The chopsticks in Chang An's hand fell to the ground suddenly, and the nurse next to him saw this and asked, "What's wrong?"

She sat there, feeling as if a string had broken in her heart and could no longer be connected.

Chang An slowed down for a while before coming back to his senses, looking up, the angle just enough to see a small square sky outside the window of the hospital building, the clouds of the winter morning slowly slid in front of him, almost out of sight.

She jerked her phone from the table and got up.

"I'm sorry, I need to travel far away, and I'm going to bother you with a little bit of trouble these days. ”

Chang An briefly explained a few words to the nurse and Xiaozhi, took a taxi back to Changhe, checked the ticket with his mobile phone on the way, this is the beginning of the Spring Festival return, the ticket to Beijing has been booked three or four days ago, and checked the high-speed rail ticket, it is amazing, there are still a few seats left for the high-speed rail ticket, but they are all first-class seats, looking at the ticket price is more expensive than the ticket, but there is better than nothing, Chang An gritted his teeth and started, finally grabbed one, and then called Chang Jiahui, unable to tell the specific reason, only made up an excuse that there was a banquet on the Zhou family, and she was not good to be absent。

Chang Jiahui knew Chang An's current situation and was not suspicious.

Chang'an returned to Changhe and simply packed a few bags and went straight to Yunling Railway Station.

From Yunling to Beijing, the high-speed rail is about five hours, departing at noon, it is late to Beijing, Chang'an directly found an express hotel near the railway station to stay.

It took twelve hours to run all the way from seven o'clock in the morning to seven o'clock in the evening, until she sat at the head of the bed in the hotel room and looked up at the night of Beijing outside the window, that she suddenly woke up, why did she come, why did she get here all at once, and what was the point?

Chang An wanted to call Zhou Wei and wanted to talk to him, but seeing that the time was not suitable, he thought again, even if he answered the phone, what could he do except comfort him on the phone?

Chang An stood at the window and smoked a cigarette, nicotine may really have a calming effect, and his heart was a little more relaxed.

In a strange hotel, alone, and hiding something in his heart, Chang An was destined to sleep badly that night.

It started to rain outside in the middle of the night, and it was dripping, the old air conditioner in the room kept whistling, Chang An just lay there in a daze, feeling a stump in her heart, she knew that she should cry, and it might be better to cry, but she couldn't find a reason why she should cry.

Why is she crying?

That person, that person has not been his father for a day, and he has not fulfilled the responsibility of being a father for a day.

Chang An is also sure that he has no feelings for him in his heart, Sun Zhengdao's three words, she used to be a stranger to her, at most she was a friend of her mother, and then it was shame, and even hatred.

Chang An covered the quilt over his head, the corners of his eyes were dry, but his body seemed to be wrapped in moisture.

Aren't the quilts in this hotel washed and dried? Why is the humidity so heavy!

Chang An tossed until the early hours of the morning before falling asleep, had a long dream, it should be said that several dreams were mixed together, for a while someone was chasing her behind, she hid around, just refused to look back;

There is no logic between these nonsensical dreams, and I don't know how the middle passes over, but jumping from one scene to another, the middle is extremely harmonious.

Finally, in the brightly lit Chang'an Street, she was in the car, wearing a beautiful skirt and sitting on her mother's lap, there should be another person beside her, a man, who seemed to be wearing a black or navy blue suit, I don't remember the specifics, it should be a dark color anyway.

He called her An An, look at An An, An An is so beautiful, what does An An want to eat for a while, steak or pasta, Uncle will take you to eat.

Chang An wanted to turn around and take a look to see what the man who called himself Uncle looked like, but when he turned sideways, he only saw the shadow of the lights outside the car window, crossing the monument, crossing Tiananmen Square, and crossing the Great Hall of the People.

Chang'an, ten miles of Chang'an Street, continuous lights are not extinguished.

She remembered that she had been here when she was a child, and she must have been.

"Mom's ......"

She spoke, and the picture suddenly jumped again, and turned to the dining table, which was a long table, full of all kinds of delicate food, in front of her was a shiny knife and fork, a snow-white dinner plate, and she could vaguely hear someone talking at the other end of the table, a pair of men and women, and even a vague figure could be seen.

"Mom, is that you?"

No one responded, and the table stretched infinitely toward that end like a track, the figure getting more and more blurred, and the sound getting quieter and quieter......

"Mom, Mom, I'm Xiao An!"

"Mom, where are you going?"

"Don't leave me, Mom, don't leave me!"

Chang An cried and wanted to get off the chair, but unfortunately the chair was too high, and her little human toes couldn't reach the ground at all, so she tried for a while before climbing off the chair.

