His wife is depressed and very tired, He Sicheng knows that as a wife, mother, daughter, and president, Zhao Jiayi's pressure does not only come from the family, and they have just finished the half-year work meeting today, needless to say, the work goals for the second half of the year will definitely be determined at the meeting. Zhao Jiayi is very strong at work, as the head of an agency, these work goals must be like a mountain pressing on the heart of his weak wife at this moment. The predicament in the first half of the year has not yet been rested, the horn of the charge in the second half of the year has been sounded, life can not tolerate the slightest hypocrisy, only in the world of Daoming Temple in "Meteor Garden" can life be all you and me! He Sicheng has worked in financial state-owned enterprises for more than 10 years, the competition of modern financial enterprises is fierce and cruel, behind the glamorous industry image is actually a bitter life that wants to cry without tears, and only those who have come can experience it!

He Sicheng felt very sorry for his wife and wanted to go over and hug her, but he felt that he was very useless, and he couldn't share his wife's worries and sorrows, but instead tortured her, so he had to say to his wife: "You are also tired, go to bed early, I won't go to work tomorrow, and when you get off work, we will go to your parents' place for dinner." "Okay, you go to bed early, and talk about something tomorrow!"

He Sicheng finished washing up and walked into his bedroom, lying on the bed physically and mentally exhausted. Simmons who had not been seen for a long time was more comfortable lying on than a bed made of particleboard, but this comfort did not increase He Sicheng's sleepiness, his heart was very chaotic, and the difficult journey without a return trip had just begun, what would happen tomorrow? First of all, I have to prove to myself that I have repentance, I will make amends, and I will return to my normal life as soon as possible!

He Sicheng knew that he would not be able to sleep peacefully tonight without the assistance of medicine, so he got up and poured a glass of water and put it on the bedside table, looking for medicine from the drawer of the bedside table. A long time ago, He Sicheng had symptoms of insomnia, but it was not too serious, usually fine, doing exercises before going to bed, drinking some milk, reading books, and always being able to send himself to sleep, although the quality of sleep was not high, it would not affect the next day's work and life. But when the work pressure is high, He Sicheng will not be able to sleep for several nights in a row, and the next day he will appear sluggish and unresponsive, not only will his work efficiency drop significantly, but his temper will also become very bad, so that he will quarrel with his wife because of a trivial matter. Later, He Sicheng saw a report that long-term insomnia was an important cause of depression, which made him very nervous. On April 1, 2003, Leslie Cheung's suicide by jumping off a building made the shocked He Sicheng hear about the disease "depression" for the first time, and later celebrities committed suicide because of depression, which made the public gradually pay attention to the disease of depression. He Sicheng also mentioned a set of statistics in the report he read: 280,000 people commit suicide every year in China, and 40 percent of them suffer from depression! By 2017, the number of depressed patients in China has reached 90 million, and the rate of depression in China is less than 10%, because most of the abnormal behavior of depressed patients is considered by others or themselves to be hypocritical or not strong enough.

At the beginning of 2018, I got news from the WeChat circle of friends that one of He Sicheng's college brothers died in Beijing because of long-term depression, and this brother was only one year older than him, which made He Sicheng more concerned and afraid of depression in addition to being shocked. So when he saw that long-term insomnia could lead to depression, He Sicheng immediately went to the hospital to prescribe diazepam tablets, the hospital was very cautious in prescribing these drugs, only 12 tablets at a time, and he could take them for many days at a time, He Sicheng did not dare to take them often, he was afraid of dependence. Later, the careful wife learned about the side effects of sleeping pills and did not allow He Sicheng to take diazepam tablets anymore, so she bought melatonin tablets imported from the United States online to use them when he didn't sleep well. Of course, melatonin tablets are obviously not as effective as Valium tablets, but they can also help people fall asleep.

He Sicheng took out melatonin tablets, thought about it and put it down, found a diazepam tablet and swallowed it in one bite, he really needed a deep sleep! He Sicheng turned off his mobile phone and fell asleep, he was very depressed, he forced himself not to think too much, adjusted his breathing, meditated on all kinds of interesting things about his daughter when she was a child, and finally fell asleep!

He Sicheng woke up at half past nine in the morning, he hadn't slept for such a long time for a long time, he felt much better, but his body was still very tired. He got up and walked out of the bedroom, where his wife had already gone to work. He Sicheng poured a glass of water, sat on the sofa, opened his mobile phone and looked at the calendar, thinking about how to start a new life.

After washing, He Sicheng cooked a bowl of noodles by himself, and felt that the taste was quite good, and he ate it cleanly. He Sicheng is a good cook, and he will show his hands to his family when he is interested on the weekend, but later he is greedy for fun, and the opportunities to cook are getting fewer and fewer.

Just after breakfast, He Sicheng's phone rang, he picked up the phone and saw that it was his mother calling, and his heart instantly became sad, his mother lived in another county in L City, He Sicheng and his family went to see their parents once a month, the two old people are in their seventies, and they are in good health, so they don't have to worry about He Sicheng. On the contrary, in the hearts of the two old men, He Sicheng will always be a child who will not grow up, and he is always worried about everything. Mother must have known something when she called at this time, He Sicheng felt that since the accident, he had been the poor, ridiculous thief who covered his ears and stole the bell, and he was lucky to think that others did not hear the sound of stealing the bell, in fact, the sound should be heard, and everyone should not hear it.

Connected to the phone, there was a familiar voice from my mother on the other end of the phone: "Mi'er, are you in good health?" "Mom, I'm in good health, don't worry, you and Dad have to take care of themselves and keep exercising." Don't worry about me at work, you can't worry about it if you want to, as long as you and your father are healthy, it will be the greatest support for me. "Your father and I are both in good health and in good spirits, you don't have to worry about it, Jiayi, you two are fine, right?" "I and Jiayi are very good, and we went to the movies yesterday." Coco misses you very much, and in two days of vacation, you and Dad come to stay for a while. In order to reassure his mother about his relationship with his wife, He Sicheng had no choice but to tell a white lie to his mother!

"Okay, okay, you're not a big one, take care of yourself, don't let us worry. "Don't worry, when Coco has a holiday, Jia Yi and I will pick you both up." "Okay, hang up!" "Okay, hang up, Mom." ”

During the call, his mother's voice trembled a little, He Sicheng knew that it was because his mother was holding back worry, sadness and blame, He Sicheng also knew that his mother actually had a lot of questions to ask herself, but from beginning to end, her mother only asked whether she was healthy and whether the two of them had quarreled, and did not mention a word about detention, no matter how uncomfortable she was in her heart, she was still helping her son maintain her son's self-esteem! What a pity for the hearts of parents in the world! In a person's life, the most important person is nothing more than the person who gave birth to you. The people born to you and the people born to you, relatives and lovers are the sustenance of our lives in the world, the hope of life, we all understand these truths, and we always inadvertently hurt these people, is it because these people are particularly concerned about us? Or because we know that they will forgive us? In the final analysis, we still lack reverence for family affection, and we don't know that the waste of family affection is the greatest luxury in life!