Chapter 35: I'm Not Worthy of Being Your Husband, So Who Deserves It?!
Lin Fan's heart trembled violently, and then, she turned her head and bit her fingers tightly, so she didn't cry.
"Xiao Fan......" Yan Rui saw her like this, and regretted telling her about Li Yishen, she wanted to distract her, but she didn't expect it to make her even more sad.
After lying on the hospital bed like an empty shell for three days, Lin Fan, accompanied by Yan Rui, went to the memorial service held by the hospital for Shi Hui.
On the black and white photo, Shi Hui's smile is still warm.
Lin Fan wanted to give him a pillar of incense, but Zhang Yanxi, who was in tears, suddenly rushed forward and grabbed her collar.
Shi Hui's death was almost devastating for Zhang Yanxi, and her bloodshot eyes had obviously not slept in days.
At this moment, the last person Zhang Yanxi wants to see is Lin Fan, as long as she thinks that Shi Hui was thinking about Lin Fan before he died, she can't wait for Lin Fan to go to hell.
"Lin Fan, you are not qualified to come here, if Shi Hui didn't think that he was about to donate tendons to you, he wouldn't have chosen to go rock climbing that day, it was you, it was you who killed Shi Hui!"
Zhang Yanxi blamed Shi Hui's death entirely on Lin Fan, but she never reflected on herself, what she said to him on the phone a second before Shi Hui's accident.
Seeing that Lin Fan didn't speak, and his eyes didn't even look at him, Zhang Yanxi seemed to be crazy, regardless of Yan Rui's obstruction, he desperately shook Lin Fan.
Lin Fan was convinced of Zhang Yanxi's words, and she also thought that Shi Hui suddenly went rock climbing because he wanted to donate tendons to herself.
Shi Hui died because of her...... They had only known each other for a week, and he died because of her.
As long as he thought of this, Lin Fan couldn't help but tremble.
"Yan Xi, calm down......"
Zhang Yanxi's father and the doctors who came to the memorial service hurriedly gathered around Zhang Yanxi.
With a "snap", when Zhang Yanxi's hands holding Lin Fan's collar were forcibly pulled away by her father, she slapped Lin Fan hard.
"Xiao Fan......" Yan Rui felt sorry for Lin Fan, she angrily stepped forward to reason with Zhang Yanxi: "The surname is Zhang, don't go too far, Xiao Fan, she didn't know that the doctor would go rock climbing at this time, and she didn't know that the doctor would have an accident!"
Zhang Yanxi couldn't listen to Yan Rui's words at all, she struggled and wanted to come over to fight Lin Fan.
Lin Fan, who was slapped off the head by the slap just now, was indifferent, and still looked at Shi Hui's portrait steadily.
Seeing that everyone couldn't stop Zhang Yanxi, a tall young man stepped forward to hug Zhang Yanxi and dragged her away from Lin Fan.
"Yan Xi, you can't blame others for this! It's my fault, it's my fault that I have already made an appointment with Ah Hui to go rock climbing that day, if you want to blame me!"
It was Shi Hui's cousin Shi Xu who hugged Zhang Yanxi, when Shi Hui had an accident, he was next to him, from the accident to the present, he didn't know how many times he explained to Zhang Yanxi, but Zhang Yanxi just couldn't listen, and insisted on putting all the responsibility on Lin Fan.
Zhang Yanxi pointed at Lin Fan and yelled: "Get out! I won't let you see Shi Hui again...... I won't ......."
After Shi Xu handed Zhang Yanxi over to her father, he came over to persuade Lin Fan: "Miss Lin, you better go." ”
Lin Fan turned her head to look at Shi Xu in a daze, and she was finally willing to speak, and she begged Shi Xu bitterly: "Please let me put incense on Doctor Shi...... Please......"
Shi Xu nodded, he lit the incense and handed it to Lin Fan.
Lin Fan refused Yan Rui's help, she sat in a wheelchair, stretched out her hand desperately, and trembled to insert incense into the incense burner.
In the green smoke, Lin Fan looked at Shi Hui in the portrait with burning eyes.
