It wasn't a big day on Saturday, but the weather was nice.

Zhou Wei made an appointment at a Spanish restaurant near the company, and Tian Jiaqi was already there when he arrived, and the seat was booked in advance by Zhou Tao for the secretary, by the window.

"Sorry, the morning meeting dragged on for a few minutes, and I came late. ”

He unbuttoned a suit and sat down.

Tian Jiaqi was originally swiping her mobile phone, but when she saw him coming, she immediately straightened her body and sat up straight.

"It's okay, I'm early!"

In front of Zhou Qing, she seemed to have automatically become a strange girl, probably because there was an invisible sense of oppression in this man.

Zhou Wei sat there and briefly looked at her.

She wore a dress with light blue stripes on a white background, and a white tweed coat hanging on a chair in the back.

The skin is quite white, it looks like no makeup, but the texture seems to be smeared with something, but Zhou Wei doesn't understand this, so she can only be sure that she has applied lip gloss, the pink kind, watery, and more delicate and wonderful for girls in their early 20s.

It is undeniable that Liu Shulan has really broken her heart for him in the past two years, otherwise how could she dig such a person for him from other places... A girl who "should have an appetite for him"?

"Brother Zhou?"

Tian Jiaqi suddenly spoke, her eyes sparkling, probably because she found that the man opposite had been looking at her, a little shy, and a little happy, and her eyes were turning to make the woman's delicate and extraordinarily sultry.

Zhou Wei lowered his eyes and took the menu on the table.

"Let's order. ”

Tian Jiaqi refused: "It's better for you to come." ”

Zhou Wei: "I don't usually eat Spanish food, and you have studied over there, so you should be more suitable than me." ”

But Tian Jiaqi still pushed the notebook over, "It's better for you to order, I'm not a picky eater." ”

It took a long time to order a dish, so Zhou Wei was not reluctant, and opened the book by himself.

Tian Jiaqi sat opposite, her eyes staring at Zhou Wei.

Zhou Wei wore a gray dark pattern suit that day, which was a dark navy blue shirt, and he was going out to meet a client for a while, so the overall style was more formal, but the shirt buttons were not fully buttoned, and after two were unbuttoned, you could see the raised Adam's apple, and down was the outline supported by muscles.

The cuffs are buttoned with discreet royal blue cuffs, revealing a small section of the watch, and the brown leather strap is understated, but not dull.

Tian Jiaqi thought at the time, a man's age and experience are really a good thing, just the one in front of him, just one action of flipping the menu can fascinate thousands of girls, whether it is temperament or body physique, it is incomparable to those boys of the same age around her who only know how to eat, drink, and drag race all day long.

It's probably like wine, the heavier it gets, the more flavorful it becomes.

And then at the next meal, although Zhou Yan didn't talk much, most of the time Tian Jiaqi was talking, but his occasional response did not make the atmosphere cold, and some habits and behaviors in the details reflected his self-cultivation and gentlemanhood.

Well, it's a good bottle of wine, and it's a wine that can easily get drunk.

In short, after a meal, Tian Jiaqi rose from the original favor to "like" and "obsession".

"Do you still need a dessert?" Zhou asked suddenly.

Tian Jiaqi shook her head with a smile: "No need." ”

"No sweets?"

"I eat too, but very little, and I'm afraid of getting fat. ”

Zhou Wei gently wiped the corners of his mouth with a napkin, "It's not necessarily a good thing to be too thin, try this CremaCatalana?"

Tian Jiaqi: "Caramel pudding?"

Zhou Xian: "Well, the signature dessert here. ”

Tian Jiaqi: "Did you study the menu here before you came?"

Zhou Wei: "No, but in the whole Yunling famous restaurant, I basically know what desserts are delicious." ”

Tian Jiaqi: "So you like sweets?"

Zhou Xiao smiled and said nothing, beckoned the waiter to come over and licked a pudding.

The food was sent and placed directly in front of Tian Jiaqi, she smiled: "You don't eat?"

Zhou Wei took the coffee cup and gestured, "I'll drink this." ”

Tian Jiaqi smiled more obviously, "I thought you studied the desserts in each restaurant so clearly because you liked to eat them." After she finished speaking, she scooped a small spoonful of pudding into her mouth, and was about to praise the taste, but heard the person opposite say, "I don't eat sweets, my wife likes to eat them." ”

It was as if all the smells disappeared in a second.

