Eighteen and a half years! I have been alone for eight years, raising you.

Nowadays, I can't help but say that I failed!

Your ignorance of the sky, your lack of progress, and your ruthlessness and unrighteousness have chilled my heart.

The original smart mind didn't work hard, and the make-up fee cost tens of thousands of yuan, but the score did not improve a little, and your make-up fee was earned by my hard work. I know that if your score does not improve, it is not that you can't learn, but that you don't study!

I confiscated your smartphone, and you asked for an increase in the food fee every day, saying that you wanted to study hard and replenish your energy, and then saved money from the food fee to buy a mobile phone to play on the Internet, and used my hard-earned money to make up for classes instead of improving grades. What is your conscience?

Do you still remember when the Chinese New Year was approaching the college entrance examination and was only three months old? Your classmates were working hard day and night, but you had to go to cosplay at such a critical juncture, and I didn't agree with you and said, "If you don't give it to me, I won't go to class and go back to the dormitory to sleep." "Your homeroom teacher has proved that your move is true, and I have to give it to you.

Later, when the two models came, you felt that you were different, and you began to panic, and you didn't want to participate in the simulation, but you also took my good words of consolation to explain how I "persecuted" you, and said that you would not take the college entrance examination, do you know how I felt at that time? I wanted to beat you to death, and I failed in this life! Later, I had to accommodate you, and I was silent! I entrusted the teacher and Xiaolong to enlighten and encourage you, and I have never been so anxious in my life!

I finally finished the college entrance examination, and you should understand what you did in the exam, but you said: "Before the scores come out, I'll go to Nanjing first." So, you went to Nanjing.

The scores are out, you are in Nanjing, you don't let me participate in your college entrance examination from beginning to end, the password is covered by yourself, and I can't get any news.

You know that the score told me not to be disappointed, but was my disappointment just now? Then, you cried in Nanjing, and I don't know whether to comfort you or teach you a lesson? But everything was in vain! No matter how much I taught you by example and how I set an example, you are a stubborn rock that does not understand people.

I said that since I didn't fail the test, it would be good to pass your usual level.

After crying, you went to Xuanwu Lake in Nanjing to play again......

A trip back to my hometown during the holidays allowed me to rest my heart for a few days.

Less than a month after you came back, you were lazy and lazy, and squandered the hard-earned money given to you by your grandmother, uncle and second aunt.

I'll tell you that it's the money your grandmother saved for you by frugality, they are all hard-earned money, you seem to feel a little bit, but you still can't stop squandering, thousands of dollars are estimated to be not much left these days.

Although I will return the money, I can't bear to let their hard-earned money go to waste, but I can't stop them from loving you and giving it to you.

This summer in Nanning is particularly hot, but others say that it is not hot, that is, my body is wrong, I sweat profusely when I move, a few days ago, the air conditioning in my room was broken, I was so hot that I couldn't sleep night after night, I wanted to go to your room to rub an air conditioner, you locked the door and hid in the air-conditioned room to play with your mobile phone until midnight and blocked me out of the door.

You're afraid that I want you to go to bed early, so you cruelly want me to not be able to sleep in the heat.

You have grown up, but you have also become ruthless, unrighteous, heartless! You don't understand how much your mother has paid for you all these years? You don't know how to feel sorry for anyone, even if it is for your mother, who has sacrificed her life for happiness.

In the past few years, you don't go shopping with me, you don't watch movies with me, you go with your friends, you and I are already very strange, my affectionate little Doudou has been stifled by you, I hate you!

Today's thing is still that you are lazy and lazy, I said okay to get home at 6:00, arrive home at 6:15, and say that you are going to eat your favorite Kurai sushi, but you take out your clothes to take a bath, why did you go early? How many days are black and white reversed, yesterday was so consumed that you couldn't go to bed early, didn't take a bath and didn't brush your teeth, I shouted a few times before you angrily complained that I made you sleep, got up and went to brush your teeth hastily and went to sleep again. I just spent 11,000 kinds of good teeth, I'm worried that you will break it again! You don't care at all! I said don't take a bath, go out and sweat, come back and wash again, you are very unhappy, saying that you have stink, I don't give you a bath you won't go out to eat, I am soft-hearted, I feel that you haven't gone out for a day, I made breakfast you didn't eat after you got up at noon, go out to eat a meal to make up for a supplement, I don't bother to buy vegetables and cook on a hot day, anyway, you don't like it as much as you did when you were a child, you have long been used to going out to eat and drink.

Then, you go back to your room and "pop" the door and say, "Don't go out to eat!"

I persuaded you to hurry up and take a bath, and if you go again, you won't be able to go!

I'm not angry! That's it! Time and time again, I feel like I owe you a life, and I won't give up until you are angry!

I don't wash a single bowl I eat at home, my room is like a battlefield after the war, and my clothes are not washed once in a few days! When I put it in the washing machine, you don't even bother to turn it on, and I also say that you should take care of yourself a little bit, don't be so lazy, do a little bit of work, and don't waste it. Dozens of pairs of stinky socks flew all over the house, I packed them up and put them in the footbasin, I don't wash them, you definitely don't wash them, I can't help it, and wash the socks and a few pairs of shoes together.

Over the years, I feel that you have no father, I will love you more, besides, before you came, I wanted to love my child with my whole love, I want her to be the happiest child in the world, but God forbid, your good father is gone, leaving me alone to guard you, that is, I am dead and alive, I still spoil you, I am not willing to bear a little bit! I think the most carefree days of a person's life are only a few years, I don't want you to work so hard.

However, I was wrong! I love you so much, and I have such intentions, but I have raised you a selfish, ruthless, and unrighteous white-eyed wolf who doesn't know how to be grateful and doesn't know how to feel sorry for others!

I know that I ran away from home, even if I die, you don't care, in this case, I have the idea that we broke off this mother-daughter relationship, I have raised you, the responsibility is completed, I don't want to be so difficult anymore, even if I don't have a child like you, I have nothing in this life!

I will help you arrange the matter of going to the military academy, from now on, we are strangers, no longer intersect, I will put the assets in my hand in your name, I will leave the house, only my personal belongings, 303 house I live in first, you tell me to get out of the house one day, you will get out, you don't care about my life or death in the future.

Over the years, I have been covered in bruises, and you have completely frozen this broken heart!

Say a thousand things and ten thousand, it doesn't matter to you, I will do what you want - I don't want to send you to school, and I won't care about everything about you in the future, you can do it yourself.

People say that it is the fault of the parents that the child is not good, and that you are the only one who is the fault of the fatherless child! Now, I really regret leaving you in the first place! I, who have never been a parent, love my child as much as my mother loves me, but I am not as lucky as my mother, and I have not gained a filial daughter.

This may be my life, I don't complain, I only live, one day really can't pass, I ended my miserable life, anyway, the child has grown up, and the task that should be completed has been completed. I have already arranged my parents' life in their old age, and they will naturally have brothers and sisters to take care of them, and I am also relieved.

I don't have much nostalgia for this world!

Originally, I thought that without me, the child would have no home, no selfless love, and it seemed that there was no need! With me or not, I don't care about you, and I no longer have to be nostalgic for this world that has given me a thousand holes!