I ignored her anymore and sat on the sofa in the living room, smoking a cigarette but my heart was shrouded in a gloomy mist.

After about two minutes, Suxia stumbled to the couch, her body full of alcohol trying to get close to me, and I instinctively pushed her away and moved to the other side.

"Honey, are you still angry?" she looked at me, pouting as if aggrieved.

I took a puff of my cigarette, exhaled the smoke slowly, and said unhurriedly, "You can rest well for the night, and pack up your things and leave here early tomorrow morning." ”

"Why? ...... Don't you want me?" Su Xia suddenly seemed to sober up, and she looked at me with wide eyes.

"I remember telling you this morning that I would break up with you if you went back, and I didn't scare you. ”

Suxia didn't answer me, she picked up the cigarette case on my coffee table, took a cigarette from it and lit it, I never knew she could smoke, I was a little dumbfounded when I watched her skillful movements.

She took two puffs and said to me, "You always thought Director Kim had done something to me, didn't you?"

"Isn't it?"

"I said no, do you believe it?"

"Do I think I'll believe it?"

She narrowed her eyes, smiled bitterly, took a hard puff of cigarette, and said with a desperate expression: "In your eyes, am I such a shameless woman? If we don't even have this trust between us, I don't think there is any need for us to continue......

"Let's break up!" I said calmly, my heart didn't hurt.

"Does it really have to be like this?"

"You forced me, I always wanted to be nice with you until I got married, but what about you?"

With tears in her eyes, Su Xia shook her head and said, "Xiang Nan, I can't accept that you broke up with me because of today's incident...... Why can't you trust me? I vouch with my personality that I haven't done anything to be sorry for you...... Yes, you saw Director Kim put his hand on my lap before, he had some other thoughts about me, but I was measured...... And after you beat him, he didn't do that to me again, and people want to sue you, it's me...... I begged him to let you go, do you understand?"

"You don't have to go any further...... You can think that I don't understand, or you can think that I'm too small-bellied, but I just can't do it, I just remember that my girlfriend made compromises in front of others, and I can't accept everything in exchange for this. ”

"So you're really breaking up with me now, aren't you?"

I nodded without hesitation and sighed: "It's not suitable after all, it's not suitable, continuing to be together is just torture for each other, let each other go!"

"If you break up because of something else, I agree, but if you want to break up because of today, I don't!" she paused for a moment and added, "If you don't trust me, I'll make you believe it." ”

I sighed again, and in my irritation lit another cigarette.

After a moment I stood up and said indifferently, "Whatever you want! I'll go out to sleep......

I was just about to leave, but Susha also stood up, and then hugged me tightly, not letting me leave.

I struggled: "Let go of me!"

"Don't go, okay?"

"You go away!"

She hugged me tighter and tighter, already choked up: "Don't go, don't leave me...... I really didn't do anything to be sorry for you, I'll be honest, she just touched me and didn't do anything else to me, really...... Trust me, I love you, really love, don't leave me......"

I bit my lip tightly, but she desperately asked me at this time, I desperately refused, but gradually pandered......

She still had a smell of wine in her mouth, and she frantically pushed me down on the couch, expertly undoing my belt and uncovering her own belt.

Her body was just exposed to me, and I didn't have any desires, but I didn't struggle anymore.

Just as she was about to sit up on her own, she suddenly stopped, and she left me, choking up, "I'm sorry...... I'm sorry!"

I sat up from the sofa, stared at her and said calmly, "Su Xia, let's all calm down! I'll give you a little more time, and you can give yourself another chance, okay?"

"How long do you have to calm down, I'm afraid that once you are so calm, you will never ...... again"

"I'm more afraid that you will have a next time, a next time...... This is not the life I want. ”

"I don't want to do this either, but we want to live, you don't even have any savings now, the house is still rented, how can we live a good life now?"

I lowered my head and admitted that I was very useless, I was 26 years old, I had no car, no house, no savings, and I owed more than 70,000 yuan to my friends......

It's useless to go to the weird house, such a man is a real failure!

However, even so, I can't accept her changing her future life in this way, I can only say that the lifestyle we choose is different.

I shook my head in despair: "Now we even have a communication barrier, don't say it anymore, the more we talk, the deeper our misunderstanding...... During this time, I will also reflect on myself, so let's calm and calm each other. ”

"Okay, I'll wait for you. ”

After Su Xia finished speaking, she went back to the bedroom, and soon heard the sound of her packing up.

I didn't stop her, I still sat on the sofa and smoked, I raised my head to prevent the warmth from the corners of my eyes from turning into tears, but there was an overwhelming sense of powerlessness in my heart......

Susha packed her bags and left, and as she was leaving, she told me that she would wait for me until I figured it out.

But I don't know if we're going to be able to do it again.

I didn't think much about it, I just felt that this kind of life was not what I wanted, and it was better to let her go and let myself go.

It also made me gradually understand that the most unplanned thing in the world is feelings, we always imagine our feelings to be beautiful, but the reality is always the opposite, always making us lost......

It was already late, and I was still worried about her safety, so I called An Zheng.

At this time, I thought An was asleep, but he quickly answered the phone, and the other end of the phone was still a little noisy.

I said to her, "Brother, I'm sorry to bother you so late, I have something to do with you." ”

"What do you say, say it louder...... I can't hear clearly, it's so noisy here. ”

The voice from the opposite side seemed to be in the bar, this grandson was still in the bar so late, and he was with Zhang Lin, and he didn't change his life!

I said loudly: "I said that I had a quarrel with Su Xia, she left my house at this time, and it's so late now, you tell Zhang Lin now, let Zhang Lin contact her." ”

An Zheng suddenly sighed and said, "Dude, don't look for me about this, you can contact Zhang Lin yourself, I have nothing to do with her." ”

"What!?" I said, stunned, "Didn't you stay together for the first two days?"

"Two days ago, two days ago, just today I suddenly received a text message that this Nima cheap woman had slept with other men in Paris, and received photos of them naked in bed......"

"Aren't you? And where are you now?"

"Soho bar, are you coming?"

"Wait for me!"

With that, I hung up the phone and put on my clothes and went out.

On the way to Soho Bar again, I sent Zhang Lin a WeChat message and asked her to contact Su Xia, after all, she was a woman in the middle of the night and drank alcohol, and it was not all the same.