Chapter Thirty-Eight: I Can't Help Myself

Reaching out to touch it in a daze, the hand is soft and delicate, it is a person's skin, and then looking down, I can't help but be surprised, Pan'er actually took off all her coat and lay down with him.

He was so frightened that he quickly closed his eyes and lay down in a daze for a long time, only to feel shortness of breath, his heart pounding, and he didn't know if he was dreaming or had woken up. He only felt that the scene in front of him was grotesque and bizarre, completely beyond all his imagination.

Suddenly, there was a buzzing in Liku's brain, but he had already guessed seven or eight reasons in his heart. He was wounded by the ghost claws of the Rakshasa King, and the cold corpse qi really made him unbearably cold, as if he was in an ice cellar. Since Pan'er saw that he was cold, he used his body to transmit human body heat for him. It's just that there is a difference between men and women, and it is really inappropriate for him and Pan'er to untie their clothes like this and sleep in each other's arms. This kind of behavior is no different from that of a husband and wife on earth.

He tried his best to get up, but he didn't dare to open his eyes, and when he was about to stand up and avoid each other, he held Pan'er's shoulder with his left hand, but his right hand was around her soft and slender waist. With a "bang", he collapsed on the bed again.

This scene was embarrassing, but seeing that Pan'er had fallen asleep, he whispered: "Pan'er, you...... Wake up...... Wake up......"

Pan'er didn't speak, she closed her eyes tightly, and couldn't help but wonder, could it be that the cold corpse qi of the evil ghost in my body was transmitted to her? He touched Pan'er's forehead in a panic, and his fingers trembled suddenly, as if he had touched an ice cube. He was moved and apprehensive in his heart, and he didn't know what to do, so he immediately wrapped the quilt tightly for her, and suddenly "sneezed" and sneezed coldly.

He silently recited the mantra of purifying his heart, and after a while, he only heard Pan'er mutter, "I...... I'm so cold! How can I be so cold!" Her guttural voice was delicate, as if she were talking in a dream.

Li Ku was even more stunned, and he was worried about Pan'er in his heart, and asked in a trembling voice, "You...... You...... How's it going?"

I only heard Pan'er say: "I...... I...... It's so cold, hug me tight......" as he spoke, and his body leaned closer to Liku. Seeing that she was shivering with cold, and there was no other way to warm her at the moment, he gritted his teeth and hugged her tightly, and said, "I...... I recite the mantra of Guanyin Bodhisattva for you to cure diseases, Om Beer Lu Naqi Fried are all like Secret Sand Ma Boots, fried Du Qi is sad and sad that dozen beer Na Crow Sha Ha~"

Liku is only a sixteen or seventeen-year-old boy, who has only spoken to two women in his life, Pan'er and Hongying, and in the past sixteen or seventeen years, he only recites scriptures and participates in meditation in the Zen temple and practices supernatural powers. But eating color is also the nature of human beings, although the precepts are kept from suffering, but also to the age of thinking of spring, every day when the spring flowers bloom, I can't help but have a rippling heart, imagining the things of men and women in the world, just an imaginary picture, all absurd and weird scenes, never dare to mention it to the old Zen master.

He doesn't know what a woman is like, he lives and dies with Pan'er all the way, and he treats him as a relative. And at this moment, I feel that Pan'er is so strange, I can't help but feel cute and abnormal, and there is no domineering momentum like Hongying. His hands touched Pan'er's soft and delicate skin, and his heart almost jumped out of his chest, but he felt so comfortable that it was difficult to let go.

Pan'er muttered, turned around, and reached out to hook his head and neck.

The breath of Jue Pan'er lingered in his ears, and the unique body fragrance of the faint girl came in bursts, and he couldn't help but spin around, his whole body trembled, and he said in a trembling voice: "You...... You...... You ......"

Pan'er said: "I'm so cold, but my heart is so hot." ”

Away from the suffering, I wanted to push her away with both hands slightly, but I felt that my arms were sore, and I had no strength at all.

Pan'er said "Hmm, hmm" twice, leaned over her mouth, and said in a low voice: "Little master...... I like you...... But you're a monk...... I can only keep this thing in my heart, and I just hope to be able to walk with you all the way and live a happy life......"

After hearing this, I was shocked, as if I had been pierced by a stone, and scattered all over the ground, not knowing what to do. He whispered, "Don't ...... Cannot...... Wake up......"

Pan'er said: "Actually...... Actually, even I don't know how much I like you...... Until I saw you with the red tassels...... Do you know how sad I am...... I've never felt that way...... It's painful...... I can't help myself from liking you......"

