Tang Xiao had mixed feelings in his heart for a while, "Xiaoyi, you ......"

"Xiaoxiao, I'm fine, I just want to talk to you, after all, I can't tell anyone else about these things......" Jin Xiaoyi said as if embarrassed.

"Xiaoyi, in the future, as long as you need it, you can call me at any time to share your thoughts. Tang Xiao said, "I'm willing to listen to you, really, Xiaoyi, as long as you want, I can listen to you for anything." Thinking that Jin Xiaoyi, a girl, is used to putting everything in her heart, even if she suffers what she suffers outside, she digests it all by herself, Tang Xiao feels distressed, she really can't see this kind of girl who always pretends to be very strong, but in fact, deep down in her heart is more fragile than anyone else, perhaps, she saw her own shadow in her. Tang Xiao thought to herself, isn't she like Jin Xiaoyi, she has been used to taking care of everything alone since she was a child, and never shares it with anyone around her?

They are undoubtedly lonely and depressed, Tang Xiao is glad that she met Ji Xiaoru - this lively and cheerful girl who is full of sunshine like a sunflower, she always shines on her like a little sun, listens to her, accompanies her, and leads her out of the shadows.

Now, if Jin Xiaoyi is in need, she is willing to try to be Jin Xiaoyi's sun.

"Thank you. Jin Xiaoyi said movingly.

"It's okay, Xiaoyi, it's just to listen to what you say, what's the matter?" Tang Xiao smiled and said, "It just so happens that I'm quite idle, listening to you should relieve my boredom, I should thank you." ”

Jin Xiaoyi also laughed: "Xiaoxiao, your personality is becoming more and more cheerful now, can I know - is this the power of love? Did Mr. Cheng make you change?"

"Cheng Lie did give me a lot of help, but that's not all, Xiaoyi, frankly speaking, no one in the world can completely cure a certain person, and it is impossible for people to put all their emotions on one person, even if that person is their lover. Everyone has to learn to love themselves, take care of themselves, and enlighten themselves. Tang Xiao said seriously. She thought that she had a lot of similarities with Jin Xiaoyi, and maybe some of her ideas could also help Jin Xiaoyi.

"Yes, I see, smile. Jin Xiaoyi said solemnly, "I understand what you mean - even if you like him no matter how much you like him, you can't make him the center of gravity and the only one in your life, my joys, sorrows and sorrows still have to be controlled by myself, just smile...... I don't know how I can keep myself from thinking about him...... His every move touched my heart, even if he just smiled at me inadvertently today, that smile ...... It's all like a slow-motion replay, over and over again in my mind, and it's flashing back to me right now...... It's the same, you know, smile, he's really the man with the best smile I've ever seen, I see him laughing, I feel like the flowers all over the world are blooming, and there seems to be no more troubles, as long as he's willing to smile at me all the time, let me be willing to do anything for him...... I know, I've been crazy for a long time, and no one in this world ......knows what I've done to get close to him over the years, right?

Jin Xiaoyi choked up suddenly: "No one knows what I did, in order to be able to get closer to him...... Laugh, even you, you won't understand...... Because a girl like you, even if you are cold to people, so what, there are still a lot of men chasing you, unlike me......"

Xiaoyi...... Don't ...... like this" Tang Xiao didn't expect that Jin Xiaoyi's seemingly perfect appearance actually hid so many sad things, "Everyone has everyone's bitterness, how can there be people in this world who are always relaxed and happy, you say I don't understand, but for me, how much do you understand, do you know what I have experienced, what pains and troubles I have?"

"I have always believed that in this world, everyone's joys, sorrows and sorrows are the same, but everyone's joys, sorrows and sorrows are different, and everyone's happiness and sorrow in others are very limited, so people will envy others, but if you have a deeper understanding, you don't even need to put yourself in their shoes, you will find that the person who makes you envy may be already full of holes, and it is not worth your envy at all, and you will even feel that being able to be yourself is the luckiest thing in the world,—— It's just that most of us don't have that opportunity. ”

After Tang Xiao finished speaking, he felt that his mood was quite heavy, and he couldn't help but sigh slightly.

Jin Li was silent for a long time before he said slowly: "Xiaoxiao, I know what you mean, I know what you said is right, but even so, I still don't want to be myself, I hate myself, if I don't have Pei Yuansheng in my life, I think my life will be a hundred times ten thousand times more difficult, so I desperately want to pounce on him like a moth to a fire, get close to him, just because he is the only light in my life......"

Tang Xiao no longer knew how to persuade Jin Xiaoyi. There are thousands of kinds of love in the world, who can say that Jin Xiaoyi's love for Pei Yuansheng is not love?

It's just that her love is still too paranoid, and she can't imagine what kind of thing Jin Xiaoyi would do if Jin Xiaoyi kept being a moth to the fire like this, and kept asking for it like this, and in the end, what kind of thing Jin Xiaoyi would do.

She wasn't too worried about Pei Yuansheng, a person like him, he was merciful everywhere in his early years, he didn't know how many women he had dated, and he knew all kinds of emotions and reactions of women, if she guessed correctly, Pei Yuansheng should have seen how deep Jin Xiaoyi's feelings were for him, he couldn't be dull and didn't understand why Jin Xiaoyi went to his company, why did he leave her?