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The pain in his legs was getting worse day by day, but the guilt in his heart was getting worse day by day, and Lin Fan was almost out of breath.
On the day of Shi Hui's burial, there was a light rain in Haicheng, and it seemed that even the sky was crying for Shi Hui's untimely death.
In order not to irritate Zhang Yanxi, Lin Fan could only watch from a distance as the urn containing Shi Hui was covered by the wet soil.
She is an atheist, but at this moment, she desperately hopes that there will be heaven and an afterlife, and that Shihui's life can begin in another way.
Towards the end of the funeral, Zhang Yanxi fainted from crying and was sent back to the car by Shi Xu and her father.
After all the people attending the funeral had left, Lin Fan turned his wheelchair and came to Shi Hui's tomb.
Looking at Shi Hui's sunny smiling face on the tombstone photo, Lin Fan smiled bitterly with tears, "Doctor Shi, you are so excessive, let me owe you such a big favor, but you don't give me a chance to pay it back......"
Before the funeral, she went to meet Shi Hui's parents and offered to repay Shi Hui for donating tendons to her.
Shi Hui's parents felt that that was their son's only wish before the accident, they didn't want Lin Fan's repayment, and only asked her, that is, to do a good job of rehabilitation and not to live up to Shi Hui's wishes.
The more the Shi family is like this, the more uncomfortable Lin Fan's heart becomes, she would rather the Shi family be the same as Zhang Yanxi, blaming her and hating her.
"Miss Lin. Shi Xu didn't know when he came behind her.
Lin Fan raised his hand to wipe away his tears before turning around, "Mr. Shi, hello." ”
Because they are cousins, Lin Fan can see the similarity between him and Shi Hui from Shi Xu's face, but the kind of sunny warmth that Shi Hui gives people, she can't feel it in Shi Xu at all.
Lin Fan took out the bank card she had prepared from the pocket of her coat, the card was the money that Lin Jinzhong had given her over the years, except for the next hospitalization fee, she didn't keep any of it, and all of it was stored in it.
She handed the card to Shi Xu, her eyes full of pleading, "I know, Dr. Shi's parents don't need money, but that's all I can do, Mr. Shi, please accept this card and transfer it to Dr. Shi's parents, maybe you can stay, in short...... Anyway, don't let me do nothing......"
Looking at Lin Fan, who was tortured by this incident, Shi Xu knew that if she didn't accept this card, she would have a troubled conscience for the rest of her life.
Shi Xu squatted down after taking the bank card, "Miss Lin, I will set up a love foundation in the name of Ah Hui with the money in this card, if Ah Hui knows about it, he can still help many people after he dies, and he will definitely rest in peace." ”
"Thank you, thank you......" Lin Fan kept thanking Shi Xu, tears pouring out like a flood bursting the embankment.
"You're welcome. Miss Lin, I reiterate at the end, Ah Hui's death has nothing to do with you, don't blame yourself in the future, take care. After Shi Xu finished speaking, he got up and patted Lin Fan's shoulder before leaving.
How could she not blame herself, as long as Lin Fan lived for one day, she couldn't forget that there was a doctor named Shi Hui in her life.
She had his tendons in her legs, and when she stood up, the gratitude and guilt for Shi Hui would gradually accumulate with every step she walked, until the day she stopped breathing.
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After another week in the hospital, the doctor told Lin that she would be able to start rehabilitation next Monday after the casts on her legs were removed.
The wounds she operated on have healed, and Li Yishen, who is far away in Mexico, can almost be discharged from the hospital.
Lin Fan called every day to ask about Gao Ming and Li Yishen's situation, but he never called him personally.
It's not that she doesn't care about him, she is afraid that she will care about it and lose her temper on the phone, but if she doesn't make this call for a day, she will lose sleep all night.
When he had insomnia in the middle of the night again, Lin Fan picked up his mobile phone and dialed Li Yishen's number.
Honk...... Honk...... He answered: "Hey......"
The dull voice, apparently woken up by the phone.
