Is it the end of the year or something else? You've been coming back lately?

Last night, Doubaobao slept quietly with me all night without noise. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

You're back, elated.

You say, "How much do you think I'll bring you back?"

You have a wad of money in your hand, and I ask, "Where did you get all this money?"

You smugly replied, "I'm paid for sporadic lectures." ”

Then you start counting the money, counting 1510, and I find 500 and 1,000 bills, and I wonder, "How can there be 500 and 1,000?"

You replied smugly, "It's already there!"

In the blink of an eye, in the dream, I realized that you and I had long been separated by yin and yang, so I knew that all this was just a dream, even if I "woke up" in the dream, I still pretended not to wake up, I knew that when I opened my eyes, you were gone.

But I made a subtle move. You've already noticed, you're hurrying to see if I'm awake and hurrying away. It's like you can't stay when I wake up.

After you left, I asked Doudou next to me, "Your dad just came back, you know?"

Doudou replied to me: "I feel it, but I don't know if it's my dad." ”

It's all in a dream.

Then, I entered another dream: I told my mother and my grandmother about dreaming of you, and my mother and my grandmother were sitting on the big kang in their hometown, and the steam was swirling, as if it was the New Year's holiday.

I said I dreamed of you, it was very real, it was the same as the real thing.

My mom said, "It's not true, it's just that you can't see when you're awake." ”

After this dream, I woke up completely.

A man thinks in the dark: What do you mean by coming back all these days? Is it near the end of the year, come back and see, or is there something you want to tell me?

I thought again: You got so much money back, do you still think about us? I just remember to take the money back home.

I thought again: It seems that you have received all the paper money I burned for you, otherwise how could you have a pale pink 500 and pale cyan 1000 bills?

You seem to be in good shape, and it's time for me to think about my future path in the world.

The child grows up day by day, and she will definitely stay away from me, she has her life, and she should not be dragged down by me. I should also plan to get up, and I still hope that there will be someone to walk with and take care of each other. Even if there is a headache and brain fever, someone will pour a glass of water and take medicine, and someone will help you sign when you are hospitalized.

It's really pitiful to say, a divorced and single colleague, hospitalized for surgery, can't find the person who signed the operation book, the child is still young, the parents are old, and I can't bear to put too much pressure on my elderly parents......

Then I thought that in my old age, my children may not be around, and I don't want to follow them.

If you don't agree with me to find someone to live with, you are too selfish, I have raised the child in good health, such a good, such an excellent child, I spent countless efforts to create, don't you appreciate me when you see such a child?

I have not treated your relatives badly, and I have endured endless pain while doing my best. It's that we change positions, I leave, you stay, you may not be able to be what I am today.

I'm actually telling you that, but I'm just angry.

In fact, I'm also very embarrassed, I'm used to having thoughts, small thoughts, little gloom and other little secrets that I will think of telling you, and when you leave for a long time, I still want to tell you for the first time. After all these years, I don't seem to be in the mood for some thoughts, small thoughts, and little gloom, and I am used to no one to share and resonate with. Now, if I break my current "habit", I still don't have enough courage.

But think about it rationally, my mother can't sleep at night because I am alone to cope with life, and I will persuade them when I call, and my parents are in their 70s, and my mother says, "If you can start a family again, I can close my eyes even if I die." If you say it's good to be alone, and give me money again, I'm not at ease and unhappy. ”

Every time I hear something like this, I feel ashamed and uneasy, like a thousand arrows piercing my heart, can you understand?