Tian Jiaqi looked up in surprise and swallowed the pudding.

Zhou Wei had already expected what kind of expression she would have.

"I'm sorry, I promised to go out to dinner together, I thought I could at least try it, but I thought about it all night last night, and there may be some things that I can't force and don't be fair to you. ”

He put the coffee cup down, paused, and said, "I'm married, you know?"

Tian Jiaqi was stunned for a few seconds, but quickly came back to her senses, "I know, I know you were married before, but your wife hasn't been... Isn't it gone anymore?"

"Yes, she's gone, but that doesn't mean I want to find someone again. ”

"Do you want to be single for the rest of your life?"

Zhou Wei picked up the cup again, took a sip, and looked over Tian Jiaqi's shoulder, behind her was a floor-to-ceiling window, outside which there were people coming and going on the street, and fallen leaves were everywhere.

"I can't guarantee it in the future, but I probably can't accept it right now. ”

Tian Jiaqi took a mouthful of pudding like a stalk in her throat, neither up nor down, but when she raised her eyes, she saw Zhou Wei's hand holding the cup, with slender fingers and clear joints, and a platinum ring on her ring finger.

That's a wedding ring!

"I'm sorry to ask you to hear this, but I think it's better to make it clear, my mom should like you a lot, so she's been trying her best to match, but from my point of view, I think it's unfair to you. That's what I just said, Miss Tian......"

Tian Jiaqi's eyes were already red.

Zhou Wei was not good at coaxing women, and this skill has been abandoned in the past few years.

Seeing that the girl opposite was about to cry, he rubbed his forehead with his fingers, trying to hold back something, but in the end he could only say, "I'm sorry." ”

"I don't want to listen to you say I'm sorry, you just think I'm not good enough, not as good as her, right? That's why you don't like me!"

“……”

Zhou Wei had a little headache, he put his hand down, "No, it has nothing to do with you, your conditions are very good, very good, it's completely my own problem." ”

"Excuses, all excuses, you men are always like this, say one thing to your face and do another behind your back, I don't believe that you will never find anyone again in your life, isn't it because I'm not the type you like?"

The more Tian Jiaqi spoke, the more angry she became, probably she had never suffered such a big grievance, and the child's heart was exposed, which attracted other guests in the surrounding restaurants to look at her.

Zhou Wei gave up completely.

He doesn't know how to deal with girls at all, not to mention that Chang An didn't do this before.

At that time, he sat and thought, maybe he was really old and in a hurry, so he shouldn't have agreed to the elders to come to eat this meal.

Tian Jiaqi's mood lasted for about ten minutes, until her crying became smaller.

Zhou Wei looked like it was almost there, and took a tissue from the table and handed it over.

"No!" she refused, her heart quite high.

Zhou Wei smiled.

"You're still laughing?"

“……”

The corners of Zhou Wei's mouth shrugged, and he didn't smile, Tian Jiaqi saw him like this, he wasn't angry, he didn't cry, and finally laughed out loud with a "poof".

Zhou Wei: "......"

He really can't see through the little girl now.

Headache!

picked up the coffee cup again, and Tian Jiaqi adjusted her emotions in that short movement.

"I understand your words, I accept them, but it doesn't mean that I will give up. ”

“……”

"And you don't have to say it too absolutely, I'm still young, and there will be time in the future, I don't believe that you can really defend yourself for a lifetime for a woman who has passed away. ”

"Ahem..."

Zhou Yan took a sip of cold coffee and almost choked to death.

Tian Jiaqi had already stood up with her satchel, and she was not polite, "I'm going to the suburbs in the afternoon, do you have time, send me a trip if you have time." ”

Zhou Wei couldn't refuse, and he was embarrassed to refuse, and the person who made the offer in the afternoon was not far from the suburbs, so he agreed.

The two got into the car one after the other.

Because I asked her for lunch today, I didn't bring a driver.

Zhou Wei drove, and Tian Jiaqi naturally sat in the co-pilot.