Tang Xiao was suddenly a little curious, she knew that if she asked Pei Yuansheng, she would definitely get an answer from him,—— but she couldn't do that, at least not now.

"Xiaoyi, no matter what you plan to do, I only hope that you can take good care of yourself and don't let yourself be hurt," Tang Xiao said sincerely, "Xiaoyi, I bless you." I wish you to find a good home, whether that person is Pei Yuansheng or not......" Tang Xiao said sincerely, but he understood in his heart that that person could be any man in the world, and it could not be Pei Yuansheng.

He is well aware of his physical condition, and there is no cure for hereditary heart disease no matter what, and it is thankful that he can maintain the status quo and not continue to deteriorate...... How could he allow himself to introduce other women's feelings, and wait until he really left in the future, making the other party miserable and sad for half his life?

He doesn't want to be cruel to anyone, he can only be cruel to himself.

Pei Yuansheng is a person who is ruthless enough to himself, and in this regard, it seems to coincide with some aspects of Jin Benefit.

"Xiaoxiao, thank you for your blessings. Jin Xiaoyi showed a smile on the other end of the phone, but this smile was fleeting, Tang Xiao could imagine it, why couldn't Jin Xiaoyi think of it?

How is Pei Yuansheng's body, how can she not know, she once personally snatched Pei Yuansheng back from the hands of death.

She knew that she was in love with someone who would die at any time, and she knew that with that person's pride, he would never accept any woman in the world easily.

"Xiaoyi, do you have anything else?" Tang Xiao looked at the time, it was not early, she would definitely set off very early tomorrow morning, even if she was not sleepy now, she couldn't continue to stay up late, after all, what awaited them tomorrow was the depths of the mountains that made them ignorant. What difficulties tomorrow will bring, no one can predict at this time.

She knows that with her physical strength, she will not hold everyone back in case of danger, and try her best to protect herself, which is already the best situation, not to mention that she is still a doctor, in case of real danger, she should do her part...... Tonight, we have to recharge our batteries.

"Xiaoxiao, it's late, I shouldn't keep bothering you, you can rest quickly, thank you tonight." Jin Xiaoyi was so smart and clear, how could she not know the meaning of Tang Xiao's words, and after a few words of greeting Tang Xiao, she closed the line in time.

After hanging up the phone, Tang Xiao exhaled against the wall, rubbed her somewhat sleepy eyebrows, put her phone aside, went to the sink to turn on the faucet, and washed her face with cold water.

The condition of the small hotel is not bad, it looks quite tidy, the air conditioner and bath bomb are also there, but the bath looks dirty, I don't know how long it hasn't been rinsed, or perhaps, no one has ever used it, Tang Xiao gave up the habit of having to take a bath every night at home to relieve fatigue, turned on the shower head, and planned to take a shower, but found that the water in the shower head was half-warm.

The temperature difference between day and night is quite large, and the half-temperature water is definitely not enough to wash the whole body, and if you don't get it, you will catch a cold. Tang Xiao shook his head, put down the shower head, found a compressed towel from his bag, and wiped his body with water.

Out of the bathroom, Ji Xiaoru on the bed had already unconsciously slept into a big character, the corners of Tang Xiao's mouth curled, how long has it been since I saw Ji Xiaoru like this? The last time I slept with Ji Xiaoru was when I graduated from college, when Ji Xiaoru took the lead and went out to camp on a certain mountain around Chengbei with a few classmates who had a good relationship.

That night, Tang Xiao and Ji Xiaoru slept in the same tent, Ji Xiaoru was also in the same posture as now, Tang Xiao was squeezed and had nowhere to stay, so he had to go out to see the stars, the night sky at the foot of the mountain was as pure as an ocean, countless stars twinkled in between, and Tang Xiao was stunned unconsciously.

When she came back to her senses, Ji Xiaoru, who didn't know when she woke up, also sat next to her, yawning and asking Tang Xiao why she didn't sleep in the middle of the night. Tang Xiao couldn't tell her the real reason, so she had to say that she had insomnia, but she was comforted by Ji Xiaoru.

How long ago was that...... But at that time, their young hearts were spotless and had nothing, but they seemed to have everything.

Tang Xiao smiled slightly, lying in the corner of the bed occupied by Ji Xiaoru for most of the time, and said, in her dream, she seemed to have returned to the ten-year-old who had a lot of troubles and seemed to be carefree, and Ji Xiaoru, who was happy like a little fairy every day, always pulled her around to play heartlessly......

In my dream, I didn't know that I was a guest, and I was greedy for joy.

The next day, Tang Xiao woke up from her sleep, raised her eyes and saw the electronic clock on the wall showing the words 10:00, and a strange feeling crossed her heart—was it so late? Why didn't Xiaoru wake her up?

She hurriedly turned her head, only to find that the other half of the bed was empty.

Sweeping his gaze to the bedside table, the place where Ji Xiaoru's bag should have been placed was also empty.

Tang Xiao's heart chuckled and he sat up from the bed suddenly.

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