Ji Muqing took my hand, her brows furrowed, and she was very uneasy, "Zhao Suo, I'm ...... I don't want you to go on an adventure. ”

Miao Zheng, who had not spoken, suddenly interjected, "Miss Ji, don't worry, with this kid's intelligence and witty reaction, he will definitely be fine." ”

Ji Muqing glanced at Miao Zheng with a sad and complaining obstacle, and the old Miaozheng who was looking at it blushed and scratched his head embarrassedly, "In this case, you talk, let's go to the side and take a look at the scenery first." ”

Several people left one after another, leaving the space for us.

I took Ji Muqing's hand and sat down on the deck, "Xiaoqing, I know what you're afraid of, don't worry, my life is big, Lord Yama won't be so easy to invite me away." ”

"You always say that. Ji Muqing sighed deeply, "In the past, no matter what decision you made, I was on your side to support you, but this time, I want to hold on for myself." Zhao Suo, I'm really scared this time......"

"I know, I know. I pulled her into my arms and hugged her tightly, "Then if I tell you that what I have experienced before is a thousand times more terrible than what I have encountered now, but I have survived, will you still be so afraid?"

Ji Muqing looked at me with wide eyes, as if she felt incredible.

In the past, I rarely told her, first, because I didn't want to reminisce, because I was afraid that my heart would be uncomfortable, and secondly, I didn't want to indulge in the past years, I wanted to come out and move on.

If you don't think about it, it doesn't mean that you don't really think about it, some things exist in the subconscious, many nights, I will dream that my comrades are back, dream of the days when we train together and drink together.

Many times I woke up, the corners of my eyes were moist and my eye sockets were sour.

It's just that I never told Ji Muqing about these things.

And at this moment, I suddenly wanted to say it, I don't know why, I just wanted to say it.

That battle about the fate of ten of us will never be erased in my life.

I sighed and said, "There are only ten of us, and there are 30,000 on the other side, 30,000 to ten, what do you think we can do?"

However, we just gritted our teeth and persevered, and we killed half of the enemy's numbers, don't you feel incredible?

But at that time, in our opinion, this number was less than our budget, and we expected to kill 20,000 of them directly.

10 against 20,000, this is definitely a miracle moment in history.

The remaining more than 10,000 people fought with us with blood, and we fought and fought with them with the only weapons in our hands, and all night, the screaming never stopped, and the sound of blood never stopped, and even the snakes, insects, rats and ants in the jungle were frightened and did not dare to come out.

That night the sky was red, the moon was red, the stars were red, and even the leaves were red......

Everyone is dyed red with blood, and you can't see where the eyes, where the mouth, and where the nose are.

By dawn, there were only a few dozen people left on the other side, dozens of them, that is, we killed nearly 10,000 people on the other side with our bare hands in one night.

What kind of concept is that, each of them can drown us with a spit of spit, but we kill us.

We didn't feel tired at all, on the contrary, we were full of energy and thought about killing all the rest of us.

At this point, I couldn't help but bow my head, because my wrong command had killed them.

It took me a long time to adjust and ease, but I still felt like I had pressed a stone.

Ji Muqing knew that I was very uncomfortable, and took my hand affectionately, "Don't say it, I know, I know it." ”

I shook my head slightly, "No, I want to say, for the past three years, I have been running away and not daring to face it, I thought that I would feel a little better in this way, but in fact it is not at all." ”

"It's very uncomfortable, every time I think about it, it makes me feel better for a while, but at the same time, it also makes me lose the opportunity to miss them. There are some things that I have to face when I should face them, and it's my fault, it's my fault. ”

"I don't want to be deprived of even the right to miss them because of my cowardice and incompetence. ”

"Zhao Suo, don't push yourself so much. Ji Muqing looked at me worriedly and said.

I met her gaze and said in a very firm tone, "People, sometimes you just have to push yourself, if you don't push it, you will never be able to cross that hurdle." Don't worry, since I have dared to say it, I am mentally prepared enough to bear all this. ”

"At that time, we had an absolute advantage, and as long as we pursued it relentlessly, the enemy would never have a chance of survival. But what I thought at the time was that capturing them alive was not because I wanted to make a greater contribution, but because those people were of high use to us. ”

They obeyed my arrangement, copied from all sides, and prepared to take those people in a nest.

