After sending Wang Yan home, I walked down the street back to my residence, smoking a cigarette a little dullly, and my heart was flooded with a wave of unknown loss, which may have come from my delay in handling my own life.

It was very windy at night, so I wrapped my clothes tightly and looked at the bustling lanterns along the way, showing the atmosphere of the New Year everywhere.

And I am like a bystander, and the lights of thousands of homes here have nothing to do with me.

After I got home, I received a WeChat message from Wang Yan, she asked me if I was home, I said home, she said have a good rest, see you tomorrow, and I will see you tomorrow.

Lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling in distraction, I suddenly felt as if someone had arranged all this, and everyone was moving like a machine.

We will always meet different people on the road of life, some leave and some will come in, and every link will be arranged.

Thinking of Miao Miao, who was still filming in other places, I picked up my mobile phone and called Miao Miao again.

"Are you busy? ”

"I'm still waiting for the show, brother. ”

I didn't tell Miao Miao anything about what happened during this time, but she already knew that Liu Qing didn't live in our house anymore.

I said, "It's Chinese New Year's Eve tomorrow, are you still filming?"

"There will be a holiday tomorrow, but I can't come back, and I'm still in Shanghai. ”

"Well, pay more attention to your body over there! Don't get too tired. ”

"I know, brother, you too. ”

I sighed and said: "In previous years, the two of us celebrated the New Year together, but this year it is only me and my father, you must be good over there, and tell my brother if you are short of money." ”

"Brother, I'm not short of money now, don't worry, I'll take care of myself. ”

"Don't blame my brother for being verbose, my brother is also worried about you. ”

"I know, brother, I miss you too. The crew said that we have a few days off after the Lantern Festival, and I will definitely come back then. ”

"Okay, when the time comes, my brother will make you your favorite food. ”

We chatted for almost an hour, and Miao Miao waited until after her play to end the call.

Putting down my phone, I thought about my past year, everything that happened around me really felt like a dream.

This night, I thought a lot about the future, but I didn't have any clue about getting along, and the future is not something that can be decided by just thinking about it.

I don't have the enthusiasm and positive attitude towards life anymore, but I used to have ambitions, I want to be a rich person, not only to realize my own value but also to help more people realize their self-worth.

Later, before I knew that day, I forgot about this great ideal, and began to become negative, sentimental, and passable......

Man, either succeed, settle for the status quo, or degenerate.

I chose to fall, and I can't remember how I fell or when I began.

When depravity becomes a habit, I gradually don't feel ashamed, so I don't have any ideas about the future, I want to wait for the New Year to take the 1.5 million yuan to buy a house, and the rest of the money will buy a scooter, and then find a job to make a living, and live a life of nothing.

At this moment, I believe that I have let go of Song Qingyi, because I have subtly entered another state of life.

I longed for a stable, simple life and love, and then after it came to fruition, this love turned into marriage, and my blind date Wang Yan was the most suitable person.

I think this kind of life is good, the family is happy together, I don't have to wander for my dreams, I don't have to be sentimental, it's enough to have a hot meal when I get home from work every day.

……

The next morning, I woke up to the sound of firecrackers, and the sun was shining outside the window.

I got up, took a hot shower, hung up the thick stubble, took care of myself inside and out, and then found a clean set of clothes from the closet to change into.

Standing in front of the mirror, I found that I had become much more handsome and had many vicissitudes, but there was no doubt that this was still a very young face.

Looking in the mirror, looking at the face inside, for a long time, I didn't have any thoughts, just looked at the person in the mirror.

I don't know how long it took for my phone ringing from my room to interrupt my thoughts, and I put down my razor and went back to my room to pick up my phone.

The caller turned out to be Wang Yan, whom I only met yesterday, and when I answered the phone, she asked me if I was up, and she was already on her way to my house.

I didn't want to move, I just said casually yesterday that I would go shopping with her today, and she actually came to me so early, is it really interesting to me?

After taking care of her personal hygiene, Wang Yan also happened to come to the yard, she was already dressed very festively, and she was wearing a red woolen coat.

But I think she can't set off this big red, it's her temperament, if this dress is worn by Song Qingyi, it will be perfect!

After seeing me, she also looked me up and down, and said with a smile: "You yesterday are very different from you today!"

I touched my nose and sneered, "You came too quickly yesterday, I wasn't prepared at all, of course I have to take care of such a good day today." ”

She smiled and said, "Can we go out then?"

"Walking. ”

……

There are almost no cars in the city in the Chinese New Year's Eve, and the city is quite deserted except for the colorful lights hanging on the trees and various red lanterns.

We walked all the way to the mall, chatting all the way, and the atmosphere was much more natural than when we first met yesterday, and we even talked about our respective times in college.

Wang Yan graduated from Chongqing Normal University, and after graduation, she joined Wuxing Primary School to teach Chinese; I didn't tell her about my admission to Fudan University, but only told her that I went to the University of Technology and Business.

I didn't deliberately show off myself in front of her, and I don't have anything to show off.

In the mall, we really walked side by side like a couple, and we would go to see anything interesting and beautiful, and she was not the kind of girl who was particularly introverted, she was still quite lively, especially after getting to know me.

After walking around, I bought her a dress that suited her temperament, which was not expensive as a meeting gift for her. He also bought me a pair of leather shoes, which she said were a man's second face, and he liked boys to wear leather shoes.

Actually, I don't like it, I just like to wear sneakers, and my dream is to buy a pair of AJ's basketball shoes.

It was noon after shopping, and I wanted to invite her to a steak, after all, I wanted to eat it myself. But she insisted on buying vegetables and cooking for me, and wanted me to try her handiwork.

Just when we came out of the mall, we met someone who didn't want to meet at this time, and I never expected to meet Song Qingyi here.

We met head-on, she was coming in from outside, and we were just leaving the mall, so we ran into each other at the wrong time, in the wrong place!