Lin Fan's previous mental preparations were in vain, and when she heard his voice, her nose was sour, and tears flowed down her eyes.
"Speak. She was silent, and he was visibly impatient.
After taking a deep breath with all his might, Lin Fan was finally able to make a sound, "...... Li Yishen, you ...... Okay, okay?"
As soon as she asked, she immediately covered her lips tightly, so that he did not hear her cry.
Li Yishen on the other side of the phone fell silent, and after a while, he spoke: "Are you caring about me?"
No wonder he was dissatisfied, it had been half a month since his car accident and she called him, which was too long late.
Lin Fan didn't know what to say for a while.
When she was about to hang up the phone, Li Yishen sighed, "Forget it, you should be concerned about calling me at this point." I'm fine, I've had a slight injury, I'm fine, I'll be back in Haicheng next week. What about you, when are you going to go back from the United States?"
“…… Next week. At that time, the cast on her leg was almost ready to be removed.
"Good. Suddenly, his tone became heavier, and he rebuked her impatiently: "Don't cry, do you know that you look ugly when you cry!"
At this moment, she could finally cry openly, "Li Yishen, how ugly am I? You can't see it!"
Li Yishen: "I know it's ugly just thinking about it, if I come back and you cry in front of me, I will definitely throw you out of the annex!"
For a while, anger outweighed pain, Lin Fan choked back tears, and yelled at him on the phone: "Li Yishen, if you listen to me, I won't cry in front of you!
With that, she hung up the phone angrily.
Feeling that it was not enough, he opened WeChat and sent him a bomb emoji.
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The day of the plaster removal coincided with Li Yishen's return to China, and after receiving Gao Ming's notice in advance, Lin Fan hurriedly returned to the annex.
As soon as she was carried into a wheelchair by Xiao Li, Li Yishen's car stopped at the entrance of the annex.
Lin Fan looked at the car door steadily, and his right hand unconsciously put it on the place where his chest was beating rapidly.
When he saw that Li Yishen, who got out of the car, except for an extra cane in his hand, did not lack arms or legs, and had no obvious external injuries, Lin Fan's heart that was tightly held relaxed only then.
Li Yishen walked up to her with a cane and stopped, and he didn't know what was wrong with him, so he reached out and pinched Lin Fan's cheek, and summarized evilly: "My father-in-law is really stingy, it's rare for you to go back, and I won't give you something delicious to eat, look at you, you're about to become a monkey." ”
Lin Fan pushed his hand away angrily, and glared at him fiercely with a fierce look in his eyes, "You said that I should take a look at yourself before I do, the bamboo poles are stronger than you, at least people won't fall when they stand in the wind!"
The little fox was sharp-toothed, and knew that he could now walk with crutches, so he hit back at him sharply.
Li Yishen smiled silently, and before entering the door, someone with a wheelchair pushed her.
Pushed by him, Lin Fan spun around in a wheelchair, and after stopping, her head was a little dizzy, and she yelled at Li Yishen's back in annoyance: "Li Yishen, you stop for the old lady!"
Li Yishen turned his head and made a straight face, "My mother? ”
"......" Lin Fanqi knotted.
What kind of husband and wife, vindictive as soon as they meet?
Gao Ming looked at them, and as many as three forehead lines appeared on his forehead.
The polytechnic man is a workaholic, and the injury on his leg has not healed yet, so he went to work without resting for a day.
It doesn't matter if he is not at home, after Lin Fan turned off Xiao Li's power, he referred to the rehabilitation plan given to her by the doctor, and supported the edge of the bed in the bedroom alone for rehabilitation.
From standing up tremblingly to being able to take a step, it took her two days to recover.
After a week of rehabilitation, her legs became more and more powerful, and just when Lin Fan was happy that she could walk without holding on to the edge of the bed, familiar footsteps sounded outside the door.
Lin Fan panicked, and when she couldn't reach the wheelchair, she immediately climbed into the bed and got into the quilt.
The slippers were kicked off, and the door opened, and Li Yishen stood at the door with a shopping bag.
Looking at Lin Fan on the bed, he frowned, "Are you planning to stay in bed for the rest of your life?"