We thought they were unarmed, we thought they were all a flock of lambs on the sidelines, and we all let our guard down, until, suddenly* sounded, I realized that they were not without weapons, but were fighting to the death.

* Explosion, one of my comrades-in-arms, was blown to pulp on the spot.

The shock to me at that moment was so great that my mind seemed to go blank and I had no memory left.

Then, something unexpected happened, and I ...... Berserk.

I can't remember anything about that memory, I just know that when I came to my senses, there were corpses all over the ground, both enemies and my comrades. And my hands are full of blood......

I lowered my head to ease myself.

Ji Muqing hugged my arm tightly and wanted to comfort me.

After a moment of relaxation, I raised my head, took a deep breath, and continued, "I don't know how my comrades died, and I don't know how those enemies died, but I always have a feeling that their deaths are all related to me. ”

"For the first two years after leaving the army, I didn't dare to contact anyone because I was afraid that I would suddenly go crazy and cause harm to others. I even thought that it would be better to die than to live like this. However, whenever I have such thoughts, the smiling faces of those possessors keep flashing in my mind. ”

"Are they reminding me not to do stupid things? I don't know, I can't figure it out. ”

"Don't say it, really don't say it. Ji Muqing knelt on the ground and hugged me tightly, "Those things are over, don't think about it anymore, live your life well." ”

I took Ji Muqing's hand and stared at her face, "Xiaoqing, thank you for your companionship over the past year, thank you very much, you have made me experience the life of a normal person." ”

"What do you mean by talking?" Ji Muqing looked at me uneasily, "Are you saying goodbye to me?" I don't want to listen, I don't want to listen......

I smiled and reached out to scratch her nose, "No, I just want to say what is in my heart." I've survived such difficult days, and I won't pay attention to this little difficulty in front of me. ”

"I say so much just to tell you, don't worry about me, I may be beaten by iron, I bring my own golden bell hood iron cloth shirt, and no one can take me away. As for you, just take care of yourself and don't let me worry about you. ”

Anxious Muqing threw herself into my arms, and whined, "Zhao Suo, I suddenly feel that I am so useless, I can't help you with anything, every time you are in danger, I can only watch, I can only pray for you in my heart." I...... I'm really useless. ”

"Silly girl, don't say that, you can be by my side, it's the best help for me. I gently stroked her long, silky hair.

Ji Muqing raised her head suddenly, looked at me firmly and said, "No, I don't want to be the woman behind you, I want to live and die with you." I'm good at water, and this time, let me help you. ”

"What a joke. I subconsciously refused, "This is definitely not going to work, don't even think about it." ”

"Why?" Ji Muqing walked around in front of me and asked very stubbornly, "Do you look down on me and women? Do you know that you are discriminating against women?"

"You know, I don't think like that at all, I'm just worried about you, I don't want you to be in the slightest danger. "I tell you the truth.

Ji Muqing nodded, "Okay, I swear, I promise you, I will take care of myself, I won't let you be distracted, and I won't let you worry about me, that's all right?"

I still shook my head, "No, I can't do it." ”

Ji Muqing simply stopped begging me, "This is my own business, and I have the right to decide freely, you can't control me." Whether you disagree or agree, I've decided that. ”

After speaking, he stood up and left.

I hurriedly chased after him, "Xiao Qing, don't be willful." ”

"I'm not willful. Ji Muqing looked at me, very serious, I could see that she was serious, "Zhao Suo, I want to be the woman who can accompany you for a lifetime, not the woman who will only hide behind you every time you encounter danger." ”

"I want others to see me at the same time as you, not every time you introduce someone else, this is my Zhao Suo's girlfriend. What I want is an identity that will always be associated with you, you...... Do you understand?" Ji Muqing was very excited and nervous, and she estimated that she couldn't remember what she said.

I saw it clearly, listened to it clearly, and really felt her strong love.

A person is willing to live and die with you, this is your blessing, and you have nothing to be satisfied with.

But I'm also selfish, I want to make this love last a little longer, I want to be next to her forever, so I want to protect her selfishly.

I took her into my arms and murmured, "I know, I know everything." ”

When Ji Muqing was defenseless, my hand fell to the back of her neck and tapped her acupoint.