When the two got home, it was already dark.

Zhou Wei settled Chang An on the sofa, "What do you want to eat, takeout or I'll make it for you?"

Chang An shook her head, she wanted to say that she had no appetite, but she was afraid that he would worry, so she said, "Let's eat noodles, okay?"

Of course it's good.

Whatever she says now, he'll say yes.

"Wait for me for a few minutes, and I'll bring it out when it's done. ”

Chang An nodded obediently, but as soon as Zhou Wei left, she hung her head.

Since Chang An went to work, Aunt Wang needs to come over to clean during the day, but since last month, Zhou has asked her to come over at night to cook a meal.

The weather is getting colder, and it is not good to always call for takeout, and Zhou Wei knows that Chang'an can't wait to nest in the heating room 24 hours a day in winter, so he requires that there must be fresh vegetables and good soup in the refrigerator at all times, so that Chang'an can take the company to lunch the next day.

Zhou Wei took out a tomato and two eggs from the refrigerator, filled half a pot of water and put it on the stove to boil.

He washed and chopped vegetables when boiling water, and prepared a little shredded ginger and chopped green onions, and just after getting it, the water was just boiling, and he threw the noodles in...

"Do you need my help?" Chang An suddenly walked in.

Zhou Yan didn't have time to look at her, and stirred the noodles in the pot with chopsticks.

"No need, you can go and wait outside. ”

"But I want to help!" she said in an overly determined tone.

Zhou Wei suddenly stopped and turned to look, Chang An was standing next to the refrigerator, his hair was scattered, and his little face was frighteningly white.

"Will you beat eggs?" Zhou asked.

"Yes!"

"Okay, then you can beat the eggs for me. ”

He took the two eggs he took out of the refrigerator before and gave them to Chang An, the water in the pot was about to come out, and Zhou Yan couldn't take care of her, so he added some cold water to it and continued to stir the noodles.

Chang Anjin thought about it, and remembered Wei Suying's previous procedure for beating eggs, as if she should take a bowl first, yes, take a bowl first.

Chang An learned from memory to knock the edge of the bowl with an egg, but he didn't knock it open after a few consecutive knocks.

Xu is strength was too light, and she pinched the egg and added a little more strength.

"Ahh

"What's wrong?"

Zhou Wei turned around, Chang An pasted an egg in his hand, and the yellow-orange egg yolk had already dripped all over the upper of the shoe and on the ground.

"I... I accidentally broke the egg. "She stood there like a child who had made a mistake.

Zhou Wei hurriedly turned off the fire.

"It's okay, it's broken. He used to lead Chang An to the front of the pool, turned on the faucet to flush all the sticky egg yolks on her hands, and took a paper towel to dry her.

Chang An turned around in a daze, "What about the ground?"

"I'll take care of it, you go outside and change into a clean pair of slippers first. ”

Chang An's mouth opened, as if he had something to say, but he still didn't say it, he only retreated a few meters away, and watched Zhou Yan take a cloth to squat there and wipe the floor, wiping it several times before cleaning the sticky egg yolk and egg white.

When she got up, Zhou Wei saw that Chang An was still standing at the door of the kitchen, but there was no light around, and she seemed to be standing alone in the shadows.

"Didn't you tell you to wait outside?"

"Am I useless?"

Zhou Wei's heart jumped, and he wanted to say something, but he seemed to feel that everything was out of his mind at this time.

He simply threw away the cloth and washed his hands again.

"Come here!"

Chang An threw and stood there still.

Zhou Wei had no choice, as if he had no choice but to walk over by himself, Chang An's gaze rose from afar as he approached, and finally fell on his face.

He looked down and raised his hand to ruffle the hair that covered her cheeks.

"Don't get cranky, huh?"

But how could she not want to?

Chang An kept swallowing his breath, "In the past, there were always people who said that I was blessed and had everything in my life, and I also admit that except for my mother who left too early, I should have more than most people in this world, but recently I feel that God seems to be taking back the things in my hands one by one." ”

It's okay that she didn't open her mouth, and when she opened her mouth, she stuck it into Zhou Wei's heart like a knife.

Zhou Wei's fingertips were still grinding her cheeks, "What nonsense, how can you have nothing, you at least have me." ”

yes, she at least still has him.

This is not the first time Chang An has heard this sentence, the last time was when the case of Sun Zhengdao and Xue Bing was closed, and Chang An hugged her and said this after the sky collapsed.

"But this time was different, and I was a little scared. ”

"Fool, what are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid I'm really useless, and I want you to clean up the mess for me. ”

"That's what I'm happy to do. ”

"But after a long time, everyone will be annoyed. ”

Zhou Wei was made laughed at by her words, and raised his hand punitively and scratched her nose, "How do you hear these messes, what is our relationship? We are husband and wife, and we have received a certificate and sworn under the national flag, why is it so easy to get annoyed?"

……

When a person is afraid of something, it is like falling into a bottomless abyss.

Chang An was very abnormal that night, changing his usual reserve, pestering Zhou Wei all the way from the bathroom to the bed.

She is sensitive, she is fragile, she is stubborn, she is extremely depressed and unwilling to say a word, these characteristics are well understood, and it is precisely because of this understanding that he cooperates with her indulgence, whether it is physical or pleasant, he will give as much as she wants, but Chang An still feels cold, still feels that it is not enough, and still feels that even if they are seamlessly embedded in each other's bodies, some things will still disappear suddenly.