Lin Fan turned his head and looked at the alarm clock - six o'clock in the evening was indeed not a good time to sleep.
"I just want to sleep, can't I?" Recently, the man of the science and technology has been a little wide, and even if she doesn't go out of the room to eat, he will count it out.
Li Yishen had a dark face, walked in and threw the shopping bag in his hand on the bed, "Get up and change your clothes and go to the mansion for dinner." ”
Lin Fan sat up and took the shopping bag, and saw that there was a lotus pink evening dress inside.
She was puzzled: "What kind of meal, so grand?"
"Accompany my grandfather to dinner, you say that Long is not grand. When Li Yishen spoke, his eyes fell on the women's slippers under the bed.
As smart as Lin Fan, he immediately readily agreed: "Grand and grand, you go out quickly, I will change my clothes and promise not to embarrass you in front of your grandfather." ”
Li Yishen glanced at her, didn't say anything, and turned around and walked out of her bedroom.
Lin Fanru was on the verge of amnesty, and after breathing a sigh of relief, she took out the evening dress in her shopping bag.
The one-shoulder design, soft, chiffon with classical pattern embroidery, is her favorite fairy skirt, and it seems that the taste of the science and engineering man is not too bad.
After changing into a skirt and applying light makeup, Lin Fan sat in a wheelchair and opened the door to go out.
The lotus pink evening dress lined her muscles like snow, and Li Yishen glanced at her, and the roots of her ears turned red.
"Let's go, I'm ready. Lin Fan smiled at him, it was so beautiful that it was fascinating.
It was inconvenient to go to Li's house to take Xiao Li, and seeing that Li Yishen left himself and walked in front, Lin Fan hurriedly turned his wheelchair and followed.
When he arrived at the door, he suddenly stopped, Lin Fan didn't pay attention, and hit his head on the back of his waist.
"You ......" wanted to complain that he stopped suddenly, but seeing his icy face, Lin Fan thought he was unlucky, and immediately changed his words: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." ”
"Daredevil. After scolding her in a deep voice, he turned to the back and pushed her out the door.
Li Yishen's grandfather Lin Fan also met once two years ago.
The old man was not in good health, he was recuperating in Switzerland all the year round, it was said that he had a very strange temper, and everyone in the Li family was afraid of him, and the last time they met, Lin Fan obviously felt that he didn't like him very much.
Just when Lin Fan had a headache and waited for what to say when he saw the old man for a while, Li Yishen behind him suddenly spoke: "After you go in for a while, grandpa didn't ask you, so don't say anything, if he asks about the Lin family, you just say you don't know, and rarely contact the family." ”
Hearing Li Yishen's words, Lin Fan felt that the old man hated the Lin family more than anyone in the Li family.
She didn't respond to herself for a long time, Li Yishen bent down and leaned into her ear and asked her, "Did you hear what I just said?"
"Listen ......" Lin Fan came back to his senses, and when he turned his head and was about to answer him, his lips touched his lips.
The softness and warmth in her memory instantly became clear, and Lin Fan was stunned, her eyes wide and innocent looking at his close face.
Time seemed to pause, and it wasn't until Li Yishen got up that Lin Fan turned his head very embarrassed.
If he was going to die, he wouldn't think she was kissing him on purpose, would he?
God testifies, it was a complete accident!
Fortunately, Li Yishen didn't prove his innocence to her about this matter, and he even pushed her into the mansion very calmly as if nothing had happened.
Before entering the restaurant, Lin Fan saw Li Yishen's grandfather at first sight, and his white hair was too conspicuous.
The old man was not angry and arrogant, and Lin Fan only met his cloudy eyes, and he felt the majesty of the head of the family.
"Grandpa, I brought Lin Fan to see you. Li Yishen's tone was full of respect that he had never felt before.
Lin Fan immediately greeted the old man: "Grandpa......
"Don't call me grandpa, I didn't recognize your marriage to Yishen. In front of the Li family, the old man's first sentence made Lin Fan unable to come to the stage.
Since the old man didn't accept her in the first place, she didn't have to bother pleasing him.
