Chapter 190: You can't imagine how scared I am of losing you
Chang An walked out obediently. Outside, the sun was about to set at the end, and there were still a few rays of golden light falling on the ground from the window, and the breeze blew gently, shaking the tassels on the curtains, and those few rays of golden light jumped up and down on the marble floor.
Chang An sat there and could see God.
Zhou Wei came out of the kitchen and saw such a scene: in the living room shrouded in sunset, she sat quietly on the sofa, her legs together and slightly inclined to the side, her hands folded on her knees, her back was very straight, and her face was expressionless.
The way she sat there alone was full of loneliness.
Zhou Wei realized that she had made a big mistake, she was a duplicitous person, always good at acting, always good at lying, these were known before, why did she agree to her request for separation.
He shouldn't have left, he shouldn't have cooperated with her so-called "calm down", he was calm down when he was divided.
"Alright. ”
Chang An heard the movement, and when she turned around, a bowl of noodles was already resting in front of her, and she looked up at him.
Zhou Wei: "Don't look at me like that, finish the noodles first." ”
Chang An smiled, "Okay." ”
After tossing for a long time, she was indeed a little hungry, so she picked up the chopsticks and took a bite.
Zhou Wei was a little nervous, "How is it?"
"Not bad. ”
He let out a sigh of relief.
Chang An ate a few bites in a row, and when he looked up and saw that the man had been sitting opposite him, he asked, "Aren't you still leaving?"
"I'll talk about it when you're done. ”
Chang An could see that he seemed to have something to say, so he lowered his head and ate noodles quietly, and didn't ask any more questions.
Soon a bowl of noodles bottomed out, and the soup was drunk several times, unimaginable, I don't know if this man's cooking skills are really good, or his mouth is not as good as before, a bowl of simple tomato and egg noodles are very satisfied.
After eating, she wiped her mouth with a tissue, "Do you have something to say to me?"
Zhou Wei breathed a sigh of relief, "I thought you would ask directly." ”
Look, the way they get along with each other is always like this, one doesn't ask, the other doesn't say.
Chang An smiled: "I don't have anything to ask." ”
Zhou Wei: "What are you running that afternoon?"
Chang An: "I just don't want to see you." ”
Zhou Wei: "You don't suspect that the child in Xingxing's belly is mine, right?"
Chang An's brows furrowed, but he quickly let go, "How is it possible, I know you and her won't get that far." ”
Zhou Wei: "Are you so sure?"
Chang An: "Well, for sure, because if you really want to have something to do with her, you won't wait until now." ”
Their "brother and sister" have been ambiguous for so many years, if Zhou Xin really has this heart, according to Zhou Xin's character, he will not refuse at all.
Chang An: "We haven't been together for a long time, but I think I know you well, you are very principled in doing things, whether it is between you and Fang Rushan, or between you and Xingxing, your body and emotions are very accurate, not to mention that you have to take care of your parents and grandfather, so I actually knew early on that you and Xingxing would not really be good." ”
Zhou Wei was surprised that she would say these words, God, it was incredible.
Zhou Wei: "Then why are you still angry?"
Chang An: "I'm not angry. ”
Zhou Wei: "Asking to be separated for a while, isn't this angry?"
Chang An smiled again: "Of course not, do you think I will be as angry as the woman you dated before? No, I really just want to be separated from you for a while, and we can sort out the relationship with each other, and think about how to go on in the future!"
Zhou Wei almost gasped.
It's too difficult, he started his early love in junior high school, he had his first woman at the age of 19, and he changed his partner in college in three days and two days, and there are not a few women who boast of being in contact with him, but he really has no rut in the face of Chang An.
She said that she wanted to be quiet, but she was not angry, she really wanted to be quiet.
It's not a regular way to play!
"Chang'an. Zhou Wei rubbed his eyebrows, "Are you blaming me for not contacting you some time ago?"
"It's not. ”
"I admit that I have a problem, I have been cold to you for so long, but at that time I was thinking, can you also coax me occasionally? Or even if you don't coax, you take the initiative to call me, scold me, be coquettish, or simply quarrel with me, but you have not heard from you for more than 20 days, and when I contact you, I find that you have pulled me into the blacklist and deleted my > What kind of experience is that?
He was a bastard for such a time, thinking that he would force her to make trouble, so that she could prove that she had him in her heart, so he endured staying up and not taking the initiative to contact, went to several cities, and paralyzed himself with work, but God knows how many nights he endured and wanted to rush back to see her, until more than half a month passed, she didn't make a sound at all, Zhou Wei realized that she probably never took the initiative to give in, wrong, forget it, he still took the initiative to admit defeat, so he called Chang An, and found that the number was no longer available.
How terrible! He gritted his teeth and endured stiffness every day, Baba waited, couldn't wait any longer and then persuaded himself to surrender, he added enough inner drama to himself, and broke his work for more than 20 days, thinking that he was already very remarkable, but what was the result? As a result, not only was he blacklisted, but this woman had even completely adapted to the days without him, until his number was blocked and > More than 20 days, more than 20 days is not short, after all, no couple will really not contact for more than 20 days, but it is not long.
