The purpose of opening a single chapter is nothing more than to explain, but I don't really have anything I want to explain right now. But I think if I don't say something in advance, I'll probably explain more in a few days.

I was sick a few days ago, and I felt tired mentally and physically, so I didn't write a new chapter, and the manuscript was already exhausted.

None of the recent updates will be stable, when it will be written and when it will be released. No matter how much Carvin is, I can hold back a chapter without eating or sleeping. But it depends on the state, and I can't really make any promises.

I'm not sarcastic or complaining, I really want to learn from other Korean entertainment novels. I can make up enough for a chapter by writing any dialogue, so why can't I write it?

Obviously, I often go off topic when writing proposition essays, why do I always want to revolve around the main line when writing novels? Each chapter is either to advance the plot or to lay the groundwork for feelings.

I'd love to take it easy, but this skill seems too difficult for me.

It's really tiring.

Change your way of life from laziness to what you are now. Squeeze out three or four hours a day, and no one can adapt perfectly.

Writing has affected normal life. I don't need to exaggerate that. In fact, normal people should weigh the pros and cons, especially if this kind of life lasts for a long time, not as simple as a week or a month or even a year.

There are also some practical pressures in front of me, after all, I am still a student and not a full-time writer. Whether I'm not doing my job or not, I don't want to dwell on this question.

Because I also know that if I think rationally, the answer I get should make me feel sad. If I look back in 10 years, I'll probably be dead a long time ago.

Obsession is not a compliment, and usually people who can't let go of it are unhappy.

(Thousands of words of depressing reflections have been omitted here, and the final conclusion is sad.) So I still don't pass on those negative energies to others. ）

But I'm really feeling okay.

It's fun to think about what she looks like, and it's even more satisfying to write a story. She is the reason, the purpose, and the meaning of my writing. It's what keeps me going.

In order to write this book well, I searched a lot of materials. Every day I get to know her and them better than I ever did. So I like it too.

It makes me feel like it's worth it.

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I used to know that I should do it, but I still didn't want to do it.

I don't know what I'm doing now, but I can't help but want to do it. This feeling is really the first time.

I also want to put aside distractions and concentrate on codewords. But my biggest influence doesn't come from outside, it's my own ideas.

I can not care about the grades of the book, the comments of some people. If someone says I'm not writing well, I probably don't really care. But I don't think I'm good at writing, so how can I do that?

I just went to class and thought about it a lot, and I felt that I was a little overwhelmed. Even if I looked up a lot of information, I couldn't have pieced together a complete entertainment industry.

The story I wanted to write only ran through its recent history, not filled all the gaps. Even if it is the girlhood at the peak, even if the protagonist of the novel dominates all the awards and lists.

is only the tip of the iceberg in the entertainment industry, but it has just surfaced and is well known to people. When did I get the illusion that this was all there was to it?

Is it because I have read too much tasteless and discarded material, and I want to cram it all into my book?

Obviously, what I want to write about is just some ordinary little emotions, maybe it would be more appropriate to change the background to the campus. I should be wearing a third-person skin to write the first point of view of the character, the inner activity. That's what I'm good at.

Although I also doubt what the story will look like when it is written. It might be a strange read.

But you still have to write it to find out, don't you?