Comrade Jia Yuhao:

I couldn't help but not want to talk to you anymore, forced myself to forget about you, or deliberately stayed away from you, but I still couldn't bear it when I sat down. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Doudou went to self-study at night, and I couldn't help but nag with you.

The car has already been bought, and Suzuki's Tianyu has cost less than 110,000 dollars. I have purchased everything that should be there, and I remember you said: everything is done in one step, don't procrastinate, the more you delay, the worse it is. Therefore, although the cash on hand is not very sufficient, it is still done well what should be done, and it does not look cold or blind. Think about the fact that we have made up so many things for so many days, so we don't want to make up again in the future, right?

I've also tried the car, and it's pretty easy to drive, all the parts are very sensitive, easy, and it's quite easy to drive. It's just that I don't really want to drive it, Chunmei said I just want to have a car, not a car, maybe she was right, I just want to have a car. Life without you has no joy or joy for me, and no matter how big things are, they no matter how vibrating for me.

Doudou really wants me to drive her to and from school, so I'll get familiar with the car as soon as possible, but now I'm often wandering out and can't concentrate, which is a bit scary. Fortunately, my eldest brother can drive to and from work together, so let's adjust my mind.

You came back last night, didn't you? You can't let go of me like this, why do you have to leave so desperately? My mind is quite chaotic, my heart is empty and there is nowhere to settle, although the days without you are still living day by day, but do you know? All my happiness and joy have been taken away by you, and since then I have become a person without a heart, without happiness and without the feelings of the heart.

I'm also trying to find someone to fill the void you left behind, but I can't, one may be that there is no place in this world for me to put my heart, and the other is that I am stubbornly rejecting in my heart, always thinking about not worth it when I am a little dissatisfied, thinking about giving up, and always withdrawing. I don't want to be accommodating, I don't want to make up.

You should understand that no matter how I deal with the world, I am trying to escape the barrier you left behind, I am trying to fill the panic and emptiness in my heart, but you also know that everything is in vain, I am destined to have no way to retreat and no place to live in this life, so I can live my life slowly, and slowly walk through the time when I miss you until the end of my life.

There is no one in this world who is worthy of me to be wronged and accommodating, if you have arranged everything for me, please make it clear. Do you know? Your departure has taken away half of my soul, and now I am a person of incomplete soul, and I no longer have the wisdom and mind that I used to have, and I cannot understand everything, and I cannot understand everything. But didn't Zheng Banqiao say that it was "rare to be confused"? I know that people's "rare confusion" is to pretend to be confused after understanding, and I am really confused. But it doesn't matter, it's better to be confused than to calculate, you know? You also know that I am the person who hates to play tricks the most, and I don't care about people's fancies.

The years of the world have come to 2014, counting the days of your departure has been three and a half years, these times have taken away all my brilliance, wrinkles have climbed on my smooth face, hair has fallen out a lot, the original black and shiny hair has been sparse, but also gave birth to a lot of white hair, I look at the face in the mirror and feel that time has passed on the face, and the biggest aging is not from the visible face, but my heart, it has no passion and fluctuations, in the face of everything there is no little bit of involvement, watching everyone fight for the name of Li, I just watched indifferently, Ren is related to my interests, my gains and losses, I don't care, think about how many gains and losses can be worth the trouble to speculate?!

I have long understood that the gains and losses are all empty, and I don't care so much anymore, I just want to appease my heart. No matter how I deal with the world, I am dealing with this boring day without you, and I have not forgotten you for a minute or a second in my heart. Your every word, smile, every expression and action has never been blurred by the passage of time, you should know, right?

In this life, let's spend my life slowly in the endless torment of missing you. If you are well, I will be well. You should also take care of your Doudou, but she hasn't been very obedient lately, I just do nothing, waiting for her to grow up and be sensible, anyway, I don't want her to have too much success in this life, as long as she lives easily and happily. All achievements require unremitting efforts, and being a human being doesn't have to be so tiring, you say?

With the foundation of life you left behind, I don't have to worry about survival anymore, and even Doudou's survival is no longer a problem, I just have to live a good life. Just grow old calmly and slowly, and slowly walk through the empty days without you!

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