Section XXXVIII
He Sicheng's new life began, lonely, lonely, depressed, depressed, he didn't adapt at all, but he had to adapt, life has no goal and meaning for him, and all the persistence is only related to unfulfilled responsibilities.
He Sicheng gets up to work and sleeps after work every day, the days are torment for him, and what is even more terrifying is that this torment does not seem to end in the slightest.
He Sicheng tries hard to forget the pain of divorce, but this pain always comes more and more intense when the crowd is busy or in the dead of night!
He Sicheng doesn't want to tell anyone about his divorce, including his relatives, one divorce is disgraceful and hurts dignity, and the other is that the news of divorce is nothing more than sad tears of relatives, useless sympathy from friends, all comfort is just warm nonsense, of course, more is ridicule and ridicule from others, why let your misfortune become someone else's talking point?
He Sicheng forced a smile every day, pretended to be strong, and insisted on letting others see his seemingly normal life, but everything was just to cover up, and gradually friends and colleagues with better relationships would directly ask He Sicheng if he was divorced
"The three views do not agree". Most people don't believe in the fact that He Sicheng is divorced, they really can't put it
The word "divorce" is associated with the loving couple they usually see. Mother and sister also called, they were painful and worried, the pain was that He Sicheng ended up with a wife separated when he reached middle age, and he was worried about how He Sicheng should spend the second half of his life?
The tears of the relatives can't change any facts, He Sicheng can only comfort them that he will live his life well, and the sky will not fall, but in fact, he knows in his heart: his sky has fallen!
originally thought that divorce was a matter of two people, but now it seems that it is not so simple, the divorce completely disrupted He Sicheng and Zhao Jiayi's relatives and circle of friends, and also changed their original common living habits.
Kind care and unkind inquiry made He Sicheng more vulnerable and sensitive, he was reluctant to participate in the gatherings of relatives and friends, he was afraid of laughter and excitement, because he would always suddenly be lonely when the atmosphere was at its hottest.
He was afraid of passing by the place he had been to with Zhao Jiayi, because he always inadvertently remembered the past, and the pain of things and people could suffocate people.
He is afraid of the arrival of dawn and the coming of night, when the day is dawn, he has to face the tasteless life, when it is dark, he has to face the sleepless night, any kind of torture!
Two days before the start of school, her daughter Coco came home from summer camp, Bing Xue was smart and she immediately felt the change in her family and became sullen, He Sicheng and Zhao Jia talked on the phone, and they had to tell their beloved daughter the cruel fact that her parents had divorced.
Many emotional experts said that the biggest harm of divorce to children is that the child will feel that one of his parents no longer loves him, and the child will think that he has been abandoned by the person he loves and believes in, so He Sicheng wants to do his best to express to Coco: Mom and Dad love her very much, but there is a problem with the relationship between Mom and Dad, this is an adult matter that has nothing to do with her, no matter what happens, her parents' love for her has not changed, and Mom and Dad will always be her closest people!
But can my daughter accept it? But what can she do if she doesn't? If she continues to hide it, it will only bring more harm!
It's a weekend, Zhao Jia brings Cocoa out, and He Sicheng orders a meal at Coco's original favorite steakhouse, and they will have a most unwarm conversation at the cozy steakhouse.
He Sicheng arrived at the steak restaurant early and waited for the arrival of the two most important women in his life, he stared at the door of the steak restaurant without blinking, just after twelve o'clock, Zhao Jiayi and his daughter walked in, the daughter was already taller than her mother, and the two beautiful women walked towards He Sicheng, He Sicheng looked at this scenery that once belonged only to him, and his eyes were moist.
Coco saw He Sicheng yelling at his father and running towards him, He Sicheng stood up and hugged his daughter, and suddenly burst with happiness!
Zhao Jiayi walked to them and sat down, nodding to He Sicheng with a melancholy expression, He Sicheng turned to the waiter to arrange for the waiter to serve the food, thinking that no matter what, he would accompany his baby daughter to have a good meal first.
After all, it is a child, Coco excitedly chatted with He Sicheng about the interesting things that happened in the summer camp and the feelings and plans for the new semester, He Sicheng and Zhao Jiayi listened quietly, teaching and encouraging the children from time to time, the atmosphere is so harmonious and happy, no one will believe that this is a family that has fallen apart!
He Sicheng didn't want to spoil this atmosphere, but he had to complete today's task. Seeing that Coco was almost finished, He Sicheng cleared his throat with difficulty and looked at Coco and said, "Baby, Mom and Dad are going to talk to you about something today, you are also an adult, and Dad hopes you can accept it." ”
"You're getting divorced from your mother, aren't you?" the daughter asked suddenly. He Sicheng and Zhao Jia glanced at each other, and they were both stunned!
"How did you guess?"
"How could you not guess it, you haven't been home to eat since I came back, and then my grandfather has a gloomy face every day, my grandmother cries behind my back and cries on my back, my eyes are red every day, my mother is sullen, and I always wander when I talk to me, I'm not a child anymore, anyway, I think it's not normal between you and my mother, but it's not true that my parents are true, right?" I have to admire the insight of today's children, and I have to admit that today's children are really precocious!
He Sicheng's heart was very painful, because of his own reasons, he was going to hurt the person he loved again, he looked at his daughter affectionately and said: "Keke, you heard from Dad, Dad and Mom are indeed going to divorce because of Mom and Dad, but our decision to separate has nothing to do with you, not because of you, this is a joint decision of Mom and Dad, you must know that sometimes people who love each other will no longer love each other!" But we love you as always, our love for you will not change because of our divorce, you are still the most distressed baby of your parents, we will accompany you to continue to grow up, only until we grow old!", Zhao Jiayi held back her tears and didn't let it fall, and gently stroked Coco's head with her hand, Coco turned to look at Zhao Jiayi and asked, "Mom, is what Dad said true?"
"Coco, what Dad said is true, Mom and Dad are going to separate because of each other's feelings, but as Dad said, you are still our baby, the only baby, but maybe Dad and our lifestyle will change slightly, Mom hopes you don't have any psychological burden. Coco was silent for a long time, He Sicheng felt that a century had passed, and Coco said: "You have already decided, what can I do?" The strong Coco still cried, she stood up and said, "Mom, I want to go home." Dad, you have to take care of yourself and remember to come to see me often. After saying that, he didn't walk out, Zhao Jiayi hurriedly got up and said to He Sicheng, "I'm leaving." So he chased after Coco.
Although I took the most difficult step today and talked openly and honestly about the divorce with my daughter, I don't know how much damage the divorce will bring to my daughter, and I can only make up for it with more love in the days to come!
He Sicheng sat alone in the restaurant for a long time, a kind of sadness enveloped him, he really didn't know what the meaning of his life was?