Chang'an is not in a good state, and he starts to smoke fiercely again, and these weeks can be felt.

Even if others are not around, hearing her voice in WeChat every day, you can feel how painful she is.

He didn't like videos before, but now at least twice a day, when he gets up in the morning and before going to bed at night, sometimes Chang An doesn't bother to accept his video invitations, he keeps sending them to her like he is lazy.

It's like the first one.

"Let me see..."

"Let me see you, come!"

I don't know where he got so many childish emojis from, but they are all rabbit images, crying and laughing, slumped on the ground and squirming, when Chang An ignored him, he sent it vigorously, and the screen was full of all kinds of jumping rabbits.

Chang An was so amused that he couldn't do anything, so he could only take the video, and the camera shook twice, and Zhou Wei's face appeared.

At that time, it was already afternoon in China, Chang An was resting on the hotel bed, it should be late at night in the United States, and the man in the camera was wearing a nightgown printed with the hotel LOGO, wiping his hair with a towel, probably just taken a shower.

"Hey, how is it, not in the hospital?" Zhou Wei shook his arm in the camera.

Chang An said "um" without energy.

"Sleeping?"

Chang An said "um" again.

"Excuse me, woke you up?"

"No, I'm not asleep!" she rolled up the quilt and turned to the side.

Zhou Wei suddenly leaned his face closer, and his somewhat deformed facial features occupied almost the entire video.

Chang An was taken aback, "What are you doing?"

"Look at you..."

“……”

"Come over here, quick!"

Chang An was overwhelmed by his childish behavior, and smiled bitterly, "Okay, don't you make trouble, go to bed early, don't you say you have to get up early tomorrow?"

Zhou Wei didn't listen, and put the camera a little farther away, "I have to get up early, but sleeping is not as important as accompanying my wife!"

It's been almost two months in a different place, and he has become more and more proficient in this kind of meaty words, especially in videos or WeChat, which is simply perfect.

Chang An swallowed.

"Zhou..."

"Huh?"

He seemed to have finished wiping his hair and leaned back on the bed, "You wait!" He put one arm behind his head, changed into a comfortable position, and held up his phone.

The light was dim just now, and there might be a lamp at the head of the bed at this moment, so his face was clearly illuminated.

"Alright, you can say it. ”

Chang An looked at the man in the camera, he had just taken a shower, shaved his beard, and his face was very clean, but the cleaner he was, the more he could see the dark green under his eyes and the dry skin on his lips, after all, the pixels of mobile phones are so high now.

He is also very tired, he has to be busy with work, busy with projects, busy with his own business and the livelihood of thousands of people, and he has to coax himself when he comes back.

"I know you want me to forget about those things, forget about that kid, so you're making me happy, but I can't. ”

Chang An is no longer used to lying in front of him, and he can say whatever he thinks in his heart.

She knows that she should be a very strong person, she has suffered many sins in the past few years, she has not collapsed, she has beaten most people, but child, this damage is irreversible, she has been blaming herself all these years, why didn't she protect him well back then.

Is it fair that she has endured all the pain and guilt and that the person who harmed her is at peace?

Scold...

"Of course, you don't have to worry about me, although I hate it, but I still have at least the sense, I will not cut them one by one. ”

Zhou Wei pinched his eyebrows and sighed.

"I'd be more relieved if you could cut them down. ”

His face was no longer as relaxed as he had just now, because he knew Chang An's character too well, she had always been a very sober person, and she probably knew in her heart that there was no way to crusade against Fang Rushan and He Ling, and there was nowhere to vent her anger, and in the end, it was only she who hurt herself in the end.

Zhou Wei was distressed, she had already tasted the pain of her skin three years ago, and she should not continue to suffer for this child.

"Chang An, I don't mean to make you happy, but from the legal or public level, I must admit to you that I can't really do anything to them, let alone retaliate, and you are the same, we can hardly do anything, so you can only regulate your mood. ”

"I know you can, you're so good, so strong, sometimes I think about what you've been through over the years, but this time no matter what, you should try again for the sake of the child we lost. ”

It was a desperate thorny road, and she walked barefoot on it, and no one could help her, so she had to cross it herself, but if the burden on her shoulders was too heavy, the spikes on the soles of her feet would pierce deeper, and in the end the pain came and went only to herself.

Zhou Yan couldn't kill anyone, she couldn't help it, and the pain of losing her son couldn't be repaid anyway, but he didn't want Chang An to indulge here.

"Chang An, go back and show you something. ”

"What?"

"So..."Zhou Wei sat up from the bed in the picture, "You go back to Changhe, the study on the second floor, the top drawer of the desk, you go back and take a look!"

Chang An got dressed again and went out, took a taxi directly back to Changhe, and went straight to the study on the second floor after arriving home.

Pulling open the top drawer on the table, lighters, sticky notebooks and other miscellaneous items, Chang An flipped through it, and didn't find anything special, except for a small iron box at the bottom.