The car drove up the elevated highway at a steady speed, and the girl next to her began to take out her makeup bag and tinker, paint on her face, brush her eyelashes again, wipe things, and apply lipstick, and asked as she did this: "Did your wife wear makeup before?"

Zhou Wei held the steering wheel: "Very little." ”

Tian Jiaqi: "It's also long straight hair?"

Zhou Wei: "Hmm. ”

Tian Jiaqi: "No wonder!"

Zhou Wei: "What?"

Tian Jiaqi: "It's nothing, isn't she very gentle?"

Zhou Wei: "Very gentle. "But it's enough to be tough enough to be angry." ”

Tian Jiaqi stopped applying lipstick, and glanced sideways at the man next to him, he was still looking ahead, but the corners of his mouth still maintained an upward arc.

The sentence "It's very gentle, but it's enough to choke when you have a strong temper", Tian Jiaqi felt that after the whole meal until now, when he said this, he seemed to suddenly become soft from hard, and even the sense of oppression on his body was reduced a little, completely like a different person.

Zhou Wei didn't ask Tian Jiaqi where he was going until the car stopped at the door, and he lowered the window to look.

A small three-and-a-half-story building, surrounded by a fence, can be heard with the laughter and slapstick of children.

Zhou Wei asked, "Kindergarten?"

Tian Jiaqi was packing her makeup bag and replied very casually: "No, it should be a charity." ”

"An orphanage?"

"I don't know, my friend is volunteering here, and I'm here to have fun. She had already sorted out her bag as she spoke, "Thank you for sending me all the way over, go in first!"

Tian Jiaqi got out of the car very casually, walked to the door and turned back, under the sun, she shouted at the man sitting in the car: "Brother Zhou, I will look for you again!"

Zhou Wei sighed deeply.

Over there, Tian Jiaqi had already crossed the threshold and entered the courtyard.

He leaned back in his chair for a headache, and closed his eyes because of the harsh light in the suburbs, and the sound of the wind and the childish voice of a child could be heard in his ears.

"Sister, what color is painted here?"

Zhou Yan opened his eyes, and next to the car was the courtyard wall, and a row of people stood there with their backs to the car and drew something on the wall, to be precise, a row of children followed by an adult.

The adult wears a peaked cap and a wide, half-worn men's sweater, and because he always has his back to Zhou Wei, he can't see his face, but his body is thin and small, and it is difficult to distinguish the gender.

The man looked down as if to say something to a little girl next to him, causing the little girl to giggle.

Another little boy next to him asked, "But aren't sunflowers yellow?"

The little girl said, "Blue is fine." ”

Little boy: "Blue can't be, there are no blue sunflowers." ”

Little girl: "My sister said yes, I'm going to draw blue sunflowers!"

The two children began to poke around with paintbrushes, attracting other children to join in, and the originally neat team suddenly became chaotic.

The paint dipped in the brush is sprinkled on the white wall, which has previously drawn an outline, like a house or a meadow.

"Alright, don't make trouble!"

The man in the black sweater suddenly roared and turned sideways, Zhou Wei saw that she was still wearing a mask and gloves, and the brim of her hat was also very low, but she couldn't stop the gentleness in her voice, mixed with the breeze in the winter sun, which made a certain nerve in Zhou Wei's heart tighten suddenly.

It's a woman.

Looking up again, the children's team was chattering neatly again, and the woman in the black sweater raised her head and drew a stroke on the wall.

Zhou Yan wanted to get out of the car and ask what he was going to paint on the wall, but at this time, the mobile phone rang, Xu Nan's phone.

"Mr. Zhou, Miss Fang came to the company to make trouble, blocked in the hall and refused to leave. ”

Zhou Wei frowned and let go of the gear.

"Find the security guard, blast out!" After saying that, he turned the steering wheel and the car drove past the white wall.

"Mother An'an, can I draw a butterfly here?"

"Yes. ”

"What about the stars?"

"But there are no stars during the day. ”

"Can't you draw?"

"No, Xiaozhi can draw if she likes it, it's okay. ”

The woman grabbed the little girl's wrist and waved it twice in the blank space on the wall, "So, look, does it look like I'm winking at you?"