Lin Fan smiled and immediately changed his words: "Mr. Li, welcome back to China." ”
It would be a lie to say that she was not angry, and she was so angry that she didn't even bother to use honorifics.
The old man didn't expect Lin Fan to turn his face so quickly, he looked at Li Yishen reproachfully, "Yishen, you sit next to Wen Yu." ”
Only then did Lin Fan discover that the Li family had a guest today, a girl who looked very beautiful and gentle.
After Li Yishen pushed Lin Fan to the dining table, he walked to the opposite side and sat next to the girl named Wen Yu.
Seeing that the seat next to Lin Fan was empty, Li Minfeng moved over, and he frequently served her vegetables and took good care of her.
The delicacies of the mountains and seas are piled up on the plate, but Lin Fan doesn't know the taste, Li Yishen and Wen Yu on the opposite side talk and laugh for a while, and bow their heads and whisper for a while, she can't stand it anymore.
Just drove away a Qin Wei, and now there is another Wen Yu.
The Li family just opened their mouths directly and let Lin Fan roll.
Seeing that the knife and fork in Lin Fan's hand were vigorously cutting on the lobster that had been peeled, Li Minfeng looked at the opposite side and instantly understood.
After eating, Li Yishen and Wen Yu stood on the landscape balcony with red wine and chatted, Lin Fan wanted to leave, but Li Minfeng kept pestering her and telling her about studying in the UK.
Lin Fan was absent-minded, and his eyes kept glancing at the balcony.
Li Minfeng smiled and told her: "Wen Yu is Ji Yan's sister and takes care of my grandfather in Switzerland all the year round. By the way, Xiaolinzi, you don't know yet, Li Yishen pursued Wenyu when he was still in college, and he gave away a bouquet of roses a day without interruption for half a year, infatuation. ”
Lin Fan's soul returned to its place in an instant, and he would finally look at Li Minfeng squarely.
"Is what you said true?" she asked Li Minfeng eagerly.
Li Minfeng took a sip of red wine unhurriedly.
Lin Fan asked again: "Li Minfeng, is what you said true?"
"Of course it's true, I don't believe you can ask Li Yishen in person later. ”
At this moment, Li Yishen and Ji Wenyu came over, and Li Minfeng deliberately asked Li Yishen loudly: "Li Yishen, didn't you tell Xiao Linzi about chasing Wen Yu before? A bouquet of roses was sent to Wen Yu to the Medical University every day, and it didn't stop for half a year, don't say it, I still admired your infatuation back then." ”
Li Yishen's face instantly became gloomy.
"What, dare to do it, don't you dare to admit it?" Li Minfeng didn't think it was a big deal, and continued to provoke Li Yishen.
Ji Wenyu's expression was slightly embarrassed, and after she smiled at Lin Fan, she stepped forward and severely criticized Li Minfeng: "Minfeng, those are all in the past, Yishen is married now, you have to have a limit to your jokes!"
is worthy of being a girl that Li Yishen has been pursuing for more than half a year, and that kind of generosity and decency is completely incomparable to Qin Wei, or even herself.
In front of such a perfect Ji Wenyu, Lin Fan instantly had an unprecedented inferiority complex.
"I'll go back to the annex first. After hurriedly saying goodbye, Lin Fan immediately turned his wheelchair and left.
Li Minfeng didn't stop, he quickly caught up with Lin Fan, picked her up from the wheelchair and walked to the old man.
Lin Fan was embarrassed, she slapped Li Minfeng's arm hard, "What are you doing, let me down!"
Li Minfeng didn't let go, he solemnly announced to the old man: "Grandpa, since you don't accept Lin Fan, the eldest grandson's daughter-in-law, then let her divorce Li Yishen and marry her instead." I swear that I will never enter the Li Group, you don't have to worry about me being used by the Lin family!"
For a moment, the entire living room fell into a terrible silence, and Lin Fan looked at Li Minfeng with wide eyes in horror.
Crazy, crazy, does he know what he's talking about?!