"Mom, you wait for me!"

"Mom's ......"

Chang An went to chase, obviously it should be along the table, but after landing on the ground, she stood on Chang'an Street, there was no car on the street, the wind was blowing, she ran forward along the road, and the lights and shadows passed by.

"Mommy, Mommy, you wait!"

"Don't go, don't go so fast......"

It's a pity that she can't catch up, her skirt is too heavy and long, her feet are too small, and she fell to the ground with a "poof" after not running a few steps.

Chang An snapped open his eyelids, the cold quilt, the cold room, the air conditioner seemed to be broken, and the sound of whirring wind could no longer be heard.

She touched the corner of the quilt, and there was a large lump of moisture on it.

She had just cried, even though she didn't want to admit it.

It was already dark outside the window, and she slept for more than four hours at five o'clock in the morning.

Beijing is so cold, damn air conditioning.

Chang An wanted to smoke again, got up with a down jacket, touched the cigarette case on the bedside, and gave up after thinking about it.

stayed up until half past six, Chang An was so cold that he couldn't stand it, went to the bathroom to take a hot shower, dressed neatly and went downstairs, thinking about whether to change to a better hotel to live in, but he could repack his luggage and move the place, Chang An felt troublesome again.

She went downstairs to find the front desk to react, and the front desk apologized again and again, and directly promoted her to a business suite.

Don't expect the business suite of the express hotel to be good, it is a little larger, there is a so-called separated living room, but fortunately, the air conditioning seems to be much more powerful, just rush this, Chang An feels that he has to write a good review of this hotel on the reservation network.

Chang An went out to walk around the neighborhood, trying to find a place to have breakfast, but unfortunately during the Spring Festival, Beijing seemed to be more than half empty, and there were no breakfast shops along the road.

The breakfast at the Express Hotel is very simple, white porridge, eggs, buns and a little pickled vegetables.

The restaurant similar to the canteen has a lot of customers, but the tables are all together, and there are many people who come to Beijing to travel during the Spring Festival, but they are basically a family of old and young.

Several children were running around the restaurant, and the elderly or their mothers were chasing and shouting after them.

Chang An used to be very annoying about this, and always felt that it was really not good for Chinese people to make loud noises in public, especially the bear children chasing around, but now she felt very good, at least a little popular, at least lively.

After a simple breakfast, she thought that she had to go to the detention center first.

In the past, there was a number stored in the mobile phone, which was the contact information of Lawyer Zhu, who came back to take her to the detention center, but unfortunately the mobile phone was lost three years ago, and the number stored in it could not be recovered, so Chang An could only find a way by himself.

I found the specific address of the detention center on the Internet, and then took a taxi directly at the door of the hotel.

The driver was stunned when he heard the address, deliberately looked at Chang An a few times, and finally couldn't help asking, "Go to visit?"

Chang An let out a vague "um", and the driver didn't ask any more when he saw that she was interested.

After driving on the road for nearly two hours, I was afraid that it would be difficult to take a taxi at the door after a while, so Chang An left his mobile phone number and asked the driver to check in at the door.

Of course, the driver was happy with this kind of good thing, and nodded his head and responded.

Everything in the detention center is still the same, but it is not a visiting day, and it was stopped at the door.

Chang An remembered that the last time she came back to receive her was a prison guard surnamed Li, she planned to try her luck and reported Officer Li's name, but she didn't expect someone to come out soon.

"Xiao Li?"

The young man three years ago was much more mature, and he shook hands with Chang An in his uniform, "Mrs. Zhou!"

"Do you remember me?"

"Remember, how can you not remember, beautiful women are always unforgettable. ”

Chang An was a little embarrassed, the two were polite for a while, and Chang An explained his intentions.

"Then you came by coincidence, fortunately I was on duty today, Sun Zhengdao's body should have been picked up by the family yesterday, but I am not responsible for this, you wait, I will call and ask my colleague." ”

Xiao Li was enthusiastic, and dialed his colleague's mobile phone directly in front of Chang An, and asked around to find out all the information.

"The body was picked up yesterday afternoon, and a memorial service will be held this morning, this is his son's contact information, why don't you call and ask?"

Chang An wrote down the number and thanked him.

Chang An dialed the string of numbers on the taxi back to the city, and after a long while, he was finally connected, and the man's voice was innocent and Beijing.

Chang An made up a pretense, only saying that he had received the favor of Sun Zhengdao before, knew the news of his death, and wanted to send him on his last journey.

The man thanked Chang An on the phone and sent Chang An the address of the memorial service.

Chang An directly showed the address to the taxi driver, "Master, please go here!"