……

Zhou Wei socialized in the evening, and this time in addition to the customers, there were two leaders from the province.

In the past two years, Rongbang has been transforming, from real estate companies to commercial real estate, and is promoting IPO, so it is necessary to have a good relationship with all aspects at this juncture.

In fact, it is not a business banquet, it is more private, so Zhou Wei went to the banquet alone, and wine was definitely indispensable, and this time no one helped him stop it, so he drank too much.

After dinner, a night session was originally arranged, but the provincial leaders didn't seem to be happy with the bell, so they gave up.

The restaurant is in the suburbs, Xiao Zhao came to drive for him, and passed by that intersection again when he went back.

The man in the back seat, who was speechless, suddenly spoke: "Turn left at the intersection ahead." ”

Xiao Zhao was stunned, where did he turn left? But he could only do what the boss said.

The car drove to a small road, and it seemed to be getting more and more deviated, Xiao Zhao was worried, thinking that it might be that the boss had drunk too much and blindly pointed the way, but he didn't dare to say anything, so he could only drive forward.

Suddenly......

"Stop!"

“？？？”

Xiao Zhao hurriedly stepped on the brakes.

"Mr. Zhou, stop here?"

Xiao Zhao looked out, a dilapidated house, with a light bulb hanging at the door, and the rest were blind with black lights.

What is this place?

Zhou Yan dropped the window, Xiao Zhao saw that he had been looking in a certain direction, he was curious, and he also looked at it, and then he saw something painted on the wall outside the house, but the light was too dim to tell the specifics.

Xiao Zhao was curious and wanted to ask what kind of place this was, but it could be seen that the people in the back seat looked lonely, so he didn't dare to ask more.

Zhou Wei watched there for a few minutes, and the mobile phone rang, Liu Shulan's phone.

"Hey..."

"What's the matter with you, the girl happily went to dinner with you, why did you come back crying?"

"Do you say it's interesting for you to say those things to her? If you really don't like it, you can refuse tactfully, and I won't force you, but what do you say about those things that others don't think? How will I introduce girls to you in the future?"

“…… Ah Yan, Mom knows that you still can't let go of the past in your heart, but everyone has been gone for so long, even if you are sad, you should come out, is it possible that you really plan not to marry for the rest of your life?"

"Don't think that I keep telling you these things to force you, no, Mom just wants to find someone for you, usually shush the cold and ask for warmth, and I can talk to you when I am free, you don't have to go back every day to face an empty room alone. ”

“… Your grandfather is still lying in the hospital, and your father and I are both this age, so how many years can we stay with you?

Liu Shulan went from angry scolding to sadness, from scolding to crying.

The space inside the car is closed, and the outside is very quiet, so the content of the mobile phone is all floating in the cabin.

Zhou Wei didn't refute, and it was rare that he didn't directly turn off the phone, but just half leaned back in his seat.

"Mom, are you done? Go to bed early. His voice was slightly hoarse, and his tone was a little soft, "That's it, hang up!"

With a "beep", Xiao Zhao's heart hung into his voice, and he secretly glanced at the person in the back seat, he closed his eyes and pinched his eyebrows twice: "Let's go, go back." ”

Driving at a constant speed all the way, Xiao Zhao didn't dare to say anything, and only after getting on the elevated highway did he find that the person in the back seat seemed to be asleep.

The car window was still cracked, and Xiao Zhao pressed the button to close the window......

Zhou Wei has not slept well in the past two years, firstly, he is busy with work and under great pressure, and secondly, he always does not sleep well and is easy to wake up.

That day was unprecedented, and I fell asleep directly in the car on the way back, probably thanks to the wine I drank at dinner in the evening.

The wine was brought by the leader of the province himself, not the liquor or wine he usually drinks, but a health wine with Chinese medicine, and I don't know what ingredients are in it, so I fell asleep in a daze anyway.

Had a dream, a sweet dream.

I dreamed that he was watching a movie with Chang An at home, it was still a Japanese anime with beautiful pictures, it should also be winter, there was a fire burning in the fireplace, the house was warm, and there were cleaned strawberries and snacks on the coffee table, but she always liked to wear a nightdress with bare legs, and it was probably too cold, so she wrapped herself in a blanket, and she was restless, like a caterpillar and wanted to rub into his arms.