At least the ethics and morality he Li Minfeng can want, but it doesn't mean that she doesn't want it either!
Besides, even if she divorces Li Yishen, she won't be with him!
Li Minfeng asserts it so arbitrarily, what is the difference between him and the Li family who don't take her seriously?!
Just when Lin Fan was desperately struggling to get off the ground, Li Yishen came over and snatched her out of Li Minfeng's arms.
"Li Minfeng, she is your sister-in-law, you'd better show me some respect. ”
After Li Yishen coldly put down this sentence, he strode away with Lin Fan in his arms.
There was a loud slap behind him, and Lin Fan turned his head to see that Li Bocheng's palm had just left Li Minfeng's face.
"Shameful things, let me go upstairs to reflect!" Li Bocheng loudly reprimanded Li Minfeng.
Jiang Yingru glared at Lin Fan hatefully, Lin Fan turned his head, looked at the boundless night sky, and let Li Yishen hold himself away from this place of right and wrong.
After being put on the bed by Li Yishen, Lin Fan had not yet recovered from Ji Wenyu's first impression on her.
In the past, she fantasized about the drop of water and the stone, with her cheekiness and scoundrel, she could occupy a small corner in Li Yishen's heart.
But now, his first love has returned, and she is not accepted by the Li family, and she is left with a dead face, what is the difference between her and the kind of junior who intervenes in other people's emotions.
After sitting on the bed and thinking for a while, Lin Fan raised his head and looked at Li Yishen who was standing in front of the window.
He must have something to say to her, otherwise he would have left a long time ago, rather than being driven away by him in a cold voice again, it is better to be hard-hearted, so that he can have a heart-wrenching ending when he recalls this marriage in the future.
"Li Yishen, you draft the divorce agreement, and I will sign it tomorrow. Lin Fan said, tilting his chin and forcing back the tears.
Li Yishen turned around and ordered her in a warm and angry tone: "You say it again." ”
Lin Fan paused, "I said, I want to divorce you!"
As soon as the words fell, her jaw was pinched by Li Yishen's big hand.
He was extremely angry, "Lin Fan, what do you think of me, spare tire, or a trial product, I won't use it for you, you just turn around and throw yourself into Li Minfeng's arms?!"
Lin Fan felt that his mandible was about to be crushed by him, and she used all her strength to push his hand away and fell on the bed.
Rubbing her aching jaw, she replied to him angrily: "What's the matter! You can have an affair with other women on the left and on the right, why can't I find a home! Li Yishen, apart from you, I don't have no man to want, why should I be bullied by you!"
"I'm your husband now!" he roared, his voice nearly knocking the house up.
remembered his ignorance when she was treated poorly by the old man in the mansion before, the intimacy between him and Ji Wenyu after a long absence, and the fact that he protected Qin Wei more than once......
The resentment had been accumulated for a long time, and once it broke out, it would be unstoppable, Lin Fan straightened up, looked at his scarlet eyes, and did not back down at all.
"What kind of husband are you, you have never loved me, and you have never done anything for me, what qualifications do you have to be my husband!
"Who am I not worthy?" Although his voice was not as loud as just now, his expression was gloomy and frightening, "Li Minfeng? or the doctor with the surname Shi, don't think I don't know anything!"
Because Li Yishen suddenly mentioned Shi Hui, Lin Fan was stunned, and she sat back on the bed with an extremely desolate expression.
Shi Hui ...... Shi Hui ......"
This name gradually brought Lin Fan's sanity back.
She raised her hand to her forehead, damn it, how could she be so impulsive, how could she divorce him so recklessly?
A Ji Wenyu actually made her so messy, she was really a failure.
In Li Yishen's view, Lin Fan at this moment is undoubtedly sad for the dead doctor.
The anger in his eyes grew stronger and stronger, knowing that this anger would burn her and himself, but he couldn't suppress it.
"Radiant ......"
When she muttered that name again, Li Yishen completely lost control, he grabbed her shoulders and pushed her down on the bed.
"Li Yishen ......"
It was too late for Lin Fan to react, and he was overwhelmed with a kiss of possession.