She wanted to open the box, but the bayonet was too tight, Chang An made a lot of effort, only to hear a "pop", and all the contents fell to the ground.

She squatted down to pick it up, and first saw a thin chain at her feet, and she recognized the jade pendant on the chain, which was the little jade rabbit that Zhou Wei carved for her before.

Chang An was speechless, he didn't expect him to keep it, and there was a photo next to him, the photos were very wrinkled, it seemed to be stretched after being kneaded, Chang An picked it up and looked at it, the photo was a little girl, with long hair, a dress, and eyebrows and eyes looking at her lightly.

Chang An frowned, wasn't this a photo he had taken a long time ago?

She put the chain and the photo on the table together, and a photo frame fell next to the foot of the stool, the back of the photo frame was facing up, Chang An bent down to pick it up, but it was not enough, so she had to kneel on the carpet to pick it up, and finally she picked it up, turned it over, and the photo frame was not a photo at all, but a test sheet that she was diagnosed with pregnancy in the hospital three years ago.

At that time, she took this list and called Zhou Wei, wanting to tell him the good news, but she was kidnapped before she could see it.

The list has been hidden in her coat pocket, and in the end it was found by the kidnappers, one person and two lives, for which the kidnappers added tens of millions of ransoms.

Chang An sat on the ground with a butt, she didn't know why this list ended up in Zhou Wei's hands, she was just shocked, after so many years, after so many years, he actually kept it and framed it.

In this killing, she is the child's mother, he is the child's father, and the pain should be no less than her.

Zhou Wei hadn't slept all the time, he knew that Chang An would definitely call again, and sure enough, the mobile phone rang in the middle of the night.

"Hey..."

"Zhou Xian!" Chang An only shouted, and then there was an earth-shattering cry, she didn't want to cry, but she couldn't control it, like a huge whirlpool in her body, she was about to be stirred into, and she needed to rely on this sad cry to avoid being swallowed.

Zhou Wei didn't speak, holding his mobile phone and listening to the movement over there, even if he couldn't see anyone or face, just by the crying on the phone, he could imagine that she must be so sad that she must be dying, it must be, but he didn't persuade her, let her cry at this end, in the dark.

Chang An didn't know how long he had been crying, and in the end he had to lean on the stool legs to barely sit down.

The afternoon sun shone in through the window, moving past your feet little by little.

The next day, Ann was woken up by the ringtone of her mobile phone next to her pillow.

"Hey..."

Zhou Yan sighed over there, "My throat is hoarse from crying." ”

Chang An really cried for a long time yesterday, crying on the other end of the phone, crying again after hanging up the phone, still crying when he went out to take a taxi back to the hospital, and lying in bed alone at night, thinking about it, he still cried...... Anyway, tears are the same as the faucet that can't be turned off, and it seems that there is no better way for her than to cry.

When I thought about it later, I probably shed more tears that day than I had shed in the past three years combined.

"How are you feeling today?" Zhou asked, "Do you still want to cry?"

Chang An lay there and sneered, "You laugh at me!"

"How dare you, ask you sincerely, if you want to cry you continue. ”

“……”

Chang An snorted, "Don't cry!"

It was as if the tears had been drained and I couldn't cry.

Zhou Wei suddenly asked over there, "How is the weather in Yunling today?"

Chang An sat up from the quilt and looked out the window, the sun was already shining in through the thick curtains.

"Not bad!"

"Is it a sunny day?"

"Hmm. ”

"Then help me do something, will you?"

……

More than an hour later, Chang An arrived at the construction site of Rong'an Plaza with brushes and painting tools.

Because it has just passed the Spring Festival, most of the workers have not returned to their hometowns for the New Year, the project has not started, and there is not even a ghost on the construction site except for the security guards on duty.

Chang An turned around with the toolkit on her back, she was only halfway done with the wall painting last time, and then she ran away because of Zhou Xian's appearance, and the matter was stopped and there was no progress.

Just on the phone, Zhou Wei asked her to come over again.

"There's also a wall on the south side, you can't leave it empty all the time, go draw something up there. ”

So Chang An came, standing in front of the blank wall, stretching hundreds of meters away, and she needed to draw her favorite pattern on it.

Chang An is still quite focused at work, and gradually forgot about those sad things.

I painted for nearly a week, and every day I came after sunrise in the morning, went back to the hospital at noon to accompany Xiaozhi to dinner, and finished work before sunset in the afternoon.

Every day, Zhou still picks up time to call her as usual, and sometimes; He asked her about the progress of her wall paintings, and Chang An would babble to him what he painted today and what he would paint tomorrow, just like reporting work.

A week later, it finally came to the finishing stage.

"I'll finish it this afternoon, and I'll take pictures for you to see when the time comes!" Chang An said on the phone.

Zhou Wei refused: "No, you don't need to take pictures of me." ”

"Why?"

"I want to go back and see it myself. ”