259. You're a bastard
It's just posturing...... When she realized this, a trace of imperceptible contempt flashed in Jin Xiaoyi's eyes. The ensuing disappointment and pity, from this point alone, it can be judged that for Tang Mi, at least for the current Tang Mi, this big boy is unreliable.
But what does that have to do with her? If they want to grow together, that's a good thing. It's just that growing up is often cruel, and growing up alone is a pain for one person, and two people together is a struggle for two.
"What kind of man does Miss Jin think is a reliable man?" Cheng Feng tried his best to withdraw himself from his thoughts about Tang Xiao and refocused his attention on the woman opposite.
Jin Xiaoyi was keenly aware of Cheng Feng's distraction for a moment, but she didn't bother to investigate the reason, a weak person like Cheng Feng had never been in her field of interest.
If it weren't for Tang Mi, how could she waste her time in such a good afternoon and sit here with such a boy to discuss relationship issues.
She stared down at her fingers on the table, and at the small round patch of bright sunlight on her fingertips. It was wonderful, like the most beautiful and brilliant ring in the world, the wind had put it on her left hand, but soon, the breeze swept the curtain, and her ring drifted away, becoming a small speck of light on the table that would not make you think about it.
She sighed in her heart, what doesn't belong to her doesn't belong to her after all. All the beautiful people and things in this world do not belong to her. Just like Pei Yuansheng.
"Reliable man......" Jin Xiaoyi took a sip of the coffee in front of her, smiled and said, "I don't count this question, Tang Mi said it, but I think she shouldn't understand what kind of man is a reliable man now, otherwise she wouldn't follow you so desperately." I'm sorry, what I said may be too direct, I don't know if it will hurt you, but please believe that my malice is very limited, if there is, it must be that I hope you and Tang Mi will get better and better instead of getting worse. ”
"It's okay, I know what you mean. To Jin Xiaoyi's surprise, Cheng Feng's attitude towards these words was very indifferent, and it could even be said that there was no emotional fluctuation.
He took a sip of the cappuccino that Tang Mi made for him himself, moistened his somewhat dry lips, and then looked at Jin Xiaoyi calmly, and said slowly, "I won't be angry with you, because I know that what you say is the truth, but apart from you, few people say it so directly." I know what level I am now, I have money, I have enough money compared to ordinary people, but none of that belongs to me, not even a dime in it is earned by myself, people like me are just a parasite with nothing to show for it. I can't even compare to the power, at least she can make coffee, milk tea, desserts, what about me? I don't know anything, except for spending money, except for falling in love, except for doing stupid things, except for asking for trouble, what else will I do?"
Cheng Feng laughed self-deprecatingly, shook his head and said, "I'm nothing, of course it's not reliable." I'm sorry to worry about Mi Mi, I know, I'm not a good boyfriend, and I can't be a reliable man for the time being. I'm sorry. ”
"I'm sorry?" Jin Xiaoyi's long eyebrows slanted slightly twisted, with a hint of sarcasm in her tone, "Are you in the confessional room of the church now? Unfortunately, this is not a church, this is your girlfriend's bubble tea shop." You don't need to confess to me, and you don't need to confess to anyone, because first of all I don't need these meaningless confessions of yours, and no one needs these empty words. Is it useful? Is it meaningful to say this? Mr. Cheng, what is the use of these words other than to show that you really agree with me in your heart that you are unreliable, and other than to show that you are ashamed of wasting your time and throwing money?"
Cheng Feng's eyes trembled slightly, and even his breathing seemed to stop.
The woman's lips were distinct, her bright red lips still mercilessly threw knife-like words at him.
"You know very well in your heart that it is useless to say this, but you still say it. What does this mean? It means that you can't do anything but talk nonsense. Jin Xiaoyi showed a smile, and the contempt in this smile was undisguised, making Cheng Feng almost want to run away.
He took a deep breath, struggling to maintain his composure: "Yes, I have to admit it, you're right. I can't do anything. I don't want to do that, but what can I do? You don't know me, and if you were me, maybe you would be living this muddy life like me......"
"Don't make excuses for your cowardice. Jin Xiaoyi said calmly, "Has anyone forced you to spend money? Has someone forced you to fall in love? Has someone forced you to be a swinger? Perhaps, you should think about it, have you thought about what you want to do and what you can do over the years?"
"I ......" Cheng Feng's eyes flickered a few times, he picked up the coffee cup in front of him and took a big sip, slumped his shoulders and said, "I haven't thought about it, or I simply don't want to think about it." Anyway, I don't have to think about what to do, I can already live an easy life, why should I think about it? For a person who has no pressure in life, it is difficult to let him take the initiative to do something difficult......"
