Almost five years have passed, and gradually my heart can take a break between the pain, and when I can't do anything, I slowly begin to see and let go of the pain that I can't let go, and try to find the warmth and happiness that belong to me for the rest of my life. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

God has not abandoned me, and is still secretly caring for the beautiful me, although I have gone through hardships and human affection, I am still kind and simple myself, and I have a heart to live up to it.

In a blink of an eye, I have gone through four and a half years in the whirlpool of pain, from the original life is not as good as death to the current indifference, my sanity has returned to most of it, my lost soul is slowly coming back, people are no longer walking dead, in these painful days I have not given up the brilliance of life with half a life, I am still trying to move forward, I can't let my life be wasted, otherwise how can I be worthy of everyone who loves me deeply? How can I be worthy of my once perfect love? How can I let my lover look at my decadence? How can I make him worry and upset? My pain is enough.

Yesterday, when I saw the outpatient webpage you opened on the Internet, I didn't know which student's message of "Teacher, the student misses you!" made me burst into tears. This life may not be able to dilute the pain of losing you, and I still have to start a new life in this pain.

From the day I met you, I decided that this life should be spent together, and I will never be disappointed, and you who said that you would grow old together left me alone, leaving me alone, and letting me face life without you alone, no one knows how cruel it is. I'm going to not abandon myself in this situation, I know you'll be even more distressed, I'm trying to survive, almost five years have been spent in my struggles and falls, and finally I haven't lost myself after nine deaths.

I am not reconciled! I am not willing to spend this life in pain like this, and I want to find someone to replace me, to love me, to care for me, to spoil me, to condone my willfulness and my clumsiness and simplicity instead of you.

He appeared, the little flame burning in his eyes, the same love and attachment as you, I could feel it. In the past few days, I have been determined to follow in his footsteps and move forward hand in hand, just as I did with you without hesitation.

Wouldn't I be able to alleviate the pain a little bit?

Thank God for not disappointing me all my life, I will cherish and be grateful, good.