Chapter 156: Cruel to Me
These photos are almost a record of my life for the past two years, and the closest one to his location is when I went to the supermarket the day before yesterday with two babies in my shopping cart and a bunch of snacks. I was peeling a lollipop for Ling'er, and Xiao Yu stuffed the lollipop in his hand into my mouth......
Since we didn't know that anyone was taking pictures, none of the three of us actually looked at the camera, but because of this, the whole picture seemed extra warm and real: "The photography technique is not bad. ”
I set my eyes on Jin Junchi's face, he still maintained an indifferent expression, but the starlight flashing in his pure black eyes showed that he was not calm. Hearing my words, Jin Junchi's thick eyelashes drooped slightly, fanned a little, and when he opened them again, his eyes sank into dead silence, and his handsome and sharp face became extremely pale, which was cold and lost after being spied on: "Is there something to do with me?"
Jin Junchi's voice was unwavering, as if I hadn't discovered his secret. Jin Jun will definitely be successful in the entertainment industry if he is late, but he is really a talented and good actor. Two years ago, I played a cheating scene with Xie Yunjing that made me feel heartbroken and resolutely withdraw, and now when this time comes, he can calmly ask me what I am looking for him.
"Something...... "I'm angry, I'm angry, I can't wait to rush up and beat Jin Jun late." He didn't want me to see him as he was, so he forced me to draw a line with him in such a disgusting way. He's so self-righteous, he can do whatever he wants for my good, it's not the way I want it, so don't expect me to appreciate it.
Say. Jin Jun's slow gaze locked on me, and the feeling of oppression was like a huge palm pressing on my body, and if I couldn't bear it, I would involuntarily give in.
"Borrow a bathroom. I turned in the direction of the bathroom, and I suddenly began to appreciate Xiang Qi for choosing such a dress that caught people's eyes every time I turned. I could feel the burning gaze behind me that almost burned me to death, so I straightened my back and walked slowly into the bathroom.
The bathrooms have been remodeled, with lots of handrails on the walls, towel rails, shelves, and even the water heater switches turned down. I can fully imagine how the proud man struggled to complete the simplest of washes here.
I thought I was fully prepared to face Jin Junchi, who was different from before, calmly, and even help him jokingly. But I was wrong, and even when I saw such a bathroom, my heart hurt so much that I couldn't breathe. Jin Junchi is so proud, he must not want people to see helplessness or even embarrassment. In a sense, Jin Junchi and I are the same kind of people, in order to maintain the most authentic purity of love, we can even abandon the love that we cherish as our lives. For example, when I was afraid that I was just a stand-in, and for example, he disdained to let my love for him be mixed with pity and self-blame.
It wasn't until I stood here that I really understood this man who could stab himself all over for pride and dignity, but still held his back and didn't want to show weakness.
Jin Junchi was cruel to me, but even more cruel to himself.
I crouched on the ground with my knees in my arms and wept silently, and in order not to make a sound, I endured it, and my body trembled like a leaf struggling in the wind.
I tried to calm myself and waited until I was back to normal before pulling the towel to dry myself. There were no extra yukata to spare, so I wrapped my towel around my chest, pushed open the glass door of the bathroom, and walked out.
I walked around to the other side of the bed, where there were neatly folded trousers and shirts, presumably for the next morning. I picked up the shirt and shook it off, taking the man lying there with a clear look at him as air, unbuttoning the bath towel as if no one was around, putting on the shirt, and buttoning it one by one. Jin Junchi's gaze became deeper, and those ice-like dead silences were melted and evaporated by small flames, and finally disappeared without a trace.
I lifted the quilt and climbed into bed, the shirt was still a little shorter to wear as a nightdress, and the silver-gray dark brocade linen lined my legs with extra lustre and white.
"What are you going to do?" Jin Junchi swallowed his saliva, his voice hoarse.
"Oh, spend the night with you. I grabbed my hair that wasn't dry, "You have the right to refuse, but even if you refuse, I won't go on my own." You can ask someone to throw me out, or call the police and say I'm trespassing on my house...... I know you're a scoundrel doing this, but you didn't take my feelings into account when you made decisions for me before, did you? ”
I picked up my phone and made a call: "Aunt Wu, I won't go back at night, you pay attention to Xiao Yu and Ling'er." ”
"Yes, Miss. Aunt Wu responded.
