"You make the bill, we're hospitalized. Jin Junchi said to the doctor.

Jin Junchi took the list prescribed by the doctor to Ah Zheng and asked him to go through the hospitalization procedures. Then he asked about the floor of the obstetrics and gynecology department, and carried me to the elevator room.

The emergency department was very busy at night, most of the patients were traumatized, probably psychological, and I always felt that the corridor leading to the examination room smelled of blood, and I couldn't help but frown.

"How uncomfortable?" Jin Jun couldn't help but speed up his pace.

"No, you let me down, I can go by myself. "The lights in the hospital corridor were bright, and the outline of Jin Junchi's face was unmistakably visible in front of my eyes, his face was sickly pale, and his eyelashes covered the blued lower eyelids.

"Don't make a fuss, the doctor said to be less active now. Jin Junchi was afraid that I was going to struggle down, so he tightened the arm that was supporting my back.

"Ah Zheng said you are sick......" I bit my lip.

"Bad girl, do you finally feel sorry for me?" Jin Junchi's eyes flashed with light, like a deep sea full of starlight, "You are obedient and obedient, better than anything else." ”

After several tests, the doctor said that it was physiological abdominal pain, which is a common phenomenon in the first trimester, and emotional stress and strenuous activities are easy to aggravate the pain, requiring bed rest.

It's already past eleven o'clock after some tossing, and it's not appropriate to go home and go back to the apartment at this time. Anyway, I was already hospitalized, so I decided to stay in the hospital for one night.

I took off my coat and sat on the bed, and Jin Junchi pulled a chair and sat next to the bed and looked at me. I coughed lightly: "You go back and rest, I live here with doctors and nurses to take care of, there will be no problem." ”

Jin Junchi pulled up the quilt and covered me: "Throw you alone in the hospital, do you think it's possible?"

A wry smile appeared on the corner of my mouth, but I didn't make a sound. In fact, what I thought in my heart was - 'If something goes wrong with Yunsang, you will leave me behind.' It's just that these words not only hurt others but also hurt myself, and I didn't have the strength to quarrel, so I chose not to say anything.

"Xiaowan, believe me again, okay?" Although I didn't answer, judging from Jin Junchi's expression, he should have seen through my thoughts.

I wanted to believe him, too, but it's like a person who always trips over the same rock, and it hurts more and more every time, and then when I see the rock, my first reaction is to walk around. Because pain has a memory, some people may be able to tolerate pain, but no one likes pain. Topics related to Yunsang are now taboo for me, and my heart aches faintly when I think about it, and I subconsciously avoid them.

"The ......"

"What do you want?" Jin Junchi held my hand, his palm was warm.

"Can you buy me a bottle of yogurt?" I just saw a ...... in the vending machine on the first floor, "I'm really a little hungry, and I don't want to continue the conversation with Jin Junchi."

"Wait. Jin Junchi rubbed my hair, took a wallet from his coat and walked out of the ward.

I looked at his tall and well-cultivated back, my eyes were inexplicably hot, and I wanted to cry a little. Perhaps the book is right - the levels of hormones such as human chorionic gonadotropin, estrogen, and progesterone change and affect the balance of the neurotransmitter system, causing extreme mood swings in pregnant women.

Jin Junchi came back soon, holding three bottles of yogurt in his hand: "I don't know which one you want to drink, I bought all three flavors." ”

"I'll drink it plain. ”

Jin Junchi unscrewed the cap of the bottle, then inserted the straw and handed it to me: "Here." ”

"Thank you. I bit down on the straw and took small sips.

"Little Evening ......"

I was afraid that Jin Junchi would continue to tell me what I hadn't finished just now, so I chose a different topic: "Why did you let Ah Zheng smash Shen Zichu's car?"

"I told you, whoever dares to covet my wife, I will kill him in minutes!" Jin Junchi said lightly.

"He didn't do anything. I rolled my eyes.

"So I just asked Ah Zheng to warn him. ”

Just a warning can rob the kidnappers, I don't dare to think about what the result will be if Shen Zichu provokes Jin Junchi: "Can you not be so naïve......"

"I had dinner with Chu Kairui at night, and then I took that Shen Zichu car, you desperately did things that made me jealous, do you think I can be calm?" Jin Junchi looked at me with burning eyes.

Listening to Jin Junchi's words, I was taken aback: "You arranged the person who smashed chris with a wine bottle?"

"It's not. Jin Junchi saw that 'I don't believe it' was written all over my face, and he continued, "Even if I want to clean him up, I won't do it in front of you." I'm afraid you'll have to give him a blood transfusion if your brain is pumped!"