Zhou Wei was annoyed, so he simply hugged the person to his lap.

She fed him strawberries to eat, he refused to eat them at first, so she bit them and sent them to his mouth, and then the two kissed on the sofa, she hid, Zhou Yan took advantage of the person in her arms, and used her tongue to pick the sweetness in her mouth, the fragrance of strawberries, until she pressed the person to the sofa, and peeled off the blanket and nightgown together.

She pretended to shiver and shouted cold.

Zhou Xian exerted all his strength, and the fire in the fireplace burned more and more, but the cruel thing was that at the most ecstatic and bone-eating moment, he still clearly knew that it was a dream.

How to wake up, or how cruel the reality should be, so that he already knows in his dreams that the beauty he has at this time is just a dream.

However, even dreams will wake up.

When Zhou Wei opened his eyes, the car had already gotten off the outer ring elevated highway and was walking through the city, and the brilliant neon lights outside the window flickered across his face.

His Adam's apple rolls.

"Xiao Zhao..."

"Mr. Zhou, you say!"

"Let's go to the hospital, I'll go see the old man. ”

Xiao Zhao looked confused, "Now?"

"Yes, now!"

“……”

The car made a U-turn at the intersection in front of it and drove back to the suburbs, and Xiao Zhao drove the car all the way to the entrance of the inpatient building.

"Mr. Zhou, I'm waiting for you here?"

Zhou Wei buttoned up his suit and got out of the car, "No, just come over before half past eight tomorrow morning." ”

At this time, at half past eleven o'clock in the night, it was already past the time to visit the patient, but the keeper knew Zhou and politely let him go.

Zhou Fushan served as a soldier, and after retirement, he has always paid attention to health and exercise, so his body is better than ordinary people, and there is no insomnia, but the hospital is not as good as home, and after living here for a period of time, he has developed the problem of always getting up at night.

As a result, it was very difficult to get up today, and it was very dark in the ward without the lights on, but I could see a figure sitting on the bedside chair.

Fortunately, the old man fought when he was young and had great courage, otherwise he would have screamed and even had a heart attack on others.

"Ahh

The man who was sitting with his head down and holding his head suddenly moved.

"It's really you, why come here now?"

The old man moved to the side of the bed with half of his still conscious legs, and then smelled the strong smell of wine on Zhou Wei's body.

"What's the matter, drinking?"

"Is there something wrong?"

Zhou Fushan gradually felt that something was wrong.

"Ahh

"Ahh

He reached out to push the man, but the man who had been sitting there with his body behind did not look up, but his shoulders began to shake.

In the dimly lit and closed ward, the man's suppressed cry diffused little by little in the air that was coaxed dry by the air conditioner......

Zhou Fushan froze there for a while, and after a short period of sluggishness, a dull pain in his heart followed.

Since he was a child, he has taught Zhou Wei that boys do not shed tears when they bleed, they do not flick when they have tears, they cannot be controlled by emotions, and they cannot be slaves to emotions, so they must know how to restrain themselves when they encounter big things.

Restraint is overcoming inhibition.

Zhou Wei's name follows this meaning, he also does a very good job, he can take charge of himself in his early twenties, even if Mount Tai collapses in front of him, he can do it without changing his face, but after almost three years, when everyone thinks he has recovered, he still can't watch out for emotions.

“… Over the years, I watched the surveillance video over and over again, watching her get into the taxi, watching her enter the alley, and watching the yellow car that took her out of the alley, and I knew she was in the car, but I couldn't ......stop time."

"The ship exploded at 11:57 a.m., and I was lying on the bow of the boat and watching it be blown apart, and I was only a few hundred meters away from her, but in the end I couldn't find a single intact body of her. ”

“…… Over the years, I've been calculating the time, which point, which link, if I had been faster and save some time, I think I should have been able to get to the island sooner......"

"Dr. Zhou said that I had PTSD, that it was a disease, and that it could be treated, but I knew in my heart that it couldn't get better, it couldn't get better at all...... As long as I think of her, when I think of her, I don't think there's any point in doing anything more......"

"Grandpa, it's so bitter, really... I can't even dream of her......"