I only felt that the wet shoulders were Pan'er's tears. His heart seemed to be melted by these words, and his concentration was completely lost, and he suddenly realized, "It turns out ...... You're mad at me for this......" After a moment's silence, he said, "She is my savior...... I just want to repay her...... There's nothing wrong with that......"

Pan'er said, "Then do you like me?"

He was stunned for a moment, and said with a painful face: "I can't like you......"

Pan'er trembled for a moment and said, "Is it because of her, you like her, so you can't like me......

Although he doesn't understand the world, he is not stupid, he said: "I won't like her ...... either"

Pan'er asked, "In your heart, have you ever really liked someone?"

Liku was asked, and said, "I can't like anyone." ”

Pan'er pondered for a moment and said, "Why is the Buddha so cruel, don't you call for freedom from suffering? Aren't you trying to let sentient beings be free from suffering and be happy? Why do you make me so miserable?"

Liku only felt that Pan'er's whole body was trembling, and she had regarded Liku's as a lover. I don't know how much time passed, but he gradually came to his senses and shouted, "Ahh But Pan'er still hugged him tightly and said tiredly: "Don't ...... Don't leave me. I ...... cold."

The whole body seemed to melt in an instant after leaving the suffering, and then he was worried and pity, holding Pan'er in his arms and sending her warmth. He was a strong man who was completely out of his control, and he didn't let go of Pan'er, and in a moment it was as if he had arrived in Elysium, completely unknown where he was.

The two were entangled, and after more than half an hour, Pan'er said, "Can we be together forever?"

She said this sincerely, but when she heard it, it was like a thunderbolt in mid-air, and she said in a trembling voice: "I...... I was wildly wrong. I'm guilty...... Guilty ......"

Pan'er said, "Is it sinful to like someone, why did the Buddha stop you from liking someone?"

"Monks have rules and precepts, and they can't like people, let alone marry a wife. We...... We're not going to get results......"

Pan'er lowered her eyebrows and lowered her head, but did not answer, and after a while, two crystal tears suddenly hung in her big eyes.

Pan'er's body trembled slightly, and said, "All sins are my sins...... The Buddha wants to punish ...... Just punish me alone......"

Leaning on the bed, she had no idea, she felt sorry for herself, looking at Pan'er who was sleeping in her arms, thousands of feelings came to her heart, touching her forehead from time to time to check her body temperature. The words that Pan'er said just now were half asleep and half awake lingering in his mind.

He and Pan'er were skin to skin, the soft voice was in his ears, and for a while, thoughts surged, and he thought: "She asked me if I liked her, do I like him or not?" Seeing that her life was in danger, my heart ached at that moment, even if I fought for this life, I couldn't bear to see her suffer the slightest pain. But if other people are in danger, I will risk my life to save them. It's just that my care for Pan'er seems to be a little different. What's the difference?" Thinking of this, recalling his experience of acquaintance with Pan'er, his heart was like a river of spring water, and he was stunned, and he couldn't extricate himself from the aftertaste for a long time. He muttered, "I can't ask for it...... I can't let go of ......."

He then thought, "Why does she care so much about the red tassels? So, do I like the red tassels or not? Pan'er and the red tassels, who do I like more?" Thinking about it, he slapped himself in the mouth, ashamed and self-blamed, he made a vow to go to the Wu* Heaven to seek the Tao, and once made an agreement with the heart lotus master, and when he fulfilled his worldly wish, he immediately worshipped him as a teacher and founded the Divine Passage Field with him. At this time, what should be done if so many incidents were provoked? His chest felt clogged, and he couldn't help but cry out in a hurry, saying, "Could it be that all the cultivation is in vain?"

After a long time, I only felt that Pan'er's body temperature had gradually risen, and she was not shivering as cold as just now. After all, Pan'er drank the lotus tea of the immovable Great Bodhisattva on the first day, and ate the fruit for a long time, and was already a half-immortal body.

After letting go of the suffering, he immediately got up, wrapped her in a tight bedding, and sat cross-legged on the side of the bed, meditating and chanting.

It's just that this night, he couldn't help but be troubled, and his chest seemed to grow a lock, firmly locking his heart. He sighed, he had never had so many troubles, cutting constantly, sorting out the mess, the night was long, and he had no intention of sleeping.

So he meditated on this bed all night.

In the early morning of the next day, Pan'er's blood gradually rebounded, and she felt so hot that she couldn't breathe while covering the three-layer quilt.

She slowly opened her eyes, pushed the futon away, and muttered, "Hot...... Hot ......"

