After this short meeting, Lin Rui went to the training ground to find Lincoln. Lincoln sat there alone, and when he came over, he didn't show any surprise.

Just smiled at him and made a gesture, "Coming back?"

"Yes, back. ”

Lin Rui smiled and walked over and sat beside him.

"Is the actuary alright?"

Lincoln Road.

"It's fine, I'm a little hurt, but it should be fine. It's just that one of his eye injuries was still relatively serious before, and I don't know if he can completely recover. ”

Lin Rui shrugged.

Lincoln was silent for a moment, "Have you ever seen the Dragon Fat Man?"

"Why do you ask?"

Lin Rui took out a cigarette and handed it to Lincoln.

Lincoln took it and bit it in his mouth, "He's sure to tell you, I want to quit." ”

"Speaking of which, I was about to ask you, why?"

Lin Rui frowned.

"I don't know, maybe I woke up one day and suddenly found that I was tired of Yiqiē. ”

Lincoln sighed and said, "Of the dozen or so brothers who debuted with me, there are only six left. I still don't know what to do, and every time a brother leaves, I feel like I'm going to collapse. It felt like I was dying myself. ”

"I understand. It's not like I haven't experienced it. ”

Lin Rui was silent for a while.

"I realized that I probably couldn't afford to go on like this. ”

Lincoln whispered, "I feel like I'm becoming more and more hesitant, less resolute, and a lot of times, I'm even a little afraid." We all know what it means in a real battle, and it kills our brothers. ”

He took a deep puff of his cigarette and spit it out again.

"It doesn't seem like what you're saying. ”

Lin Rui frowned.

Lincoln waved his hand, "yes, I don't even know why I'm so decadent." So it's better for everyone to leave early. ”

"Sue me Lincoln, what's going on?"

Lin Rui said, "If there is any difficulty, maybe we can help." ”

"You can't help! Nobody can help!"

Lincoln suddenly shouted, "No one can help me, no one!"

Lin Rui stared at his eyes, frowning slightly, and suddenly he grabbed Lincoln's wrist.

In a low voice, "How long?"

"What do you mean?"

Lincoln Road.

"What are you using and how long have you been using it?"

Lin Rui shouted.

"Your pupils are very small like pinpoint tips, unless you're on some drugs!"

He knew very well that only narcotic analgesics could produce such an effect.

He also knew very well that the most common injuries on the battlefield were those caused by bullets or shrapnel penetration, and these injuries would cause the human body to lose a lot of blood, and the blood loss would lead to cardiovascular atrophy and death from shock.

Those narcotic neurological drugs can dilate the cardiovascular system in a relatively short period of time, accelerate blood flow, and prevent death from shock caused by blood loss.

But this narcotic analgesic can also cause severe dependence, and gradually become addictive.

"It's been a long time, originally as an analgesic, and we all know that stuff is addictive. ”

Lincoln smiled hard, "But I need it to keep me in shape......"

"Fuck you!"

Lin Rui grabbed him and yelled, "What the hell do you think? Drug addiction?!Is this the reason for you to leave?"

"Yes, because I can't bother my brothers, I can't let them die because of me, it's time to leave. ”

Lincoln pushed Lin Rui away, "Save some face for me, don't tell me about this." Hello everyone, get together and disperse. I am a soldier who is extremely addicted to war, and I have suppressed my heart for a long time to have a pure light to illuminate the belief I once insisted on, but unfortunately the belief is no more, and even the self has been lost. ”

"Fuck you excuses!"

Lin Rui slammed Lincoln to the ground with a punch, and said in a deep voice, "Think about your teammates, they all put their lives in your hands! Are you worthy of any of them in doing this? Think about those dead comrades, are you still a human being?"

"I don't count, that's why I'm leaving. ”

Lincoln wiped the blood from the corners of his mouth.

"You can't go anywhere, you have to quit this thing. Otherwise, you won't be able to live a normal life if you go back. ”

Lin Rui grabbed his shoulders and said in a deep voice, "It's okay, you can get through." ”

"Can I? When we were first stationed in northern Iraq, we never knew where our real enemies were, and we fought day and night, but we didn't know where they came from, why they came, and we didn't know when we were going to die because of them. A dazed war has created a group of confused soldiers. We are confused about our future, about our beliefs, about what it means to be part of this war. Justice or injustice, it doesn't matter so much anymore. Because war itself is a narcotic that can be extremely addictive. Once you become addicted, you will get carried away and just want to continue to feel the pleasure of addiction and can't extricate yourself. I shouldn't have come back alive, I should have died on the battlefield. ”

Lincoln buried his head.

"That's all in the past, you can start over. You have a chance. ”

Lin Rui hugged his shoulders and said hard, "We will help you, you are not in Iraq anymore, and you are not in the recovery ward of the military hospital." You are in St. Kaiser, our own place, fighting for ourselves. You can get rid of drugs, just like getting rid of those bad memories from the past. ”

Lincoln stood up and yelled, "I was a soldier of the finest, and I was proud of that." Not thugs and executioners, I don't kill civilians, women and children. But the battlefield is so cruel, how many civilians have died because of us. However, I was still rewarded by my superiors, and the repeated battles and commendations made the rules and morals of a peaceful world less important. Until we gradually became suspicious of the rules and morals on the battlefield. But I couldn't change it, so I started to numb myself with drugs. I didn't want to live like a beast, but I became a beast anyway. ”

"I don't know what kind of past you've endured, but it's all in the past. ”

Lin Rui said in a low voice, "We are now walking on another road. A different path that gives us the opportunity to reflect and repent for the better. We don't fight for the country anymore, we only fight for ourselves, for your family and friends, for your comrades-in-arms, living and dead. You deserve to live well. ”

Lincoln leaned down and squatted on the training ground, "I can't forget it, it's like an addiction to narcotic drugs that I can't get rid of, and the only thing I can do is leave alone." ”

"You can't go anywhere, I never give up on any of my comrades, whether they live or die. ”

Lin Rui said in a deep voice.

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