Liu Qing didn't come back after all, so I returned to the house lonely and threw the bank card worth 1.5 million yuan on the table.

Looking at the table full of food that had not been touched much, I felt a sense of weakness in my heart again.

Sitting on the sofa decadently, lighting a cigarette, without Liu Qing there, the house was deserted again, and this desertion was fatal.

I don't understand why things have developed like this, originally we all wanted to start a business with high spirits, wanted to succeed, we coincided, we had the same purpose.

But now it's just because of a thought that we have become people on two paths, Liu Qing is extreme, but I still don't understand why she is so extreme?

After lying on the sofa for a long time, I took out my mobile phone and sent a WeChat message to Song Qingyi, telling her what happened to me and Liu Qing, and then asking her if I did something wrong, or what?

A few minutes later, Song Qingyi replied: "You didn't do anything wrong, it's that she is too stubborn, but if you treat her as a friend, you should persuade her and don't let her be obsessed anymore." ”

"Do you think I'm right?"

"There is no point in saying right or wrong now, I am just telling you these things from a rational point of view today, I don't want you to become a prisoner of money, and I hope you don't let her go down this extreme path. ”

"I really can't persuade her, now the phone is turned off, and she gave me half of the tavern money, I don't know why she is so extreme. ”

"Does she have something unspeakable?"

"I guess, I only know that her parents were framed, and I don't know anything else. ”

"Maybe she really has her own hardships and really needs money!"

"She's three million now, isn't that enough?"

"I don't know, it's hard to say. ”

I didn't reply to Song Qingyi anymore, stuffed another cigarette into my mouth, closed my eyes and leaned on the sofa.

After a while, Song Qingyi sent me another message and asked me, "Then what are you going to do next?"

Thinking of what Aunt Wang told me tonight, I said to Song Qingyi: "I may go on a blind date in two days, if it is successful, I may get married soon, just find a stable job, I don't have much ambition...... People like me don't dare to have any big ambitions. ”

After about a few minutes, Song Qingyi replied, "Did you give up on yourself?"

"What do you mean by giving up on yourself?"

"I don't have the impression that you are like this, you have always had a positive attitude, and you have always been very optimistic about life and destiny, why is this all of a sudden?"

Looking at the message sent by Song Qingyi, I smiled self-deprecatingly and replied: "That was when I was too naïve before, the experience during this time made me slowly mature and made me recognize this realistic society, of course I will still be very optimistic about life, but I don't want to toss." ”

"Does it really have to be like this?"

"Yes, it is a must. ”

"Well, then bless you. ”

The hand holding the phone trembled, and the five-flavor bottle in my heart seemed to have been knocked over, and what I experienced on this night, I felt that my life was a mess.

Obviously, I didn't lose anything, obviously in these three months, I earned this million and a half million with my own ability, but I felt like I had lost the whole world.

Is this really the end of the empty feeling in my heart?

If my life is written by one person, then I would like to ask the author, does my life really stop there?

I really want to travel to the future, see if I am poor or rich, happy or idle, and who is my wife?

I wiped my hands heavily from my face, and I threw my head up and let out a long breath, trying to smile, but forcing a smile anyway.

……

Time flies quickly, and after Liu Qing left, my life has lost a lot of fun, and I live a mess every day, except for eating and sleeping, and I don't even have the heart to find work.

Time is the end of the year, tomorrow is Chinese New Year's Eve, Liu Qing left for almost a month, and I slowly came out of that matter.

This month, I often contacted Liu Qing, still trying to persuade her, but she has already pulled my mobile phone number into the blacklist, and even Xiaoman I can't contact them, they seem to have evaporated from the world.

Besides, Song Qingyi, although we still have contact, there is a lot less contact, most of the time because of some miscellaneous things in the tavern.

I didn't touch any of the money in the bank card that Liu Qing left at the beginning, and I was still looking forward to her coming back, and I would return the money to her.

I've been alone most of the time this month, and occasionally An Zheng will come to me for a drink or two, and he's been a little unhappy lately, or because of family matters.

Listen to him that his father's lawsuit failed, his father went bankrupt, and the family property was divided among his relatives.

I remember An Zheng said that those relatives in his family were brought out by his father from the countryside to get to where he is today, but this group of ungrateful people gave him a heavy blow when his father was at his lowest.

An Zheng said that his relatives were a group of wolf-hearted dogs, and if he had known today's outcome, he should not have brought them out in the first place, this was raising a group of white-eyed wolves with his own hands.

His father was hospitalized because of this, and suddenly there were a lot of gray hairs on his head, as if he had aged dozens of years overnight.

During this time, whether it happened around me or what happened to me, it has given me a heavy pain in my life, and let me know that human nature is greedy, and behind human nature is the white cloud and the dog!

……

On this afternoon before Chinese New Year's Eve, I sat in the yard, and the weather was not bad today, and the long-lost sun was shining warm on my body.

I was in a trance, as if it was just a moment, from late autumn to early spring......

Every household has been lit up, and the alleys that are deserted on weekdays are also lively, the children and grandchildren of each family have returned, and every household has hung red lanterns and pasted festive couplets.

Only my yard is no different from usual, and I didn't go to buy New Year's goods, I usually live how I live, and I no longer have the original enthusiasm for life.

The door of the courtyard was suddenly pushed open, and Aunt Wang walked in with a smile, and there was a young girl wearing a long black down jacket who walked behind Aunt Wang, looking a little embarrassed.

When I saw this scene, I sat up straight, stood up and looked at Aunt Wang a little overwhelmed, forgetting even the most basic greetings.

Aunt Wang came to me happily, first asked me a short question from the parents, and then looked back at the girl who came with her, and whispered to me: "Xiao Xiang, this is my niece I told you last time, she has been busy with cram school work some time ago, so she has time." ”

I thought that a month had passed, and Aunt Wang had forgotten about it, but I didn't expect it to come so violently, and I didn't even say a word to me in advance, so I was still wearing dirty clothes from a few days ago......

I was immediately a little embarrassed, and hurriedly said hello, and then ran back to the house to find a stool for Aunt Wang and the girl.

It was the first blind date in my life, but I didn't have any image at all, my hair hadn't been washed for days, my face was unkempt, my clothes were dirty, and the yard hadn't been cleaned for days, so everything was terrible......