More than an hour later, at the door of a funeral home on the outskirts of the city.

The pomp and circumstance weren't particularly big, but it was evident that a little thought had been put into it.

There is a special person guarding the entrance, it should also be a relative at home, Chang An's name identity, only said that it was a student who Sun Zhengdao had helped before, and the relatives wrote down her name and went to call people inside.

Soon a tall man came out, dressed in linen and filial piety, about thirty years old, elegant and calm, and his temperament and facial features were five or six percent similar to Sun Zhengdao.

"Miss Chang, right?"

Chang An nodded, "I am!"

The man reached out and shook her hand, grabbed it a little tightly, and shook it up and down twice.

"Thank you for being able to come all the way to see my father!" was a little excited between the words, and the circles under his eyes were a little red.

Chang An knows the truth that people go to tea and cool, not to mention that Sun Zhengdao was imprisoned three years ago, and the Sun family is probably not small, just look at the scale of this funeral, like Sun Zhengdao, those who have been in contact with him before are afraid to avoid it, how can they come to the funeral.

"Teacher Sun helped me before, I have always been grateful to my heart, and I can only be sure when I come to send me a ride!" Chang An felt that he was really good at acting, and he could look directly at the man in front of him, and his hand was still held by him, which was a little cold.

"Thank you, you have a heart!"

Chang An shuddered, and suddenly realized that the one holding her hand in front of her was her brother and half-brother in blood.

"It should. She realized that her voice was a little wrong, so she quickly turned her head away.

The man took her in, and walked all the way to the front of the spiritual seat, where someone handed her a small flower to pin.

There is a photo of Sun Zhengdao on the spiritual seat, the man in the photo is rude, he doesn't look like a politician, but like a gentleman who writes poetry and teaches, and it should still be a photo of his youth, at most in his early 40s, which is completely different from the last time Chang An saw him in the detention center, and this face, this face...... It can already coincide with the face in Chang An's vague memory, and it also coincides with the person in his dream.

Chang An knelt down, leaned over, and slowly kowtowed three times.

Daddy, Daddy, Daddy, thank you for your kindness......

The last one bent over, she almost had to lie on the ground, her heart trembled, and it hurt so much, the hand that was on the ground was clenched into a fist, she knew that she was out of control, in front of so many people, kneeling in front of Sun Zhengdao's posthumous photo, crying silently.

In the end, it was Sun Zhengdao's son who helped her up.

"Miss Chang, my father has seen it, and I thank you for my father. ”

Chang An grinned slightly, her eyes were hazy with tears, it was really sad to think about it, at this point, she came to worship by relying on her panicked identity.

Sun Zhengdao's son helped Chang An to the side and introduced her again.

"This is my mother, this is my wife, Mom, this is a junior that Dad knew before his death, and I came to see Dad off for the last time. ”

Chang An wiped his eyes, and stood in a row in front of him, all dressed in filial piety.

The eldest old lady can't be regarded as an old lady, she shouldn't be very old according to her age, but her sideburns and hair are a little gray, and she is extremely tired and even decrepit from her appearance to her demeanor.

She thanked Chang An and bowed.

Chang An held it again and again, his eyes met her briefly, and at that glance, Chang An was almost certain that Mrs. Sun Zhengdao should be an extremely weak woman, with a completely different personality from Xue Bing.

The tall woman standing next to her should be Sun Zhengdao's daughter-in-law, holding a boy about seven or eight years old in her hand.

This is a neat family of three, a family of three who can see the light, and a relative that Sun Zhengdao is willing to admit and live with, wife, son, daughter-in-law, and little grandson, how good, how good......

Chang An leaned over slightly, bowed to him, and then turned to bow to Sun Zhengdao's son.

When saying goodbye, Sun Zhengdao's son said, "There will be a farewell party for the body in a while, will Miss Chang leave after she finishes parting?"

Chang An shook his head and made up an excuse again, "No, I still have something!"

She's got to go, she's got to go, and it's like she's going to suffocate for a second longer.

Chang An walked out of the mourning hall quickly, thinking that this is it, that's it, this is already good.

She trotted all the way to the door, it began to rain outside, she came from Yunling in a hurry, and did not bring an umbrella, there was just a covered bus stop on the opposite side of the road, Chang An put the bag on the head, accelerated the pace to the opposite side, just ran to the middle of the road, Didi Di rushed to the sound of a rushing car, a car drove over, she quickly retreated to the side of the road.

The car passed in front of it, making a little splash, and muddy water splashed on the trouser legs.

Chang An lowered his head and shook it twice, only to see the car that had just driven in front of him reversed back......