"In any case, you don't 'warn' people in this way in the future. I took a deep breath, "Although I am not a noble person, I still have a moral bottom line, and I will not have an affair with others before the divorce." "Actually, even if I get divorced, I'm afraid I won't be able to accept anything else.

"Xiaowan, are you still planning to divorce me now?" Jin Junchi looked at me in surprise, and his voice became higher and higher, "I said a long time ago that I would not divorce." Besides, you are pregnant with my child now, and I can't let my child call someone else's father! Don't even think about it!"

I glared at Jin Junchi in a daze, is the child the whole reason why he won't divorce me? I hope he can hold my hand unswervingly, not because of Yunsang, not because of the child, but because he loves me.

Jin Junchi's eyes were slightly red, he wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes with his fingers, and his low voice was a little hoarse: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell at you." I was a little out of control just now, it was me who was wrong......"

I lowered my eyes and stopped looking at him. Let the eyelashes cover the tears in my eyes, and also cover my heart that is starting to cramp again. I don't know how to trust this man who is gentle and considerate one second, and can roar at me the next. If Jin Junchi is a sea, I don't know water at all, and this kind of recognition makes me feel hopeless. I half-curled up like a wounded little animal and burrowed into the covers.

Jin Junchi helped me tuck the corners of the quilt, and after a long silence, he turned around and walked out of the ward. The moment I heard the door close, my tears poured down like a torrential rain, but I bit the corners of the quilt and refused to make a sound.

I didn't sleep soundly, and my sleep was filled with the smell of wet and salty tears: I was standing by the lake, and in front of me was the blue water. The endless lake is connected to the snow-capped mountains in the distance, and I reverently write my wish on a card printed with the words "Three Lives of Floating World Fireworks, One Life of Long Memories". The cards are then rolled up and placed in a drifting bottle, buried deep under a fir.

I tried very hard to read the words written on the card, but I just couldn't see it. I woke up in a hurry. When I opened my eyes, I saw Jin Junchi's sleeping face in the hazy morning light, and the sadness brought into reality from the dream deepened a little at this moment......

His thick eyelashes cover the shadows under his eyes, stripping away the strength and domineering of waking up, and there is a kind of fragile and gentle beauty. I looked at Jin Junchi in a daze, some emotions can't be seen or touched, it quietly takes root in your heart and grows a prosperous one. When it can attract your attention, it has already taken over all of your heart, and it can no longer be removed.

Jin Jun opened his eyes suddenly, and his heavy gaze formed a whirlpool, which could easily sweep people into it and never get out again. I didn't dare to look at him, so I quickly turned my face away.

"It's still early, you sleep a little longer. Jin Junchi rubbed my cheek, "You fell asleep last night, and tears have been flowing from the corners of your eyes." Can you tell me what sad things you dreamed about?"

"It's not a sad thing......" I shook my head.

"What's that?" Jin Junchi asked patiently.

"The blue lake, the snow-capped mountains and the fir trees...... "I recalled the dream, and there was really no one bad about it, "everything was beautiful, but I don't know why, I just ...... sad"

Jin Junchi picked me up from the bed and held me in his arms: "Don't think about it if you feel sad, you should be happy every day now." ”

I frowned and looked at Jin Junchi, I had a very strange feeling, he seemed to know why I was unhappy in my dreams...... I shook my head vigorously, this idea is so ridiculous, even I don't know about it, how could Jin Junchi know, what's more, it's just a dream......

"Let's forget all about the past and be together from now on, okay?" Jin Junchi held my cheek and kissed my forehead gently, "Xiaowan, I love you, I will spend a lifetime to prove it to you." You just have to trust me one more time. ”

"Is it that you can tolerate whatever I do, and you won't blame me for hurting your heart?" I raised my head and looked at Jin Junchi with burning eyes.

"Yes!" Jin Junchi pecked lightly on the tip of my nose.

"What if I destroy what you hold dear?" my gaze became sharp and frenzied, "for example, destroy that memorial room in the Moonfoot Mountain Villa...... Won't you blame me?"

I distinctly felt Jin Junchi's arm around my waist tremble, and then my whole body became stiff, like a sculpture. My eyes also darkened, it turned out that what Xie Yunjing said was true, Jin Junchi did build a memorial room for Yunsang in the Yuelu Mountain Villa. I don't know how much I cherish to build a memorial room for the deceased, I just know that I am jealous......

Jin Junchi was silent for a long time before he spit out two words with difficulty: "I won't ......"

In fact, my head is very messy now, I don't know what I'm talking nonsense, and when I heard Jin Junchi's answer, I reacted for a while before I understood, he probably said that he wouldn't blame me. I thought I would be happy to hear this answer, but I really wasn't happy at all. I always thought I could win once, only to find out at the end that the game was long over, and I didn't have a chance to play.