After it was over, she seemed to have gone to half her life, and Zhou Wei wrapped the quilt in her arms and kissed her.

"Hereditary infertility can't be confirmed by these few test sheets, and any chromosomal mutations are not as serious as you think, not to mention that Aunt Xu's hospital is not authoritative in this regard, if you feel uneasy, I will contact the expert again, and I will take you to Beijing next month to investigate." ”

The two were silent all night, but finally got to this point.

It's a ditch, maybe even a mountain, but we both know that no matter how much we escape, we can't get around.

Chang An rubbed in his arms, "Well, I know, but I don't want to check." ”

Whatever the outcome, she doesn't have the courage to do it again yet.

Zhou Wei paused, "Okay, if you don't check, you won't check." ”

He would say yes to whatever she wanted.

"But you can't think about it anymore, your mother can give birth to you, it's just a few years later than others, and besides, you still have a young advantage, so let's wait, maybe what the report says is nonsense. ”

"Hmm. ”

"And now that medicine is so prosperous, there is no longer the road of surrogacy and IVF, so infertility is not a major disease at all. ”

Zhou Yan's tone was very relaxed, and when he said these words, he still pinched Chang An's round shoulders intentionally or unintentionally as usual.

Chang An occasionally spoke, but it was limited to some monosyllables such as uh-ah, and most of the time she buried herself in Zhou Wei's arms and listened to his heartbeat.

Until Zhou Mian finally fell asleep with her arms around her, she slowly lifted her body and lay her curled body flat in the dark, she even had a few seconds of illusion, thinking that not being able to have a child was not a big deal.

Chang An turned around, the lights outside the window were dotting, and it was not too late, but the winter night was quiet, and when it was quiet, you could hear the sound of the piano.

The children in the building in front of them are forced to practice by their mothers every day at this point, and sometimes they can hear cries and yells from adults, and they can probably guess that they must be practicing the piano so much that they can't stand the children and their parents going crazy together.

Chang An moved, and suddenly remembered that when she was a child, she had learned piano, Go, Chinese painting brushes and ballet, but whenever she was a little interested, her family would send her to learn, but none of them learned well, everything was half-hearted, because no one was around every day.

Some time ago, Zhou Xun urged her to have a child, she didn't say yes explicitly, but she had already made a plan in her heart, if she had her own child, she must spend time with her, and never let the child be always alone like herself.

……

When I got up the next day, Chang An's face was obviously not good, and the dark circles under his eyes were also a little heavy, and he knew that he definitely didn't sleep much last night.

"Let's take a leave of absence from the company and take a day off at home today. Zhou Wei proposed.

Chang An had to struggle to get up.

"Anyway, I've been asking for leave a little too often lately. ”

A while ago, in order to cooperate with the hospital inspection, I have asked for leave several times, and yesterday afternoon I temporarily went to Tao Bixia to approve the leave note, and it is really not good for the newcomer to ask for leave so frequently because of personal matters.

Zhou thought about it, instead of leaving her alone at home and thinking nonsense, maybe it would be better to stay in the company.

"Then I'll drive you. ”

……

As soon as Chang An arrived at the office, Yang Jing came over.

"Hey, where did you go yesterday afternoon, why did you suddenly say you just left. ”

Chang An didn't want to talk about going to the hospital, "There is a bit of an urgent matter at home." ”

"Oh, I thought you were sick, and you look bad. ”

"Yes? Maybe I didn't sleep well last night. Chang An said a perfunctory word, but fortunately, Yang Jing didn't really want to care about her, just shrugged her head, "I quarreled with my boyfriend again, it's annoying!"

Chang An was speechless, how many days has it been since he reconciled?

"What's it for this time?"

"He said that I always instructed him to do housework, and didn't treat him as a man! I wondered, he is not a man if he does housework? Besides, he has been idle at home lately, and he is all dependent on me for salary, so what is wrong with doing some housework? As for losing his temper at me?"

When I heard it, it was for trivial things, Chang An didn't bother to persuade her, Yang Jing saw that she was not in good spirits, and she was also self-aware.

"Okay, you can do something, and I'll talk to you at lunchtime. As a result, as soon as he walked out a few steps, he saw her retreat again, and suddenly changed his depressed expression just now, and said to Chang'an at the table: "Hey, Mr. Chen from Zhonghao came here yesterday afternoon, and he specially asked you!"

Chang Anxin jumped, "Ask me what?"

"Probably because I'm not here, I might have something to do with you!"

Chang An breathed a sigh of relief, "Oh, I know, I'll go back and contact him." ”

As a result, Yang Jing didn't leave for long, and Chen Haodong's phone called, and Chang An answered.

"Hey..."

"Sick?"

"Huh?"

"Tao Biyun said that you took leave to go to the hospital yesterday afternoon, what's the matter?"

Chang An did say that he was going to the hospital when he asked for leave yesterday, but it was not because he was sick at all.

"Oh, it's fine, just a little cold. ”

"Cold? Need to go to the hospital for a cold?"

“… No, I still have a little stomach pain, maybe I have a cold, but it's better now. ”

"Hmm. ”

The cold tone is completely inaudible, and I can't tell whether I care or ask casually.

Chang An waited for a while, "Do you have anything else to do with me?"

"No, that's all!"

Hung up.

Chang An: "......"