Comrade Jia Yuhao:

It's spring again, it's been six years since you've been gone, and I'm counting the days every day, and I remember you leaving every moment. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Qingming Festival is coming again, it's time for me to see you. I want to see you all the time, but every time I try to avoid you. No matter how much time passes, I still can't stand the heart-rending pain of thinking about you.

But no matter how sad I am, I can't get you back.

I can't extricate myself from grief all the time, so I must always encourage myself to strive for self-improvement, work hard, and live up to life.

In the spring, I began to walk again to exercise, walk on the familiar park paths, and often think of the New Year's Day in 2009 when I started to hike to work, your encouragement and care. Now that things have long been wrong, only I am lonely, and the happiness that I couldn't help laughing at that time has been replaced by the pain that I can't overcome today.

Recently, you have appeared in my dreams every night, and they are all very ordinary life scenes, no longer endless rushes and difficulties, but a happy and peaceful life.

Are you asking me to see you?

It is said that the space of the soul has no boundaries, can you see us all the time? and I can't see you, and I'm sad.

I will go to see you every year, and although every time I will be broken, life is worse than death, and it will take a long time to bring back the soul that has been lost to you, but how can I bear to let you down? I would rather suffer more and suffer more pain while you can be happy.

Doudou has grown up and is very sensible, and he adapts well to school life, and he doesn't even take his dirty clothes home to wash them, but he washes them by hand before evening self-study. I also worked hard in my studies, and my grades were not bad. I went to Nanjing Xiaolong to play during the winter vacation, the two children got along very well, Xiaolong coaxed her, and she also relied on this brother. I went to Nanjing University of Technology to see the school, thinking about getting there, her current score is estimated to be a little worse, but it depends on her determination and hard work, with her intelligence as long as she works hard, it is completely possible.

I also encourage her a lot now, and rarely blame her. When the child grows up, he often makes some very wise jokes with me.

Your father's health is okay, Xiaolong went back for the New Year, I asked Xiaolong and said it was okay. This year, I want to do a good job of stocks, but it's uncomfortable to think about, I'm still avoiding doing things that I'm not familiar with, but what if I don't do it?

Oh, the four teams are building a house, I should be able to get one set, if I can sell the other one, I have a little more money, or I will rent out that set of decoration, it has been put for five or six years, and it is a waste.

Alas, I have been exposed from your sheltered wings to this harsh sky, from a child who does not care about the world to having to worry about everything and take care of everything by himself, and sometimes I really have more than enough to do.

I saw a sentence that day: God is fair to everyone, if you improve yourself, it's fine, if you don't improve, he will push you forward.

Maybe I'm the one who's been pushed forward.

I have a clear idea of Doudou's future arrangements, and the foundation of my life has been laid out, I just hope that she can find an excellent lover like you like me, and live a happy and healthy life.

I also often think that the result of our efforts is to give our child a better environment to grow up in and lay a basic foundation for her life. She no longer has to be as difficult and hard as we were when we were children. This may be the most meaningful thing for your short life.

I'm trying to finish "Spiritual Mongolian Plateau" as soon as possible, but I can't finish writing as I write. I also want to take the pharmacist qualification exam in October and get the certificate in hand, so that I don't let myself fall into sorrow with nothing to do, and I can also make my knowledge somewhat useful, and I can also earn more money part-time.

Although he has long been worry-free about food and clothing, he still feels that he can't be easy in the face of this life, and he must accumulate a little more wealth while he is young, and when he is old, he will have plenty of money and will not burden his children, and his life will not be passive.

Without you to help me hold up this sky, I had to stand up to the sky and the earth by myself. You are not mistaken, I have the ability to settle my crippled life without you and my own life, and I have the ability to take care of my children's future, you can rest assured.

Slowly I have become accustomed to the days without you, and I have to slowly get used to the days of being alone, the children will grow up soon, and the days away from home are gradually approaching, I want to keep myself busy, and I have no time to be sad. I also slowly adapted to this originally lonely life.

To live, people have to live as they are, and there is no reason to be an excuse for decadence.

Besides, I am not a person who is content with mediocrity and idleness, at that time it was your growth and the trivialities of life that made me slack off the pace of progress, and now, I am alone, although I am no longer the high-spirited youth and youth, but it is far from the time to recuperate, I still have the energy and time to work hard to realize the stranded ideal.

Cheer yourself up and cheer up, and you will gradually become positive.

You should be relieved to see that we can all live in peace, right?

Use your wisdom to teach Doudou more in the dark, and bless her with joy and peace in her life!

I'm going to see you on Qingming Festival.

XW

2016.3.8