Chapter 12: Dead Wood in Spring: Suspicion 2
When Chaimen heard the dog barking, he knew that someone was coming. Hearing the barking of the dog, Xiaolong's aunt, uncle and cousin immediately went out to greet them. As soon as they entered the door, Xiaolong and Tian Tian felt much warmer, and immediately took off their coats.
Xiaolong and his uncle and cousin stayed in the hall and talked together. Xiaolong's aunt went into the kitchen to prepare the meal. She went into the kitchen to help her aunt, but how could the owner let the guests suffer?
She was embarrassed to be caught between the three men, so she went to the back room. Tian Tian's brother-in-law is in the back room. She had just given birth and was in confinement. Seeing the guests coming, she was embarrassed to continue lying down, so she raised the pillow with the quilt, leaned her upper body on the quilt and talked to Tian Tian.
Tian Tian picked up her little nephew, couldn't put it down, and kept making him happy. The little one was also amused. Taking care of young children seems to be a woman's gift. But after a while, the little guy's temperament changed greatly, and he always scratched Tian Tian's **. This made Tian Tian shy and helpless.
At this moment, Xiaolong's aunt also came in with food.
"I'm afraid the little guy is hungry even after smelling the smell of food?!" Xiaolong's aunt said with a smile.
"Give me the baby. Xiaolong's brother-in-law said to Tian Tian.
"Auntie, sit down and eat together. ”
"Nope. I still have to serve the 'ancestors' outside. ”
Xiaolong's aunt put the food on the kang table and left. Tian Tian followed the customs of the villagers, and took off his shoes and sat cross-legged on the kang like a farmer. Tian Tian inadvertently saw her brother-in-law untie her shirt, wipe off one side of her bra, and then stuff one of her ** into her son's mouth.
Her series of movements were so calm, as if there was no one in front of her. Tian Tian also saw rural women on long-distance buses openly exposing themselves in front of the public to nurse their children. She used to think that kind of behavior was immoral.
However, Xiaolong tells her that a mother can do anything for the sake of her child. Now she can finally deeply understand Xiaolong's words.
"Aren't you going to eat?"
"I'll eat later. ”
"Look, the little one is eating quite happily. However, my mother was hungry. ”
Xiaolong's brother-in-law waited for her baby to finish eating before she ate. The little one is full, and he is indeed more peaceful. When the mother eats, she can't forget her son. From time to time, she would scoop up a little broth with a small spoon, blow it cold, and put it in her son's mouth. Tian Tian once again felt the meticulousness of his mother's love.
"The little guy is really a tiger and a tiger, and he is endearing. ”
"You've been married to your cousin for almost three years, why don't you want a child?"
The words of his brother-in-law made Tian Tian's originally calm heart instantly stir up waves. What is it that she doesn't want to have children? It's clear that she wants but can't conceive. In the hall, three men were drinking and punching fists. Tian Tian heard Xiaolong's voice. Her heart ached even more.
For three years, she had been feeling that her inability to conceive was related to her abortion. She strangled a life with her own hands. As a punishment, God made her no longer able to be a mother in her life. She can't be a mother, and Xiaolong can't be a father. Because of this, she always felt that she couldn't stand Xiaolong.
Before going to bed, Tian Tian was still guilty about it. Xiaolong had already undressed and got into the bed. She's been slow.
"What's wrong with you today? Are you unhappy?"
"Nope. ”
"Then you take off your clothes so slowly. You're not afraid of freezing?"
In order to hide his thoughts, Tian Tian quickly took off his clothes again. She closed her eyes, but her thoughts still lingered. While she was thinking about her thoughts, she was unconsciously held in Xiaolong's arms.
"It's useless. Tian Tian somehow pushed Xiaolong away. This was the first time she had rejected Xiaolong.
"What's useless?"
"No matter how hard you try, I won't be able to conceive your child. I'm not destined to be a mother in my life. ”
"Who did you listen to?"
"Do you need to listen to anyone? This is an unmistakable fact. I've been married to you for almost three years, and if I could have conceived, I would have been pregnant a long time ago. ”
"Carrying a child is not about growing crops, you can conceive if you want to. That's a lot of serendipity. ”
"I know you're comforting me. ”
"I'm not comforting you. I'm reasoning with you. ”
"You don't have to say it. If I can't have children, it's useless. ”
"If it is useless to say that we can't have children, then aren't we all useless men?"
"How can men and women be compared? We women are born to bear children for our husbands. ”
"What law says that a woman must have children when she gets married? ”
"Whether the law stipulates it or not, I am your wife, so I should give you a child. I owe you nothing if I can't have children. ”
"We are husband and wife, what do you owe or not? Even if you can't have children in your life, you are still my wife. With or without children, we all have to be happy together. What do you say?"
In the face of Xiaolong's repeated persuasions, what else could Tian Tian say? She could only repay love with love.