His first instinct was to push her away.

However, she hugged him tighter.

"Don't reject my ......"

She begged in despair.

“……”

Sensing that he was no longer trying to push her away, she kissed him harder, gently biting his lip flap with her teeth, and even trying to pry his lips open with the tip of her tongue.

But it didn't work.

His lips, like his heart, were completely closed to her.

Like a poor madman or a beggar, she tried to get a full kiss, but he didn't intend to cooperate.

Perhaps for him, not pushing her away was already a great pity.

But that's not enough......

He's her lover, isn't he?

Why is it so hard to even kiss?

What the hell was he thinking......

Does he still love her at all?

She's going crazy.

She felt a pain in her chest, a stuffiness, and a feeling of being out of breath.

She kissed him in vain, his indifferent countenance reflected in her tearful eyes.

His eyes were also cold.

She couldn't see a hint of emotion in it.

It was as if being kissed by her was, for him, a kind of charity and patience.

She was very uncomfortable.

Tears continued to fall from his eyes.

Tears fell into her mouth, and she stubbornly kissed him, and he remained unmoved.

This kiss is the smell of tears.

So bitter, so salty.

She thought she might as well die.

Being so hated by the people she loves, why doesn't she die yet?

But she didn't understand what she had done wrong.

Why does he suddenly not love when he loves love?

She wanted to cry, she wanted to scream, but she knew that all this would be useless.

She felt desperate, she thought she should leave him, but she couldn't.

It hurts more to stay and beg for his love, or it hurts more to leave without looking back, she couldn't find an answer.

After a long time, she finally let go of him.

He stood there, very calm, his eyes and countenance, all cold.

Only the exquisitely curved lip flap was stained with a trace of blood.

It was left by her repeated bites.

She didn't know she had bitten his lip out of blood.

"Does it hurt?"

She reached out to help him wipe the blood from his lips, but he took a step back, dodging her hand.

"It's fine. ”

He said lightly.

"I ...... I'm sorry. ”

With tears in her eyes, she explained weakly: "I didn't mean to...... I really ......."

"It's fine. ”

His tone was still so calm, as if nothing had happened.

"Go to sleep. ”

Ji Xiaoru closed her eyes in despair, and then opened them again.

"Why did this to me?"

He was silent.

Once again, she panicked.

Lately she has always been scared, afraid that he doesn't love her, afraid that he will leave her.

"I just did something wrong again, didn't I?"

He still didn't say a word.

"You speak!"

She couldn't help but raise her voice.

Sometimes, it's not that she wants to be hysterical.

It was the silence of the other party that broke her down and made her unbearable.

"I don't know what to say, Xiaoru, go to sleep. ”

He said lightly.

"Why is this happening?"

Ji Xiaoru refused to leave.

Her eyes were red and her face was full of pain.

"Lu Chenxi, you wouldn't have treated me like this before, you never wanted to talk to me before, you used to go out to film, as long as you had time, you would find various topics to chat with me, why do you have nothing to say to me now? You tell me, what did I make you angry, I changed it, I changed it all, okay?"

"You're not wrong. ”

"I'm just too tired," he said. ”

"Tired?"

Her eyes widened, "I'm tired of you, haven't I?"

"Nope. ”

She suddenly smiled bitterly: "Huh...... In the end, it's my fault, I've become your burden, I've dragged you down. ”

"Go to sleep. ”

He said again.

"Don't be so indifferent to me, okay?"

She begged: "You make me so scared like this, Lu Chenxi, I don't like you like this......"

"I don't like it when you force me to do things I don't want to do, Xiaoru. ”

He said with a sigh.

"Are you blaming me?"

She asked hurriedly.

He doesn't speak.

Or rather, I don't know what to say.

"I was wrong. I was wrong just now, I shouldn't have kissed you, Lu Chenxi, you forgive me, please forgive me, I don't know my brain to do this...... Don't hate me for this, look down on me, okay? I was really wrong...... Please forgive me, Lu Chenxi...... Don't hate me......"

She spoke incoherently, tears falling again.

Her whole body seemed to be soaked in tears, and her whole body was full of wet breath.

"I don't blame you. ”

"You're obviously blaming me, you hate me now, don't you?"

"Nope. ”

He was a little helpless.

"You forgive me, Lu Chenxi, I really know that I was wrong. Don't hate me because of this and ignore me, okay?"

As she spoke, tears began to fall from her eyes.

“…… Xiaoru, go to sleep. ”

"I don't sleep, I don't sleep! You forgive me—how can you forgive me? Lu Chenxi, I know I'm wrong, don't hate me, okay?"

She whimpered like a helpless little beast.

In his eyes, she was very pitiful and needed to be taken care of, but he knew that sympathy was not love.