"In order to be able to come back to see Chen Haodong, you took medicine and drank heavily and went on a hunger strike, and finally even did not hesitate to fake a marriage with me, and did not give up for five years alone, but when you came to me, you had already picked yourself clean in just over 20 days. When Zhou Tao said these words, he lowered his head and rubbed his fingers, and there was an extremely negative self-defeat.
It's ridiculous to think about it, he is over thirty years old, and at this age, he still plays the childish game of "cold war" with her for this kind of thing, and he loses the game, and the loss is extremely ugly.
"Forget it, don't say this, I'll apologize first!" He hung his head completely, and there was still a little bit of his usual arrogant appearance.
Chang An was also very shocked, she didn't expect Zhou Yi to care about these things at all.
"You—" she pursed her lips, "You haven't contacted me for more than twenty days, after all, it's obviously you who are angry!"
“……”
Zhou Wei looked up, as if she had been pierced by a word.
"But why don't you ask me why I suddenly appeared in Beijing?"
Zhou Xian's brows furrowed, he couldn't get through to her phone before, and he was deleted WeChat, knowing that she must be angry, only to realize that he might have caused a big disaster.
How difficult it is for her to coax, if she wants to be really angry, it is estimated that she will have to spend a lot of effort to make her angry, but it just so happened that he was also in Beijing in those days, and he hurriedly bought a ticket back to Yunling, and thought of a lot of ways to coax Chang'an on the way, but when he opened the door, he found that there was no one at home at all.
At that time, Zhou Wei was no longer so simple as being anxious, the phone couldn't get through, WeChat couldn't be contacted, and people were gone.
"When I came back and found that there was no one at home, my first reaction was to guess that you had returned to London, but it happened that lawyer Zhang contacted me and said that you asked him to help make an appointment with Sun Zhengdao to visit, and I only knew that you might have gone to Beijing, so I bought a ticket and flew there again on the same day. ”
Poor tossed, but Zhou Wei only thought that Chang An was angry.
"Then how do you know I'll be staying at the Beijing Hotel?"
"At first, I just wanted to try my luck, I felt that you didn't have a sense of direction, and I should have chosen a place to stay when I went to Beijing, so I asked Xu Nan to find a way to check the check-in information, and the result was really guessed by me, you really lived in the Beijing Hotel. ”
Zhou Yi still remembers the excitement when he got the room number, he ran over non-stop, knocked on the door, wanted to see her, anxious, all his mood and performance were like a hairy boy who had just fallen in love, but he never expected that it was Chen Haodong who opened the door, shirtless, loosening his trouser buttons, and sharing a room with Chang An who was only wrapped in a bathrobe.
He was really stunned at the time, and he didn't even have the slightest room to think.
For the first time, I became a deserter for the first time in my life.
"I don't think I'm crazy that day, but then I think it's really a, I should rush over and beat him!"
Chang An smiled bitterly, look, she knew that he still minded, but it was not difficult to understand when she thought about it, after all, no man could still keep his mind when he saw that scene.
"Then why didn't you beat it?"
Why? Zhou Wei rubbed his eyebrows again.
"Probably because I'm afraid, I'm afraid that what I see is the truth, and I'm afraid that if I really beat him, there will be no room for recovery. ”
Chang An was taken aback, "Room for redemption?"
"You don't understand?"
She naturally seemed to understand, "I don't really understand, you..."
She recalled that day in Beijing, Zhou Wei saw her and Chen Haodong in the same room and turned around and left, at that time Chen Haodong also said that he wanted to explain, but she didn't do anything, because she had already held Zhou Wei's misunderstanding and did not forgive her plan, but a few hours later he came and knocked on the door with a smell of alcohol, and when he came up, he trapped himself in his arms.
She could feel the helplessness and pain of that night, but at that time she was not sure, or she could not believe it.
"You... Are you going to..."Chang An didn't know how to express it, so he simply organized the language, "Let's ask, if, if I really have something to do with him, you are also going to forgive me?"
That's a terrible question.
Zhou Wei didn't look over, and smiled weakly: "Do you think I have other better options?"
"What do you mean?"
"Chang An, did you really never see how scared I was of losing you?"
How scared was he? He was so scared that even if he knew that she and Chen Haodong had a leg, and even saw them in the same room in rags, he could deceive himself that nothing had happened.
He was willing to suppress all the pain in his heart, as long as she was still there, as long as she was still Mrs. Zhou, he could convince himself not to care about her having other men.
Oh my God, this was an extremely undignified and cowardly answer, but he still knocked on Chang'an's door that night.
"Before dignity and you, I can only choose the latter. ”
Including later agreeing to her request to "separate and be quiet", in the final analysis, it is not that he is indifferent, on the contrary, he is too conniving, or too inferior in this relationship.
Zhou Wei clasped his hands on the bridge of his nose like a self-deprecating one.
"Chang'an, you can't imagine how scared I am of losing you. ”