"But are you really relaxed, as easy as you say you are?"
Jin Xiaoyi's gaze was like a sharp wedge deeply embedded in Cheng Feng's heart.
His body shrank involuntarily, and it took several seconds before it stretched out again, but the momentum of the boy brother who had been disguised before was gone at this moment under Jin Xiaoyi's successive attacks.
"I'm not easy...... You're right, I'm not at all, not at all. Cheng Feng's tone was mixed with a hint of pain and confusion. He didn't dare to look up at Jin Xiaoyi, he could only stare at his fingertips on the table, he was afraid of revealing his weakness, but his weakness had been undoubtedly revealed.
But he is at least honest, Jin Xiaoyi thought, there are many people in this world who are like him, or even worse than him, but these people will never admit their weakness, and even disdain their noble heads underneath.
In the silence, a string of footsteps sounded, and then, Tang Mi, who was holding a dessert and wearing an apron, appeared in front of the two.
"Afternoon dessert is ready, let's try it!" the cheerful voice of a young girl finally broke the silence.
Jin Xiaoyi and Cheng Feng turned their eyes to Tang Mi at the same time, her arrival instantly liberated Cheng Feng, and he had never been so grateful to her at any time.
Tang Mi put the delicate desserts on the plate on the table, and then said with a smile: "Let's talk first, I see that you seem to be quite able to chat, there are more customers in the store than just now, and the pastry chef is afraid that he will not be busy, so I will help." ”
Cheng Feng looked at Tang Mi and stopped talking: "You ......"
"Huh?" Tang Mi tilted his head slightly to look at him, and said strangely, "What's wrong with me?"
"Aren't you angry with me?" Cheng Feng said embarrassedly, "When I was in a Western restaurant, I ran away alone...... I'm sorry, but I'm a pretty jerk of the hell. ”
"Well," Tang Mi nodded and said, "I'm angry with you, but I'll talk about this matter later, now I'll make dessert first, wait for me a little, okay?"
In the last sentence, she looked at Jin Xiaoyi and Cheng Feng and said, Cheng Feng hesitated for a few seconds and nodded, Jin Xiaoyi also nodded, and said, "It's okay, you go to work first, I'm not in a hurry, the weather is so good today, isn't it a very enjoyable thing to sit here and taste the afternoon dessert and drink delicious milk tea or coffee?"
"Thank you, sister, you're so nice. Tang Mi said sincerely.
"It's hard to say whether I'm good or not, but Mi Mi Mi is really good at your desserts, there is no doubt about this. Jin Xiaoyi said with a smile.
After Tang Mi left, Cheng Feng looked at the pile of desserts in a daze, but Jin Xiaoyi sat there and ate slowly, commenting while eating. That leisurely and complacent look is just like the aggressiveness just now.
"Miss Jin, aren't you going to continue to criticize me?" After waiting for a while, Cheng Feng couldn't help but ask.
"Why should I criticize you? That's funny. Jin Xiaoyi chewed the snack with relish, "If you don't eat something delicious, you're a fool." ”
Cheng Feng scooped a small and delicate looking cherry pudding in front of him with a small spoon and ate it, and quickly wiped it out. He said unsatisfactorily: "It tastes really good, and I just found out now that Mi Mi still has the talent to become a senior pastry chef." ”
"You can too. Jin Xiaoyi said seriously, "As long as you are interested, it's not too late to start learning now." As long as you work hard enough, you will soon be able to achieve the same level as Tang Mi. ”
Imagining himself wearing a white hat and a white apron, Cheng Feng couldn't help but smile: "I'm still forget, clumsy and clumsy, I can't do this kind of delicate work." Besides, I'm so greedy, I haven't become a pastry chef yet, so I'll eat myself into a big fat man first. At that time, the only advantage in his body will be gone, and Tang Mi will break up with me if he can't do it. ”
"Don't be so pessimistic. Jin Xiaoyi gave him a rare smile without irony, "Even if you have nothing, at least you still have money." ”
"Puff......" Cheng Feng almost squirted out the coffee in his mouth, wiped his lips with a tissue, and smiled, "This is not necessarily, I did that kind of thing today, maybe my parents let me get out of the house penniless in anger." When the time comes, I'll really be nothing. ”
"It's a possibility. Jin Xiaoyi groaned, "But be optimistic about everything, your parents have spoiled you for more than 20 years, and you should have done a lot of bastard things since you were a child, and you didn't kick you out before, but now that you're so big, it's even more unnecessary." Otherwise, who will give them a pension and send them to the end of their lives?"