Liku was still meditating with her eyes closed, feeling that there was movement in Pan'er beside her, she quickly opened her eyes, touched Pan'er's forehead, and breathed a sigh of relief that she had returned to normal body temperature.

After Pan'er woke up, she saw the loss of suffering, and asked with concern, "Are you okay?"

Li Ku clutched his chest, although the wound was still painful, but it was only a skin injury, and the cold corpse qi had dissipated. He bowed his head and said, "It's okay......"

Pan'er rubbed her head and said, "I'...... Did I say anything last night?"

Li was stunned for a moment, and whispered, "You ...... last night Didn't say anything......"

Pan'er looked at him in a daze and said, "Oh...... You have suffered from the cold corpse of the Rakshasa demon, and I am afraid that you will be cold...... So...... "She wanted to explain why she slept with her suffering, but she was too ashamed to speak."

Liku didn't dare to look at her, but kept nodding his head and said, "Thank you...... I'm cured......"

Pan'er was overjoyed, and hurriedly wanted to get up, but suddenly found that she was only wearing a thin underwear in the futon. She remembered that last night, in order to convey human heat to the suffering, she had removed her clothes and used the body temperature of her skin to touch the suffering. Last night, the situation was critical, and she was still in a coma, so she didn't think much about it. At this time, the sky was already dawning, both of them were very conscious, she looked at each other with Liku, her face was red, she lowered her head, only to feel that the root of her neck and ears were hot, she was ashamed and embarrassed, she didn't dare to look at Liku, and she couldn't say a word.

Seeing her such a strange and strange look, Liku's heart was shocked, and he had guessed the reason, so he hurriedly climbed out of bed, stumbled out, and said in a panic: "Don't worry...... I...... I've covered you with a futon...... I didn't see anything...... I'll go out first......"

Pan'er saw that he was weak and wanted to get up to stop him, but he couldn't lift the futon at all, so he hurriedly said, "You...... Don't move......" She quickly shrank into the futon, hurriedly got dressed, tidied up, and quickly crawled out of bed.

I saw Liku push open the door, and a burst of dazzling sunlight shone in. At this time, it was already noon, and I only felt the sun dazzling, and I couldn't help but use my hands to block my eyes. He said, "How long have we been here, and where are Garuda and Redtassel?"

Pan'er slowly walked forward and said, "They ran out in a hurry last night, and let me take care of you here." ”

Li Ku frowned, and thought, "Where is the king, why hasn't he come to me?"

He walked out of the room, looked intently, and screamed in horror.

Pan'er was startled, and hurriedly ran out and asked, "What's wrong?"

She was shocked to see a river of blood in front of her, inside and outside the palace, there were human corpses everywhere, and there was a strange stone statue.

Liku hurried forward and ran to a stone statue, but saw that the stone statue was a person, and his appearance looked like the king's guards he had seen yesterday.

He looked at it nervously and exclaimed, "This ...... These are human ......"

Pan'er also rushed over, her face was shocked, and she asked, "Why did this person turn into stone?"

Suddenly, I only heard a cry outside the palace, crying one after another, obviously not alone. "Let's go over and take a look!"

He and Pan'er ran quickly to the palace door, even more frightened. The Western Regions, which was still prosperous and lively yesterday, was full of corpses at this time, some of these corpses were soldiers, some were ordinary people, and some were children.

Seeing this miserable scene, he felt sad and angry in his heart, and ran forward quickly, only to feel the wound on his chest tearing apart.

Along the way, he saw many wounded soldiers and civilians, their faces full of the pain of losing their loved ones, and when they saw the suffering, no one paid attention to him, and they all avoided him and walked.

Li Ku shouted in horror, "This ...... What the hell is going on?"

A woman suddenly glared at him and said, "Let's go! Monks are not welcome here!"

He was stunned for a moment, and said: "This benefactor, what happened? Was it done by demons, or was it caused by man-made disasters? The little monk knows a little about the magic power of subduing demons and subduing demons......

Before he could finish speaking, he saw that the woman's face was suddenly full of anger, and she pushed him away fiercely, shouting, "Get out!

Li Ku was even more shocked and suspicious, bowed slightly to the woman, and said, "If you need help, please command." The little monk knows a little about some mantras to cure diseases and save people......"

I saw the woman glance at him and said, "From now on, the Western Regions will no longer believe in you monks......"

Liku was stunned for a while, and suddenly only heard a loud "bang". He looked up and saw that the Buddha statue of a temple in the southwest had been knocked down by everyone, and the Buddha statue fell to the ground, falling apart, and the Buddha's head and body were broken into several pieces.