Outside the window, the wind and rain sounded, the traffic lights and shadows, but the night seemed to put a blurry watermark on it.

Chang An's mournful crying also slowly subsided, she actually didn't cry for long, just like venting to unblock the things in her heart, so Zhou Yan didn't coax, let her sit there and cry hysterically.

It's not a good thing to be able to cry at this time, but what about after crying?

She looked at the front windshield with a twitch, the rain did not stop, and it was late at night, but there were still pedestrians returning late to rush home in the shower.

Everyone in the world suffers, but who can be spared?

"My grandmother didn't have my mother until she was about forty years old, and she devoted almost half of her life to this little daughter, and began to teach her to read and write poetry at a very young age. Chang An suddenly spoke, his emotions were not very excited, but faintly with a little awakening like the aftermath of the catastrophe.

"Do you know? My mother is very outstanding in all aspects, she studied well when she was a child, and her brain was smart, my grandmother said that she had to compete for the first place in everything, and then she was admitted to university, and she entered Oxford completely on her own ability, and she was still a very good major in economic management, so she has always been the pride of my grandmother, so that I always didn't understand before, how can a person like my mother tolerate her daughter being content with the status quo or even mediocre?"

In Chang An's memory, Xue Bing didn't pay much attention to her learning and ability training before her death, and later she was sent to London, and her grandmother only let her choose an extremely unpopular major, and Chang An's education since childhood was - "Women's virtue is the first, the most important thing is to keep oneself, and you don't have to fight for anything, find a suitable man to marry at the right age, and marry and teach children in the future, and live this life in peace!"

Plain is a blessing, ordinary is a blessing, this is what my grandmother used to say.

Chang An smiled bitterly, "I used to think that it was only the conditions at home that allowed me not to think about any of these issues, so they asked me not to have any utilitarian intentions, but now I seem to suddenly understand that my mother lost in the word 'profit', so she and my grandmother don't want me to go the old way." ”

Before her death, Xue Wenxiu told Chang An more than once that she should not be strong, and it was best to have no desires and no desires.

They want Chang An to become an ordinary girl, away from the temptation of interests in this world, and away from the filthy hearts of people, so that they may be doing nothing, but at least they can live a quiet life.

"I can't help myself, hey, he just used the word 'can't help himself' to explain for my mother......"

Chang An lowered his head and remembered what Chang Wangde said to her in the study.

He said, "Don't hate me, don't hate your mother, it's not our intention to cause some results, you don't understand that when you sit at a certain height, many things will become involuntary." ”

It's not to take, and it's even more not, so power and money are a double-edged sword, which can make you live or let you die.

Zhou Wei can actually understand the truth, because he has been in business since he was in his early twenties, and he has been tumbling in the whirlpool for nearly ten years, but he can't and can't explain it to Chang An.

"Okay, even if she really couldn't help herself back then, then how can I explain my existence?" Chang An lowered her head and closed her eyes, the education she had received since she was a child, the environment around her, everything was constructing beauty and justice to her, but one day she was suddenly told that everything was fake, beauty was fake, elegance was fake, and even the faith they conveyed to her was fake.

Her presence confirms that all this is a fallacy, absurd, ridiculous and shameful.

Chang An didn't want to say any more, leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes again.

Zhou Tao was taken away for questioning before, but he actually knew some things, such as Sun Zhengdao taking advantage of Xue Bing's position to cooperate with the outside and make profits from it, and for example, this time Sun Zhengdao was planted, Yu'an Li Meiyu and his senior executives were interrogated together, but it turned out to involve confessing what Xue Bing did before his death, but looking at Chang An's emotion, he felt that things were not so simple, but Chang An's current mood, he was reluctant to ask more.

"Alright. Zhou Wei raised his hand and wrapped Chang An's shoulder again, "Don't talk about it, it's raining too much, go back first!"

He restarted the car and drove back to the river as fast as he could.

After arriving home, Zhou An coaxed Chang An to take a bath, she seemed to be in a stable mood, and did not "resist" much, after washing, Chang An obediently went to bed, and when Zhou Yan entered the bedroom, he found that the person had fallen asleep in the quilt, and he was also relieved.

Zhou Wei also stayed in it for a few days before, and just came back in the afternoon and went to Fengli overnight to open a round trip, in fact, he was so tired that he was dying, so he simply washed and lay down next to Chang'an.

Extreme tiredness isn't a bad thing, at least it's a time to fall asleep for a short time.

Zhou Wei fell asleep quickly, and did not dream, but was a little awakened by the body outside the window at dawn, and habitually turned over to hug the people around him, but the palm of his hand touched it but only touched a cold, he opened his eyes suddenly, and there was no one on the pillow.

"Chang'an!"

"Chang'an?"

Zhou Mian shouted twice in a row, there was no one on the balcony and in the bathroom, he quickly uncovered the quilt and got out of bed, and he didn't have time to put on slippers, so he hurriedly went out, and looked for a circle on the second floor, no, and trotted to the first floor, the living room was not lit, Zhou Mian thought she was out, but when he turned around, he saw a little light coming through the restaurant.

Chang An sat straight in his chair, his back facing him, red wine and a tall glass in front of him.

Zhou Wei breathed a sigh of relief and walked over.

"Why don't you sleep and come here alone?"

The man who had been lost in thought turned sharply, but his tense expression quickly collapsed.

"I can't sleep, come down and have two drinks. ”

Zhou Wei glanced at the wine bottle on the table, most of the bottle went down, she called two glasses? But Zhou Tao didn't expose it, and went around to the chair next to her and sat down, only to see that she also had two pieces of paper in her hand.

"What are you looking at?" Zhou asked.

Chang An didn't seem to hide it, just lifted the paper up and asked, "Did you say this?"

"yes, what's that?"

"Suicide note!"

"What?"

"My mother's suicide note!" Chang Wangde had just given it to her in the study of Fengli's old house, "It's ridiculous, my mother has been gone for so many years, and I haven't seen her suicide note until now, and it was written to me." ”

Zhou Wei was also a little shocked, but the expression on Chang An's face was calm, perhaps because he had suffered a round of blows in a short period of time and was immune.

"I'll show you. She suddenly pushed the two pieces of paper in front of Zhou Wei.

Zhou Wei was stunned, "Is it appropriate?"

"What's not right now?"

After that, there will probably be only scandals, and there will be no secrets.

Chang An pushed the paper in front of Zhou Wei again, "Look at it, look at how ridiculous it is!"