I don't know how to open my mouth, because it hasn't been updated for a long time, and many friends have even given up, thinking that this is just a eunuch book.

Actually, I can't explain it, because it seems like this, although I am ten thousand sure in my heart, I will definitely finish this book. But the real situation is that in my senior year, I basically didn't write much.

The first 200,000 words were written by me three months ago, and at that time I had not yet passed the review at the starting point. But I can't wait to start creating, and even though I haven't collected more than 10 of them, I still feel like I want to write about it, even if it's just one reader.

At least that's proof that I'm on some commit.

Later, I finally switched to the starting point and put it on the shelves, and I was also riveted to make a career. I began to desperately make up all kinds of things related to Korean entertainment, and the number of words of the accumulated information was hundreds of thousands, far exceeding the progress of my book creation.

When I first planned the main line of the book, I looked back and found that such a story could no longer meet what I wanted to express.

So I started to start all over again, and as I learned more and more, my thinking changed dramatically.

I've come to realize that there is a limit to the capacity of a book that can't hold so much inspiration, that the story doesn't exist in reality, so there's no need to be too plausible, and that the main character can't be so uncontented, otherwise the story won't be interesting to read......

After all, after all, I'm just a student who hasn't stepped into society, and there are many things that I can't understand myself, let alone write them concisely. And I'm a person who really doesn't talk about things I don't think I understand.

So even though the story was already in my head, I didn't know how to express it as soon as I got to the details. Especially the complex relationships between people.

Sometimes I think that if I had the experience I have now, I might have really written a lot easier if I hadn't set the heroine in the book so early. The relationships between these characters were very troublesome for me to devise, and I really didn't know how to depict them.

At the same time as my creation was at an impasse, my life also reached a stage when I graduated from university.

In order to be able to graduate, I have to make up some debts in my senior year, and I am much busier than before, which is true. But I never think this is the main reason for the break, I don't write because I don't have time to write, I know this very well.

Even though I may not be able to stay up late or hold back a chapter for four consecutive hours like the year before, an hour or two a day is still fine as long as I want to write.

But the problem is like I said before, even if I sit in front of the computer and open the starting point, I still can't write what I can't write, and I won't get immediate results because I push myself. This may be the peculiarity of text creation, which is not something that I can try to solve.

Countless times, I want to blame myself for my own inertia, weak willpower, etc. But in the days since I broke off, I have never stopped thinking about this book, and it has even become a habit for me. The sticky notes on my phone and computer are still accumulating, and countless inspirations are waiting for the day when I have an enlightened epiphany.

From the end of last year to the shortly before that, I was mainly busy with graduation internships, dissertations, and oral defenses. But I don't need to exaggerate, because as everyone knows before, some readers may be facing or about to face it. Writing an essay itself is not that difficult, as long as you have normal intelligence and are not too perfunctory, even if it is written as a piece of shit at the beginning, there is always a way to revise it.

But more importantly, during the period of writing your dissertation, you will find through various signs and changes that your college life has indeed come to an end. And for some, it's the end of more than a decade of school life.

Finding a job did distract me for months, but the end point was not in the "search" of finding a job, but in the "job" itself. Even if I lose my job after graduation, I won't starve to death, but it's hard for me to find a job I don't like and start my youth blindly.

Because I encountered some difficulties in writing, I couldn't see the possibility of supporting myself and becoming self-reliant in a short time. So when I negotiated with my parents, I was even more unconfident. I don't swear as much as I used to, saying that this is what I want to do most in my life, and I am sure that I will change from a hobby to a career.

I'm not that naïve, and I can't fool myself.

About a month and a half ago, I signed a tripartite agreement, which is a central enterprise with a Chinese prefix, and it is the kind of central enterprise that can be counted on one hand. For me personally, the work intensity and rotation method are also very suitable, and it should be perfect for people who need stable time every day to watch variety show code words. Even if you don't want to make progress, the lower limit is high enough.

But before I could decide to be happy, the next day I got another chance, one that I could say would change my fate. To be honest, I thought that only novels would write like this. Because even if such a thing does happen, it will be difficult to accept.

Because, as expected, the difficulty cannot be the same level as before. Although the ceiling is too high for you to refuse, if you do decide to give it a try, you may have to change it from start to finish. It's hard to imagine what I'm going to be like.

But there's nothing to think about in this kind of thing, isn't it? It's up to people to succeed and heaven to fail. When this kind of thing happens, no one will let themselves regret it for a lifetime, there is no such truth in the world.

Therefore, the dissertation defense has just ended, and it is Yuna's birthday at the end of this month, so it is impossible to pretend not to know and fool the past. So before the end of the month, I will try to recover and write a few more chapters that are not like the content of my graduation thesis.

It is estimated that he will enter the workplace in June, and the time will be very unstable, so I can't make any guarantee for the time being, so I'll talk about the specific situation later.

At present, I plan to streamline the main line and delete the side lines that have little impact. The career line may be drastically cut and turned into a complete routine, and perhaps all that is left of each chapter is a variety of complaints, and some nonsensical inspiration.

But whether it's written for five years or ten years, I will definitely give you an explanation.