I put my phone on the bedside table, pulled up the quilt and lay down. The distance between the two people is almost within reach, but there is still a little distance, although there is a little distance, but I can feel Jin Junchi's body temperature. Of course, the main reason is...... He's too hot.
Jin Jun turned his head and looked at me fixedly, as if he wanted to see me through. I glared at him as if I was provocative, I was a person who died once, would I be afraid that he would look at me?
"What do you want?" Jin Junchi slowly raised his hand and stroked my hair, his fingertips shuttling between the soft and dense strands, as if he was smoothing the hair of a wayward pet.
"Don't you sleep?" I turned to him.
"There is suddenly one more person in your bed, can you sleep?" a wry smile appeared on the corner of Jin Junchi's mouth.
"I don't know if I can sleep with one more person in the bed suddenly, I just know that I can't sleep well if there is one less person around me. I also know that every time I think of sleeping with another woman in my place, sleeping is torment for me!" I sat up suddenly, one arm propped up on his side, "Jin Junchi, I hate you! I hate you for making me sleep in this way." I hate myself even more, even if you do this, I still have to trap myself in that scene and can't extricate myself!"
I didn't hide my anger in the slightest, how could he torture me with such cruel things for more than 700 days. I don't want to remember how I lived during this time, let alone how he lived.
"I'm sorry......" Jin Jun said slowly.
I have thought about it a long time ago, for this matter, no matter what Jin Junchi says or does, I will never forgive him. But no matter how firm my will is, when I see his guilty eyes lowered, and he doesn't even have the heart to defend himself, I can't be ruthless at all.
I raised my hand to turn off the light, and in the unsearchable darkness, I felt the buttons of his pajamas, and undid them one by one. The night was very heavy but couldn't cover Jin Jun's slow breathing, and he grabbed my wrist: "What are you doing......"
"Do you think Xie Yunjing looks prettier than me, or do you like her style of dressing?" Although I couldn't see Jin Junchi's expression clearly, I could see his deep eyes, still shining like diamonds in the dark, his body was hot, and the palm that clamped my hand almost burned my wrist. As soon as I thought of Xie Yunjing, I couldn't calm down, I shook off Jin Junchi's hand, and ripped off the shirt on my body, those luxurious crystal buttons were broken all over the place, or fell on the bed dullly, or fell on the floor crisply, "So what, will you like me more?"
"Xiaowan, don't mess around!" Jin Junchi never thought that I would do this, his breathing was already chaotic, and the scorching breath almost made me sweat, "It's not what you think, only you see so much, I didn't touch her." I haven't touched a woman since I had you......"
"I don't believe it...... How do you prove it...... "I put my arms on his broad shoulders, knelt on his waist, and slowly slid my palms to cover Jin Junchi's chest.
Jin Junchi's body tensed, stiff like a sculpture. He could no longer speak the full sentence, his heavy snort and heartbeat magnified countless times in the silent night, and he could only hold my waist tightly with both hands......
"Does this prove that I'm not lying?" Jin Junchi's hoarse voice was like a ray of light, piercing the night and pouring into my ears, more sultry than the moonlight outside the window.
"If you dare to lie, you will die!"
When I opened my eyes, I couldn't figure out the time, the curtains were too thick, there wasn't much light to let in, and I didn't like it at all. When I turned my head, I saw that Jin Junchi was also looking at me, I don't know when he woke up, anyway, there was no sleepy shadow in his eyes. Although he woke up, he didn't move at all, just looked at me.
I slept well last night, but I didn't expect to sleep so deeply. For a year or two, I never thought that one day, I would wake up by his side. I thought I might have been crazy last night, and I probably wouldn't do anything crazier than this again in my life. However, I feel that I am very good! Even if I can really 'wait' to be happy, I don't have the peace of mind that I have earned.
I got up from the covers, put on my torn shirt, made the bed a little, and pulled the curtains open with a bang.
I turned around and glanced at Jin Junchi: "The curtains are too thick, I don't like it." ”
Walking into the bathroom, yesterday I had washed and dried all my underwear, and my dress was hanging on a hanger. After taking a shower, I changed into my own clothes and walked out.
Jin Junchi only put on trousers, and his shirt ...... I have already reported to the trash can in the bathroom: "Your skirt is too exposed, and I don't like it either." ”
I walked straight out of the bedroom and didn't stay for a minute. I can go get a new shirt for Jin Junchi, and even help him take a shower in the bathroom. However, I didn't do anything. I know Jin Jun too well, he would rather do this by himself with a bruised nose and swollen face than I help him.