voice, "What do you think in your heart?" How do you feel about her? ”

I was silent again. His problem, I don't know. I can't figure out what that feeling is. I only know that when I see Xiao Xiao, I always feel relaxed, and I can say whatever I want. Sometimes, I can't control my brain and hands to look at her circle of friends.

However, I never leave a footprint to prove that I have been there.

I once asked myself, why not in her circle of friends, like, write a comment, prove my existence. For some reason, I was a little scared. But, what I'm afraid of, I don't know.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Sun Zhi asked, "Did she tell you with her own ears?"

"Say what. ”

"The senior is her boyfriend. ”

"Nope. ”

"Brother, if you hear it with your own ears and see it with your own eyes, you will deceive. You have to follow your heart. Sun Zhi said, "If you are willing to continue to be single and die alone, I don't want to say more." ”

"Follow the heart?"

I wanted to ask something, but there seemed to be something on the other side of the phone. I hung up the phone, confused.

Those four words made me fall silent again. Although there are no great achievements in my life, there are great things to be proud of. Now, not only is the work not going well, but the love scene is even more unsatisfactory. At the moment, I don't know what I want. I don't even know what kind of person I want to be.

Yes, all that remains is to flee.

Why is this happening?

I thought about it for a long time, but I never came up with a satisfactory answer. I don't exhaust my energy to think about problems that I can't figure out for a while. I believe that I am still young and that one day I will understand.

I know I'm a very restless person, but I also think there's something to do at every age. It's like when they were students, heavy makeup and high heels didn't belong to them. After graduation, starting a family is also a path we want to take.

However, some people choose to live the rest of their lives step by step. And I, who put off this reasonable life for a few years. Although I can't escape this life after all, all I can do is fight for myself for two years.

The route of the student days was simple, home... School... Canteen... Home, constantly circulating. However, there will always be an expiration date for this cycle. After more than a dozen spring and autumn periods, this annoying and nostalgic era will also bid farewell to us.

At this time, we also know that we have grown up.

I still remember that there was a Chinese exam essay on the topic of us after the age of twenty. At that time, we worked hard to write about our future selves. When we grew up, we realized that we were not running in the direction we expected.

Later, we found out. In life, there are many uncertainties. It's okay to have dreams, and it's okay to stick to your dreams. But, everything goes with the flow. What doesn't belong to you won't belong to you after all.

How important it is to live in the moment and cherish the people in front of you.

After the Kai Ge and Jia Ge incidents, I learned a lot of things and understood a lot of people. And I, too, became silent.

Some people say it's a good thing for this silence. Talk less, do more, it's worth promoting and learning. Some people say it's a bad thing. They say that at my age, I shouldn't have this kind of silent life. If youth is a little less flamboyant, what is the point.

I am silent, but I am not apathetic. I also know that silence is dealing with passers-by who are not part of their lives. Ostentatious youth is reserved for those who are worthy of being invited into life.

Now, my route has not escaped from my student days, home... Hospital... Family. It's a simple route, and sometimes it's good.

In the blink of an eye, another few months passed. This long and painful probationary period has finally come to an end. And I, completely beaten into the cold palace, can no longer turn over. This will be my future destination.

And I, do I really like it? Like it?

On this day, I came to the rooftop with a heavy heart. Confucius climbed Mount Tai, and the world is small. And I also want to climb to the heights and broaden my horizons.

I don't know when, Mao Xiaoyu came over and asked me, "Tonight, do you have time?"

In the evening, I didn't arrange it and just said, "Yes." ”

He smiled and asked me, "Do you want to go to New Year's Eve together?" ”

I saw that he was hiding a secret under his smile, and refused, "No." ”

He didn't expect me to refuse so happily that I wouldn't give me any leeway. He didn't give up either, continued to do my ideological work, and asked, "Why don't you go." ”

He asks for a reason, and I give him a reason. I said with a little pain, "Chinese New Year's Eve is all in pairs, so I won't set it off." ”

"Brother, on such a good day, how can you not go because of these things?" he said, "Chinese New Year's Eve is a gathering place for our young people. If we're lucky, we'll be able to find our soulmates in the middle of nowhere. ”

I said disgustedly, "Being single is such a trivial thing, and it's not a thing worthy of pride, so you can't tell the whole world!"

"Why not. He said, "Think about it, how exciting!"

I said, "I don't have the courage. ”

He exclaimed, "Youth, you should go crazy once." ”

I was momentarily stunned as he said this calmly. Should such youth be crazy? And choose such a unique way. Single, how can you take it out to promote.

I asked, "Are you going for New Year's Eve, or is there another purpose?" ”

"It's all, it's all there. "Yes, the purpose of what I said, we know each other.

I wanted to excuse myself, but the other party said, "It's a good brother, let's go together." Brother, you can't admit defeat in life, let alone admit cowardice. ”

I asked, "This has something to do with whether or not to go to New Year's Eve." ”

He said, "I'm whipping your life." At the next intersection, you'll meet the person you want to meet. ”

I convinced him, and this sentence actually came out of his mouth.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he mistakenly thought that I was conquered by his handsome words, and he asked, "Have you seen the movie "Chinese New Year's Eve". ”

I nodded, sort of an answer.

"Men and women, both alone and in pairs, weave together on this night to celebrate love, forgiveness, and a second chance and a new beginning," he said. This night is also a farewell to the past and a welcome moment for the future. As young people, how can we miss the most important moment to reflect on the past and welcome the future. ”

I was completely defeated by his words. At the moment, I really couldn't find the right words to fight back against him. He is right when he says that great moments should be witnessed with your own eyes and remembered by heart. I should also take advantage of this night to reflect on the past and welcome the New Year.

I want to say goodbye to my bad self. I want to say hello to the future. In life, you can't admit defeat, let alone admit cowardice. Now I not only bow my head to life, but also admit it.

Youth, how can I admit defeat. I'm still young, and I should live as I should be.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he said, "Isn't it just going to Chinese New Year's Eve, and it's not for you to go to the guillotine, what is there to be afraid of." ”

I said, "Okay, go." ”

He didn't expect that I was persuaded like this, and said, "Why." ”

I said, "Youth, you can't throw in the towel." ”