Chapter Ninety-Three: The Same Strange Thinking
What Ruan Qingning wants to say is actually nothing new, it is still about her identity. There were too many things happening today, and the accidents that happened one after another made Ruan Qingning dizzy, and she couldn't figure out her thoughts for a while.
Among them, the most shocking thing for Ruan Qingning was naturally Lu Ling who she had long known. When she first learned the news, Ruan Qingning had a lot of questions she wanted to ask, but she was confused by Lu Ling's gag as soon as she started, and she also met the stupid and poisonous trio who happened to come over to inquire today.
And then I wanted to vent, but Lu Lingguang was beaten and didn't fight back, and she also made herself tired and out of strength. It was precisely because it was too embarrassing that after waking up, Ruan Qingning was patronizing and shy, and still didn't bother to think about it seriously.
Now, the masquerade cosplay event that I was looking forward to was interrupted by Xu Mengmeng's unexpected appearance.,And then it's time to play.,The loot doll is now in her arms.,I'm not sure if it belongs to her.。 I've eaten what I should have eaten, and I've already stuffed it into my stomach, as long as I don't spit it out, it's all hers.
Eating, drinking, and having fun are over, and the rest of the time can be used to think. When did Lu Ling know her identity? What was Lu Ling's real thoughts after knowing her identity? What kind of attitude did Lu Ling plan to use to get along with her in the future? The answers to these questions, Ruan Qingning wanted to know from Lu Ling's mouth.
"Are these so important?" Lu Ling didn't quite understand why Ruan Qingning was so persistent.
"Of course it's important. Ruan Qingning looked at Lu Ling fixedly, her eyes full of things that Lu Ling couldn't understand and slowly flowing.
has been in the entertainment industry for so long, and it is absolutely unrealistic to say that Ruan Qingning has never thought about making a few friends outside the company. But how to say it, in the entertainment industry of country K, there are many small people, so compared with country C, where Lu Ling grew up, the competition is more than twice as fierce.
There are so many resources, you can't get it if you have me. The people that Ruan Qingning can come into contact with, except for the staff, most of the people's positioning happens to coincide with her.
The overlap of positioning means that there is a conflict in resources, and there is a conflict in resources, which means that even if you are laughing and talking about everything on the surface, in fact, everyone has their own thoughts, and they are secretly poking and poking each other to push each other down and let themselves go.
This kind of competition can't be said to be wrong, but Ruan Qingning really can't accept that what should be a simple friendship is mixed with so many impurities. Summer, who has friends all over the place, commented on Ruan Qingning's thoughts, thinking too thoroughly, so she lost too much.
For Lu Ling, a friend outside the circle who has nothing to do with her work, Ruan Qingning has a very complicated feeling, on the one hand, Ruan Qingning is very happy to have such a friend who doesn't know her identity and is very comfortable with her simply because of her.
But on the other hand, because of his identity, Lu Ling may face some problems that he should not face, and Ruan Qingning feels very guilty. can make Ruan Qingning just give up getting along with Lu Ling, and Ruan Qingning doesn't know why she resists from the bottom of her heart.
With such a complex mix of emotions, when facing Lu Ling, Ruan Qingning will always be unconsciously empty. Therefore, it is usually difficult for Ruan Qingning to refuse Lu Ling's ideas or requests head-on.
She cherishes Lu Ling's existence very much, so she compromises again and again, releasing her sincerity little by little, expecting Lu Ling to be the one who can understand her.
Lu Ling did what Ruan Qingning hoped for, she would listen carefully to the stories she had buried deep in her heart and no one could tell, would accompany her to play those games that the members found boring or boring, would patiently explain to her the pet knowledge she didn't understand, and would take care of Zero as her own dog...
Sometimes, even if he can't enter the pet store to talk to Lu Ling because of the presence of others or time constraints, as long as he can see that familiar sign at the moment of passing by the pet store, Ruan Qingning will feel very relieved.
This is a feeling that she has never had, but when all this seemingly beautiful everything is based on a lie, even deeper, darker, there may be some unknown conspiracy, just like a white and flawless white paper is instantly covered with ink, Ruan Qingning is really difficult to face for a while.
The above psychological activities, with Ruan Qingning's character, she can't say it to Lu Ling on the bright side, but Lu Ling desperately mobilizes his brain, combined with his understanding of Ruan Qingning, and guesses what kind of thoughts Ruan Qingning's calm face is turning.
It's so hard to make friends with Ruan Qingning, and sometimes, even Ruan Qingning herself doesn't know what her true thoughts are, so not only did Ruan Qingning take the initiative to attack without success, but also those who had a good impression of Ruan Qingning and wanted to make friends with her, after a little contact with Ruan Qingning, and learned that she was a powerless character, everyone would consciously retreat.
According to a person who once enthusiastically launched an attack and then retreated in despair, Ruan Qingning is very much like what was written in an article about lotus flowers in country C, which can only be viewed from a distance, not blasphemed.
Watch from afar, keep a certain distance, Ruan Qingning will satisfy all your fantasies about her. But if you want to go to Ruan Qingning's side, then what you have to spend is not only your mind, but also many, many brain cells, and countless patience, and thinking that can keep up with Ruan Qingning's ups and downs, which is comparable to the stock market chart.
Whether Lu Ling has these characteristics mentioned above, no one can say clearly. But at the moment, none of that matters. If Lu Ling couldn't give a reasonable explanation that Ruan Qingning could accept, then their relationship would end there.
Ruan Qingning will not directly say that we will not meet in the future, but will simply cut off all contact between the two, and end the relationship between the two with a wordless alienation.
So what did Lu Ling think? Scratching his head, he took a sip of the full half cup of ice cubes that the waiter had just brought over, Ruan Qingning felt very bad at the lemon juice just by looking at it, and Lu Ling patiently began to explain to Ruan Qingning.
"Until you called me and told me that Black Fur had a fever and asked for my help, I really didn't know who you were, but I just thought that you might be very afraid of the cold, so you always wrapped yourself so tightly that you couldn't even see your face.
When did you know your identity?,It should be that the music software recommended me two songs about you and your combination according to my listening orientation.,I like your voice very much.,So I searched for it.,I want to see what other songs you have.,And then I learned about it by accident.。
As for why you are so calm knowing your identity... I really don't think there's anything special to pay attention to, I'm not a friend who hasn't been an artist, and many artists who have more fans than you are my friends, I really don't think this is a big deal worth paying attention to, so I didn't specifically explain it to you. ”
"Really?" Ruan Qingning's eyes were still full of distrust, Lu Ling said that he didn't know her identity at all before her shopping, Ruan Qingning believed. Lu Ling heard his song and then searched the Internet to find out who she was, Ruan Qingningxin.
Lu Ling said that he didn't think her identity was worth paying special attention to, which was open to discussion, but in general, Ruan Qingning was still willing to believe it. Only Lu Ling said that he had many artist friends who had more fans than her, but Ruan Qingning resolutely refused to believe it.
No matter how she says, she is also a world star, there are fans all over the world, Lu Ling actually knows more people than her fans, and there is more than one, Ruan Qingning really can't accept it, Ruan Qingning's focus is so strange.
However, Lu Ling's performance is even more bizarre, Ruan Qingning chooses to believe the points, Ruan Qingning believes it or not, in fact, Lu Ling doesn't care very much, but Ruan Qingning questions his connections, Lu Ling can't bear it.