The one he loved in his heart was always someone else.

She pleaded bitterly, and found that he remained unmoved, and her heart was overwhelmed with great despair.

She really didn't know what to do.

"Puff ......"

She fell limp on her knees and fell to his knees.

Raising her tearful eyes, she cried and said: "Lu Chenxi, I was really wrong, I will kneel down for you, you forgive me! You love me like before, okay? Please, I was really wrong...... I'm so sick that you're so indifferent to me...... My heart is about to crack, Lu Chenxi, please forgive me...... Please......"

"Xiaoru, you don't want to be like this. ”

His thick eyebrows were furrowed, and there was a look of regret on his face, but more helplessly.

He didn't know what to say, let alone what to do.

He can play Lu Chenxi, but he can't play Lu Chenxi, who loves Ji Xiaoru deeply.

Maybe at first, he thought about it too simply.

Was he really helping her?

Which is more difficult to accept because of the blow of the lover who has passed away, or the blow of the lover who lives but does not love himself?

He didn't know.

She took two steps on her knees, came to him, grabbed his trouser legs with both hands, and looked up at him pitifully: "Forgive me, Lu Chenxi, forgive me, don't love me...... No one in this world loves me but you...... Lu Chenxi, don't leave me, I'm really afraid of you leaving me......"

She begged him like mad, believing that if he left her, she would die of agony.

He stared down at her pitifully for a long time, and finally sighed.

"Xiaoru, I won't leave you. ”

"Really?"

She held her breath for a moment.

"Hmm. ”

She burst into tears and laughed.

So, he's only temporarily angry, and he still loves her in his heart, right?

He ignored her, but it was because he was too tired, because he annoyed him, right?

He loves himself.

He didn't change his mind.

He had no intention of leaving her.

This realization freed her from the abyss of pain.

She had so easily convinced herself that he still loved her.

No matter how much hard evidence there was before that that he no longer loved him.

At this moment, she only believes what she wants to believe.

He loved her.

"I knew that...... I knew you hadn't changed!"

She was ecstatic, stood up and threw herself over and hugged him.

He sighed inwardly and reached out to pat her on the back.

She rested her head on his shoulder and muttered happily: "Lu Chenxi, I love you, I love you...... You've always loved me, okay?"

He was speechless.

Thankfully, she didn't pursue the answer.

He carried her to the bedroom, put her on the bed, and covered her with a quilt.

She looked at him intently, "You're not going to leave me, are you?"

"Hmm. ”

He has a gentle gaze.

She smiled sweetly.

She was a beautiful woman, even if her face was thin and her complexion was dull, as long as she smiled from the bottom of her heart, her whole face would regain its brilliance.

He touched her forehead and said softly, "Good night." ”

"What about you?"

"I'll wait for you to fall asleep, and I'll sleep again. ”

He said.

"Good. ”

She obediently closed her eyes.

After confirming that the other party still loves her and will not leave her, her nervousness and madness are all gone.

She became the most docile girl in the world.

When a woman is sure that she is loved, she is always extra gentle.

A woman with teeth and claws is just because she knows that she is not loved.

He sat on the edge of the bed, watching her fall asleep before moving away gently.

Back in the study, the oppressive feeling gradually subsided.

With Ji Xiaoru, he always felt depressed.

Only by staying alone in the study can you get a moment of peace.

He sighed and walked towards the bookcase.

I've been suffering from insomnia lately, and it seems to be hard to fall asleep tonight.

He decided to find a book to kill time.

At this moment, there was a sharp pain in the heart.

"Hiss......"

He gasped in pain, his feet softened, and he threw himself forward.

The world went dark in an instant.

I don't know how long it took, but the pain in his forehead and body woke him up.

When I opened my eyes, I saw a stocky desk and a dark gray carpet.

Thanks to the cashmere carpet on the floor, he didn't have a bleeding head.

Even so, while fainting, the corners of his forehead hit the desk, and there were some bruises on his arms and legs from the fall.

He slowly sat up from the ground, raising his hand to hold his heart.

The sharp pain that struck suddenly just now was like an illusion, and at this time, the heartbeat was steady, except for a slight dull pain in the chest, there was not much abnormality.

And the stuffy pain in his chest is already an old friend, and he has long been used to it.

The heart surgery was undoubtedly successful, he hadn't had a seizure for a long time, maybe because he was too tired recently and didn't get enough sleep, so he suddenly fainted like he just did, right?

He decided not to take it to heart.

As for the bruises on his forehead and the bruises on his arms and thighs, he was even more blind.

According to the original plan, he chose an English book from the bookcase, made himself a cup of tea, and sat on the recliner to read it slowly.