Chapter 146 Late Night Metamorphosis

1.

On Sunday, Spring still didn't come home, two bottles of liquor and a bunch of snacks accompanied him through a day of indecision, dilemma, foresight and hesitation.

In the spring, I first made a self-analysis of myself, from my initial life goals and pursuits, to filling in the college entrance examination volunteers, from helpless graduation assignments, to stepping into the officialdom of education involuntarily.

It is undeniable that in the beginning, education was by no means the goal of life pursued by Spring's heart. However, poverty made this helpless peasant child reluctantly embark on the path of education. When everything became an established fact, the spring did not hesitate, did not waste and did not give up on himself, but devoted himself to the work of teaching and educating people with full enthusiasm and without regrets.

Although he once had the idea of getting ahead in the official field of education in Toyama, he can be sure that this idea of his own has nothing to do with fame and fortune, and he simply wants to add glory to his parents' faces and realize his ambition to contribute to the education of his hometown.

However, life is not a big joke with Spring, and Spring really doesn't want to believe that the principal, who was once regarded as amiable and respectable in his heart and always represents the system and justice, would engage in such a dirty act behind his back.

After experiencing deception and hurt, Spring doesn't know if he can still maintain his trust in others and enthusiasm for his work.

Last night, Liu Xuwei's words made the spring gain a lot of knowledge, but it also gave the spring who is not deeply involved in the world and simple human nature a big problem, the spring is not afraid of sweating at work, and it can also be paid regardless of the remuneration, but the spring can't tolerate others fooling him, Feng Shu in the same village has already fooled himself once, and now it's Zhao Zhiqiang, who holds the power of life and death in Hushan education.

In the spring heart, the little gratitude to Zhao Zhiqiang has disappeared with the emergence of the truth of the matter.

In the spring, I don't know whether I should fight up, or do I give up on myself and confuse my life? Or do I send love and poetry, calligraphy and painting, build a barrier in my heart, and live alone in the worldly peach orchard?

All of these make the spring feel lost when it is not deep.

2.

As the eldest son in the family, he should support them for a while, and in the eyes of his family, he is now the pillar and backbone of this family! If his own struggle annoys Zhao Zhiqiang, what will be the end? Will he be sent to a place like the Chegou Primary School? In that way, it is not only himself who will be harmed, but also his parents and relatives. These are the moods and scenes that spring dare not imagine, and the parents who have always been proud of themselves hide their faces and cry.

Spring thought of the students in the class again, and the eyes that were eager to learn once pierced Spring's heart deeply. Can you really bear to give up on these lovely children, and can you really use your own self-abandonment to perfunctory these students?

There are also students in their own art classes who have achieved initial results in their professional classes, without their own guidance, how far can they go on the road of art?

Spring drank wine and thought bitterly.

It was slowly getting dark, and the teachers in the single dormitory area had already returned to school one after another.

At this time, in the spring, he was lying in bed and fell asleep.

3．

At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, Spring woke up with urine, got up and put on his clothes and went to the toilet.

The silent campus was shrouded in the endless night, the sky was overcast, as if it was going to rain, and a few street lamps glowed dimly in the darkness, illuminating the way forward in spring.

Looking at the street lamps in the dark night, the spring suddenly seemed to understand something, perhaps, in the eyes of the family and students, they are a light in the night, illuminating the darkness for them, eliminating fear, and guiding the way forward.

Yes, you may be like this street lamp that emits a faint light in the dark, even if you can't completely eliminate the darkness of this world, you have to struggle to emit your own light in the dark, even if the light is very weak and small, you must do your best to help some people and warm some people's hearts...

In terms of work, life and life, as long as you have a clear conscience, why bother to care about other people's eyes and those vanity and profits?

In the middle of the night, a street lamp gave spring a lot of life inspiration, and his thinking underwent earth-shaking transformation.

In fact, every growth in life is a metamorphosis, the process of growth is to break the cocoon and turn into a butterfly, struggling to fade all the youth and ugliness, shaking light and beautiful wings in the sun, shining, slight, and happy trembling ...

Transformation is painful, with tears and failures, but it is also a vision and expectation for the future.

After the metamorphosis, the spring has become more mature, and he secretly vowed in his heart to abandon those things that make him unhappy and unpleasant, and from tomorrow, to be a new self, with his own love to care for his family and students.

4.

Back in the dormitory, Spring lit a cigarette, sat at the desk in his cloak, and wrote hard.

In the spring, it is necessary to make a detailed plan for the work of the school's Youth League Committee, the work of the grade department, the work of the class, and the work of counseling and going on to higher education for students in the third junior high school art class.

In the next few months, the teachers and students of the school will see their own changes, and see the changes that their efforts and dedication have brought to the education of Toyama Middle School.